Warning! This chapter is cheesy…
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"You're very quiet again." Eliza observes as they head up the stairs. They've finished their Danvers T.V. time and are now heading off to bed. Kara knows she's thinking about after she came home and told Lena all about her secret. She'd been a mess but somehow she barely managed to hold herself together. As soon as Eliza closed her door, Kara had let the tears flow freely. "Is it your heat vision?" the older blonde questions because Alex had told her that was the reason Kara had been distant.
"No, it's nothing." it's someone.
A genius who has taken hold of Kara's heart for years and the Kryptonian had just been too oblivious to realize.
"I know I'm not as cool as Alex," she jests and Kara shakes her head in disagreement. "But you can talk to me." she reminds, placing a comforting hand on the younger's shoulder. "I promise I'll listen." and the blonde knows she will.
"I'm fine." she isn't and every motherly instinct in Eliza suggests otherwise.
But Kara can't risk exposing Lena to the Danvers now, not when she's told the girl everything about her, not when she's still trying to make sure they don't lose each other, and especially not when she's discerned that fluttering feeling she gets when she's around the now shorter girl.
"Is it Alex?" Eliza ventures another guess. "You miss her."
"Of course I do." because she does miss her adoptive sister but she finds the ache subsides whenever Lena's involved and now she finally understands why. "I'm sorry if I'm making you worry." she apologizes because the last thing she wants is to cause the Danvers any problems. "But I promise I'll be fine." after she talks to Lena, she will be.
"Of course I worry about you." Eliza thinks of Kara as her daughter now after all. "And I understand you're a teenager now." the older blonde reminds. "It's a right of passage to be moody and testy." she ribs with a fond motherly smirk. "Tell you what, how about you and I bond on Saturday?" Eliza offers and Kara smiles. "We can go into the city, maybe go shopping and see a movie?" the matriarch of the Danvers household suggests and the Kryptonian smiles.
"I'd like that." it's a long overdue bonding session and Kara can only hope to pull herself together by then.
Eliza wraps her arms around Kara tightly and the younger blonde reciprocates, taking comfort in her Earth mother's hold. While the older Danvers might not know exactly what's going on the hug helps quell Kara's emotions. It certainly helps her keep herself together. She hears Eliza whisper goodnight before pressing her lips against her temple and breaking the hug.
Eliza leaves her in the hallway and she stands in front of her bedroom door releasing a sigh as the older blonde closes enters the confines of her own domicile.
Kara enters her own room and immediately sinks herself down to her mattress, her face meeting the pillow. She's far from tired, too frustrated with her impulsiveness and her ignorance to even consider sleep. She growls into her pillow as she wonders what her next possible move is.
Because Kara kissed Lena. She placed her mouth on Lena's irresistible, beckoning, impressively soft lips. She kissed her and then she ran.
Because Lena's kissed her twice on the lips, both times were before the genius had left. They'd been short and sweet fleeting pecks that left her warm and giddy. But she's never initiated a kiss and there had been nothing friendly about the way she pressed her lips against the raven haired genius.
And now Kara is freaking out.
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Lena stares at the blank screen on her phone. The blonde probably won't be calling or texting her any time soon. She'll be too busy panicking and probably be too embarrassed to start a conversation.
But she's determined to talk with Kara. Pride be damned. A simple phone call won't suffice.
She wants to see the younger girl so she can hold her, assure her that everything between them is fine, and that nothing has to change unless that's what Kara wants. Because Kara is home and what she wants matters more to Lena than her own desires and feelings.
So if Kara wants to stay the course, wants to keep calling her friend, then Lena will abide by her decision even though it'll burn.
But then again, if she only wanted to be friends she wouldn't have kissed Lena. Because If Lena doubted before, she doesn't now for if it had been a kiss between friends Kara wouldn't have ran, unless of course Kara hadn't meant to kiss her in the first place friendly or otherwise. But that isn't the case. Those baby blues shined with such affection that she's sure she couldn't have imagined.
Lena exhales.
She's always known how she's felt about Kara but she never explicitly confessed, not only because she's horrible at dealing with her feelings, but because she'd wanted Kara to come to her own decisions.
But what if Kara didn't feel anything and that's why she ran?
What if Kara's trying to think of a way to let her down easily?
Normally she won't push, normally she can wait, but the possibilities are seemingly endless and most of them are not positive because she always prepares for the worst. Kara's cracked the door ajar and Lena wants to take the opportunity to burst it open. She doesn't want to force her way through but knows if she leaves it completely up to Kara, the summer will be over and they still won't get to talk about what just happened.
And really, it'll help them both if they deal with it now rather than ignore the problem and act like nothing happened, is happening.
Because things have been changing between them, evolving really. Emotions are running deeper and Lena's certain it isn't only on her end. Because Kara holds her just as tightly, looks at her just as adoringly, and there's no way she's merely projecting the affection in the blonde's tone.
