Hey guys. I thought I would get this up before 'the end of the world'. HaHa. have a happy holidays, and RIP to those who died in the CT shooting. It really does make you think how short life is. Be thankful for what you have because this has made me realize that i take little things for granted and no one should.

J.P.O.V.

It was Friday, four days since the whole park thing. Maura had distanced herself from me for those long and agonizing four days. I knew the day was coming up for Grayson's surgery because I could tell Maura was getting more and more anxious. We would still study and stuff after school, but each day would seem to be cut even shorter and her racing out the room and leave campus, then she would come back later and later every night, and the dark circles under her eyes got darker every day. My brother was coming this weekend; I am so excited. He told me earlier in the week that he was also bringing Tommy.

School had just started, and I had Maura's class second period. I walked into her class seconds before the late bell rang. "Cutting it kind of close, Jane," She said softly. All the other kids were casually chatting to people around them. Unluckily for me, I had no friends in that class. This was one of the rare occasions when Maura didn't wear a skirt or dress; I guess you could call it 'casual' for Maura, a pair of black slacks and a nice top.

"Well, I can't help that I have to walk from the Literature hall all the way back here, not to mention all my friends like walking slow." I chuckled. She smile and signaled for everyone to quiet down, so class could begin. Most of the class Maura lectured, and occasionally someone would ask a question. Then we started a study guide for our next quiz. After that class, the rest of the day buzzed by. I promised Maddie that I would play some one-on-one later in the afternoon, so I had to go to my room and change. I walked into the room and Maura was sitting on the couch talking on the phone. I decided not to bother her, so I sneaked by her and went into my room.

When I walked out she was still sitting on the couch, but this time she didn't seem so tense. She was relaxed and calm. "What's up?" I asked

"I am leaving tonight, but I will be back by tomorrow afternoon. Grayson's surgery went fine; Jane he is going to be ok. He had the surgery yesterday afternoon that is why I left so early." She said. "He'll be able to go home in a couple of weeks, well my parents' house, but he's staying with me for Thanksgiving break down here." Break was in about five weeks. Maura's eyes were lit up like a candle. She stood up and walked over to me and wrapped her arms around my neck. I was caught off guard by her, but I quickly gave in. She pulled me in even closer.

"I am so happy for you Maura," I said. "I told you everything would be alright; you just hit a rough patch in the road."

"You made me… I was so…" tears started running down her face, "you always know the right thing to say." I cupped her face and wiped her tears away.

"Maura, why are you crying?" I asked jokingly.

"You make me happy. Happier than anyone has in a long time…" She pulled my face close and put her lips against mine. Everything in the world seemed to disappear for that moment. Fireworks went off in my head, everything seemed so great, and then it ended. I realized it couldn't happen. She pulled away. "I lov…" I let go of her and walked to the other side of the room.

As much as I didn't want to, I cut her off, "No, not yet. I need to leave, and I am guessing you need to too. We can't do this. Your judgment has been clouded plus it is kind of illegal." She stood there shocked for a moment.

"but Jane…"

"I'll see you tomorrow." I said before leaving.

I was distracted the whole entire game, so I lost terribly. I think Maddie could tell I was. "Hey, wanna come over tonight? I got some more beer and stuff. All your other roommates are coming too." She said. We were in front of our building.

"I can't tonight, but maybe next time." I said. She nodded ok and went up without me. I ran my hands through my hair. I told the love of my life no when she kissed me, and now I felt like I didn't do the right thing. Honestly I would redo it over again, if I could. I went up to my room, and noticed I had a message on my phone. It was from Maura. My heart felt as if it were going to beat out of my chest.

It wasn't a mistake… -M. I just slid down on the floor. I just completely screwed up everything. I guess that was no big surprise for me. I have always screwed up everything.

We… should talk. –J I replied. I felt like I was trying to diffuse a bomb, one wrong move and I was toast.

Yeah, but after tomorrow, you need tomorrow. –M I need you.. I thought

I know it wasn't a mistake. I just don't want to mess things up. I always seem to do that. –J

Just go to bed. I'll be there tomorrow. –M

I'm sorry. –J

Goodnight. –M

The next morning, everyone's parents and siblings were pulling into the parking lot, but Frankie wasn't. He told me that he had baseball practice, so he wouldn't be here until later. I was kind of all by myself for a while, so I decided to go for a run on the trail Maura showed me. I guess I needed to clear my head, running always did that. The trail dead ended about three or so miles into a clearing into a lake area. I remember her wanting to show me something; I guess this was it. It was an amazing site to say the least. The lake, from what I could see, wasn't very big, maybe a mile to the other side of it. I continued to explore the area for a little while and settled on the sand in front of the lake. I wish it was warm enough to go swimming. My phone buzzed…

I guess you found my secrete spot. –M I started looking around to see if Maura was anywhere, but if she was, I couldn't see her.

Where are you? –J

You must be very oblivious; I am standing very close to you. –M

Just please come out, and how did you know that I would be here? –J

Maddie told me you went for a run and you have to come find me. I am behind one of the trees in the forest. –M

Well you know there is about a million trees in the forest, so I might be a while. –J

You will see me. C'mon –M

I got up and walked into the woods, about fifty feet in I spied Maura behind a tree. I walked over there, and she was looking at something carved into the tree. "I'm going to show you my childhood. I don't want you to say anything until I am finished." She said. I nodded. "Well, as you know, I basically grew up at the school. My mom used to teach there before she retired. "I discovered this place with my friend one day when we were hiking." She started trotting deeper in the forest and looked back to gesture for me to follow. I caught up with quickly. We walked for about ten minutes then my eyes came upon a big fort. "Me and the friend starting building this when we were nine, and we didn't finish until we were sixteen. She moved away."

"I'm sorry Maura; I just don't want you to get in trouble. I really do care for you, but I think we should wait." I spoke out. Maura turned around.

"That's the sweetest thing anyone could have told me. I don't regret kissing you though. I wanted to, just one time to see if it felt like I dreamed it had."

What do you think? REVIEW. I'll try to update before next year, but i want to take some time and spend it with my family and friends. Now try to imagine a t-rex trying to take his profile pic with an iphone. Happy Holidays!