Chapter 10 – Confused and Alone

R POV

The feeling was overpowering me now, I didn't want to taste the blood anymore, I needed to. I couldn't take my eyes off of my father, my mother had left the room so I was alone with him, I went over and knelt beside him, the scent of the blood so much stronger now, my throat was on fire, I couldn't take it anymore, I needed to taste it. My father grabbed my hand then and looked me in the eye before speaking to me, "Nessie, listen to me sweetheart, you're stronger than this, you're my baby girl, go to Carlisle Cullen, he knows what's happening to you" he paused for a moment to catch his breath then before continuing "he knows your mother and father too"

"My mother's dead" I replied, he must have lost a lot of blood if he thought she was alive. The blood, I still wanted it. "She's not dead," he said to me so certain "please Nessie"

"Ambulance will be here soon," my mother said as she came and knelt beside us, I hadn't seen her come back in the room. "Nessie, you ok?" my mom asked me a little nervously, maybe because I couldn't take my eyes off of my father and the blood covering him, I looked up at her though and saw panic in her eyes, what the hell was I doing! Seeing my mother like that bought me back to my senses enough to know I needed to get out of there. I stood up and backed away so quickly I made myself momentarily dizzy, this couldn't be happening, what was happening though? Nothing made sense, all I knew was that a moment ago I threw my father across the room then I wanted to drink his blood! What was happening to me? "I'm so sorry" I said as I grabbed the car keys and ran outside to the car, I had no idea where I was going I just knew I needed to get away from here, I remembered what my father had said to me then, go to Carlisle Cullen, he knows what's happening to you. So there was something wrong with me then, I was a monster. Where would I find Dr Cullen though, I knew as soon as I thought it, at the hospital I just hoped he was there, I didn't know where the Cullen's lived.

I looked then to see where I was and saw I was already in La Push and almost at Jake's house, the moment I thought of Jake I knew that was where I needed to be, everything would be ok if I was with Jake, he would look after me. I noticed then the car was slowing and it soon came to a halt just down the road from Jake's house and when I looked to see why I noticed I was out of gas, I got out then and ran the rest of the way to Jake's house banging on the door when I got there.

"Alright, Alright, give me a sec" I heard someone saying, Paul answered the door a moment later "oh hey Ness" he said before fully taking in my appearance, I must have looked a mess, I looked down at myself and saw I still had blood on my hands.

"Nessie, what happened?" he asked a little warily,

"I need to see Jake," I said not answering his question.

"He's not around" he said, Billy came up behind Paul then and he had the same panicked look in his eyes that Paul had and my parents had had.

"Come inside Nessie, we'll talk" Billy said, I got annoyed then.

"I just need to see Jake." I said angrily, hearing my voice cracking now,

"I know, come inside, we can get him here in five minutes" Billy said but I had already turned away and was running towards the forest with tears in my eyes. I needed to get away, I needed to stop thinking and feeling, I needed to stop the pain, I just needed peace.

Esme POV

I was sitting at the hospital in Carlisle's office at the moment reading a home magazine waiting for him to finish with his patient, we were going off hunting for the weekend together so we could spend some quality time with each other. I thought I would meet him from work but I should have known he wouldn't be out on time, Alice had warned me.

He finally came wandering in then at human speed with a smile on his face. "I hope that smile means you're finished?" I said to him getting up and going into his waiting arms.

"Yes, I'm all yours now for the whole weekend" he said before kissing me, he always made me feel so good and I was going to enjoy this weekend. I heard a lot of commotion going on outside then, it sounded like it was coming from just down the hall, probably just another drunk being brought in though. I knew he would want to go and help,

"Don't even think about it Mr Cullen" I warned him "we are leaving, through the window if we have to" he smiled at that and we were just about to leave when we both heard a voice which stopped us in our tracks.

"Where's Dr Cullen? Please, call Dr Cullen" the woman was panicking, Carlisle looked at me then and we both rushed out the door barely keeping to human speed, the source of the commotion was by the entrance to A&E and standing there was "Natalie" Carlisle called to her, she turned around to us just as we reached her, fearing Renesmee had been hurt I turned to see who they were bringing in then and saw David lying there covered in blood drifting in and out of consciousness.

Carlisle saw him at that moment too, "what happened" he asked Natalie.

"Nessie, I think it's started." Was all she said but we didn't need anymore than that to understand. The transition had started.

"Where is she?" Carlisle asked her.

"I don't know, she panicked then she grabbed the car keys and left."

"Ok, I'll take care of David, Esme, ring the others, they need to find her" Carlisle said to me.

"Ok, go." I said and he went in to the emergency room where they had taken David. I turned to Natalie then, "I need to know exactly what happened ok," I said to her as I led her to the relative's room, which was more private.

"Ok, she told us about Jake, things got a little heated and she just snapped. She turned to push David away from her I think and he went flying across the room and crashed into the cabinet, I think she was in shock after, she wouldn't move, I went to phone the ambulance and when I came back she was kneeling beside him. I tried to talk to her but she wasn't listening, she was just staring at him, she backed off a moment later and ran out the door apologising as she left," she finished in a rush. I had my phone out then and dialled Edward's cell, he answered on the first ring. He sounded calm so couldn't have spoken to Alice yet. "Esme" he answered.

