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Chapter Nine
"I Gave You All My Love, and
All You Gave Me Was Goodbye"

-ELI'S POV-

People tend to believe that love is all it's made out to be - we all have this fairytale image, where we'll fight for the person we want - and this person will eventually come running out to us, on a white horse, telling us that they wouldn't want to be with any one else. Then, the two of you will ride off in to a sunset, to live happily ever after.

That is complete bullshit.

I opened up to Clare, I told her my deepest darkest secret - a secret that I had hid behind all of my emotions and thoughts for so long. I never talk about Julia - not even to my parents - but I managed to open up to some one; to a stranger. I opened up to Clare, and told her every last detail of what happened. I practically handed her my trust and respect - for her to throw it back in my face.

I stand here, my eyes narrowed on two people, my teeth are clenched, as my fists are closed so tight that my knuckles are pure white - I feel like bursting in to flames. Clare and KC are hugging, smiling in each others arms, as if it was their wedding day.

Clare had ran off with me, the previous day. She was running from her family and from KC. I took her to a sacred place, and told her a painful memory - and all she did for me, was show me that KC was what she wanted. We kissed, and she seems to be pretending as if the kiss was erased from her memory.

I felt like dirt - like I was nothing more then a test - Clare had used me, to see if she still loved KC. I know, she never told me that she did that; but I could feel it. Why else would she lay in to my arms, and kiss me with so much passion and fire? It was all an act and Clare was the perfect actress.

Watching those two was unbearable, the pain burned through my veins - and I eventually made the smart decision to walk away from all of this, I couldn't stand to have my eyes on those two for another moment. As I turned to walk away; I had the temptation of running back to Clare, and kissing her - but instead, I continued to walk forward; my eyes remaining staring forward at the empty hallways of Degrassi. Well, they seemed empty at the time, although there were numerous people at their lockers or sitting on the ground.

I suppose that this is how it feels to get completely rejected - you feel like no one else is in the world and that you're completely invisible. I felt like a body with out a heart. I felt so betrayed and hurt. I had never felt this badly about a rejection. For all the other girls, at my old school, if they rejected me or dumped me - I would shake it off, and forget their names.

But for Clare, it was different. All I wanted to do was prove to her that I could be a better boyfriend, then KC could ever even dream of being. I would treat Clare so much better then KC does.

I approached my locker, and was immediately greeted by Adam,

"You look down, what up?" He asked, as he sat on the floor - a comic book in hand. His locker was only a few down from mine, which explained his presence here - he wasn't a locker stalker, or anything of that sort.

"I'm just stupid," I murmured; as I unlocked my locker. I was almost embarrassed by how naive I was, for believing that Clare would actually leave KC for me.

"Why is that?"

"I just am." I wasn't in the mood for details or explanation.

"Dude, you can trust me - I barely talk to anyone, it's not like I'm going to send out text messages to every one, telling them how stupid you are."

I rolled my eyes and sat down on the floor, next to Adam.

"Yesterday.. Me and Clare kissed," Saying it felt so bad and good at the same time. A part of me couldn't be happier - I had finally kissed Clare, and it was amazing. Although, the other part of me felt sick to my stomach - I kissed my best friends girlfriend, and to top that off - she doesn't even like me.

"What?" Adam's jaw practically hit the floor, as his eyes widened. Maybe it was even worse then I had thought..

"We did and now.. She made up with KC, made me promise to not tell anyone and practically told me she doesn't like me." Ouch, even saying it sucked..

"That's harsh man" Clearly, it is, I wouldn't be so bummed out if it wasn't. "Forget her. She's not worth it, then"

"That's where you're wrong though.." I paused, "She's the first girl that I've ever met, who would be actually worth losing friends over." I explained, "I used to always say 'Bros before hoes', but when it comes to Clare.. I could honestly say that I would put her first."

"Trust me on this one - Clare's great; but.. You don't want to lose a lifelong friend over a high school crush."

Why was he so against Clare?

"Why don't you go for that Ellie chick? She seems cool." He recommended.

"I don't feel the same way for Ellie, as I do for Clare,"

"Maybe if you got to know her, you would see how cool she is."

