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I think today was a breakthrough moment for me.

Bella was supposed to be coming over for the afternoon for our session, and when I got to my house, I saw that my Ginsu Knives and Soda Streams that I had ordered had arrived. Not thinking twice, I dragged the packages into my foyer, and placed them in the area that I had worked so hard to clear up just days before.

Immediately I started feeling claustrophobic, and a bit like a failure. I knew how much time and how hard I worked on that section of my home. I was proud of what I had accomplished that day, and to be totally honest…I didn't want to disappoint Bella and have her see that the space we worked on was already filled again. So I made my decision.

I glanced at the clock as I tore open the boxes, rifling through them for the packing slips. I found the part that was for returns, and after about twenty minutes, finally hunted down a pen and some packing tape, feeling genuinely shocked as to where I even found those two items. Why they were in the empty fireplace in my library, I'll never know. I hurriedly filled out all of the information I needed to on the return slips, and resealed the boxes, attaching the included return tag to the tops of them and called the local UPS store to arrange for a pick up for the items, thankful for the fact that the employee was able to catch the truck driver before he went out on his afternoon route, since he was able to get me added to it.

After hanging up with the UPS store, the anxiety started creeping in. A large part of my head was screaming for me to keep these things; that I needed them…that getting rid of them was the wrong thing to do. But I also knew that the life I had now…with my house the way it is…it's not really a life I'm happy to live, so I used my breathing techniques to calm myself down, and did the best I could with one good leg to shove the packages back outside my house.

Just as I was getting the last of the boxes out, Bella showed up. She saw me with the boxes, and I could see the nervous expression creep across her face as she walked towards me, her sorting bins in hand.

"Some new things you ordered?" she asked warily.

"Yes," I answered. "But, I'm moving them outside because UPS is picking them up since I'm returning them. They're supposed to come pick them up later this afternoon."

Bella smiled widely and genuinely once I told her UPS was coming to take the packages back, and that smile warmed my heart, and helped me feel like I had made the right choice.

After helping me move the boxes out of the way, we headed inside and discussed what my goal was for the day, which I told her was to get the entire left side of the foyer sorted.

I was feeling confident, and thought it would be a reasonable goal.

At first things went great. A lot of what I had wasn't even things I could use…like the sixteen Trendy Tops I had as well as the dozen Booty Belts, nine Bust UP cups, and eighteen pairs of Pajama Jeans. I mean…I'm not a girl, so I couldn't even figure out why I bought that stuff in the first place.

Bella and I chatted as we worked, and I got to know her a bit better. I loved finding out that we had similar tastes in books and movies, both of us agreeing that Grease 2 was by far better than Grease. We spent the next twenty minutes singing songs from the movie, albeit off key, as we worked.

Things got a bit more difficult though, once we were about two thirds of the way done with our work. That's when we got to some of the things that I really had a hard time letting go of. Like my two dozen sets of EzMoves…I tried explaining to Bella how they could be useful when it came to moving around some of the heavier items in the house. She thought two dozen was a bit excessive. It took half an hour of talking it out and a bit of yelling on my part, for me to agree to get rid of all but two sets. It was Bella's constant reminders of what my ultimate goal was for me to finally let the things go.

At the end of the day though, we did accomplish everything we set out to do, even though Bella stayed longer than we had originally scheduled, she told me she was happy to do it, and was proud of the progress I made…even when she had to talk me through my decisions because that was just a part of the process.

After hugging me goodbye, she left for the day, reminding me she'd see me during our next joint session with Dr. Brandon. I didn't want to let her go when she hugged me. As hard as I tried, I couldn't stop the attachment I was already forming with her, and her scent…when I hugged her, it completely enveloped me. She smelled of honeysuckle and vanilla and it was just so comforting.

Once she was gone, I waited until the UPS guy showed up and hauled the boxes away. After the packages were picked up, I walked into my house again to look around at the progress I had made, and my heart ached to have someone to share it with. It was the realization that I didn't…that outside of my family, I had no one to share my life with…that made me realize just how lonely I was, and just how much I wanted Bella to be the one who made me not feel that way anymore.

I tried to shake the thoughts from my head as I climbed into my car and headed back to Emmett's house for the night. My lonely thoughts were in my head again as I tried to find my way to sleep, and my fingers were itching to place an order for some other new thing that I really didn't need as I tried to ignore the infomercial playing on the tv. Without even realizing it, my cell phone was in my hand, my finger hovering and ready to dial. I didn't want to fall back into my old habits…I felt like I was finally breaking through the things that have been bogging me down.

My anxiety swelled as I dialed the numbers on the keypad, and I could feel myself starting to sweat as I heard the ringing on the other end.

Finally, the line connected and I heard the "Hello," come through the phone.

I took a deep breath before answering.

"Hi Dr. Brandon, its Edward…I'm having trouble dealing with my anxiety and feeling like I need to buy stuff tonight."

A/N: Yay! He's making progress! Chapter 11 will post tomorrow.