Ch.10 New place, Fresh start, with a mix of memories

"Well Lindsay, here we are, in our new place." I ran around the apartment excitedly. We stayed with the Hardy's for a week, while looking for a place, not to far from their house. "Aren't you excited?"

"Why are you so happy? This place is a dump." She whined, setting her suitcase down and crossed her arms over her chest. I love my best friend but she was always so picky.

"So what, it's a fresh start for us. No mothers, no curfews, no rules. We can do whatever we want." I plopped down on the couch, so glad to be free. I make it sound like I was locked up somewhere, but after everything that has happened I just wanted to get away and be on my own.

She sat down beside me, still pouting like she had been doing the first second we got here. "I'm sorry Katie, I just don't like it."

I grabbed my cell phone and started to dial a number. Lindsay looked at me with a confused look on her face. "Who are you calling?"

I didn't answer her; instead I put the phone to my ear and started talking. "Hey Matt, would you be able to come pick up Lindsay and take her back home?"

Lindsay's mouth shot open, looking angrily at me. "Why do you want me to go?" she whispered.

I held up my hand to tell her to wait a minute while I finished explaining to Matt. "Well she doesn't like our new place so I figure you might as well take her back home, I'll live here by myself." I sighed.

"Give me the damn phone" She grabbed the phone out of my hand and started explaining. "Look Matt don't listen to her, I want to stay here with her so don't…"

If looks could kill I would be dead right then and there. She threw the phone at me and started pouting again. "So what did the dial tone tell you? To suck it up and stay or be a baby and go back home?" I laughed.

"I got the point smart ass." She looked at me and a small smile was starting to show. "I'll stay."

"Great, now let's unpack." I got up and carried my bags into one of the bedrooms. Lindsay had way more stuff than I do so I let her have the big room.

I set my bags down by the bed and sat on the floor. Deciding to go through some misc bags, this would be fun. I didn't see what I put in the bags, since I was in such a rush. I picked out a bunch of books and magazines, setting them on a shelf above my bed. I had a small desk in my room so I put all my pens and notepads in the drawer. Something fell out of my bag, reaching down to see what it was. A teddy bear…

I slowly managed to open my eyes. "Vanessa?" I heard a female voice beside me. I turned my head and saw a short nurse standing beside my bed.

"Where am I?" I asked in a faint whisper, looking around to see I was in a hospital. "What's wrong? Why am I here?"

"Sshh it's going to be okay. Your mom will be right back." She paused. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm confused, tell me what is wrong."

Before she could say anything, someone appeared at the doorway. "Nurse?"

She got up and walked towards the man outside of my room "She is right in here, you came at a good time, she's awake."

"Well I can't stay, can you give this to her for me?" I heard him say.

"You can come in, she just woke up."

"What are you doing here?" My mom asked, sounding irritated.

"I was just leaving. Take good care of her Tracey."

Mom came into my room and sat down beside my bed. Holding my hand, tears falling down her cheeks. We sat in silence, until the nurse came in.

"The man at the door wanted you to have this." The nurse said, handing me a teddy bear.

I took the bear, looking for a card to see who it's from. But there wasn't one, guess I'll never know who gave this to me. "Do you know who this is from, mom?"

She looked down, shaking her head. "No, I don't know who he was."

"Hey Vanessa." I was pulled out of my thoughts when Lindsay came running into my room with a bag of baseball cards. "Remember these?"

"Baseball cards?"

"Yeah, you and I were obsessed with sports. One day at the park we were playing basketball and a couple guys came over and said that we were girls so we couldn't play."

"Oh right, that's how we won the cards."

We both laughed. "Exactly, we told them to play and see. So they wanted to make it interesting, if we won we got their baseball cards..."

"And if they won?"

She shook her head "Not important, we won that is all that matters."

"Good point"

"But look at our friends now, we are so lucky to have them" She held up a picture of the guys. When they were fighting on the trampoline she made them pose for a group picture.

"Yeah, you and Matt seem to be getting really close." I winked.

"Yeah, he's sweet." She was silent for a few minutes, a distant look on her face. "Did I tell you that Mark called me?"

"Who's Mark?"

"The guy I met at the bar, remember? I set you up with his idiotic friend that Jeff kicked out of the bar."

"Oh him, okay. What did he want?"

"To ask me out…" She paused.

I never did understand Lindsay, she had a great guy like Matt liking her, and yet she seems more interested in guys she meets in bars. She looked at me, waiting for me to say something.

