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I heard a knock on my door, disturbing my thoughts.
"Janelle?"Ellie called.
"Yes?"
She came in and sat beside me.
"Janelle are you sure you're okay?"
"I'm fine."I told her.
"Well if you're fine, then why don't you go outside and have some fun."
"No thanks."
"Janelle,"she said again,"is this all because of a dream?"I didn't answer. She couldn't know the truth.
"Janelle-"
"I'm going on a walk,"I said abruptly. I left the room and progressed quickly down the stairs,then left the house. I wasn't sure where i was planning to go so I just walked along our songs played inside my mind,
"I used to be love drunk
But now i'm hungover
I love you forever
But now it's over....."
"Cause' i don't know
who I am
who i am
without you
All I know is that i should,
and she will love you
more than i could
she who dares to
stand where I've stood,"
This wasn't the first time that thought had crossed my mind,what if he did get with someone else.I couldn't let myself think like I switched to another song, Alive
"Say that I'm the only one
Say that I'm your number one
Now you're gone and i don't know
Tell me where did we go wrong
You were my best friend and boyfriend
Now it seems like yoour my worst friend
I gotta do soul searchin'
Without you I'm a whole new person
I aint actin' like i used to
I don't feel love like I used to
it was your love I was used to
why did i have to loose,
your love, your love,your love
youe love is what it was
that had me going buzz
you are my true love,"
At that point I lost it again, I sat down and began crying my sobbing I heard something else, the rest of the song.
"I've got so much love,
For you darling
and I
I wanna let you know how I feel,
cause it's true
that I love you and It's true your the only one
and I do
I adore you
you make me feel ali-i-i-ive
you make me feel ali-i-i-ive" It couldn't be, but I was sure it was. I was hearing Tanner. I decided to test it,I played a different song but i was sure I had to be just hearing things,
"If we could party all night
and sleep all day...."I waited,
"and throw all of my problems away
my life would be easy.."It really was him it just had to be. I was up now, and running, the closer I got the louder the song would be.I satarted another song,
"I've been, thinkin', about you,
And how we used to be then,
Back when, it didn't have to live, we could start again
now the words had a sort of echo to them, conjoined thoughts, two different minds, one song.
There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you, then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time, let's make new memories
the song was growing louder,I saw a turn up ahead and I was sure he was right around that corner
Do you remember, Do you remember ,Do you remember
All of the times we had
almost there......
Do you remember, Do you remember ,Do you remember
All of the times we had,"I turned the corner expecting to see him there, but he wasn't. At first i counldn't see in the dim night lighting. Then I made out the form of person down the was a kid, no more then ten years walked closer, so did I.
"Hello?"I said, he was close enough to see now,"I-um, I'm sorry, I thought you were someone else." The boy was looking at me with utmost about ten seconds,he looked up into my eyes.
"J-Janelle?"he asked.I gasped.
'Tanner?""I nodded."Tanner."I repeated.I bent down and got a better look of his face.it was him.I put my hand on his cheek, and he put his over it.I looked deeply into his eyes, his beutiful aqua eyes.
Pulling him close I wrapped my arms around was hard to believe that this little kid, was my Tanner, but how could I not?I pulled back and asked
"What happend?"He looked at me, and I saw the forteen year old he was, inside that gaze.
"I'm not sure, I woke up here and I was like this,"he looked at himself with disgust,"apprently I'm a nine year old, it's aweful I'm nine!"
"Hey, you look fine to me."
"You're just saying that."
"Maybe,"I joked,"but it's just so good to see you, I didn't think I ever would...."I stopped and changed the subject,"so you remember everything?"
"I remember it all, down to every last detail."he stared into my eyes again,"but I never remembered you looking so beutiful."I wasn't sure what to say to that, but I managed to stutter,
"So...uh-I um- well....do you, well, do you still......"
"Do I still love you?"he finished,"Yes I absolutely do."Once again I wasn't sure what to say. I'd always known he still loved me, but it was just a shock to hear him say came without warning.
"Sorry,"he told me,"I get can't love a nine year old." What was he saying?!
"No, no I just-"
"It's okay, I understand."Then he bagan to turn away.I couldn't believe this,how could he think that?!
I knew there was only one way to prove I still loved him, so I wrapped one arm around his shoulder and another around his I kissed him.
I know what someone would have thought about this, because I was thinking the same thing,Oh my gosh you're a couger you're kissing a nine year old kid!Alright it was an insane move, but somehow I knew it was the only first he didn't react, but then he kissed back. At least that was one thing that hadn't cahanged, I still felt the same way about him that I did before.
Sometimes random music can ruin moments, but nothing could ruin this.
"Scar tissue that I wish you saw
Sarcastic mister know it all
Close your eyes and I'll kiss you coz
with the birds I'll share
With the birds I'll share this lonely view and
With the birds I'll share this lonely view and
With the birds I'll share this lonely view"
Yes very that didn't ruin the moment one bit.
Yet half of me was freaking out because I was actually makeing out with a kid four years younger than me. The other half argued that technically he was fourteen and I'd kissed him way it was the most spectacular, amazing, passionate, confuseing moment of my entire i was absolutely possitive there wouldn't ever be another one like it.
Of course everything has to end and pretty soon we both pulled away.I stood up and looked at him. He had quite a very unreadable expression on his face that I'd seen 's what he looked like when he was deep in thought.
"Sorry,"I said after several moments of silence,"was that weired."
"No,no, that was...okay."I wasn't sure what he meant by okay, but I didn't have time to think it over because Tanner suddenly swore loudly.
"What?"I asked
"My parents!they're going top be wondering where I am now."
"Do you think we should tell them?"
"What, like about everything?Would they believe us?"
"If we're telling the truth they have to."
"Alright, I guess so. I don't think we could keep a secret like that anyway."I pulled out me phone and dialed Ellie's number.
"What's your address?"I asked him.
"9674 Cypress Road."He told phone began to ring as we made our way to his picked up on the second ring,
"Janelle?"she qustioned.
"Hey,"I said,"listen can you meet me at 9674 Cypress Road?"
"Yes but why?"
"I'll explain okay, bye."
"But-"I hung up, cutting her now we were on front porch of Tanner's held one hand on the doorknob the other holding mine.
"Are you ready?"he asked.
"As I'll ever be."I told him, slowly he opened the door.