ok, really sorry about the wait, but here's the next chapter of 'loneliness' sorry if it sucks...i feel like it sucks...*shrugs* if it doesn't suck, enjoy, please review!

Mikey scanned the alley below, he was so close to home, but he was just passing through. That's when the pile of scrap metal caught his eye, and he jumped down. He knelt and looked at the scraps, his stomach churned. This was part of the shell raiser! Mikey got up and scanned the area, he was pretty close to the ramp donnie has somehow installed in a new York street. Had it exploded? Mikey ran out into the street, and he gasped, a huge black mark in the road showed him he was right. Mikey looked wildly around, there was no sign of the rest of the shell raiser, but was it possible it, and his brothers, had been incinerated?

"Don?" he called out tentatively, "raph? Leo?" no answer, that could only mean two things. They weren't around, or they were dead. Mikey looked around and grabbed a discarded newspaper, nothing about finding three dead humanoid turtles, that was good, but how long ago had this happened? This 'passing through' thing, ended right then and there, Mikey was at least going to check on his brothers, whether they saw him or not.

Donnie wrote in his journal.

I know i'll never see any of my brothers again now, but a part of me still wishes. I miss Mikey's laid back attitude, and how he's always happy. I miss leo's pep talks, heck, even his lectures. I even miss raph's sarcastic comments. Oh, I just wish they'd come home!.

He buried his head in his hands, why did he do this to himself? Why did he have to think of them? And then the impossible happened.

"Guys!" shrieked a somewhat familiar voice, "Raph! Leo! Don!" Donnie whipped around, was that Mikey? He shook his head. He must be dreaming. But then he ran into the lab. Mikey's face lit up. "Donnie!" Donnie stared at Mikey, he had the scar from raph, along with one under his left eye and on his right arm. His blue eyes looked different, no longer sparkling and happy. But crushed, destroyed. almost, shattered.

"Am, am I dreaming?" donnie asked numbly, Mikey stared at him. Donnie got up, he walked like he was in a dream.

"Uh, are you ok?" Mikey asked, shrinking back, donnie reached out, if he could touch his younger brother's face, he knew this was real. His hand brushed Mikey's face,and donnie's eyes widened.

"Mikey." he said.

"Uh, you're freaking me out," Mikey said, and Donnie pulled him into a hug, "bro." Donnie felt tears running down his face, and let them fall onto his brother's shoulder as he pulled Mikey close to him.

"You came home." he whispered, "you came home." Mikey let donnie hug him for a moment, and then pulled away.

"I was just passing through." he said, "on my way to Louisiana, and I saw that the shell raiser blew up." donnie chuckled.

"I'm a bad driver." he said, "oh Mikey, i missed you." Mikey looked away.

"Are leo and raph ok?" he asked, and donnie's heart plummeted, in his mind, he'd invented a reality that his brothers, wherever they were, had found each other, or that one returning would magically bring the other two home.

"I don't know." he whispered, "they left, three years ago, Raph first, then Leo." Mikey's face registered only shock.

"Left?" he choked out, "you've been alone?"

"I have sensei." donnie said halfheartedly, and then he felt his face light up. "Mikey! He'll be so glad to see you! Let's go see him!" he grabbed his brother's hand and pulled him up. "Will you," he took a breath, "will you stay Mikey?" Mikey hesitated, looking like he was about to refuse, but then he smiled, a smile that did not reach his gray/blue eyes.

"I'll stay donnie." he whispered, "i'll stay."

Mikey followed Don into the dojo, his mind reeling. He'd just said the words he'd promised himself he wouldn't say, but the sight of donnie, tears falling from his cheeks, pulling him into a hug, had changed his mind. As he walked through the lair, he noticed for the first time how quiet it was. It was like something was missing, and those missing things were Leo and Raph.

"So," he said, suddenly unsure of himself, "did you get hurt when it blew?" he glanced at the bandages on his brother's arm, but donnie grinned at him like he was insane, which he might be at this point.

"Sensei patched me up," he said, and called into their father's room, "Sensei, look what I found." he pulled the doors open and Mikey half smiled.

"Hello, father." he said, and could see splinter's eyes widen.

"Michelangelo, My son." he gasped, "come." Mikey walked to his father's bedside.

"Are you ok?" he asked, his father didn't look very good.

"I will be alright now." splinter said, closing his eyes. "You will help Donatello find your other brothers."

"Father…" Mikey hesitated, "i…"

"You do not need to apologize." splinter interrupted, "you came home. That is what matters."

"Right." Mikey said, "of course...father." donnie hugged Mikey again, Mikey didn't have the heart to wipe his brothers tears off his shoulder. Suddenly, donnie pulled back, eyes gleaming with happiness.

"Mikey, we cleaned your room for you!" he exclaimed, "me and raph and leo, we cleaned it and i cleaned theirs too, i've made sure all your things stay nice...ice cream kitty's gonna be so glad too!"

"Ice cream…" Mikey hesitated, "i forgot about her." for a split second, donnie's eyes were shocked, then he seemed to shrug past it.

"Come on, splinter needs his sleep anyway." Donnie said, gesturing to his father, who was asleep once more.

"Oh, right." Mikey replied, following his brother out, "donnie…" donnie looked at him.

"I'm sorry i left…"

"It's ok." donnie replied softly, "it wasn't...it wasn't your fault."

"Yeah…" Mikey said defensively, "it is! I let my anger get the better of me...for once, and i left for three years don, three years." donnie turned away.

"Let's go see your room first." he suggested, "then you can see ice cream kitty." Mikey narrowed his eyes, but followed his brother , huh, brother, was he still a brother, after all this? Well, he followed his brother to his room and felt his jaw drop, every action figure was where he'd kept it on the shelf, his comic books were stacked neatly and his bed was made, donnie hadn't been kidding.

"Whoa…" he muttered, "you really deep cleaned this place don." donnie nodded absently, looking at Mikey again, filled with joy.

"Yeah! Leo and raph helped though…" he trailed off, " ice cream kitty's gonna be so happy! Let's go!" donnie grabbed Mikey's arm and Mikey let himself be taken to the kitchen, the purple masked turtle swung open the freezer and ice cream kitty looked around, her tiny chocolate eyes widened and she meowed happily, Mikey felt his heart begin to melt at the sight of his best friend,

"Hey ice cream kitty!" he cooed, "how ya been?" ice cream kitty flicked a drop if herself onto his nose and he smiled, licking it off. "I missed you." he murmured, "i missed all of you."

dawwww! well, this was a b-team chapter, the next chapter i promise to focus on A team, or what's left of it. *tear trickles down cheek* anyway...thanks and don't forget to review!