Andy hadn't slept much the night before after leaving Sam at the Penny. She wanted to run to his house and tell him she was sorry. But then in the same token she felt like she didn't have anything to apologize for. Traci and Andy stayed quiet as they changed and got ready for parade. Traci didn't want to push Andy.
They both walked to parade, quietly side by side. They walked right past Sam, who tried to stop her and talk to her but Andy just ignored him.
"McNally you're on desk. Stryker you're in the booking room again this time with Diaz. Epstein you're with Williams. Peck you're with Swarek. Nash you're with Shaw. Everyone serve, protect, and have each other's backs."
Frank handed out the assignments then he said, "McNally my office." Andy's heart sunk. She had been less than cooperative with Lisa the day before. She knew that that is probably what he wanted to talk about. Andy was angry with herself for being so stubborn. But she still didn't want to talk to Lisa about anything. Even though she knew her job was on the line.
"Take a seat Andy."
Andy sat down, she was just as nervous as she was yesterday in the room with Dr. Forrest.
"Before parade I had a conversation with the department psychiatrist, Dr. Lisa Forrest."
Andy shook her head confirming that she was listening intently.
"She informed me that you were reluctant to talk to her, she also mentioned that you felt like Officer Swarek went behind your back and told me that you were having nightmares. What gives you the impression that Officer Swarek has anything to do with this?"
Andy sighed. "He admitted to it." She replied quickly and honestly.
Frank nodded his head, "You do know how serious this is Andy. You're one of the best rookie's this division has had in a long time. I'd hate to see your skills wasted on desk duty, making calls, organizing files. You're smart Andy, you're quick, you see things differently, you're compassionate you empathize with everyone. We need cops like you working the streets. I'd hate to see your stubbornness get in the way of you being a great cop." Frank took a breath, Andy was about to interject when Frank raised his hand in the air for her to stop.
"I get it. Your father needed to see a shrink when he left the force after the Calisiak case. After everything that happened. I know he was hitting the bottle pretty hard. He refused to deal with everything that happened. He didn't forgive himself for what happened, he didn't forgive Calisiak either. But Andy, you are not your father. You are your own person, and you are your own cop. Like I told you yesterday the first time I had to talk to the department's psychiatrist I was reluctant I fought it at every turn until eventually I just started talking then I felt better. Andy, believe me, I know it's hard. But it really does help. I hope that you'll take my advice."
He waved her out of the room signalling that she was dismissed.
Andy went to the front desk, feeling rather defeated she sunk into the chair. Dreading the day ahead of her which would no doubt go as fast as a snail crossing a highway.
"Excuse me." A woman said to her at the front desk. Andy lifted her head, the woman looked confused. "How may I help you?"
"A detective Callaghan was trying to get a hold of me."
Andy nodded her head, she felt a twinge of pain for the woman. There were very few reasons Luke needed to get in contact with anyone. She had a feeling that this was a death notification.
"What's your name?"
"Julia Martinelli."
Martinelli... that name sounds familiar. Then it hit Andy, this must be Zoe Martinelli's mother. "Why don't you come with me." Andy said as she directed her to Luke's office.
Luke escorted the woman into his office but then went out in the hallway. "Andy wait." He said to her and Andy stopped in her tracks.
"I hope it's not out of line but I need you to do me a favour. It's a work favour."
Andy nodded her head, "Sure of course."
Great Luke said as he shot her a cautious smile. "I need you to call this number. It is a former cop, his name is Henry Conroy. He was Zoe Martinelli's training officer. I got a new lead on her case. He won't answer for me, so I figured maybe he'd answer for someone else."
Andy nodded and the two parted ways.
She dialled the number into the phone and it rang several times before going to voicemail. "Henry Conroy, leave a message."
Andy decided that leaving a message would be a good start. "Mr. Conroy this is Officer McNally, I'm calling on behalf of Detective Luke Callaghan. He wanted you to know there is a new lead in the Zoe Martinelli case. If you could give him or me a call back it would be appreciated."
"You should have been with us at the table at the penny last night with Andy." Gail said as she and Sam were riding in the car.
"What happened?" Sam asked in an unusually curious tone. He had been up pretty much the whole night worried sick about Andy. They hadn't left things on the best terms.
