(Phil's POV)
I pulled away not sure how far I should take this. I knew I didn't want to be the one to take advantage of Dan while he was drunk. I could never do that to my best friend or to anyone for that matter.I take a moment to gather myself and take his hand guiding him to his bed.
"Drink some of this before you pass out" I say handing him the water bottle.
"Yeah, yeah" he says still un-phased by our kiss. He chugs half the bottle and tosses it on the other side of the bed and immediately passes out.
I pull out my phone to check the time and see it's already one in the morning. I probably should stay here with Dan. I'll sleep in the couch I guess. Couldn't be worse than my bed that's practically falling apart at home. I lay down on the couch trying to find a comfortable position, but that doesn't exist when you're over six feet. I open tumblr and start scrolling until I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore.
I guess I decided the floor would be better than the small couch. I still was going to feel sore either way. I sit up leaning up against the couch wondering what time it was. I could hear Dan snoring away across the room as well as my phone beeping. I'm able to get a quick glance of the time before it died. It was eleven something. I get up and stretch before I grab a menu to order breakfast. After calling in the order I rummage in Dan's bag for a charger.
While waiting anxiously for the food I think about if I should tell Dan about the kiss or just leave it alone. If I tell him he might get mad at me for letting it happen which will only pull us further apart. If I don't tell him and he forgets that will still leave us at the point we're at. Either way I don't win. I still don't know what do when I hear the knock on the door. I gather myself and open the door to get the food.
"Hey, Dan are you awake?"
He didn't respond so I decided to start eating since Dan would kill me if I woke him up especially after drinking so much. I take a couple bites before putting my plate down. I couldn't eat, not right now. I needed to know what Dan's intentions were when he kissed me. My phone beeps and there's a text from an unknown number, "Hey you probably don't know me, but I just wanted to ask you something. Please text me back."
With no clue who this person was I respond, "Yeah. What is it?"
Right away the message was read as if whoever it was had the conversation open anxiously waiting for a response. I was now doing the same. Those three dots kept going then suddenly stop before I get the next message, "I think Dan is in love with you."
My heart felt like it skipped a beat when I read that. I don't even know who this could possibly be. Not anyone we both know that's for sure.
"Who is this and what do you even mean? Dan couldn't possibly love me. We're just friends."
It felt so wrong to say that Dan could never love me even though deep down I always knew it was true.
"Not you too. You're both so in denial about it. It's not even cute anymore. Just confess to him already. You love each other nothing bad will happen."
"What are you even talking about? You don't even know me. Tell me who you are."
"Fine. I don't think Dan ever told you, but I'm Alexis. I've been going out with Dan. We knew each other from university. When I noticed how close you two were I had to break it off. I didn't want to ruin a perfectly good thing…"
"Why should I believe you?"
"Because Phil Lester I know you want this and more importantly I know Dan wants this. "
"How do you know that?"
The message was left on read for the two minutes I waited. I quickly deleted the conversation when I heard Dan finally getting out of bed.
(Dan's POV)
"Phil?"
"Oh hey you're awake. How are you feeling?"
"I'm fine, but what are you doing here" I ask while trying to remember what happened last night.
"I came by to make sure you were okay. You seemed out of it when I called last night."
"Did I post something really embarrassing" I shouted while rummaging through the blankets for my phone.
"Dan calm down. Your phone is on the night stand."
I grab my phone from the table and unlock it only to see the last conversation I had opened with was Alexis. My heart immediately dropped and I was reminded of what happened. I didn't want to eat I just wanted to go home where there's good internet.
"Hey, Dan are you okay? I ordered us food."
"I'm still blind to who I really love" I said out loud not realizing it until Phil looked at me confused.
"What was that?"
I didn't want to repeat it again, but I had to.
"I'm blind to who I really love" I say still trying to figure out what she meant.
"Who do you really love" Phil asked and took a couple steps closer and in that moment I remembered what happened last night.
I completely ignored his question, "Did we kiss" I asked softly as I started squeezing the pillow with anger and fear. Phil's face immediately turned red and he headed towards the couch.
"Phil Lester, answer me. Did we kiss?" I ask and stand up then following him closely behind.
"Yes, we kissed."
"Who kissed who" I asked nervously.
"Are you sure you want to know."
"I wouldn't ask if I didn't want to know. Phil please just tell me already!"
"You kissed me" he said under his breath like he was scared of my reaction.
"I was drunk okay? It didn't mean anything" I respond blaming my actions on the alcohol.
"Yeah I know" Phil spoke in monotone as if he didn't even care.
"Nothing else happened right" I asked scared of what the answer could be.
"No, nothing else happened. We should just go home."
I sigh in relief as I start getting ready to leave and grab a bite of toast. Phil does the same and we head home.
(Phil's POV)
On our way home we didn't say a single word to each other. How could I though? Dan kissed me and he acted like it didn't matter. He basically told me he loved me and now I don't even think I can tell him how it really happened. Maybe this is just how it's going to be, maybe if it was meant to be he would have already told me so. This might have been my last chance to confess, but our friendship is worth too much to risk it just like that. This isn't the end though I'm not losing my best friend.