And love, love love is a dangerous drug; you have it, you receive it
and you still can't get enough of the stuff…
It's savage & it's cruel, & it shines like destruction
Comes in like the flood and it seems like religion
It's noble and it's brutal, it distorts and deranges
And it drenches you up and you're left like a zombie
It touches and it teases as you stumble in the debris…
-Annie Lennox
I felt the cool rush of the air around me vaguely; I confess that the alcohol had a strange numbing effect that left me warm and immune to most of the immediate sensations of being abruptly dragged outside. What I didn't miss was the distinct feeling of myself hitting the unyielding brick wall at the force of Shadow's throw. I felt my back quills clash against the solid brick, and his fists launched- intentionally missing my face and instead planting on either side of my head, trapping me where I was. His eyes were cutting a dangerous leer through me.
"Yeah. You sure have a way with words." I snapped sarcastically, and my sauciness caused him to sock the wall once more in frustration.
"Sonic, shut up, and tell me what the hell that was all about-"
"Well I can't do both, dumbass-"
He kneed me in the gut with ferocity, and I gritted my teeth, smiling forcefully through the pain as I now watched his livid face with one eye open.
"One more, and I'll re-arrange your pretty little boy band face. Now you better start talking, hedgehog-"
"Ok one, we look practically identical in the face- so are you calling yourself boy band material? Two…" I held up two fingers, causing him to hesitate in socking me right in the face "She asked me to dance. As far as I know, there's no written law against that- she's got free will."
"That was more than a dance you f-"
"Did she look like she was forced into it?" I yelled, overpowering his insult. There was a silent tension between us then, both sets of eyes duelling, and he used one of his arms to press against my throat menacingly- enough to make breathing uncomfortable.
"You had your chance Sonic. I am sick of you, your stupid attitude, you being full of yourself- you getting rewarded for being a jackass at every corner of your life. You only want her now because you can't have her all to yourself. Do you expect to be a decent partner at some point when the only person you seem to have affection for is you? I believe not…"
"I don't think you're #1 boyfriend material yourself, considering your previous day job consisted of kissing Eggman's butt and ranking up body counts-" He silenced me with a fierce backhand at a blinding speed, and I tasted the copper of where my teeth had been forced into the inside of my mouth. Our eyes went back to that same hypnotic challenge, like two animals facing off in a complicated dance before a battle to the death. All I could read in his expression was a rigidly set hatred. All at once I was sickeningly ill at the idea of this short-tempered powerhouse, losing his cool swiftly- just acting before thinking, making a hasty or violent mistake in the same manner with Amy…
"Would you treat her like this if she rubbed you the wrong way?" It came out of my mouth, though it shouldn't have- but I needed to know that answer. I was certain I would fight him to the death, if that answer was a yes. That seemed to pull to venom out of him temporarily, his eyes flashing wide with concern as he had to genuinely consider whether it was a yes or a no waiting at the end of that question…
"…No." He said, seeming to push toward certainty using his voice. "I treat you like this because somebody needs to. Now stop running your stupid mouth, if I wanted to hear you talk this much I'd be one of your pathetic lackeys." He clenched his fists, readying for my lightening quick attack to start off the chain of many more. But it never came, and I pushed one of his fists out of my vision roughly- as though he were a temperamental child. I kicked away from the wall, now standing behind him with arms folded. He whirled to face me once more, re-adjusting his fists in preparation. Again, it never came.
"Shadow, dude… you're just drunk. I'm gonna tell you this once. I am not doing this with you here."