"She was in a super bitchy mood. She went off on us for pretty much everything we said. It was weird, very unlike her." Gail noted. She and Andy were fairly good friends even though neither would ever admit it. Sure Gail had her eyes on Swarek when she first joined the force, when they all became rookies together. But as soon as she saw that there was something between Sam and Andy she stopped. Then the thing with her and Chris started and she was happy with Chris. And Chris and Andy are so close, like brother and sister, that it was all Chris could talk about before they went to sleep. How Andy was acting, and how it was out of character for her.
"Oh yeah." Sam said he was still not very conversational, he didn't want to seem overly interested. But he was still worried and what Gail was saying just made it worse.
"Is Andy okay?" Gail asked him not sure if he would be willing to share the answer.
Sam just shrugged his shoulders and focused on the road. Silence took over the car. Gail awkwardly looked out of the passenger window. Until she couldn't handle the silence anymore.
"Did you do something to make Andy mad?" Gail said. "Because when I said act on it, I meant tell her you have feelings for her. Not go schmooze Doctor Monica at the Penny."
Sam turned his head to Gail looking at her for a moment before turning his head back to the road. "You could say that I did something to make Andy mad. But it doesn't have to do with Monica."
"What was it?"
"Can't talk about it."
"Sam."
"Peck, I can't talk about it." Sam said in a stern tone. Telling her that the conversation was over. He already went behind Andy's back to tell Frank. If he told Gail what was going on, he knew any chance of Andy forgiving him would be gone. He couldn't risk that.
A good two hours had passed since Andy made the phone call to the cop that Luke needed to talk to. Things at the front desk were moving so slow. It felt like she had been there for days. When really it was just a couple of hours. Andy had made all the calls that were required for other detectives, done checks on everyone that needed to sign in. Paperwork was all filed. So she decided to call Henry Conroy again.
This time he picked up the phone.
"Mr. Conroy, I'm Officer McNally."
"Yeah got your message earlier, you can tell Detective Callaghan to take a stick and shove it up his self righteous ass."
Andy shot up in her chair and shock took over her face.
"Excuse me sir?"
"Officer McNally you heard me. Tell that prick to leave me alone. I'm not helping him. He knows why, he made his bed now he can go and lie in it."
Andy was unsure of what to say. She was just glad she hadn't taken a drink of anything because if she had she would have probably choked on it.
"Sir, I am sure Detective Callaghan."
"Is a pig headed jerk. Yeah I know that already don't need you telling me."
Andy let out a breath she was unaware that she was holding.
"If you don't mind me asking, what exactly happened between you and Detective Callaghan to make you have such a strong opinion about him?"
"If you read the Zoe Martinelli case files I'm sure you can figure it out for yourself. Now if you don't mind I have a life to get back to living. So if you all at the 15 could leave me alone from here til the end of time I'd really appreciate it."
The line went dead. Andy had a look of shock over her face. The shock hadn't faded since the guy said that Luke could take a stick and shove it up his ass.
"Andy." Luke said in an optimistic tone as he turned the corner to talk to her. "Have you been able to get in contact with Henry Conroy?"
All Andy could muster was to nod.
"Great tell me you were able to talk some sense into that guy. Is he coming in?"
And the only thing Andy could manage was to shake her head.
"What happened? You look like you've seen a ghost."
"He said, that you can take a stick and shove it up your ass."
Luke sighed. "Great that guy is a self centered prick."
Andy gave Luke a gaze from his head to his toe. "He seemed to have that opinion about you. What happened?"
"Nothing, the guy just can't get over anything. It's not like it's my fault."
"Luke what did you do?"
"Nothing Andy." Luke's tone rose.
Things in the car had gotten really awkward between Sam and Gail. So when they saw someone trying to mug an elderly woman. They flashed on the lights.
"Sir stop this is the police." Gail said over the radio.
Sam bolted out of the car over to the guy. He sprinted. "Peck take the car." Sam yelled to her as he was running down the street after the guy.
"Police stop." Sam yelled. He turned onto Jarvis Street chasing after the guy. People were pretty much flying out of the way so they didn't get pushed over by the guy that Sam was chasing or by Sam himself. Gail was following in the car. Sam signalled to her to cut him off by putting the car in front of him so he'd smash into it.
Gail sped up lights and sirens going. She honked so people on the sidewalk would get out of the way then she pulled the car up, but her efforts were futile. The perp darted across the street. Sam darted out into traffic almost getting hit by a car. But he was determined to catch the guy. Gail pulled the car off the sidewalk and zoomed up the street after the mugger and Sam.
"Sir stop Police." Gail said over the radio. While Sam was yelling police.
Gail tried to stop him with the car again and this time it worked. He smashed right into the hood of the police cruiser, and Sam crashed right into him.
