Yikes! So yesterday as I was working on my paper I quickly took a break an looked over the first chapters of A life so change and I found like a bunch of spelling mistakes ACK! I'm sooorryyy it's not really my spelling thats wrong it's basically my grammar. I'd be thinking something and I write something else ( ashame) How do you people even read my stuff when I'm such a horrible speller? How can you understand it? I'm sooo sorryy ( crawling into a hole sticking a sign out that reads...)

In any case ENJOY! ( After this it's going to get good XD)

Chapter 10. Kissing is not allowed with strangers.

Otani

When I trip that is probably when it started. The contact of her lips made me start kissing her automatically. I had missed the taste of her lips. The taste of her. What surprised me was that she hesitantly kissed back. I tried to deepen the kiss but that's when my hand landed in the wrong place and Koizumi got the wrong idea...Oh...crap not again.

She pushed me off...way off!

" HEY! WHAT WAS THAT! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU"RE DOING," she bagan to protest.

I sighed...I knew this was going to go wrong...

" Nothing..my hand slip,"

" You're hand slip? You were bringing me into a more passionate kiss, you were totally taking advantage of me!, you plan the whole thing out didn't you..the whole tripping thing huh so you can touch me there! You freaking little plum!," she accused.

Well..she's mad.

She was glaring at me and her hands started to clench.

" No no you got it wrong...it was an accident," I try explaining. But by the look of her face I don't think she believed me.

"It was an accident? I don't call what you just did and accident..didn't you say our first kiss was also and accident...now I know what happened!Were you so despreate to kiss me?,"

? What is the blabbering about? She has it wrong...way was an accident. I really did trip! and I somehow ended up on top of her and kissing her.

" Look calm down, I didn't mean to do that honestly," I began to apologized.

" Of coarse you didn't," she mumbled crossing her arms and looking away.

Why is it always my fault? Like what the hell? Is life or destiny against me?

"Sorry," I repeated.

What else can I say?

" Leave...," she mumbled looking away from me.

I decided not to argue and did what she told me.

shit.

Why is it always me fault! Everthing! I screw up in everything! Just when I'm progressing a little why does it always my fault? Life is too cruel to me. First it made me short now this mess I'm into. Is it to teach me a lesson? A moral?

I sit down in a bench outside. Snow starting to drizzle down, reflecting my feelings as they fall to the ground. I stared at the ground miserably.

" Atsushi? Is that you? What are you doing?,''

I turned to see my sister standing beside me and looking at me curiously.

" What do you want?," I mumbled.

"What's wrong? Why are you so glum?," she asked with a curious smile.

" Leave me alone just go home," I annoyingly mumbled.

"Oh come on, Why are you so down Mr? Did Risa-san do something to you or even worse did you do something to sweet Risa?," she sat next to me.

" It's none of your business," I say.

" Atsushi tell me!," she continue to pressure me into saying it.

" It's Koi- It's Risa," I mumured quietly.

" What happened?," she asked highly interested.

" I..I screwed up..she's mad at me and...and I don't know what to do?," I sighed.

I don't know how to gain her love if all these weird moments keep happening. I don't know why she won't just remember me. Why can't she just remember me? Was I too cruel before to be worth remembering. Was I too mean? Why can't life be just like one of those kid's freaking fairytale. Where just one kiss and everything was fine. Happily ever after. Yeah right? As if my life would ever be a fairytale.

" Whoa, like since when are you a expressinal type of guy?," my sister asked shocked.

" You asked me what's wrong didn't you! So I told you! Can't you atleast say something better?," I yell at her.

My sister leaned back and looked at me closely.

" Hmm...you're despreate...for her..right? You want her because you truly love her. She means everything to you and you don't know what to do because you're despreate for her and you want her to know that you would do anything for her right?," my sister said.

I recalled her words...dammit she's right.

" Tell me...what to do? I don't know? How do you make someone fall in love with you? How do you make a stranger fall in love with you..trust you? HOW?," Truth be told I was despreate.

Despreate for her to remember me. Despreate for me to hold her, like I use to. To laugh with her...hold her hand..and kiss her without having to apologized for an accident. I wish I could go back in time. To when we were stuck in the middle of nowhere. I would give anything just to be with her that night. Just the two of us. I shouldn't have been acting all mean...I shouldn't have blamed her for getting us lost.

Narrative;

Otani was seriously sad..it made you want to cry just seeing him so sad =C...( tear, tear). Her sister watched in pity at her brother. She placed a hand on his shoulder and said sympathetically

" My dear brother...don't stop..don't give up because everything will work out in the end...just ask me I know! Love is a hard thing Atsushi but the thing is you love her, That will always be the most important thing and when you love her this much you continue to fight for it, when you do love will come back to you," she adviced.

