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Finn was exhausted. He had been away from Rachel for a month and every day was getting harder to be away from her. She was six months pregnant. He got letters from her every day just like she had promised. He wrote her in return. They sent pictures back and forth. He loved getting belly pictures and seeing what his sons were doing to her. He knew she was having a difficult time with the cravings and mood swings, but that still didn't stop him from thinking she was the most beautiful woman in the world.
Puck came in and sat on the bed. He said, "Hey man. What is going on?"
"I'm just thinking about Rachel and the boys. They are going to be here in three months. Puck, I'm going to be a dad in three months, but I'm not going to be able to see them until they are a month old. Life isn't fair. I just want to be a good dad. I really screwed that up. I'm putting myself in the same danger my dad did. Look what good that did. I never had a dad. I don't want that to happen to Chris and Houston. I really don't want what happened to ma to happen to Rach. My mom was so sad for so long."
"Stop that. You are not going to be a bad dad. You are going to be an amazing dad. You are amazing. We all know you love Rachel. Anyone with eyes that work can see that the two of you are meant for each other."
"Thanks man. I just don't know what I am going to do. I know me being gone is really hurting Rach. Every time I call she cries. I hate to hear the pain in her voice. I love talking to her, but to know that I am causing her so much pain hurts my heart."
"I know man. When I talk to Quinn she tells me how down Rach is with us gone and it is hard to think of her as anything but bubbly. We will be back before long. Then she can get back to being herself. It is going to be hard for things to get back to the way they were, but they will. The two of you will have the little boys."
"Yeah. Thanks for helping me get through this, man."
"You are helping me out, too. We are going to be back to our girls soon."
"Your girl?"
"Don't play dumb, Hudson. You and I both know that you know about us. Quinn and I have been sending letters back and forth. I use practically all my calls to call and talk to her. I know I sound all cheesy or what not, but we are finally making things work. I just wish we could have made things work two years ago and kept our little girl. Dude, you are really lucky that you have a great girl and get to keep your kids. You have no idea how hard it is to meet your daughter, watch the girl you love hold her and then see her go home with someone else. I know I was a bad person back then, but I would have changed for her."
"You would have been a good dad, Puck. I know you are going to be an amazing godfather to my boys. You are going to teach them a ton of stuff that Rach and I will probably wish you didn't, but I know you won't ever let anything happen to them. You are going to be a great dad some day."
"Thanks man. I will always be here for you and your kids. I just see you and Berry having a house full of little Finchel babies."
Finn gave him the death glare. He said, "Hey! It's Hudson know."
Puck snorted. "Oh yeah. I forgot for a minute."
The two of them playfully punched each other before getting called to go back for training. The two of them hated their decision to enlist more and more every day.
Rachel came in after school. She quickly went to change her clothes before she had to be at the daycare for the afternoon. She was lucky enough to get a job at a local daycare that would give her free childcare when the babies came. She knew that would really help after looking up the cost of having daycare for two children at this time.
Quinn came out of the bathroom and said, "Hey Rach."
Rachel looked at her and said, "You look awful. Are you okay?"
"Yeah. I think I have a stomach bug. It is going around at school. I don't want you getting too close. I don't want anything to happen to you, Chris and Houston."
"Don't worry about it. I have to be at the daycare in twenty minutes anyway. If you need anything call me. I can pick it up on my way back from the daycare. I'll be home at four. Finn is supposed to call today."
Quinn bit her lip and told Rachel, "Could you tell him to have Puck call me?"
Rachel walked over to her and said, "You don't have a stomach bug, do you?"
Quinn lowered her head and shook it no. She started to cry and said, "It's our second baby. I can't give up this one. I don't know if he will want it, but I can't hand this one over to someone else. I know Shelby was the right thing for Beth, but I can't give this one away. I just can't do it. I'll raise them alone if I have to."