Besides, the mature thing to do would be to talk about this. She takes a deep breath. Her resolve grows and she finds herself pulling her boots on.
She heads out into the hallway, down the stairs, and into the garage. Lena drives Bess out and prays to whomever deity who may be listening that this won't blow up in her face. Normally it comes naturally for her, comforting Kara, but this is uncharted territory for them both.
Because if Kara does reject her she'll have to find a way accept it while still providing the same amount of affection for the blonde.
It's unnerving and completely terrifying and Lena's trying really hard to be calm and rational. She presses her foot on the gas reminding her self that this moment isn't just about her it's about Kara as well. It's always been about Kara and for Lena, it'll always be about the shy unassuming blonde who managed to capture her interest that day on the beach.
No matter what happens Lena will always put Kara first.
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Her phone buzzes by her nightstand, breaking her free from her inner musings, and she quickly reaches for it with her face still planted on the pillow. She glances at the screen and feels like she can breathe a little easier because it's a message from Lena. Her brows furrow because the genius is asking her to look toward her window and to not freak out.
She turns over and bolts upright because Lena's standing in her room and she doesn't know how long the older girl's been standing there but judging by the glimmer of amusement in her eyes, probably awhile.
"I apologize for coming over unannounced," she leans against the windowsill.
"Lena." she'd been too focused with her thoughts to hear the Lena crawl through her window just minutes ago.
"I just didn't want you stewing." not wanting Kara to spend days agonizing over any imaginary transgression she's committed against her honor, Lena snuck into the Danvers house.
"Stewing?" Kara questions.
"I don't want you to worry about what happened earlier." Lena responds. "When you kissed me." the raven haired genius doesn't think she can get any more explicit. "Because I really didn't mind it." and Kara's so red right now that Lena chuckles a bit because this thing between them is all still so familiar and Kara is still so very Kara that she can feel herself relax. "You know this is the first time I've been in your room." she's changing the subject because it's clear the blonde has to be eased into that conversation.
Kara's grateful for the out that Lena's giving. She watches as kryptonite eyes glance around her room, a fond smile on the older girl's face as she peruses the blonde's things. A particular section on the blonde's shelf catches her eyes.
She glances at Kara who cracks a small smile her way, assuring Lena she has the freedom to examine her room freely.
"Go ahead." the Kryptonian waves her hands about.
She reaches for a particular item on the shelf. It's a conch they found in their secret cove. The whole shelf is actually littered with things Lena knows have everything to do with her, things they found during their first summer together, and even little gifts she sent the blonde in her care packages.
"You kept this?" Lena smiles softly.
"I keep everything you've ever given me." most of it she stores at Lena's beach house but she brings little things back at the Danvers, things that won't arouse suspicion. "That reminds me," Kara hops off her bed and heads for her closet. She fishes out a box that she sets on the edge of her best and gestures for Lena to come closer. "I've been meaning to give you these," she fidgets as she stands on the other end of the bed. "I know you can get all this for yourself but you know, I couldn't help but think of you when I saw something and also, I had gifts I wanted to send to your for like birthdays and your graduation and just because you're you but you wouldn't give me your address and James and Beth didn't know it either," because Lena hadn't wanted them to be tempted since she knows the power of persuasion those baby blues hold. "So I just thought I'd wait until you came back to me so I could give them to you and now it seems really cheesy but I want you to have them."
"Kara, it's sweet, not cheesy." warmth floods her entire being because Kara thinks about her, remembers her when she isn't around.
"Most of it's cheesy." Kara counters. "But open the box and you'll see for yourself." the genius approaches the box, opening it slowly, before pulling out a shirt with a picture of pug dressed as Darth Vader on the front and Lena cracks a smile. There's a few more humorous shirts, a coffee cup with a wanted dead or alive Schrodinger's Cat sign, and other silly thoughtful things that makes Lena's smile grow wider. "That's from the I saw it and I thought of you pile." Kara had made a point to put those items at the top of the box. Lena digs out a black varsity jacket with red leather sleeves, tie fighter patches located on the left arm, a storm trooper helmet on the right. The Empire's insignia sits on the left chest side. Lena turns the jacket over and finds Darth Vader's face staring right back at her and she looks at Kara. "Since your school didn't really have pep rallies I thought it was an appropriate gift for your high school graduation." she explains the purpose of the letterman jacket as Lena tries it on. Lena digs into the box and pulls out a package. She opens it and finds a half scaled replica of Yoda's lightsaber hilt. "For getting into MIT." she justifies. "That's for Bess." Kara says as Lena fishes out a Hotwheel miniature of her pickup truck that's been turned into a keychain. "I took shop to make you that." the blonde confesses. "Told you it's all kind of cheesy."