"You dare shrug off a challenge from me, hedgehog?! Lost a bit of that annoying cockiness now that it is one on one, knowing what I'm capable of?" His chest was heaving now, burning with the overwhelming desire. He was lost to his own rage again, I recognized it- and I also knew it was a useless feeling. It wasn't going to assist the very reason we were both out here… and that reason was inside right now, terrified, mulling over what might be happening to the both of us. I couldn't do this to her, even though I had wanted this since the day he led her away from my table in the restaurant. It had been so tempting, and even more so now with his anger and the alcohol, it was overwhelming… but for one of the first times in my life, fighting and winning wasn't on the top of my list. Because only half of me had a thirst for that now…
"Honestly Shadow I don't give a shit what you can or can't do, man. I'm not gonna fall for this again. Not like this. It's all you know, but I know more than just beatin' my way to what I want. Forget it." I shoved him back from me suddenly, hard enough to make him stumble backward and struggle to gain his balance for a moment against the wall. "Smarten up." He began to descend on me again, a slow warning pace, like a stubborn hunter.
"You- you're one to tell me such a thing you fool. I am dating Amy, we have gone on more dates than the both of you have in your lifetime together-"
"Then why the hell are you out here wasting your time trying to beat me up like a drunk idiot, instead of inside spending time with her?! Huh?! Riddle me that one, 'ultimate'." I snarled, ending his rant and wiping the expression clear off his face like a whiteboard eraser. "Why? Because I am better for her, and you know it." I wiped my mouth roughly then of the small amount of blood that had escaped, shoving past him and his now unsettled expression. "You're just being a jealous, possessive freak. You didn't see me trying to pull this trash while you were taking her out. You don't even care what she'd think of us beating the crap out of each other, you don't give a shit about how it would make her feel- do you? You just care about your feelings, big shocker. History repeats itself. And you tell me I'm self centered. Well, looks like we're more alike than you thought! Now can we go inside faker?"
"But you've… you mean to tell me… you weren't defending yourself from me, because Amy wouldn't approve of our behaviour?"
"What was your first hint? As much as I'd like to, beating the hell out of you won't get me any closer to her man. No dice." His expression twisted into many things, but it landed on a rather sour note of pain.
"You won't fight me because she shows an interest in me."
"No. I won't fight you because ya just scared her, idiot. And we're going back in there fine like it was a false alarm- though I might need to hit the dudes room, seeing you can't seem to resist hitting people in the face. The last thing she's going to want to see on either of us is blood. It's not sexy. Got that angst fest?" He was staring without seeing, his eyes over-brimming with turmoil, and then they were gorging into my own with a frenzied mish-mash of dark emotion.
"So then it is true. Admit it. You do love her. Don't you hedgehog?" It was the one time through the whole ordeal that I felt the need to hide my eyes, tear my gaze away from Shadow's intrusive glare.
"Look, pal. What I feel doesn't matter coz she's going to pick who she wants and that's that. And she wouldn't think much of either of us if we're out here kickin' the shit out of each other. Which is why I'm not fighting you tonight, Shadow." I kicked the back door leading back into the club open, tossing one more sharp glare over my shoulder.
"Because I'm the better man."
As the door slowly began to seal its way shut again, I caught the explosion of expressions and emotions that scattered across his features. Shock, shame, realization, aggravation, loathing, even a touch of embarrassment… one thing I didn't see, was that smug fire kindling in his eyes that had dragged the two of us out here in the first place.
[Sally was right…] My work here was done.
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I made my entrance back into the club as quiet as possible, and I spotted Amy sitting with the group at the table. They all seemed well out of awareness, laughing as if they were all seated smack dab in the middle of a comedy club. Yet Amy held a distressed expression entangled to her features, glancing worriedly around- clearly for any sight of myself and Shadz.
I hurried into the men's washroom, and checked out the damage.
Remarkable.
Could nothing taint this handsome face? I grinned at my own reflection with a sense of relief, the only evidence of the scuffle in the form of a small trickle of dried blood on the left corner of my mouth. I saw to it at my unbeatable speed, and raced back out to the floor with a renewed swagger of confidence. When Amy spotted me moving through the people to the table, she unclenched her tensions and smiled openly. I flashed her my trademark and seated myself across from her- yeah, I'd fight fair. I would be a gentleman and play this too cool. Of course I wouldn't be a jerk and take the seat next to her- I'd surrender that to her date. I was shocked by my own crafty calculations, especially whilst I was partially intoxicated. Then I waited for her to ask the question she was going to ask me. I knew what she was going to ask me, before I even looked up at her.