I rolled my eyes and let out a deep breath.. Was I the only one who thought that going for Clare was a good idea?

I sat in a dark closet - the janitor's closet, to be exact. I was all alone, in the dark - my breathing was the only noise I heard.

I know, I sound like a full on stalker-creep. But I was waiting for Clare to walk by, it was lunch time and every day - she walked this way to lunch, all alone. I needed to talk to her, even if it meant kidnapping her..

The door was partially open, so that I was capable of staring at the ones who walked by. Each person who passed caught my eye; I was nervous that Clare had decided to take a different route today, maybe she walked to lunch with Alli or KC.

Suddenly, that blue eyed, curly headed girl walked past, I opened the door, and grabbed her arm.

"Eli?" She spoke my name, with her confused facial expression overwhelming my eyes. I pulled her in to the closet and shut the door; I had my back pressed against the door - so that she couldn't run back out. I flipped the light switch on, and stared her in the eyes.

"Are you crazy?" She yelled,

"Clare. Will you please just hear me out?" Well, you kind of have to at this point..

"Eli, the two of us talking is not a good idea right now."

"Says who? KC?"

"Says me."

I rolled my eyes - "Clare, come on, can you at least look me in the eyes and honestly tell me that you didn't like the kiss?"

She stared me directly in the eyes, she hesitated as her cheeks turned pink; "I didn't want to like our kiss." She let out a deep breath, "I'm not going to lie about it, I loved every single moment of that kiss, but.." She paused, "I still can't be with you."

"Why?" I snapped,

"KC has met my parents, and I have met his. We talk on the phone every single night for hours. We go out to lunch almost every day. We are closer then any one in this entire world! I'm not willing to give that up, to chase after some stranger who I know nothing about!"

"Clare, you know practically every thing about me! I told you about all of my seventh, eighth, and ninth grade memories! I even told you about Julia! How much more do I have to do?" I was angry. She acted as if I was so mysterious and secretive, when she knew every thing there was to know about me.

"Eli, it's not the same with you, as it is with KC-"

I immediately interrupted her - "Yeah, because it's better with me, then it will ever be with KC!" I paused, calming myself down - "Clare, I treat you ten times better then KC does. He puts his friends before you and pretends like he owns you, to all the guys. KC is the scummiest guy, when it comes to girls. He talks to girls, gets what he wants from them and moves on."

"KC and me aren't like that - we're in it for the long run." Her eyes looked like the cleanest glass, like the way that I was speaking about KC hurt her.

"The look in your eyes and the tears that are about to fall out of your eyes - proves that you think the exact same thing about KC, as I do. You only want to cry because I'm speaking the truth, I'm saying things that you're too scared to admit to yourself."

"You don't know that," She stated, as her eyes became even shinier then before - she held back the tears, as if she was too scared to allow them to fall.

I placed my hands on her upper arms, and took a step closer to her -

"I like you Clare - I like you so much and I just want one chance," I paused, "I'm willing to put you before my friends, unlike KC."

She suddenly slapped my hands off, I wasn't prepared for rejection at this point..

"Stop!" She demanded, "Eli, I'm not going to deny having feelings for you - because if I did, I'd be lying. But you need to understand where I'm coming from; KC is the best thing that has ever happened to me. KC has flaws and he messes up a lot, but that's because he's human. I don't expect him to always be right and to always make me happy. Eli, you know barely a thing about me - I don't understand why you want to be with me. I'm nothing special, and you can get so much better then me." She stated,

"Don't even say that - don't even think that!" I exclaimed, angry at how low her self esteem was, "Clare you're the most beautiful girl that I have ever seen in my entire life. I want to be with you more then anything, I care about you more then KC ever will."

"Stop trying to make me hate KC!" Clare snapped at me, "I love him!"

"No you don't, Clare!" I argued, I know.. How would I know? But I just knew she didn't - the look in her eyes was proof.

"Stop telling me how I feel and how I do not feel! I don't want you, so stop chasing after me! I'm sick and tired of you thinking that I care about you more then I care about KC!"

"Fine, maybe you don't care about me more - But I care about you more then KC ever will!"

"And how would you know that?"