"Kara," her voice cracks under the weight of her emotions. Because Kara's giving her such considerate, meaningful, and endearing presents after finding a way to combine her milestones with things that she likes and are important to her. "I love it all." she looks at the Kryptonian who's laying out a canvas on her bed.
"I made this for your 18th birthday." she informs. "Because I always meant to tell you about where I come from." Kara breathes as Lena carefully unwraps the paper. The genius gasps because it's her eye staring right back but it isn't seeing her eyeball blown up that's causing a stirring within. It's what's reflected off her eyeball that's causing her to gasp. It's Krypton, shaded perfectly in the same hue of her eyes. "Because I find home every time I look in your eyes." she confesses, voice dense with affection.
"You can come closer." Lena assures as Kara maintains her distance even though it looks like all she wants to do is throw her arms around the older girl.
"No, I don't think I should." trepidation is clear in her feature.
"Why not?" because Lena knows it isn't her that Kara's afraid of but she wants Kara to address the issue herself, to find the strength to keep her feet planted, to no longer run from her feelings.
"I might just kiss you again." the younger girl confesses.
"I already told you I don't mind, Kara." she moves slowly toward the blonde and is relieved to find that Kara isn't backing away.
"But like, I really really want to kiss you, Lena. Not in a friendly way either, but in a I want to go to the movies, hold your hand, share popcorn kind of way. I mean we do that now, but like I also want to add making out in the back row with you." her cheeks are ablaze. "In like I want to date you kind of way." she doesn't think she can be clearer as she lays out all her cards. "Not a friend date, the romantic kind." she's fumbling through her confession and it's so very Kara and Lena can't help but fall even harder.
"I'm going to kiss you, Kara." Lena informs because she doesn't want the Kryptonian to bolt. "And it's not going to be on your forehead," she inches closer. "Or your cheeks," her hand caresses Kara's face. "Or your nose."
"Okay." the blonde nods.
The raven haired beauty brings their faces together, lets her lips latch onto Kara's, slips her arms around the blonde's waist and pulls her close. She feels the Kryptonian's wrap her arms around her neck. The genius moves her mouth against Kara's and feels the blonde's reciprocate her enthusiasm.
"Now do you understand why I never liked being called your friend?" she parts their lips, pressing her forehead against Kara's.
"You mean all this time?" the blonde whispers.
"Always." because Lena can't remember a day when Kara didn't make her blood run warm and her heart thump madly and cause her lungs to be feel deprived of air.
"Why didn't you say anything?" Kara murmurs.
"I wanted you to come to your own conclusions." and Kara knows it means Lena didn't want to push Kara for something she wasn't ready for. Because the raven haired beauty is always so very patient. "Besides a few phone calls and care packages here and there aren't enough to prove my undying affections."
"You don't have to prove anything to me." because Lena
"I do." Lena assures, leaving no room for argument. "That's why I came back, so I can properly woo you, to prove to you that I'm here, that I'm not going anywhere, and most importantly, that we belong with one another." she confesses and Kara can feel her heart drumming wildly, reverberating in her ribs, matching the rhythm in her own chest. "You and me, always." she places her lips on Kara's again. "Doesn't sound so bad does it?"
"No, it really doesn't." Kara smiles as she feels Lena's lips against hers.
She closes her eyes, melts into the kiss, and suddenly everything feels lighter. It feels as though her burdens have been lifted because Lena knows everything and is still kissing so tenderly that it makes her insides warm. Kara feels so light and free and happy and she hasn't felt like this ever.
If this is a dream then Kara doesn't ever want to wake because she's pretty sure feeling Lena's lips against hers is like being touched by Rao's light.
It's like feeling like being on Krypton again because she's powerless against the older girl's advances and is able to feel everything, the softness of the raven haired beauty's caress as she keeps a protective grip on her hip, the way her thumb grazes gently against Kara's cheek. The Kryptonian can feel the fluttering in her stomach coursing everywhere else.
Because kissing Lena feels like she's on a spaceship about to take flight. Kara feels like she's going to soar through the skies, carefree, and full of content.
"Kara?" Lena calls out.
"Hmm?" her eyes are still closed and Lena takes the moment to appreciate the dreamy smile on the younger girl's face, taking pride that she's the cause of Kara's current state.
"You're floating."
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Tvline did an interview with the Supergirl cast, including Katie McGrath. I think will be released around when episode 2x18 comes out. Could be wrong though.
KATIE'S A SERIES REGULAR NOW! YES!
I'm happy but I'm also scared they're going to mess up her character like they did with everyone else. I'm worried they're going to be predictable and unimaginative. That they'll give her a romantic plot that'll take over her entire story arc.
But regarding the story, the chapter was so cheesy and sweet. I guess I'm trying to channel the fluff monster in me.
What do you think so far?