"Where's Shadow?"
I cracked another smile, and I kept it from looking smug. I couldn't help it. I was so damn pleased I never gave in to one of his banters for once. I didn't know where he was, but that was irrelevant now. I had indeed looked up at her, and was reminded of why I'd so gallantly backed out. And there went my ego side, running as it usually does around Amy. I felt my hand go to the back of my head without remembering I asked it to.
"Sonic…" She said warningly then, and I realized she misinterpreted my shyness for a guilty expression. It was then that it occurred to me that I was staring, and I hadn't even answered her.
"Oh!" I exclaimed, coming back to my senses as I dropped my arm. "He's fine, he should be-"
"Right here." His voice shot through my spine and grasped it rigidly. I hadn't been expecting him quite so soon, but looks like this was going to kick off sooner than usual. Amy observed with a muted look of troubled curiosity the exchange of our eyes meeting, feeling the tension. I continued to watch him shamelessly as he took his seat, arm coming around her as he turned his attentions to her. Silver and Mighty had stopped talking, and instead were viewing the trio of us with wide, cautious eyes- specifically the black and red arm slung over Amy's shoulder.
Now this, was an awkward situation.
This, was a lot trickier than defeating an Eggman trademark.
There's nothing solid to attack, no substance to spin dash through, snuffing out the problem with a grandeur explosion.
Oh, God… can't a three ton robot just put my head through a couple brick walls and call it a day?!
"Forgive my absence. As you can see, you had no reason to feel concerned." He assured her, and she was smiling appreciatively at him when I grumbled
"I'm flippin' concerned-"
"Sonic!" She hissed reproachfully, embarrassed, and Shadow chuckled at my instantaneous grumpiness.
"Maturity was never your strong point, was it hedgehog?"
"While we're pointing out flaws, did you know that you don't blink? Or smile. Jeez, you should get that checked out dude-"
"Sonic man, y-you're bein' drunk." Knuckles huge mitt came down rather noisily beside me, as Amy and I were exchanging a myriad of expressions- many of hers were warning. Many of mine were simply me suppressing laughter. Shadow looked dully at the clearly drunk echidna, unimpressed as Mina tested the table leg nearest to Knuckles. She found it was now loosened from his mighty strength. "Dude, y-you've… you've totally had enou- Rouge? Rouge, did I ever tell you…" A mitt swooped in the air, and Mina ducked with a loud bark laugh "…your outfits…" he blanked for a second, before shoving a finger in Mighty's face "and I've known Mighty for like, ever man, and… Sonic it's always your fault when Angel Island hit's the ground!" He warbled accusingly, with his head folded into his other arm, a massive, ridiculous grin plastered across his face. "And you're still my brother, you- you jackass!" Throughout the raucous screams of laughter I heard Rouge's amused drawl: "Come on, gorgeous. Time to force some water on ya." And she dragged the red fool to the bar, the both of them tittering like grade school students sneaking in to a forbidden party stomp. When I turned my attentions back to the group, Shadow was keeping an eye curiously tuned in to me, and I noticed his hand was loosely entwined with Amy's.
He's looking for it. He wants trouble in a bad way.
IT'S WORKING!!
Keep cool, Sonic.
Please, don't bite the bait.
"You think you have anything on this girl in a chug out? Blaze, back me up here!" Mina's upbeat voice thundered across the table.
"I could drink Silver under the table. And still have to end up taking care of him."
"BLAZE!" His defiant roar, followed by tussling, indicated a booth side battle had fired up.
