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Chapter 10

Everything has been figured out, except how to live. ~ Jean-Paul Sartre

EMPOV

"Well almost." Edward corrected himself. "Wait a minute were not dead." "Well I'm dead. I don't know about you but seeing as how your talking to me id say its not too good for you." Tommy said. "So were not dead?" I said pointing to myself and Edward. He shook his head and said "Your almost dead." "What's the difference?" I said. "The difference is that you still have a chance. A not so big chance but hey, right now is not the time to be Mr. pick and choose." Tommy said while Edward laughed along with him.

"Why are you two so happy about this? Were dead. Why is that something to laugh about?" I said getting a little upset. "Almost." Edward corrected me. I glared at him till he looked away obviously trying to stifle a smile. "And were not happy. Were not even here. This is just a figment of your imagination so blame yourself. Were in your head." Tommy said. "You guys are bad at this guiding me to heaven thing." I said pulling myself into a sitting position and mentally smiling when I didn't feel pain.

"So what do we do now? Where's the big white light were supposed to walk in?" I said looking around me. "There isn't one. Like I said your not dead." Edward told me. "Ok I get it, I'm not dead yet. Why do you keep saying it?" "Just making sure you know." Edward said. I gave him a look that said he was clearly out of his mind. "Besides you don't wanna go through the light just yet." Tommy said coming to sit closer to me.

"So what do we do, just sit here?" I asked. "No. You don't have to. You can leave if you want." Tommy said. "What do you mean?" I asked confused. "He means that you don't have to stay here. You could go back there." "And how would I do that?" I asked. "You just have to want it bad enough." Edward said. "I do." I said as though it should have been the easiest thing to guess.

"No you don't." Tommy said. I pulled my attention back to him as he said "You gave up, remember. Just as you were about to be saved, you just gave up." I was immediately offended and drew in a breath to defend myself but instead what came out was "How do you know that?" "I'm in your head remember. I'm just saying what you already know." Feeling the need to be a smartass I countered with "If I know it already then why are we sitting here talking about it?"

"Agian im in your head....you must wanna talk about it." He said shrugging his shoulders. "No I dont." I said through clenched teeth. "Okay well what do you wanna talk about?" Edward asked. "I want you to tell me how to get the hell outa here." I nearly shouted. "We already told you." Edward said. I could feel the anger boiling inside me. They were getting on my nerves and giving me a huge headache. I made a mental note to tell them just how bad at this they were when I get outa here. But then that reminded me. "Arent you dead Tommy?" He nodded his head one time as though he knew I was about to ask that.

"Im sorry. I should have stayed." Was all I could say before I looked away from him in shame. "You want me to tell you my truth or your truth which I guess you could say is my truth because I am in your head with your thoughts or woulld you rather me tell you what you wanna hear." A little confused I said "Your truth." I was still looking away from him when he answerd. "Its not your fault. Simple as that." He said. "How could you say that. I could have done so much more to get you outa here. But I didnt. I was too preoccupied with saving my own ass." I said. "No you were to preoccupied trying to save Jaspers ass. And you did good. Hes still alive, and helps on the way. But after that hes on his own."

"Hes hurt pretty bad." I said. "You know Jazz, hes stronger than us three put together and thats really saying something. He'll get through it. He has too much to live for." Id almost forgot that Edward was there. He had been so quiet while me and Tommy were having our conversation. "And so do you." Tommy said pulling me back to what I guess you could call my temporary reality. "Thats why I need you to tell me how to get out of here." I said feeling the anger coming back. "And we told you." Edward said. "Yea well that didnt really help." "Thats because your not listening. You have to want it bad enough." Edward said.

"Trust me I want it." I told him. "No you dont." Tommy said. "How do you know? Nevermind dont answer that." I said not wanting him to tell me he was in my head again. "Look at me Emmett." Edward said. I pulled my attention to him and was taken aback by how close he was. I hadnt heard him get up. "What." I said. "You dont want it." I was beginnig to argue when he held his hand up to silence me. "You stopped fighting. You didnt want it anymore. You were laying there with so much pain that it was all you saw. You didnt think of Rose, Abby,Josh or anybody else. You just wanted the pain to go away." "Wouldnt you?" I yelled.

"Yes." "Then why are you yelling at me for it." I yelled. "Im trying to get you to realize the truth." Edward said surprising me by yelling back. "You sit here and tell me you want it but in your heart you dont. You dont wanna go back there because you dont wanna feel the pain anymore. Im trying to make you understand that theres not much time left and you need to really want to go back and face the pain and the possibility of losing it all. Because thats what could happen. You could go back only to have nothing left. But you have to beleive that someone or something is waiting for you. That needs you."