"Edward, who's at home?" I asked him, "Myself, Bella, Emmett and Rose, why?" he asked starting to sound a little worried now.

"David has been bought into A&E, Nessie hurt him, the transition has started and by the sounds of what happened tonight she's further into it than we thought," I told him then what Natalie had told me. "You need to find her Edward."

"We will, I'll ring you soon" he said just before the phone went dead. There wasn't anything else I could do from here, I knew Edward could handle this, we had all talked about this day and knew we had to be careful how we handled it, Natalie needed my support right now.

(A/N the packs thoughts when they are talking to each other in their minds are in italic)

Jake's POV

"Why do I have to go" Paul was complaining again but he knew he wasn't going to win this argument, he could never say no to anything his girls wanted.

"Dad please, Aunty Leah needs it and you are fast, you'll be back in two minutes" Lily was sweet talking him, she was six years old now and she knew how to wrap Paul around her little finger.

"Fine, I'll go" he said.

"Hey Paul" I called "see if you can persuade Billy to come down here while you're there."

"I'll try," he said before disappearing off into the forest, he'd gone to get Leah some chocolate; she was having major cravings at the moment. I looked around then at our group, almost everyone was there, Rachel was sitting with the girls, Emily, Claire and a pregnant Leah, Leah had mellowed towards us all since she imprinted, she had gone away to college and that's where she found Justin, she'd learnt control before any of us and managed to stop phasing about a year ago then fell pregnant six months ago, she really had changed. Then there were the children now, Paul and Rachel had two girls, Lily is six years old and Olivia is just two and Sam and Emily had a little boy, he's four and they named him Sam Junior which is perfect as he really is a mini Sam and follows him wherever he can. Quil and Embry were out patrolling at the moment just to check the area and the rest of us were hanging out at the beach.

I was just thinking Paul was taking his time and that maybe he had persuaded Billy to come join us when I heard howling coming from the direction of my house, we recognised the call immediately.

"Probably just Paul messing around" I said as Sam and I headed into the trees to find out what they wanted, phasing was so easy now I didn't even need to think about it to do it, once phased though I immediately had the image of Nessie in my mind, Paul, Quil and Embry were panicking now, she had gone looking for me at my house, she was a mess, covered in blood and crying, where did she go? Sam asked, I don't know, she just ran towards the forest, Paul replied, I knew where she was going then, the one place we would always go when she came here, I was running then, she needed me, Jake, just be careful, Sam was saying, he was also giving the others orders too, Quil, you're close to where she is, keep an eye on her and stay close when Jake phases back so we know what's going on. I saw her then in Quil's mind, he had just found her exactly where I knew she'd be, she was on her knees with her back to the forest breathing fast shallow breaths, I pushed my legs harder then, running faster than I ever had before and reached Quil a second later phasing back quickly and pulling my shorts on, I took a calming breath then, she didn't need to see me freaking out, and walked towards her.

"Nessie" I said softly as I came out of the trees, she responded immediately to the sound of my voice, getting up and almost running to me, I held my arms out to her and she collapsed into them sobbing harder now. The moment she touched me though I had a brief flash of her father lying on the floor covered in blood and felt a burning desire to go to him, my eyes focused on the blood flowing so freely from him, the image disappeared though as quickly as it had come which left me a little confused.

"Oh Jake" she cried "I don't know…I didn't mean to…I'm sorry" she could barely get her words out then.

"It's ok, don't worry, whatever's happened we'll fix it, it'll be ok," I said trying to calm her, I took her to sit on the log there and pulled her onto my lap where she continued sobbing for a few minutes trying to gain control of herself, when her sobs quietened I decided it was time to ask her what happened hoping it wasn't as bad as it looked.

"Nessie angel" I used my name for her hoping it would help, "can you tell me what happened? I need to know if you want my help" she stayed quiet for a moment before saying anything.

"I had an argument with my father" she started,

"what about?" I asked.

"I told him about you, he wasn't happy"

"Ok, then what happened?" I asked.

"A lot was said, about you, and my parents" she paused for a moment before continuing "I got angry and went to leave but my father tried to stop me" the tears started falling again and her voice was cracking more with each word, "he grabbed my arm…I only turned to push him away from me…I don't know what happened then…he went flying across the room and crashed into the cabinet" she finished, sobbing hard again, "I didn't mean to hurt him."

"I know you didn't." I said softly holding her close to me trying to comfort her. The transition had started then; they were supposed to tell her everything before something like this happened.

"What's happening to me Jake?" she asked once she had calmed down a little, I didn't know how to answer, It wasn't my place to tell her this besides I wouldn't have the answers to all her questions. She needed an answer though but how much could I tell her?

"I can't explain it, I'm sorry" I started, "I know someone who can though." I added.

"Who?" she asked a little hesitantly.

"The Cullen's" she didn't seem surprised at that, "lets go back to my place and get you cleaned up then I'll call them ok." She just nodded so I helped her up and we slowly headed back, I heard Quil following us a little way behind, just out of sight too. I knew the next few hours were going to be difficult and would change everything but I also knew I wouldn't have to hide from her much longer, soon she would know everything.

A/N sorry its taken a while to update, been bit busy lately. Hope its worth it though, please keep reviewing.