"You'll still be sipping through the first layer guaranteed, with your stupid little finger stuck off by the time I hit the bottom…"
And bada boom, it was so sudden it almost made me jump- it was the moment I had been waiting for. All night, I had absently hoped this time would come- but the best part of it was, you never knew when the DJ would spring it on you.
I heard the familiar scratch of the DJ abruptly tearing a record from the needle.
And then, the unmistakable catchy remix of The Ironside theme by Quincy Jones flared up.
Just when I found my eyes unable to stop flickering between the people who were speaking, and the pink and black hands lightly joined… my calling came and rescued me from this.
YES!!
Before Amy managed to get the words to me, her mouth opening with that 'what's up?' furrow in her brow. Before Shadow's egging could get the better of me, and I was no longer resisting the urge to take him out and add some blue to that black.
I was standing abruptly, and everyone at the table looked at me as oddly, if I were wearing a wedding dress. Of all the people I liked at this table, I turned to Shadow with an abrupt challenge.
"You ready to battle or are you too old for this shit?" I think Amy's jaw might have hit the table.
Shadow merely raised his brows, leaning in with interest.
"Battle? You mean…" Shadow didn't get the opportunity to finish before Vector's dominating screeches polluted the air.
"Okaaaay, I wanna see some crazy Mobian sneakers scuffing the cardboard pronto! We're bringin' in tonight's break dance challenge at high pace with Dynamite Rave, B4 ZA Beat Mix by Naokiiii!" As cheers rose over the strobe lights and glowing walls, both scarlet and emerald sets of eyes now burned with intrigue.
As the two of us locked eyes with a heated undercurrent of challenge, a super paced song exploded onto the scene like a firecracker in the atmosphere.
"WOOO!! I am so not missing this! We've got the best seats next to the battle stage!" Mina cheered with great enthusiasm, leaping to her feet along with Mighty.
"I haven't seen you do this in a lonnnggg time, man! You sure you still got it yourself?" Silver teased, an arm still cradling Blaze near as the pair of them joined us on the trot to the dance floor. Amy was the most peculiar of all: it was as if she were trying to read me, trying to understand my mood. I pfted at Silver's question, turning to give him an eye roll.
"Am I blue? Are we drunk? Is Eggman a gargantuan, ill fitted eye stingin' son of a b-"
"Bringing in our first two contestants of the evening, whoa! Looks like we've got our reigning champ in the house tonight defending his title! Here comes the blue blur Sonic the Hedgehog, and his challenger tonight, Shadow the hedgehog! Lets see some cardboard take a serious thrashing!"
"Well, Shadow? Ladies first!" My smile tipped to one side indulgently, making space for Shadow to pass me on the way to the break dance floor. Tall dark and emo shot a stabbing glance my way before tossing back a cocky grin of his own.
"For the record… don't say I didn't warn you, hedgehog." And with that, Shadow claimed the cardboard.
"Oh-HO! It's beyond on!" I cackled, then surrendered my cell phone. "Silver, would you mind?"
"My pleasure." Silver snickered as he snatched the item from my hand, and made his way with me to the edge of the battle ground.
"No prank calls."
"Fine…" He said dejectedly, folding his arms. "But I was dying to call Rotor and say something dirty. You would've loved it, too."
"You're such a guy!" Blaze scolded, shoving at Silver playfully. I now stood impatiently as I waited my turn on the edge of the board, pulling up my socks and snapping my gloves.
"Ever see him dance Sonic?" Silv perked up again, inquisitive. "I haven't. Think you stand a chance?"
"You must be kidding!"
"Have fun Sonic!" Amy trilled excitedly, arm in arm with Mina Mingoose.
"No worries Amy, This'll be a sinch." I directed my eyes to Shadow as he was about to begin.