She tried to smile for encouragement. Otani sighed looking at the snow falling down.

" Let's hope," he mumured wistfully.

LCY!17 a/n: I don't know about you guys but if you're for some reason mad at Risa for being mean to Otani or whatever I understand it's ok to be mad at her for this part...but you do have to understand risa p.o.v ( she hardly knows Otani) and don't worry she'll realize her mistake...soon.

Risa

As soon as he left I touched my lips with my fingers. Whoa..was that really a kiss? That kiss? That kiss was...

Amazing

Beautiful!

If only he hadn't done the other thing and I would've completely loved that moment. That kiss...was amazing. I never been kissed like that before. Even now..I want another kiss. That was probably how good his kiss was. But.. He touched something he shouldn't have. That ruins everything.

EVERYTHING!

I angrily throw my pillow to the ground. You shrimp! Why did you have to mess it up for me! That was just like my first kiss to me..and he had to screw it up! I was so furious. I didn't even know why it was making me so mad. So furious. I wonder why did I really forget Otani? How come I feel so mad at him for srewing up a kiss? I liked that kiss! Infact I actually loved it and he messes it up.

Why does he have to kiss so freaking amazing anywa? XoX

-that night-

" Stupid shrimp boyfriend have to kiss so good," I grumble as I stab my food at dinner.

" What got you in a bad mood tonight?," My brother asked gawking at my food.

"Stupid shrimps," I muttered.

" What shrimps we're eating rice?," he asked frowing and giving me the usaul my-sisters-an-idiot look.

" Shrimps that kiss," I muttered stil angry.

" Mom! I think nee-chan has seriously lost it this time she's talking about kissing shrimps!," he told my mom from across the table.

" Is something wrong Risa?." my mom asked.

" No...I'm going out," I mumbled pushing my untouched rice bowl and walking away.

I dialed Chiharu number.

" H-Hello?," she answered the phone shyly.

" Chiharu it's me Risa want to go out?," I asked.

" Oh..Risa...sure," she agreed.

-later-

" Risa, Why are you so angry about?,' Chiharu asked.

" Ugh! It's because of my stupid so called boyfriend I have," I angrily mumble.

"Otani-kun? What he do?," Chiharu asked.

So I told her what happened. She gave a small gasp when I was finish.

" You told him to leave?," she gasped.

"Well..yeah,"

" But Risa! Why? What if-What if Otani really didn't mean to?," she said.

" He did..he probably plan the whole thing out...boys who can trust them," I continue to muttered.

" Risa...I don't think you did the right thing, Otani is a good person, poor Otani," she murmured looking sadly at me.

" Chiharu! What are you saying! Aren't you suppose to be taking my side?," I argued.

"Well Risa don't you think Otani is being honest with you?," she asked.

Honest?

" Who knows I hardly even know him,"

" If he wasn't honest I don't think he would of still want you back, he would of gave up on you a long time ago..or on that day you forgot him, he wouldn't have kept trying to get you back," Chiharu explained.

That...does make sense but still

" Give him a chance Risa,"

"Chance?,"

" Risa, Otani loves you he really does because if he didn't he would've already given up on you- I think you were mean to him,"

Was I? I thought about it for a moment. He has been trying and he must really love me to keep trying. I did yell at him even after all he's done. I been acting mean..to him..

Chiharu right.

This is not me.

" Chihary...what should I do?," I asked her.

What should I do to fall in love with someone? What is love like? It can't end like this. This is not how love is suppose to be.

" Hmm..apologize?," Chiharu suggested.

Apologize...

" Guys like him are hard to find Risa," Again she adviced.

" I'll find him...and I'll give him a try again," Anyway I'm starting to enjoy having him around. Maybe Otani is the right person I should fall in love with. I'm starting to love his company. I'm going to look for him.

Otani

" Mom I'm going out," I say as I leave to go over to Koizumi house to try and apologize. I was just thinking on what to say to her when I reach her house when someone taller then my bump into me or I bump into her and we both fell down. Her top of me as I catch her.

It was Koizumi...

" Koizumi?," I say surprise

" I'm sorry Otani..I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell at you before please forgive me," she said as she put her arms aroung me.

Huh? What's going on? How did this suddenly happen.

Why was she hugging me. I holded her still too surprise to say anything. It's true she's here...and she's hugging me..tightly?

~~~~~~~~~ I hope you like it and I probably had spelling mistakes ( hidding in hole still). I'm sorry. I hope you continue to read..I'm going to try to get this to it's climax so yup keep reading. See you all in the next chapter XD.

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Oh and sorry for posting this late at night.