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Quick note: Trigger warning! This is a very emotional chapter, and it's not for everybody. If you want to skip over this chapter and keep reading, it won't hinder you. Everything should still make sense, Jesus and Mariana just bond very severely in this chapter.

Jesus POV

"Mariana?" I rasped, my throat sore from vomiting.

"Yes" she responded while tying back up her hair, and finishing cleaning the floor of the living room.

"I'm sorry" I moaned sitting up, "I'm so sorry."

"What?" She question while walking over to the couch and sitting down beside me, "there's no need to be sorry. You're sick Jesus, sometimes you just have to throw up."

"Not for the mess" I said burying my eyes in the crook of my elbow, "I'm sorry for everything."

Mariana looked at me puzzled. "Everything? I don't under-"

"For us growing up the way we did! Mom being terrible, the skipping meals, not having Christmas, and always being scared, and and-!" I didn't have time to finish, because she wrapped me into a deep hug.

"Oh Jesus, you know I don't blame you for any of that. Not like it's your fault. It's just the way things were, if I was to be mad at anyone it would be Ana, and we've somewhat mended things with her."

"I should've done more" I argued, "I should've done so much more."

"Jesus you were five" she almost laughed, "you weren't supposed to fix anything. You didn't even know how to tie your shoes yet!"

"How much do you remember?" I questioned containing the seriousness.

She turned her head and sighed, "not all that much. I try not to, it just hurts when I do, nothing more."

"Do you remember Brian?" I asked calmly and almost in a nonchalant fashion, trying to get her true reaction.

Her face went pale and her eyes widened, "One of Ana's old boyfriends I think, but we were young, and she always had men coming in and out of the house. It's hard to pinpoint them each exactly" Her tone seem defensive, "but that's on the past, why don't I make you a smoothie or something, we need to get some nutrients back in your system."

I knew she was avoiding it, and I had to act quickly. I sat up completely, and as she turned to walk away I said, "I know what he did to you."

She stopped quickly, and turned. "He abused us both Jesus, of course your remember him beating me."

"He didn't just beat you Mariana! And you've been hiding from it for 10 years." I said firmly, my voice was shaking, but I knew I had to confront her with it now.

"You don't know what he did to me," she said calmly, "you'll never truly be able to understand."

"He touched you. Maybe he raped you, I don't know for sure cause I was never allowed in. But Mariana I wasn't blind, after the first night that it happened, you were scared of me. You were scared of all men and I had to teach you to trust me again! I might've been five, but I can vividly remember when my best friend was terrified in a way that I had never seen before!"

I yelled at her, not in anger, but in fluid emotion. With every word I said, it seems as if a brick of a wall had fallen down. And she didn't look broken, but exposed. With the last word I said, she fell on the floor in a heap of a motion, and sobbed. Sobbed with all her might, sobbed with every fiber of her being. Every cell of her body wept with her, and she was completely exposed. I mustered up the energy to almost crawled to her, and I held her tight my arms as she laid on the floor. We stayed like this for around half an hour, and I cried on off along with her.

"How did you know?" she said weekly, "I mean I didn't even know. I didn't know until it was actually happening, I didn't know it was bad until I felt so dirty afterwards."

"Because Mariana" I said softly, "you weren't alone."

Praise the Lord in heaven I finally updated! Guys, I'm going to give it to you straight. My life fell off a freaking Clift in these past few weeks. There might only be one or two more chapters in the story, I'm not for sure but stick with me. I hope you guys like this chapter, and I hope all of you have an amazing day. Stay beautiful!

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