"Josh and Abby" I muttered. "Yea Josh and Abby and Rose and Alice and Mom..Do I need to go on Emmett? You have something worth going back to. You better hurry, before its to late." "What do I have to do?" I asked. "Admit it." Tommy said. I knew what he was talking about but it seemed to hard to make the words come out of my mouth. "Admit what?" I said instead. "Admit that you gave up. That you didnt want it anymore." Edward said. I took a moment to try and force them out but instead said "Why arent you going back?" "Its not me were talking about. Stop trying to change the subject and say the words Emmett. The faster you say them the sooner you get to leave.

I knew what he was saying was right but I still couldnt get the words to get free of the lump in my throat. The simple words were hard to say. It was like I was admitting to giving up on my family and to wanting to leave them. But I had wanted that. Thats the whole reason we were having this conversation. So why couldnt I say them? Those three small simple words should have been easy for me yet they werent. "Are you gonna leave?" I asked Edward, wanting to know and trying to change the subject at the same time. He gave up arguring with me and said instead "I dont know Emmett, thats up to you." "What do you mean?" I asked confused. "Do you want me to come back?" "Of course I do?" I said.

"Then say the words. Just say the damn words Emmett. Before its too late for both of us." "What are you talking about Edward? I dont even know where you are, how could I help you." The words where hard to say but they were true. I didnt know where he was and I sure couldnt help him even if I wanted too. "You know where I am Emmett." Edward said. I hadnt realized Tommy had gone until I looked around and noticed it was just me and Edward. "No I dont Edward." "Yes you do." Edward said. Instead of argueing with him, instinct took over and I asked "Where are you Edward." "Im right here Emmett, now say the words. We dont have alot of time left." I realized he was getting harder to see. Almost as if he were a ghost. "Say the words Em." Echoed through my mind as Edwrad continued to dissapear. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and whispered "I gave up."

It was as though my whole body had beed electricuted. Within seconds my whole body ached like before. The pain was back. The noise in my ear was back. I felt joy at that. I could hear my heartbeat again. It was faster than normal but it was there. Which meant I was alive. "You cant do that to me Emmett." Jasper said from above me. He was still trapped but I was close enough to him that he could do CPR. He plopped back down on the ground, letting out a gush of air. He picked up the radio and said "I gotem back. Hes alive. Barely." Officer Briggs responded with "Good. Were on our way down to you now. If you listen hard enough you might even be able to hear us." Silence. We could hear the faint noises of men talking and debris being moved out of the way.

I wanted to laugh but my throat was too sore. Instead I just layed there. "Thats gotta be the best sound I heard in a while." Jasper said in his southern accent. He looked over to me and said "If you ever die on me agian im gonna kill you." "Thats kinda chessy you know." My voice was all raspy and weak. It didnt sound like my own. Jasper laughed and said "I just had to do CPR on you, im allowed to be chessy. You shouldnt talk. Your still kinda blue." "How long was I out?" I asked, ignoring his advice. "Not long. A few minutes maybe." I noticed that Jaspers voice was strained. "You still trapped?" I asked.

"Yea. The rocks are to heavy." He said gloomily. Jasper loved his job. He loved being able to help people so his legs meant alot to him. By the tone of his voice I could tell he had givin up on trying to save them. "Hey..your gonna be fine. Theyll get you outa here." I said trying to comfort him. "Thats not what im worried about Em. And you really should relax. I dont think ill be able to do CPR again." Again ignoring his advice I said "Theyll be able to save your legs Jazz. Dont give up. Trust me you dont wanna do that." The words seemed to rush out my mouth without me thinking about them. When they came so did the memory of Edward and Tommy. You know where I am Emmett. His words spinned through my head. I didnt understand what he meant. I had absolutely no clue where he was. Im right here. The words seemed to take over my whole mind and I didnt notice when Jasper was talking to me.

"Em?" He yelled. "Yea." I said weaker than I meant. "You cant keep doing that to me." He said in a sigh. "Sorry." I said regretting that I hadnt taken his advice earlier. I was starting to get tired again. "I can hear them getting closer." Jazz whisperd. "We gotta get Edward outa here." I said. At the sound of his name Jazzs head snapped up. "What are you talking about?" "Hes here." I whispered. "Well of course hes here thats the whole reason were here." He said. "No I mean hes close." "How do you know?" Jazz asked with only a little glint of hope in his voice. "I can feel him. Hes running out of time and hes hurt really bad." I replaced the word see with feel because I didnt want Jazz to think I was crazy.

"Are you sure your ok Em? Maybe you should take a rest." "We both know if I do we dont know if im coming back." I said. "Well you talking like this is kinda weird." "But I know it Jazz. I no hes here. And if we dont get to him hes not gonna make it." I said. "Even if he was here how are we gonna get to him Em? Im trapped you just died and theres no one else here. Even if you wanted to you wouldnt be able to. Half your body is broken Em." "Well I cant just sit here knowing hes gonna die." I yelled. "And you think I can. I cant save both of you Em and I dont think CPR will help this time." He yelled back.