The beat pulsated through the crowd, and without even missing one thump of it, Shadow launched himself like a graceful predator onto the sprawl of cardboard. He spiralled gracefully, like the bizarre hypnosis of a gothic themed dreidel. His spinning was so vigorous, the red seemed to smudge and blur into an endless stripe along the blackness of his quills. He snapped out of the spin into a one handed-hand stand, before using it to launch himself into the air for an acrobatic display. His jet shoes let out a booming gust that made the crowd gasp, and then he was on his feet again. Unexpectedly he began to drop forward, slow, as if challenging the very essence of gravity itself. He let himself fall into his palms, raising himself straight into the air with non-existent difficulty. He shot one arm out and spun himself fully once, before he back flipped into the air. He landed beside me with his mouth curling into a deviant Cheshire grin, as if he had me stumped. I retaliated with a boastful smirk of my own, turning to our friends before submitting.
"I suggest you guys order yourselves some drinks and get comfortable. This just might be interesting for once!" I quirked one brow, perfectly arching in blatant instigation. "This might take a while… but step aside, light weight. No titles are changin' here tonight." I cackled at my challenger, moving him. I finally got to throw myself to the cardboard- I can still hear the cheering ringing in my ears.
---
"Hey guys, check it out! Sonic and Shadow are duelling!" Mina mused to the two seated at the groups established booth.
"And you're not dead!" Silver teased Knuckles, who after a sat down and a few glasses of water was a little more coherent- not to mention glowering. "I betted you'd be gone long ago but Blaze-"
"SHHH!" Blaze elbowed Silver roughly, making Rouge snort with laughter at the comment.
"Are you gonna take that from this twerp Knuckles? He's calling you a light weight!"
"Kid, please." Knuckles cackled, shoving Silver's shoulder playfully. "Your hairdo could hold more liquor than you, you don't want to go against this kind of champion!"
Silver sat with mouth agape in offence, and Blaze was now half sprawled over the table top, arms spread over the surface as her body wracked with laughter. It was then that Rouge raised a hand to usher over a waitress.
"Well we'll see who's left able to walk out of here- there's only one way to test a table of ego's. An order of Caribou Lou's for me and my entourage- three that are AWOL, it's getting hot up in here so we might as well stop feeling all together…" Rouge fanned her chest with a tempting smirk sliding Knuckles way, and his own smile was quite indulgent.
"Lou's? That's 151 proof!" Mina gasped, making Rouge snicker.
"I know what we're getting into, honey."
"Oh, God!" Mina hacked out a laugh. "Fine. This probably won't be pretty!"
"About time someone ordered a real drink. Are you trying to end yourself and your pals little girl, or are you just trying to get me tanked?" Knuckles teased the bat, and Silver and Mighty thumped the table defiantly.
"S'cuse me? I could take you without even having to touch you, Knuckie. Booze is one thing, but battling? You can't even hold your own against blue." Silver boasted, and the echidna broke into a smirk.
"No boxes around? Nope? Guess that's a no dice, mini man."
"MINI man?! Who needs boxes when I can just send you on a free fly?"
"Gonna introduce me to a brick wall?"
"It'll be happy to make your acquaintance." Silver snorted, and the two smacked each other about the shoulders in a manly gesture. Blaze rolled her eyes with a smile, and Rouge sighed with her.
"Boys…"
"Hey I've gone head to head with you before Knux, you watch yourself!" Mighty challenged, and the girls exchanged a hopeless look around the table as the new drinks inhabited the table top.
"Should we wait for the other hogs?" Silver raised his brow, only to find Knuckles eyeing him guiltily, snout already into his own. Everyone guffawed, and Silver reached out to claim his own.
"Guess that answers my question…"
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I executed a revving spin dash on my fourth run on the cardboard, before exploding out of it into a Zulu spin. I spiralled into the air, executing several back flips before diving into a tripod spin. I threw myself out of it into a one hand handstand before snapping backwards to my feet, whirling toward the floor and executing a blinding corkscrew. It was around the time that I started in at my lightening swipes manoeuvring that Vector began to lose it.
