I DON'T LIKE THIS FEELING

PEN

After that eventful couple of days, I was back in my lair as the team were away on a case that they had just wrapped up and were now on the way back home. all of the team agreed to go to the bar and let out some stress. Emily even invited the guys.

Me and johnathan had been on a couple of one on one dates. And we really enjoyed each other company. I learned a little more about him and he learned a little more about me. So I looked forward to him showing up tonight.

I finished off the cases that the other team needed me to do. By the time I was done, my superheroes had arrived. There was a knock on the door.

"you may enter at your own risk" I called out

"I will take that risk, are you ready to go, we don't come back in till wednesday, so tonight we are going to have some fun, the guys said they would meet us there" JJ said

"oh yea I am sooo ready let's go" I said as I shut my babies down, and grabbed my coat and purse and followed JJ out to the bullpen.

"aw there goes my suber awesome superheroes, glad to see you all back in one piece"

*at the bar*

"hey PG, the guys are over there" Emily said as she pointed to a table that was big enough for all of us.

I looked to see Chris waving us over. "come on you guys" JJ told the rest of the team.

We walked over and after introductions, hugs and handshakes. We all sat down and ordered our drinks. We all started to engage in conversation, everyone except Derek. I was in deep thought when I heard Chris laugh, so I turned my attention back to the conversation.

"I've never seen someone so nervous than John and Johnathan when I told them we should ask if we could hang out with the FBI team, they were really shaking in their seats" Chris said as everyone burst out laughing.

"hey we are not the worst people, we are actually pretty nice people" Rossi said.

"but remember, we are FBI agents and we could very much destroy your lives if you fellas hurt those three girls right there" Hotch popped in he was laughing but everyone knew he was serious.

"yea plus, we have the tools and the brains to get rid you, Garcia will completely wipe you guys off the face of the earth" Reid said

"wanna know what else we got" Derek piped in.

I shot him a look "not really Morgan" I told him. He just snorted and shook his head.

"I would love to know Derek" Johnathan said.

"Well since you want to know I will tell you. we also have guns, we have powerful guns to be more specific i happen to carry a glock 17 and I should let you know I am a very trigger happy person"

DEREK

There was a round of gasps and Morgan's thrown around the table. "look I'm going to the bar who needs something"

I looked at the table and noticed everyone glasses were still half way full. So i turned and went to the bar.

I gave the bartender my order, and I waited on him to fix it.

I was lost in thought as a song came on that I have danced to many nights with different girls I couldn't help but look to the dance floor and I noticed Pen and Dog Boy grinding against each other. Me and Pen eyes connected, I couldn't help but send her a lust filled look, but then I remembered that she was dancing with him and not me, and my look turned cold.

I couldn't help but think that this how she must've felt all those times when I danced with those girls. I never knew that this feeling could hurt like this, and to know that this is how she felt, it made my heart crumble a little bit more. Lost in my thoughts I didn't notice my phone vibrating in front of me, until the bartender told me.

"Yea... Morgan" I said as I answered the phone.

I heard sniffling on the other end of the phone and I pulled it away and realized it was Sarah on the other end, I was immediately alarmed

"Sarah, sweetie what's going on" I asked her. She took a couple of deep breaths before gaining the street to talk.

"Derek its Michael -"

"Michael as in your boyfriend Michael , what about him"

"he got kind of upset after I told him I was. I was.-"

"Sarah breath...you was what"

"Derek I'm pregnant, and we were all at moms house when I told him and he accused me of cheating, and the baby wasn't his, and he, he hit me so hard that I flew into the wall and he threatened me Derek he said if he had anything to do with it that child won't be in here, when mom heard she came upstairs and they got into an argument and she tried to make him leave she managed to get him into the hallway but he shoved her and she fell down the stairs, we're at the hospital now"

"oh my god, wait till I get my hands on that son of a bitch, I will be on the earliest flight I can, but until then I'm getting my boss to order the cops in Chicago to protect you guys room at the hospital"

"Derek just get here we need you, I need you, Dessi thinks this is all my fault"

"If I don't make it tonight I will definitely be there tomorrow, okay?"

"Ok Derek"

I hung up the phone, paid the bartender, grabbed my coat and walked over to the table at the same time that Pen and Dog Boy came back.

"Hotch is need a huge favor please" I said in a hurried tone

"Morgan what is it" he immediately went boss mode

"My sister's boyfriend flipped out and went crazy when she told him she was pregnant, he threatened her and the baby's life man, then he pushed my mom down the stairs she's in the hospital, can you please order the Chicago police department to send over cops to the hospital to protect them, please man, I need to find and early flight or something"

"Yea sure Morgan I'm on it right now you go, and I hope everyone is fine" hotch said as he pulled out his phone to make the call.

"You guys I'm sorry but, I have to go will you guys be okay getting home." I asked.

"Yea were fine, we will take the girls home" Chris spoke up

"Yea Pen I will take you home" Johnathan said as he put his arm around Penelope's chair.

"Uh actually you won't because I'm leaving with him, will you guys tell Hotch please" Penelope said as she got up and pulled on her coat.

PEN

No matter what Derek thinks right now, his family is my family and there was no way I was letting him leave, alone.