"I just.. do" She was right.. Here I stood, slaughtering KC's reputation and claiming things that I had no idea about - but Clare was right, how did I know that I cared about her more?

"My point proven," She murmured.

"Okay, so what if I don't know who cares about you more - All I know is that I would do any thing for you to realize that I like you."

"Stop saying that." She demanded, "I'm not going to leave KC, and you need to accept that.. Eli, you're not who I want and I don't think you ever will be. A guy who is willing to break his best friend's heart, isn't a guy that I want to be with."

"You did the same thing to him, as I did!" I yelled. "Stop acting like you're some saint! You're just as bad as I am!"

"Not even close! You told me all about your past! You've been arrested, you've in fights, and you've even.." She paused, I knew exactly what she was going to say.. She looked like she was in shock - like she couldn't believe what she had planned on saying.. I couldn't either.

"Bringing up Julia is how you win an argument, huh?" I said, my voice was low; I could barely even speak.

"No Eli -" She began, I could tell that she felt bad,

"Clare." I interrupted her, "If you are willing to bring up a guy's dead ex-girlfriend.. Then I don't want to chase after you anymore."

I opened the closet door and walked as fast as possible - my fists were clenched, my cheeks were burning, and my eyes were squinted. How could she use that against me? How could she put me in that position?

Clare wasn't the girl I thought she was.

Instead of going to the lunch room, I sat at my locker. I was so angry - I felt so betrayed, I had finally opened up to some one - some one who had no idea about my past. I didn't have to tell any one at Degrassi about Julia, but I chose to tell one person, because I thought that I could trust them. Instead, she practically slapped me in the face.

'And you've even..' She acted as if her not completely saying it, would change that fact that she was even thinking about saying it. How could a girl who was never rude or mean to any one - one who volunteers at soup kitchens and prays to God every single day - even bring up a past like that.

I thought Clare was different - that she wasn't judgmental, that she cared about me - even if she didn't want to be with me. Instead, she has proven to me that I don't mean any thing to her - that my feelings don't effect her in any manner. I had no intentions of chasing after Clare ever again; at this point, I completely despise her.

These are the times where I wish that I could just lock myself in my bedroom - blast music, and never speak again.

These are the times where I wish I was all alone, and no one ever even bothered attempting to communicate with me.

My foot was tapping the floor, as I allowed my hair to hover over my eyes, deciding not to move it, because I didn't want to see anyone. I wanted to ignore the world and every one that was in it. I hated every thing at this point.

Clare had officially proven to me that she deserves a guy like KC. She deserves to be put last in a guy's priorities. She is just like every other girl.

"You eat lunch alone too?" I heard a voice speak, I turned my head to see Adam; with a smirk on his face. I didn't respond, I just turned my attention back on the ground, which I had been continuously staring at - "I usually don't, but Drew and Alli were having a full-on flirt-fest, I couldn't handle it anymore." He added,

Just go away.

"What's your problem?" Adam asked,

When I don't respond, it clearly means you should go away..

"You know - I think we've established the whole trust thing already.." He added; I rolled my eyes,

"Dude, I don't want to talk about it." I snapped,

"Let me guess - KC found out," You've guessed wrong..

"Not at all," I murmured; not wanting to explain.

"Clare yelled at you?"

"I seriously don't want to talk about it, can you please just back off." I responded - not wanting to sound harsh, but the guy didn't seem to understand how mad I was at the moment.

"Sure dude." He proceeded to walk away, I felt bad - but I couldn't stand to speak to anyone right now. I know, I looked and felt like a jerk - but it's already done, there's no reason to obsess about how rude I was now.

I realized the fact that I was completely isolated, the entire hall was empty, besides me. The only thing that I heard, besides silence, was my breathing and Clare's words continuously echoing through out my head. Her violent words played in loops in my head, every last word was marked in my brain - forever to stay.

Her words were more permanent then a tattoo.

I covered my face with the palms of my hands, as my emotions transitioned from anger to hurt. I was so hurt, even the memory of Julia hurt me and now hearing some one else speak about her hurt even more.

I sat there. Silence was the best thing in the world at this point.

Being isolated from the world, never felt so good.

WARNING: next chapter, some body finds out some thing... (;
Oh darn :P