Chapter 9: Welcome to Claryland
I don't even know where I am. I'm lost!
Urggghh…I just need to be alone right now. I'm so confused about this. I mean on one hand I just like Remus as a friend. But on the other hand I want to be more then friends.
I've never even had a boyfriend before. I know hard to believe right? Huh…I don't know what this is supposed to feel like! Help me God!
Oh no somebody's coming. And they're calling my name! It's Remus! I ran down the hallway at lightning speed until I found a door. I opened it up and it was just a freaking closet.
"Barmy closet" I whisper-yelled and I kicked the bottom shelf. Suddenly the shelves swung back like another door and revealed a large circular room. I was hit by a cool gust of wind. "What the hell?"
I ran inside it and closed both the doors. I turned around. Where the bloody hell am I? The circular room was very large and completely empty. The ceiling must have been thirty feet up. It was completely lined with huge windows that revealed tall green mountains and a beautiful sunset. Golden curtains hung on the windows.
This is impossible. I'm in the middle of the castle! How can I be looking outside if I'm nowhere near outside? And it is still the morning! How can there be a sunset at eleven o'clock in the morning.
Oh wait! Silly me! This is Hogwarts! There must be a million secret rooms like this! Cool! I found a secret room. I must be awesome or something! Point for Clary! I am officially making this my secret hide out! I shall call it Claryland!
Okay maybe I shouldn't call it that. Oh, I'll figure something out.
I remember Remus telling me about a secret room the Marauders found back in their second year.
Remus…what am I going to do? Maybe I'll tell him how I feel...no that'll ruin everything. But I can't just go on pretending everything's okay, because it's not for Merlin's sake!
I just wish I could have more time to think! I just wish he'd go away for a few days and then once I'm sure of what to do he can come back! That's a good idea, right?
Oh, I'm hopeless!
I walked over to one of the windows. It is gorgeous outside. Suddenly music started to play. Beautiful music it was! I turned around and there was a harp in next to the window across from me. How had I not noticed it before?
I walked over to the harp. There was nobody playing it. It was playing itself….strange. The music was absolutely amazing though. I sat down on the floor and listened for a while. It was calming and helped me just escape from my thoughts. This place was fantastic. I must have sat there for an hour until I realized I might miss lunch. I got up and ran out the door.
I started to make my way back up to the common room. I have to tell everyone about the Harp Room!
…Or maybe I shouldn't…yet. I mean it's such a nice place to just get away. Maybe it should be my little secret for now. Oh I know it's selfish, but I just feel like…it's not the kind of thing you share with everyone, you know what I mean? So it's official! That room is my secret hideaway! Yay!
And I have made up my mind about Remus! Sitting in that Harp Room for an hour has really given me a broader outlook on life. I feel much wiser, you know what I mean? Therefore I will just….hide for the next few days.
Okay maybe it's a dumb idea but it's all I've got! And I don't mean hide as in crouching under tables and whatnot…because that would be foolish.
I mean trying to avoid him at all costs! That's much smarter!
Merlin I cant believe I'm doing this, but I have no choice! Just until I know what to do. I hope Remus won't be mad at me.
I walked into the common room to find who other than…Remus, of course! My plan isn't really off to a good start!
He was sitting reading a book and as soon as he saw me come in he jumped up and ran over to me. "Clary, what is going on? Where have you been?" he said.
"Nothing, I just went for a walk" I said anxiously.
"Is everything okay?" he asked realizing something was wrong.
"Fine, it's all good" I said trying my hardest to sound normal. I just want to get out of here.
"Oh, okay" he said still not buying it. "Well I was just about to go down to lunch. How about you come with me?" he said.
"Ummmm…I'm actually gonna skip lunch today. I'm not feeling so well" I lied. Gosh it feels terrible to lie to him like this.
"Oh" he said disappointedly. "I'll see you later then Clary" and he walked away. Oh Merlin, I feel horrible! Why did I have to play stupid Spin the Bottle? Why did the stupid bottle land on me? I honestly would have been much happier kissing Sirius! I can't believe I just said that!
I'm going crazy!