"Whoa, sweet Jesus! Anyone else able to keep up with this, because… I-I think I'm gonna be…" Vector abruptly leapt from the DJ booth, and with his hands over his mouth, fled for the direction of the little men's room. He erupted from the WOMEN'S room not 3 minutes later, screaming and being chased down by an extremely displeased lady wallaby. I moon walked from the center of the cardboard, and when I reached the railing I collapsed against it in laughter, Amy and Shadow joining in at the episode. I shook my head, reaching for Shadow- who bore a taken aback expression when I hauled him over the railing into the center of the cardboard.
"You're actually a piece of work, Shadow. I can't deny it." I rose his arm into the air, giving him a sideways smirk. "I wouldn't mind sharing my title with someone with as many boss moves as you. Where the hell did you find time to break dance on the ARK?"
"You'd be surprised by the multitude of events you find yourself engaged in whilst bored in space. But I must decline." He bowed elegantly at me, holding out a hand to put me on display as he backed off the cardboard. It left me dumbfounded as the crowd watched on with interest. "You are truly the winner in this round, hedgehog. And I must be on my way as it is- the night is shortening, and…" Over the roar of the crowd, it was very easy to miss this part- and I would have, had it not been directed at me. He leaned in to me ever so discreetly then, low enough so that I may be the only one who could tune in: "I have my sights set on other prizes this evening, Sonic." He called me by name for one of the first times, as an effort to give me that extra slap, before moving back to stand by Amy. My fists clenched into themselves so tightly, I felt the joints crack in protest.
That son of a bitch.
Was he making it his goal to get something out of her before the night was out?
My mind was off and running, tearing through possibilities and terrors, careening on a reckless course that rivalled my own speed…
If I wasn't accepting my break dance award for the millionth time in this club, I think I might have laid him out then and there.
The power was infuriating.
The power that he had over me then, making me feel trapped in my own secrets.
He knew something about me that Amy did not- he had deciphered my feelings for her through my actions- watched me sacrifice something I wanted for her peace of mind. For her cause, I chose to migrate from an instigator to a peacekeeper.
Why is it that the people you despise always seem to discover the most about you?
I watched as he turned to face her, and in the haze it was as if a dramatized, slowed version of what was really happening played before my eyes.
Please don't let this work PLEASE don't let this work…
"Amy, I'm quite tired- I hope you don't mind if we call this a night? I came as your date, I would prefer not to leave you here to your own devises. It would give me peace of mind to know you arrived home safely. I can give you a ride if you like." He spoke in his calm, rough voice, arms folded as a picture of demure cool. It sounded so damn innocent. How could she read anything devious out of that? He was so crafty, so freakin' clever. I was envious of his ability to maintain his cool around her- for whatever reason, whenever I got near her, my cool seemed to slide off like a satin sheet down my back. All that was left was me.
I never realized what a desperate expression I was wearing until Amy glanced at me, and then gauged my look with a worried frown. She moved toward me, an arm outstretched until it connected with one of my own.
"Sonic, congratulations on winning, you were fantastic!"
"Thanks, Amy…" Shadow was glaring at me from behind now, and the way my cheeks began to rouge. "Are you, goin'?" I looked at her almost helplessly now, and I felt awful for this because I knew I was putting her in a rock and a hard place. But I couldn't bear it. I know I would surely lose my mind, mulling over what they might do on the walk home, what ideas he might get, or if she'd even go home at all…still, her choice was her own.
