Apart By More Than Words
Chapter 10
Flashback
We held hands. I was so nervous and anxious. Pacing back and forth my slippers hitting the carpet in bathroom. The breakfast in the kitchen ready to be plated. I had a feeling that wouldn't leave me. These dreams that felt so real when I woke up I couldn't tell what was reality. So, I bought a test for my piece of mind and Dan's too. He had talked about using the spare room we had that needed to be used for more than random out of placed objects. We had been married for a couple years now and I wanted a family. With my amazing husband. Weeks later here we were. I couldn't stand it any longer and asked him to look.
"We're going to be needing to pick a color for the room." "Pick or Blue ?" Dan said excitedly.
"Either one." I said jumping into his arms. "I love you." I said. As I hugged him tightly. He pulled me to him kissing me as I felt my heart overflow with hope and extreme happiness. "We were going to be parents." Life would change in every possible way in a matter of months and I couldn't help but feel this need to do everything right. This baby would be given the world and I couldn't believe it was real.
Placing the items carefully back into the box Serena held closely to the onesie in her hand.
Fearful she would lose it. Curious as to where Dan found it.
The baby stuff was gathered and given away after a certain point she just couldn't stand to look at it anymore.
Bringing it closer to her nose as she breathed in. Tears springing to her eyes as she noticed the smell lingered heavily as if she had just put it away.
Putting the box to the side she started to walk back up the stairs one step at a time. Once in her bedroom.
She laid down not bothering to change her clothes.
Or turn on the light. Her body and mind physically exhausted.
Laying there silently on her bed. She hugged the onesie close to her and started to close her eyes.
In the morning
Not in any shape to speak or see anyone.
She got some cereal and ate in her kitchen flipping through mindless commercials and morning talk shows.
As her she stuck to one her eyes glued to the screen.
"So Jenny how has the engagement been you two have been so secretive.?" The interviewer ask.
"It's really been eye opening for us both and I can say that the wedding will be one to remember." Jenny said. Smiling at her.
"This look on your face tells me there is more to the story here." "Come on Jenny don't leave us with our minds racing." The interviewer egged on.
"Fine I'll tell you one thing." Jenny said smiling at her. As she turned to the camera.
"Our wedding is not the only life changing event in our life that we're celebrating." Jenny said beaming as she gushed.
"That is all your getting out of me." Jenny said as she waved to the audience and the cut to commercial.
Hearing a knock at the door. She turned off the TV and walked over.
Slowly opening it as a smile crept to her face.
"Hey Sis!" The voice said happily to her.
"The one and only Chuck Bass." Serena said hugging him. As he walked inside.
"I would ask what brought you here."
"But I have a suspicion this meeting has to do with Blair." Serena said as they sat down next to each other.
"She may have given me the address but I'm here on official family business." Chuck said to her.
Pictures of Henry and Audrey the most recent ones." Chuck said happily.
Beaming with parental pride. Taking them from his hands and putting them on the table in front of us.
As he puts his hand on mine and looks at me.
"How are you doing Serena.?" He asks his guard lowering.
"I'm alright." "Could I get you something.?" "I'm such a bad hostess." Serena said getting up hopeful the subject would change.
"You don't have to act like it's okay when it obviously isn't."
"We are family if we can't work up into an emotional frenzy with each other who else can we do it with." Chuck said looking at her.
"This can't be easy for you the engagement, the wedding coming up soon." Chuck said putting his hand on her shoulder.
"Then there's the news about Dan." Chuck said shaking his head.
"What news about Dan.?" Serena said putting an icepack to her head.
"Someone leaked his cause of death and it's everywhere."
"People are really putting their personal thoughts and judgements out there."
"This Is the last thing anyone in that family needed."
"Or the rest of us who cared for him especially you." Chuck said to her.
While Serena quickly got online to see what she could find. The first head line popping up.
Ran out of words or money or unable to let go of a lost love.
Dan Humphrey was found dead in his office.
Pills spilled out on the floor. His body lifeless.
On his desk, he appeared to be writing a letter to ex-wife Serena.
The corner ruling it a Suicide.
More details on the family reactions to the news leak inside.
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