"Dispatch this is 1505 we have the suspect. Bringing him back to the barn." Gail said over her radio.
"1505 copy that."
They got the suspect into the car and headed towards the barn. Leaving the guy with Chris and Stryker Gail and Sam made their way to the front desk to get some forms where they heard Luke raising his voice to Andy.
"Nothing Andy."
"What's nothing?" Sam interjected into the conversation.
Luke looked over at him and the tension that was created in that moment could have been cut with a knife. It was no secret that Sam and Luke didn't get along, never got along, but they did their best to avoid one another. Even though they had to work with each other occasionally they did their best to be professional. Even though it didn't always work.
"None of your business Sammy."
"Don't call me that."
"Boys settle down." Gail said trying to diffuse the situation. "We are here to get some forms." Gail moved past Sam to the filing cabinets.
Sam and Luke stayed standing. Like they were fighting over the same territory, like they were dogs and had both found the same fire hydrant and were both peeing on it at the same time. Gail kind of wanted to hit them both upside the head to smack them out of it. But she knew that was a good way to get herself into trouble so she decided to stay out of it.
Andy was beginning to get uncomfortable. "It's not a big deal Sam. I was just asking Luke a question. If he doesn't want to answer it that's up to him." Andy shot Luke a look that now was a good time to leave but Luke didn't budge.
"Try calling Henry Conroy again and tell him it's urgent."
"Conroy huh.." Sam said just as Luke was about to leave.
"Sam stop it." Andy said softly so only Gail and Sam could hear her.
"Yeah Conroy." Luke said standing up to Sam.
"Bringing Andy into your problems now Callaghan?"
"No Sammy I asked her to make a call for me."
"Sam, Luke, stop it now. Please I'm begging you." Andy said glancing over at Gail with a look on her face that said HELP ME NOW.
"Well it's not like you should be surprised that Conroy isn't talking to you after what you did to him."
Luke rolled his eyes and turned around. "You destroyed the guys' reputation in the service and all you have to say for yourself is an eye roll. Real nice Callaghan."
"Sam stop it." Andy said again her eyes begging for Gail to back her up.
"Yeah guys really this isn't the time or the place." Gail said in addition to what Andy had previously said.
"You know what Sammy you don't know anything about being a detective. I was doing my job, which is more than I can say for what you're doing with Andy. Going to Frank and saying that she needs to talk to a shrink. Real nice." Luke said with anger in his words.
Andy's face flushed red with embarrassment. Everyone in the division knows that she's seeing a shrink. Gail's mouth practically dropped to the ground at what Luke had said. Andy felt the warmth of her cheeks. Sam turned to Andy absolutely floored by what Luke had said, he didn't know what to say to Andy. For once in his life, he was actually speechless and not by choice.
Andy's eyes began to fill with tears. She couldn't believe it. Frank, the doctor, and Sam were the only ones who should have known that she was going through the painstaking process of having to talk to a shrink. Now Sam was telling anyone with ears about it.
"Sam how could you?" Andy's voice was shaky and weak. Luke looked over at Andy and it was almost as if he forgot she was there. He saw the look on her face and for the first time he saw Andy in real pain. He felt guilty for making her feel that way but he had to put Sam in his place.
"Andy," Sam didn't know what else to say. Gail was watching the whole thing go down in shock. Luke was half angry with himself for hurting Andy but also kind of happy with himself because he knew that Sam and Andy wouldn't get together now.
"How could you? Isn't it bad enough you went behind my back? Now, what, you're telling everyone who will listen that I am going through the most humiliating time in my life?"
Frank saw the scene unfolding outside of his office and he got off the phone and ran to the door.
"Swarek, Callaghan, McNally, Peck. My office now." His voice boomed through the lobby making officers who hadn't even taken notice of what was going on turn their heads to see what all the commotion was about.
Everyone walked into Frank's office. Andy trying to fight her tears the whole way. She couldn't believe this was happening. She tried to gain control. She really did. She wanted nothing more than to make the tears go away but she felt so hurt. She had never been so hurt before in her whole life, not even when her father had let her down. She had been let down by him a lot.
"Well," Frank said he was irritated. "I just got off the phone with Conroy. Then I see you all in the middle of a confrontation I can only imagine the events are connected. Callaghan, I am going to have to get the Chief of D's involved in this. You were told to leave Conroy alone after what happened between the two of you. But before we even get into that, someone is going to tell me what happened out there. I can't have officers and detectives arguing and making working here difficult."