"What did you say?"

"He's taking me out today." Her cell buzzed, reading the messaged she smiled. "He's on his way now!" She jumped up excitedly. Running to her room, I followed her.

"Linds, a minute ago we were talking about matt and how you guys are getting close, what about that?"

"Things happen, Mark asked me out…"

I cut her off. "You don't know what he's like, Linds! He may seem nice now but that could be an act."

She turned around and threw her hands in the air. "Why can't you just say 'Congratulations Lindsay 'or' I'm so happy for you I hope it works out' but no, you never say stuff like that, you always think of the negative side of things."

"I'm just looking out for you, look how his friend was…I just don't want anything to happen to you."

"Yeah that was his friend, not him, he's not like that…I'll be fine." She snapped, turning back to the mirror.

"You don't know that, he could be exactly like his friend, of course he's not going to tell you."

"Get out of my room! I've had enough; you know you are starting to sound like your mother. You never want anyone else to be happy." She screamed, walking right up to me. "The past month has all been about you, Katie this, Katie that. You found your dad, he wants you in his life, just like you wanted but now you're shutting him and your mom out."

I felt tears forming in my eyes, I stood there in silence, shocked at what I was seeing…hearing…

"Now that I found someone that wants me, you don't like it, because for once something good is happening to ME!"

"Fuck you! You are so blind you can't see what is right in front of you! Matt is crazy about you and now your going out with some loser you met in a bar."

"You have some nerve Vanessa! You have a mom who loves you and cares for you; I have a drunken slut for a mom! You have a dad that wants you, and speaking of being blind, you should really open your eyes, because what I've been seeing is 2 guys that really like you, care for you…I bet you didn't even realize…the way they look at you, always around you, wanting to help you through your drama of a life…Now please get out of my room, I have a date to get ready for, roomie!"

I looked at her once more "I'll get out of your room, and if you want, I'll get out of your life!" I stormed out and slammed the door behind me.

I ran into my room and shut the door. Today was supposed to be a fresh start for us, but instead we end up fighting and the true feelings come out. Was she right? Am I being too hard on my parents? I heard a car outside, walking to the window I saw Matt coming up to the door.

"Hey Matt" I heard Lindsay say, letting him in. "I'm on my way out, don't know where my former best friend is, and I don't care. See you later." Then I heard her leave, looking out the window I saw her get in the car with Mark. I had a bad feeling about this, but if she was going to be careless and stupid then she'll have to suffer the consequences.

"Kat, you in there?" Matt called.

"Yeah, come in Matt."

He could tell that something bad happened; he came and sat beside me on the window sill. "What happened?"

"We got into a fight…"

"About?"

"She's going out with this guy she met at a bar." I started, I looked at Matt, he didn't say anything, just looked out the window in silence. "Matt…"

"Yeah?"

"Am I being selfish?"

He looked over at me with a concerned look on his face. "Why would you think that?"

"That's what Lindsay said…"

"I don't know what's going through her head, of course your not being selfish, you are going through a lot right now, she shouldn't be treating you this way."

"You like her, don't you?"

"I like the Lindsay I met in the bar, the Lindsay I fell asleep with at my house watching 12 Rounds, the hyper one, the girl obsessed with wrestling…" He paused, looking down at his hands, "I'm scared to get close to anyone though, after what happened with Amy…" He looked at me like he said too much.

"Don't worry Matt; I know about her…Shannon told me, I'm really sorry about what she did."

"Me too, I hated her and I hated Adam…But I learned that life is too short, I don't talk to her but Adam and I were always really good friends. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I know what your parents did was wrong…But it seems that Vince really cares about you and wants to start over."

"So you think I should give him a chance?"

"The decision is yours to make, I can't make it for you hun. Same with Lindsay, we can't tell her what she should do, who she should be with, she'll learn on her own…"

"Yeah, Thanks Matt."

"No problem, now the main reason I came over was to drag you back to our place, everyone misses you! Now come on lets go!"

I got a piece of paper to leave a note for Lindsay, but before I wrote anything I realized the last words I said "I'll get out of your room, and if you want, I'll get out of your life."

I crumpled up the paper and threw it out, she's sick of my drama then I'll just leave, she won't care where I am anyways. I grabbed my key and locked the door and headed off to the Hardy's.

A/N Sorry its been awhile since i've updated, i'm going to try and update alot faster thats for sure :) Please Review!!