"I did come here with Shadow, Sonic- please understand, it- it wouldn't be right…" She was hissing a whisper quickly into my ear now, her grip on my arm sliding into my hand, holding it ever so briefly in an act of comfort. When I boldly met her eyes, at my wits end, I felt a grip of determination overpowering my sense and reasoning. My hand squeezed hers in an effort to keep her near. Amy… "Please don't go." I whispered, ever so quiet- feeling every bit as pitiful as it must have sounded. This was it, now. There was no more ego's or cover ups, there was no desire to hide behind my bashfulness, there was no more character being played for others. I was just me, the person I was before I'd become a great hero and legend- I was a lonely person, plain and simple, who could feel complete with the company of one- and only one person. She delved into my eyes now, her own a mammoth display of conflict. Her fingers trembled in my own, and I could see she was truly torn now- she was seeing things on my face for the first time, things she'd never deciphered there before through the facades. She was seeing me, and she could see I was actually feeling delicate- something I had never felt until these past few weeks. But I could also see confusion in her. She appeared to be begging the question: Why? Why do you want me to stay? "Sonic…" She whispered tightly, caressing my fingers in an act of adulation. Then squeezing her eyes shut, she withdrew her hand from me, and clutched it to her chest with great difficulty. She opened her eyes again, and this time her expression read pain. Stung. Shadow was coming nearer now, sensing the tension, and he gently placed his arm in hers. She was still staring at me with those burning eyes, as if I'd done her injustice. "Please, don't be selfish." Was all she managed, pressing her lips into a firm line, though her eyes burned on with vigorous fury. She turned from me then, swift and hurried- I knew now that part of her wanted to stay here with me. "Until tomorrow, blue hedgehog. Take care…" Oh yeah oh yeah I've fallen down --- I looked back and I watched him reached for her, unthinking and blind, as if I were robbing him of his security blanket. I couldn't tell if it were my arm or Amy's that had started in with the quaking. I saw Sally Acorn, seated at her perch by the bar, watching me with a sympathetic face. What I wasn't prepared for, was what was waiting to happen once we passed through those doors- into the unusually blackened shroud of the night… --- --- Wow, this chapter was suuuuuuch a handful to straighten away, it was unbelievably difficult to put up as it was, this is my fifth time trying to post it properly! Song Lyrics: Love is a Stranger - Eurythmics
She seemed to decide that for herself.
But the biggest part of her misunderstood the passionate need I was expressing to be against Shadow's wishes, like I would go this far to defy him.
As opposed to being about her. She honestly didn't believe that this was anything to do with her.
And if this were my ego side, yes, that would be plausible.
But it's me, Amy. It's just me! I'm not pretending anything, this isn't for anybody else but you, can't you see that in me?! Can't you look deeper?!
But it was already too late for that.
She really did believe that I didn't feel for her, after all.
And I'd run out of time to change that now.
Shadow turned back to me, smirking as they started on their way to making a departure.
There's no use faking
And everyone in this old town
Can hear me raging
Oh yeah you call yourself my friend?
Don't get your back up
I guess we'll find out in the end
Who's the real bastard…
Shadow's POV
As if I were taking something beloved from him.
She didn't see that.
But I looked back, and I did.
I saw the unmistakable look in his eyes, wearing the face of someone who was being robbed of something direly precious to them.
I knew that look well.
It haunted my dreams many nights, my own face in the reflection of the capsule, desperate and frenzied in my need to protect the person who meant more than everything…
Automatically, in rolled that dirty feeling- and I rejected it almost as quick as it came.
She's been here for years, it's not like he hasn't had his chance… I thought stubbornly.
I caught one last lingering look from one more face in the club, before the metal door holding in the intoxicating noise fell silent.
And she shook her head back and forth slowly, closing her eyes- shame on me- before the darkness and muffled quiet of the night consumed the two of us.
You went away, because you said you couldn't love me
So I went away, because all I do is, love you
Well I don't think we have to be like this forever…
Is there more to life than love, and being together?
AUUGHHH!! XD I hate to stop here but I must! So I have already jump started the next part, I'm so hyped to get into the thick of this story. We're coming to the boiling point, so hold on and get ready to leave the hilarity and comforting haze of the club- we're about to get a bitter shot of reality…
Oh Yeah! - The Clicks
You Went Away - Tegan & Sara