We were letting the frustration get to us. Neither of us wnated to leave without him but there wasnt much we could do. The sound of the men above us was getting closer and in a way I was sad. They would get us out of here but Edward wouldnt be with us. Hed still be down here somewhere fighting for his life. Im right here. His final words to me floated throughout my head as I tried to decipher them. I didnt understand what he had meant. He wasnt anywhere near me. I climbed through the rubble with Hannah on my back and saw no sign of him. What if I passed right over him? What if I had the chance to save him but I just wasnt paying attention? I tried to shake the thoughts out of my head hopeing and praying that it wasnt true.

I winced when I felt the pain. I finally examined myself and was surprised when I noticed that I looked just as bad as I felt. My head, my arms, shoulders, legs, back, chest. It all felt like it was on fire. I wanted to close my eyes against the pain and forget about it but I could feel the throbbing of my pulse throughout my whole body. "You really think hes here?" Jazz said pulling me away from the pain. "Yea." I whispered. Jasper looked at me and said "You dont look to good." "Yea well I dont feel so good either. Hows Hannah?" I asked. "I dont know shes still asleep. I tried waking her but she wont wake up. Shes still breathing though." "Good. Thats good." Was all I could say.

"Jazz, Em? You guys doing ok down there?" Officer Briggs asked over the radio. Jasper picked it up and said "Truthfully not so much. The smoke from all the fires is making it hard to breath. And were all hurt pretty bad." "Hows Hannah?" He asked. "I dont know. Shes still unconcious." Jazz said. "Ok well were almost there. Just hang on." "How long?" Jazz asked. "Whatd you mean?" Officer Briggs responded. "How long till you get to us?" "About 30 minutes maybe." Me and Jazz laid in silence for a few minutes. In less than 30 minutes we'd be free. We'd be able to see our family again. The feeling was too much to describe. My heart exploded with joy and silent tears made there way down my face. I was crying a little too much for my liking today.

"Were going home Em." Jazz whispered. The words left my mouth before I had a chance to think about them. "Edwards not." Jazz was quiet, all joy in the air replaced with sorrow and sadness. I hadnt meant for the words to be spoken but they just came out. I dont know how long we sat there mourning. I had this unsettling feeling in me that was screaming at me not to leave. Edwards words made there way around my head and as if responding to them I felt my body sinking. I was still laying next to Jazz but it felt as though something was pulling me down.

"I think Edwards below us." I said into the darkness. "How?" "I dont know. I just have a feeling. I think its him." I said. "Jasper? Emmett?" Officer Briggs voice was right above us. I tried to yell but was overwhelmed by another coughing fit that again ended in blood. Instead Jazz yelled "YEA WERE RIGHT HERE." "Ok we just have this last peice of debris to move and we'll be able to get to you." Jasper laughed. "Thats the best news i've heard all day." "What about you Emmett? You feeling ok?" Officer Briggs asked me. I took a minute to wait until my chest stopped aching and answerd "No, not really." I said truthfully. "Ok well were almost to you. Dont worry."

How could he ask me not to worry. Edward was still down here and Jasper was pinned. Not to mention Hannah was still unconcious. Worry was all I had right now. It didnt take Officer Briggs and some other guys long to move the peice of debris that was kepping them from us. Once they got through they hurridy put Hannah on a strecher and sent her up. She still hadnt woken up. They wanted me to go next but I refused. Half because Jazz needed more help than me and half because I still felt like I couldnt leave. I still had that feeling that was drawing me downward.

A few men were able to get the rocks off Jazz and got him on the strecher. "I love you bro." He said as they were lifting him upward. "I love you to." I said. "Ok your turn". Officer Briggs said. "Wait." I said. This time it wasnt because I didnt want to go. I heard something. I looked up at Officer Briggs with a panicked expression. The fire had caused the debris we were on to shift. With a loud thundering noise we went down. This cant be happening again. I yelled in my head. Thankfully it wasnt that big of a fall and it stopped before I could yell. Officer Briggs was still next to me.

"You guys ok?" A guy yelled from above. "Yea were fine." He yelled back. "Good. It wasnt that big of a fall so it wont take us long to get to you. Maybe 10 minutes or so. They got the fire taken care of." "OK good." Briggs yelled back breathless. "That was scary." He whispered. "Dont worry im used to it." I mumbled. Briggs laughed and took another deep breath to calm himself. Instinct told me to look around. I could barley see through the darkness but when I squinted I almost cried at what I saw.

"EDWARD" I yelled.

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