sorry it took so long to update!! You know how men like to complain about stuff? (No offense to any men reading this) my boyfriend street races and has decided that he wants to ride horses. Well needless to say that now, 3 days later, i'm still hearing about how much his butt hurts!! Well heres the new Chapter!!
Chap 9- Difference
KPOV
"What?" he asked.
I looked down and the floor and drew in a shaky breath, "Do you want to spend the rest of eternity with Izzy or me? And Edward please don't lie to me. If you pick Izzy I will walk away and leave you two alone. If you pick me then I will stay. No matter what happens you'll still be someone I'll always hold very close. But please be honest. I would rather be your friend then the one that holds you back from what you really want."
I looked back up at Edward and say the confusion and indecision in his eyes then he turned his eyes to the wall.
EPOV
I stood there silent looking at the wall. I didn't know what to do. I stood there arguing with myself the looked back to Kat.
"Kat, I love you and I always will…. But I think you're right. We now have the option to have back what we lost. Just like you could see the way I reacted to Izzy, I saw the same response out of you. The look in your eyes said more then you are saying to me now. But if your answer to my next question is the same as mine then we have reached a verdict. If you could go back to Jeremy, with no regrets over what happened with us, would you do it?"
Kat looked at me shocked, then looked down at the floor and after a few tense moments whispered, "Yes."
She said what I knew she would say. In her position, if asked the same question, I would have said the same thing. In truth I loved Kat but only as friend whom I had a great connection with. I was so caught up in my thoughts that I jumped when she placed something in my hand.
Our engagement ring. My mothers ring.
I looked back to her. She just smiled and said, "You may need this later." She kissed me on the cheek and gave me a hug while whispering in my ear, "Thank you for everything you've done for me all these years, I'll never for get them or you."
I hugged her back. We released each other with a smile. She walked back down the hall into the studio room, leaving me alone in the hallway. My next obstacle was Izzy. She said that she wasn't in love with me anymore. So how do in convince her that I still…
"Edward?"
I turned around to see Izzy standing a few feet from me. I smiled.
"What are you doing out here?"
"Thinking." I said.
"About what?"
"Us." It was a simple but true answer.
"Edward you do realize that the odds of us getting back together are slim and none right?"
"Why? Bella, I'm still in love with you and I will never forgive myself for leavei…" I started before she cut me off.
"There's the reason why Edward. I'm not Bella, not anymore. She died when I was changed. I moved on with my life just like you told me to. (I know that was very cliche) I have a great job, if that's what you would call it, great friends, and an amazing family. I'm sorry but I'm not Bella. You don't even know me now. Lots of things about me have changed." She paused for a minute. "Do you remember a band called Evanescence? They were popular 70 years ago. One of their songs was called Breathe No More. One of the lines from the song was 'But I know the difference, Between myself and my reflection, I just can't help but to wonder, Which of us do you love?' When you told me you still loved me back in the meeting room that line came into my mind. You may say you're in love with me but in all actuality you're still in love with Bella. I may still look somewhat like her but I'm not."
I opened my mouth to protest when she cut me off again.
"And don't say that you do love me because you don't know me enough to. You don't know what I've done in the last 70 years. You don't know 'Izzy'. I'm sorry Edward but things aren't that easy. I'm not just going to change myself for you. I'm really sorry." With that she turned around and left.
My dead heart fell. Was there no chance of winning her heart back? What would I have to do to prove…
I was cut off again by a voice entering my head.
'You are never going to regain her trust Edward. Wait it is Edward isn't it?'
I turned around to see the source of the voice. Caleb.
"Yes it is Edward. What are you doing here?"
"I felt Izzy's stress. That's one of my powers; I can sense emotion and manipulate other people. Just like your brother."
"What do you mean I will never regain her trust?"
"I've known Izzy since I was 10 years old. (He has always called Bella, Izzy)I had moved away with my real parents when I was 14 though. It was really hard to tell Izzy goodbye. I was changed at the age of 16 when I was on my way home from a party. I swerved to miss a deer and ran into a tree head on. I was changed by my 'parents'. I decided that since I had forever now to do what I wanted I would track Izzy down and check on her. I searched for almost 3 years when I remembered that her dad lived in Forks, Washington but I didn't know exactly where. Then I remembered that Jacob, who I knew through Izzy, lived not far from where from where Izzy's dad lived. So I went and got the information from him. I was very surprised that he was a werewolf but remembering who I was, and knowing that I wouldn't hurt Izzy, he took me to her. It was only about 2 months after you left. She was really depressed. Believe it or not, when she saw me she walked right up to me, slapped me, and the began to cry saying how much she had missed me. It was so awful seeing her upset over you. She talked about what happened and she cried.
"I remembered when she was younger her and I used to play together all the time. She wasn't such a danger magnet back then. What was really funny was that a friend of Renee's owned horses. Izzy would go over and ride all the time. It was amazing that a girl, who could not walk over a flat service sober without tripping, had complete control over a 1200-pound animal. She was really good at riding and loved it. I remember her showing a horse; Bandit was his name, the year before I left. It was her seventh and last show. She was barrel racing and after turning the last barrel Bandit tripped and fell, trapping Izzy beneath him. She walked away with some cuts and bruises but Renee wouldn't let her ride again. She had always told me that riding gave her that sense of control over something. That riding made her feel free. When it was time for me to move away we were both really upset. We kept in touch for the first year then we stopped. So to see her so distort and upset was hard. I remembered that she loved riding and I knew a family friend had horses so I began taking her over and going on trail rides with her. I noticed that she began to open up more. We did everything together.
"She was changed on June 11th 2007. It took me almost 7 years to get the old Izzy back. For those 5 years I could tell she was depressed but she hid it. It got worse about the 5 year mark do to some complications in her life. But after 7 long years she became the Izzy I knew again, minus the tripping. She was so emotionally damaged by what you did that she doesn't let anyone, besides her 'kids', as close to her as she let you."
I was shocked. Had I really caused that much damage? What shocked me the most was what he said about her 5-year mark. "What did you mean by it got worse do to some 'complications' in her life?"
Caleb looked at and I could see a glint of jealousy and hatred in his eyes. "Why don't you go ask her? I'm meeting up with some of the others boys in our group. Can you tell Izzy I'll give her a call later?"
I nodded my head as he walked away. Then I heard his voice again.
'Be careful Edward. If you hurt Izzy again, in anyway, you will regret it.'
I stood there for a moment shocked. Did he just threaten me?
I shook it off and went off to look for Izzy. I wanted an answer to what happened in the years after I left.
So what did u think?? Sorry if Izzy turned a little OOC. nobody really knows what kind of past she had and i know how free riding horses can make you feel so i just added it in. Well PLEASE REVIEW!!