Andy was listening to everything that was going on but everything everyone was saying felt like it was distant. Far away, she was still in shock that Sam was going around and telling people that she was seeing a shrink.
"Peck I'll start with you. What happened?" Frank said sitting down in his seat and gesturing the four of them to sit down aswell."
"Well sir, Sam and I brought a mugger to the barn. We were going to the front desk to get some papers so we could fill out our report. Then Andy and Luke seemed to be having a pretty heated discussion about this Conroy guy. But then words were exchanged it was just a misunderstanding. Andy didn't know that she wasn't supposed to call Conroy. We didn't know either."
Frank knew that Peck wasn't being entirely honest with him. "You know you all better tell me what really went down out there. Now, or there will be serious repercussions I cannot have you making a tense working environment I won't tolerate it. Understood?"
Luke, Gail, and Sam all nodded their heads but Andy didn't. She was sitting in absolute shock. Tears had yet to escape her eyes all objects in her line of vision were blurred by the tears that threatened to escape. Frank looked over at her, intending to give her a look to imply she better nod in agreement now or else. That was until he saw the tears in her eyes and he realized that Conroy may have started the argument but something else went down out there. "Andy are you okay?" He asked her flashing the other three disapproving looks.
Andy nodded, which made Frank a little annoyed. He had already had the discussion with Andy earlier about her meeting with the shrink. He knew Andy wasn't okay and when Andy blink and tears fell from her eyes Frank had to do everything he could to control his anger and to not tell Andy to take the rest of the day off. He needed to get to the bottom of what happened.
Sam watched Andy as Frank asked he if she was okay. He felt his gut twist up into a million knots. Andy's head nodding. Sam knew she was trying to deflect. She would never admit to what happened. Sam didn't go around telling anyone that she was seeing the shrink. He had no idea how Luke even found out about it. It didn't make sense, normally stuff like that was kept quiet. It was only if it was ordered by IA did it start to make its way through the grapevine. Then he saw tears fall from Andy's face, and he couldn't take it anymore.
"Callaghan is going around telling everyone that Andy is seeing the department's psychiatrist." Sam said. Andy just kept her mouth shut she didn't know what to say. She was so angry with Sam now he was blaming Luke. No Andy you can't keep quiet you have to say something.
"Shut up Sam, don't blame this on Luke."
"What are you talking about Andy?" Sam said before Frank or anyone even had a chance to intervene.
"It's you, that's the only thing that makes sense. You knew, you went behind my back you betrayed my trust. You made me care about you, you made me let you in. You made me trust you, then you turn around and tell Frank that I'm having nightmares. How could you do that to me? You say you care and you're going around telling everyone that I'm going to see the shrink. You said you were sorry about it. Now this? How can I trust anything you say?" Everyone was starting to feel a little uncomfortable.
"Officer Peck you're dismissed. Don't say anything to anyone about what's going on in here. Go fill out your reports." Gail nodded, and left at Frank's request.
Luke, Sam, Andy, and Frank were left in the room. Andy was in tears sobbing each breath she took was audible to the men around her. Each shaky breath she took made the pit in Sam's stomach grow larger and larger. "Andy." He finally said. "I'd never do that to you. You have to know that. You know that right?"
"Sammy I have to agree with Andy on this one. It only makes sense that it was you." Luke chimed in and he was met with an angry gaze from Frank.
"Callaghan why don't you start by telling me your side of things." Frank said in an unimpressed tone.
"Well I had contacted Zoe Martinelli's mother telling her I had a possible new lead in the case. I wanted to ask her a couple of questions in relation to the lead. I had been trying to get in contact with Conroy to apologize about what happened between us before. I was wrong, and I should have never accused him of killing Zoe. I was too close to the case, I took everything personally and it probably cost us solving this case sooner." Luke admitted, not that he needed to make that revelation in the room. Sam figured it was just to stick it to him. An attempt to make him look bad in front of Frank. Sam knew Callaghan's game he probably didn't even feel bad about what he did to Conroy.
"Anyway, I asked Andy to contact Conroy thinking that he'd talk to her. He called her back and had some choice words for me. Andy asked what happened. I told her that it was nothing because I didn't want to make a big deal out of it. It's the past. Then Sam came in and started making some wise ass remarks about how he wasn't surprised that Conroy wouldn't talk to me. Andy asked us to stop, we continued our banter. Then I told Sam that everyone knows what he did to Andy."