Rachel wrapped her arms around Quinn like Quinn had done for her so many times before. She said, "You won't be going at it alone. Puck loves you. He will want to be in this baby's life. He hates that the two of you gave Beth up. He talks about her all the time. He really wishes he would have had the chance to be her daddy."
"I took that away from him. I didn't realize what it would do to us. I don't know how he is going to feel about this. He is a better guy than anyone gives him credit for. I don't know if he will want this baby. I don't know if he will want you."
Rachel gave her a squeeze. "You know he will want you and your baby. I'll be back by four. We can talk more if you want to. I need to get to work before I'm late."
"Thanks, Rach." The two of them said goodbye.
Rachel had just gotten the kids down for a nap with her coworker, Emily. Then her cell phone rang. She said, "This should be my husband from training camp. I'm going to go take this in the break room. I'll be there if you need anything."
Emily told her, "Take all the time you need. I have this covered."
Rachel answered the phone as she walked in the break room, "Hey baby."
Finn said, "Hi honey. How are you feeling? Is everyone doing okay?"
"We are all fine. Your sons are taking after you. They are bigger than they should be for a person my size. The doctor said at this rate I will have to be induced two or three weeks early."
"Is that safe for them?"
"Yes. Finn, he knows what he is doing. Twins don't normally make it full term anyway. You have nothing to worry about. They are just going to be two weeks older than they would have been originally when you get to meet them for the first time. They don't let me forget that they are there. They are going to be soccer players or football goal makers."
Finn laughed at her attempted. "That's a kicker, baby."
"Yeah. They are going to be good ones of those. I miss you so much."
"I miss you, too. We have one month down. Four more to go."
"That is four too many. Mom is coming this weekend to go shopping with me. She and Burt have decided that they are going to buy the things for the nursery, much to my protesting. They want to allow us more money."
"That is really nice of them. You will have to send me pictures of the nursery when everything is sat up so I can see what our sons are going to come home to. The next time I am going to be there through it all. I will paint the nursery, set up all the furniture and hold you all the time."
Rachel sniffled. "I know you will, baby. We are going to get through this. You are amazing. I am so proud of you. So, Quinn wanted me to tell you to get Puck to call her with his phone call this week."
"Okay… Is everything okay?"
"Yeah. She really needs to talk to him."
"Is she going to let her feelings be known?"
"That is between her and Puck."
"And you."
"You will know soon, Finny. It isn't my place to say. I love you for caring so much about us back here."
"It is my job. I have to go. Give that beautiful belly an extra rub for me. I'll be writing you and talking to you. I love you, Rach."
"I love you too, Finn." The two of them said their sad goodbyes that came every week. It was the saddest part of their conversation. Neither of them wanted anything more than to be with the other.
Finn had just hung up with Rachel. Puck came in and asked, "How is little momma doing? Quinn taking care of her?"
"Rachel and the boys are good. She said the doctor might induce her two or three weeks early because they are big. I guess they are going to take after me. I just hope they don't have to cut Rach open or anything. I know how much she hates needles and all that stuff."
"She will be fine. Did she say anything about Quinn?"
"She said Quinn wanted you to call her about something. She wouldn't tell me what it was about. There was something off. You need to call her and see what is going on."
"I'm going to go call her now. I'll let you know what she says. That is freaking me out. I don't know what she is going and I don't know if I am going to want to know. What if she found another guy? What if the kiss we had when we left was just a kiss and nothing else?"
"You aren't going to know unless you call her and ask. I'm sure it is going to be fine. I bet there is nothing for you to worry about."
Puck left Finn and went to a private, quiet place. He dialed Quinn's number and waited for her to answer. He had never been so nervous about anything. He didn't know what was going to come out of the conversation he was about to have.
Quinn was sitting the living room holding the pregnancy test. The word that she had seen two years ago was in her face yet again. She had tears in her eyes when she looked down and saw: PREGNANT. She was trying to come to terms with it when her cell phone rang. She knew it would be Puck.
She answered the phone with a soft sniffle, "Puck?"