Chapter 10

There was no turning back. She couldn't run away. She still couldn't believe she was sitting in her first therapy session. She met her new therapist Dr. Matthews who seems very friendly. Finn and Quinn asked if they could stay inside with her and it was not a problem.

Dr. Matthews was aware of Rachel's past history. She's also aware of what just happened to her. Rachel sat in the middle and held onto Finn and Quinn's hand. "Would you like to tell me about yourself, honey? That way I get to know you more." Dr. Matthews began.

Rachel nods. "I'm Rachel Berry. I'm a mother and a wife. I'm a vocal teacher at Eleanor High School but before that I had huge dreams." Rachel said. She promised she would talk about herself which is always the easy part.

"I wanted to be on Broadway. I wanted to be a famous Broadway star. I wanted to land in every Broadway lead musical. It was who I am. It's my dream, my passion, but I had to give it up."

Dr. Matthews listens to every word she says. "Why?" She asked. Rachel looks at Finn and Quinn for help. "Please don't make me go back. I don't want to talk about my past."

She waited for Dr. Matthews to respond. She knows about Rachel's past but she wanted to see if Rachel would tell her about it herself. "Alright, Rachel." Dr. Matthews says, writing down a few notes. "Do you enjoy with what you are right now?" Dr. Matthews asked.

"I love every minute of who I am and what I do. A teacher, a mother, and a wife...I think for now it's better than Broadway." Rachel responds with full confidence.

"That's what I like to hear. I like to hear full confidence." Dr. Matthews smiles. "Now Rachel, do you know why you're here?" Dr. Matthews asked.

She observes Rachel as she began shaking. She kept staring back and forth to Finn and Quinn. Finn rubs her back and whispers in her ears. "I talked to Finn about this last night. I know why I'm here and I know that I have to talk about it."

Quinn nods her head as she encourages her friend to keep going. "After twenty years in prison, my rapist, and abuser came back for me. Quinn's husband saw him first and then I saw him. I saw him the second time and that's when my life changed. It was my fault because I was angry with my dad's and I stormed out. I called Quinn to meet up at the vegan bakery. I got out of my car and I felt someone grab my arm. It was him. He told me it wasn't over and I said yes it is, please just stop. He asked me, 'why should I? You enjoyed all of it.' I really tried to let go but he grabbed me and threw me into the woods. He said, 'You know you want this.' I kept pleading no and for him to stop. I saw him unzipped his pants and he took his shirt off. He unzippered my jeans and removed my shirt and bra. I couldn't stop shaking. I kept pleading him over and over. He was getting violent. His breath smelt like alcohol. I wanted to escape, I really did...but he pushed me down hard! He said to me, 'This is what I've been waiting for all these years. Rachel Berry, I've missed you.' He touched me everywhere. I screamed at him, 'Please! Stop it! Stop it! Get off!" I hated every minute of it. He asked me if, 'I enjoyed it?' Next thing you know I'm laying on the ground with blood dripping in between my legs." She had to stop right there. She covered her face with her hands and sobbed.

Finn continues rubbing her back and Quinn as well. "They found me." She choked in between her sobs. "I was so lucky they found me. They never heard this story..Only my dads and the cops. I didn't want them to hear!"

Dr. Matthews felt anger inside of her. This young woman is going through so much. She handed her a box of tissue. "Rachel? How are you sleeping at night?"

"I'm not sleeping...I wake up every minute. I keep seeing blood when there is no blood." She said looking down between her legs. "There's no blood?" She asked Finn and Quinn.

Finn closed his eyes and felt fresh tears. "No. There's no blood, baby." He said wiping his tears away.

"I'm so sorry this happened to you. Rachel? I've dealt with a lot of young girls, teens, and woman who is dealing with the same issue as you. They're very traumatized but later on as they see me, they feel like they get their life back on track. I promise you that I will help you get better. You can bring Finn and Quinn any time you come here." Dr. Matthews says.

"I have one thing to say." Rachel said, feeling her body shaking. "Did you know he committed suicide? Did you know that he jumped off a bridge?" Rachel asked. Dr. Matthews was in shocked. Her father's must of left that part of the story out. "There's no way you can help me because I can't fight for my own justice." Rachel said standing up and grabbed her purse. "Can we go now? Please, please...I don't want to talk anymore." Quinn and Finn nod. Standing up.

Rachel leaves the room without thanking Dr. Matthews. "We're so sorry about that." Finn apologizes for his wife.

"It's understandable. Just try and talk to her. I know it's not easy." D r. Matthews gave Finn and Quinn advice. "Can I see her next Friday?" Finn nods. They thank Dr. Matthews and leave the office.

Quinn walked over to Rachel and walked out of the building. Finn stood behind Dr. Matthew's door and leaned against the wall.

He covers his hands and sob uncontrollably.

He felt for Rachel. He felt all her pain.