Luke shot Sam a smug look. It took everything for Sam not to rise from his chair and strike Luke to his ass. But he couldn't do that, it would hurt Andy. It would get him suspended and Luke would end up winning. He couldn't do that. He wouldn't do that. He wouldn't give Callaghan the satisfaction of getting him an IA investigation.
"Alright Sam it's your turn." Frank said.
"Well Gail and I were going to the filing cabinets at the front desk to get some forms to fill out for our reports. Callaghan was getting angry with Andy he practically yelled at her when he said that what happened between him and Conroy was nothing. It's not like Andy could have known what happened. I'm sure she was just curious, and I am sure that Conroy did tell Andy that he had some choice words for Callaghan." Sam looked over at Andy. "Then I said something I shouldn't have to Callaghan. I stirred the pot about the Conroy issue. I'll admit it. I should have stopped but I didn't. I just hate it when Callaghan gets annoyed with Andy for no reason. Andy was asking us to stop and we should have listened to her and I regret not listening to her. Then Luke said something about it being his job and that that's more than he could say about what I was doing with Andy going behind her back and telling you about what was going on with her making her see the shrink. I don't know how Luke found out about that sir, but I swear I didn't tell a soul about it."
Andy turned her head for a moment to meet Sam's gaze. She saw the sincerity in his eyes but she didn't know what she could trust. She didn't know who she could trust. For the first time in a long time she just wanted her dad to tell her that everything was going to be alright. Sure that hadn't had her dad do that since right after her mother left. But she longed for that in the moment. She was feeling like she was stripped stark naked. Like she was the laughing stalk of the 15 division.
"Andy, are you going to be okay to tell me what happened? I can ask them to leave and we can do it in private if you prefer."
Andy shook her head. "I'll be fine sir." Her voice was weak, quiet. She continued telling how things happened in her own words with the same defeated tone.
"I had gotten off the phone with Mr. Conroy who said to tell Luke that he can take a stick and shove it up his ass. I was shocked by how much anger he had towards Luke. When I got off the phone with him Luke came around the corner to ask me if I had gotten a hold of him. I told him what Conroy said and then I asked Luke what had happened. He tried to brush it off and I should have dropped it. Luke got a little annoyed with me because I kept asking then Sam came, and asked what was going on. They started to exchange words about Conroy not saying what actually happened other than that Conroy's reputation in the service had been destroyed. I tried to get them to stop, Gail tried to get them to stop. Then Luke said the thing about Sam going behind my back."
Andy couldn't say another word more tears fell from her face, they were falling harder and faster. If Andy could have chosen any moment to crawl up into a ball or crawl into her bed and never leave again this would be the moment. She didn't know how she was going to face all the other cops in the service now. She was so humiliated.
Frank nodded. The three men watched as Andy just sat there in tears. It was it, Andy thought to herself, she really was nothing but a rookie with a trainwreck for an old man. She was letting her job get the best of her and her life get the best of her. She was her father's daughter.
"I don't know exactly what to make of this situation. Andy I am really sorry about what has happened. But you should know you have nothing to be ashamed of. Every cop in this division has had to see a shrink at one point or another. This is the first time you've had to go through this Andy, and it won't be the last. It's part of the job Andy, you've done nothing wrong." Frank cleared his throat.
"As for the two of you. I don't know quite what to say, I don't know who to believe. I'm getting sick of the tension the two of you bring to the department every single time you do so much as cross each other's paths. I'll figure out how people know that Andy has been seeing a shrink. I stand by my statement it's nothing to be ashamed of but gossip isn't something I want to encourage either. You two can consider this a formal warning, get into an argument like this again. You will both have a formal reprimand."
Frank reached for his phone. "Callaghan you're dismissed. You can go to the Chief of D's office. I'll call him now to let him know you are on your way."
Luke got up and left the office. "As for you Swarek. I have my eye on you, don't let this happen again. Gain some control of what comes flying out of your mouth. You two are dismissed. Andy take your break now."
The two left the office. Andy wanted to get out of there as fast as she could, and she walked through the bullpen and to the locker rooms. Sam was on her heels the whole time. He wanted her to know that he'd never go and tell everyone that she had been seeing a shrink. He would never hurt her like that.
Andy walked into the locker room and immediately made her way to the bench she sat down and began to cry. She hadn't cried this hard since the night that she had shot the guy during the heatwave, the night of the black out.
Sam walked right in after her. "Andy hear me out please."
"Sam please leave me alone."