A Snucius story.

Disclaimer: I took all characters and places from the brilliant mind of JKR.

Here is chapter ten. Review please.

Veiled Passion

CossetteLune

Chapter ten, Explanation

Severus Snape inhaled deeply before he began. There was so much to tell so he just started with the first words that came to his mind. "I wanted to be in control. I wanted to be the one making decisions for once. My father has always been cruel and would never listen to me. My mother tries but she can't even deal with her own problems, let alone mine! Then there's everyone at school. They all hate me, they are relentless on me. Even Lily would never really listen to me. She always decided what we were going to do and where we were going to go. I never even tried to be in control before. Then I began thinking about you, Lily, James, Narcissa, everyone at school who is well liked and who is happy and you all have one thing in common. Complete confidence in every word you say. No one interrupts you when you're talking, no one would ever even try to take advantage of any of you. And for that you are never teased or bullied. I thought that if I was more confident, you would hear my words for once. If I decided that we should break up then for the rest of my life it was my decision. I can't regret it if it was my idea." Now that he started the words were pouring out of him.

"I came to the conclusion that we were not going to last forever, no matter what. So I decided to stop while we were ahead. Stop before one of us got really hurt. And if I broke up with you, then it wouldn't hurt me as badly as it would if it was the other way around. Does this make sense so far?" Lucius nodded in reply, not wanting to stop Severus while he was on such a roll. "Good. So, I said all those things. I didn't think I was going to be able to but as they came out and I saw your reaction, I must admit, it felt great. For once I wasn't the one getting hurt by what someone else was saying to me. I do feel bad about hurting you, but you have other things in your life, you move quickly, so you get over things quickly. That's my logic at least." He stopped to take a breath and Lucius seized the opportunity to add some of his input.

"Just because I have other things in my life, it doesn't mean I would just get over you in a matter of days. I love you. I can't just replace you."

"But you have Narcissa."

Lucius smiled, "Yes, I have Narcissa. But I really wish that you would stop bringing her up. She may be beautiful, and kind and loving but she isn't you."

Severus liked that way that sounded, she could be perfect in every way, but she would never replace him. If she knew that she would probably curse him.

"So, that is why you wanted to break up with me? So that I wouldn't break up with you? The problem with that is, I'm not intending on breaking up with you. You only made me want you more." As the words left Lucius' mouth he felt like that was something he shouldn't have said.

"So me being somewhat of an ass to you, made you want me more?"

"Well, that's usually the way it works. People always want what they can't have. Why do you think Narcissa is so desirable? She doesn't let anyone touch her." He caught Severus' reaction and quickly added, "Just as an example. Her in comparison to her sister. Nobody cares about Bellatrix anymore because she's been through everyone. I'm not saying that I find Narcissa desirable by any means. It was a bad example, sorry."

"S'okay."

"Sev, you are so smart, but there are some things that you just don't understand. This whole Narcissa thing is driving me mad! For the hundredth time, I don't feel anything for her."

"I know."

"Please remember it though." Severus nodded, pouting a little. Lucius found him adorable when he pouted. "Let's move on... To your mother? I want to know what exactly happened. If you're okay with telling me?"

After taking a few cleansing breathes he began again, "My mother... She's never been a happy person. That much you already knew though. Because of my father... Which you also already know. So I guess, she just, couldn't deal with the way her life was working anymore. And she didn't do it to leave me behind or anything. She actually thought that this would help. See, she actually did that to herself a week ago. There was a note to my father. It said 'I hope you see what you have done now. You need to stop. I want this to open your eyes and to start treating your son better.' She really did think that her dying would snap my father back into reality." His voice was almost a whisper. "Apparently he used to be a lot kinder. They used to be in love, then about ten months after I was born he lost his job, got stressed and... Well you know what it's like now." He cleared his throat and spoke louder now. "All that happened though, was he's blaming me. He left her body for me to clean up and made me read the note. If it wasn't for me, she wouldn't have done this..."

"That's not true at all." Lucius took his hand, but Severus didn't seem to hear him.

"I buried her in the back yard. I didn't know what else to do. Then that's when you came in. I was just getting back from her, grave."

"I don't know what to say," Lucius replied honestly.

"I don't want to talk about it. She's probably happier now, anyway. He's a lot worse to her than he ever was to me."

They sat there, neither of them had anything more to say. So they remained, hand in hand, knowing that no matter what, at least they had each other.

So there you go, another chapter.

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CossetteLune