"give me the keys" I said as I took the keys away from him.

"Pen stay and enjoy the rest of the night" in which I just shut him up with a raising finger to my lip.

I turned to Johnathan "sorry but I have to go"

"that's cool I will call you later" he said as he got out the chair to hug me. "uh don't, call me later, it's just not working out"

I don't know what came over me but when Derek came over to the table all panicked and angry, I felt that within in me and I didn't even know what was going on. All through the night I watched Derek go through so many emotions and the look he gave me while I was on the dance floor. Made me realize that there with him is where I want to be, and I will do my damn best to get him back.

We were now in the car on the way to his apartment I had booked an flight from my tablet that left in the morning at 6:00. I also booked myself A flight whether he knows it or not. "Pen you didn't have to leave your date, to come with me " he finally broke the silence.

"Derek how many times have I met your family" I didn't even give him a chance to answer "a lot of times that's how many Sarah and Dessi are my sisters, and Fran is my mom, no matter what happens with us that won't ever changed, so if something happened to them I want to be there"

"seethatswhyiloveyou" he mumbled.

"what was that, Derek" I asked him taking my eyes off the road for a split second to looking at him.

"nothing Baby-g... um Pen, just thanks for coming along with me.

We finally made it to the apartment, we got inside, and we both packed bags for the early flight, I called my neighbor and asked of she would take care of clooney in which she agreed too.

I had just put my bag by the door, and I went in the living, and he was sitting on the couch, I went and sat by him.

For the first time we were in a awkward silence. There was a lot i wanted to say so I'm going to tell him, maybe not today or not tomorrow, but I'm going to tell him.

"Baby girl please just talk to me we don't have to talk about anything to serious, I just want to talk to my friend, I need my friend, i don't care what, we said we will handle that later"

"ok handsome, first of all let me say, that I miss you, handsome"

"miss you too baby girl"

"ok now that's that out of the way, OH My God Clooney is so energetic and he's soooo protective of me. Like each time the doorbell ring, he would bark like crazy, he cuddles up beside me every night, he's so cute"

"he probably doesn't even know me now"

"yea right handsome, ok, I had a picture of you that I was looking at one night ,don't ask me why, and he just started to lick the photo and wagged his tail, it was the cutest thing ever, so handsome he knows you"

"Pen I'm sorry, do you think you will ever forgive me, do you think we can go back to how we was, and I know I shouldn't be asking this but, Pen I hate not talking and seeing you every day, and if your not ready for a relationship than I will be very happy to have our friendship back, that's what means the most to me, but if you and Johnathan are in a relationship, and he doesn't want us to spend time and become friends again, than I understand"

"want to know something handsome" he just nodded so I continued "Me and Johnathan could never be in a relationship, we are so different, like we have nothing in common, ok for example, I like romance movies, he like adult x rated movies,i like comic books, he like play boy magazines, see nothing in common at all"

We shared our first laugh that night. All walls were let down between us. This is the Derek I missed.

"Hey Derek, you know tonight at the bar, when me and Johnathan was dancing, everything in me wanted to leave him and come to you and grab you and start dancing with you, and believe me I would've, but I knew Cindy wouldn't be to happy with that"

"Cindy, what does she have to do with anything were not together, after a couple of dates and talking we were more like brother and sister at the end of the day, and plus she has a boyfriend"

"Derek that day when I came to your apartment and Cindy opened the door, I don't know what happened my heart crumbled and I knew then that I don't like this feeling of not being with you, and when I came back down stairs and you guys were laughing and touching, I just wanted to come up to her snatch her by the hair and claim you as mine, but that's not me. So instead I just left, and in that moment I knew I missed my chance"

"baby didn't I say I would wait, and if you were to claim me as yours I would've dropped Cindy like a bad habit, so can I ask you a question" I nodded "are you ready now, are you ready to be in a relationship with me"

"there's nothing more that I would want right now, Handsome, I love you too much to just let another girl claim you"

He leaned over and we shared a heated kiss, our tongues had their own dance party. He finally pulled away.

"I love you soo much baby girl"

"hot stuff lets get some sleep, we have to be up early tomorrow" we both got up and headed upstairs after changing into our sleeping clothes. We snuggled into bed, my head on his chest. His phone began to ring, on the night table, he reached over and picked it up and look at the caller I.D, he groaned out,

"why the hell is she calling me"

I looked at the phone and it read Kaylin, I took the phone from him

"Hello" I said into the phone

"uh who is this, where is Derek"

"um Derek, is not available right now, so what do you want"

"I'm calling to check on him his sister, call me and told me about their sister and mother, and ask If I could check up on him"

"well Kaylin he's doing fine he doesn't need you, calling him ever again"

"is this Penelope, what are you doing on his phone, this late at night"

"exactly, why am I on the phone, you have a good night" and with that I hung the phone up and handed it back to Derek.

He put it back on the night table, and turned towards me and he kissed me which turned into a heated make out, and murmurs of "I love you" from the both of us.

This is the feeling, that I like, I thought as we feel asleep for a peaceful night, because in the morning all hell will break loose once we made it to Chicago, and I will be by his side the entire time.

AUTHORS NOTE: ok everyone their together finally, but things will not be easy, please read and review