ERMEGARWD! This chapter made me cry, because of what happened in the story and what happen in real life while I was writing this chapter. I hope there isn't to many mistakes because I can't stand going back and reading it. I hope y'all enjoy!
"Fuck. John? Terezi?" I ask wiping away my tears. I sit up and look down the hall at the two figures standing in the doorway at the end of the hallway. I fell more tears fall down my face and I get up and walk towards them. "John and Terezi? Oh my gog, I can't believe it is fucking you guys."
"Uh... yeah Karkat. We come here more than you think. I haven't seen you in a while," John says with a dorky smile on his face. I grin and stop a few feet in front of them. They don't want me touching them. I know they don't, I'm disgusting.
"Hehehehe, yeah we've been checking up on the place ever since you stopped coming down here daily. You know that day multiple years ago," Terezi says her voice fading into sadness at the last sentence.
"Uh... yeah. I used to be the one to check up on this place with..." I trail off as I start to cry again. Shit. I can't cry in front of these two. I look away from them and down at my feet. I cough trying to stop myself crying by holding my breath. I hear shuffling of feet and then two pairs of arms around me. I notice they are crying also and I cry more.
Four years ago on the 4th of December:
"Hahahaha, sorry that was like a few days ago get over it," thirteen year old John tells little younger twelve year old Karkat. Multiple people were there that day: oldest of the group fourteen year old Equius Zahhak, oldest thirteen year old Tavros Nitram, Second oldest thirteen year old John Egbert, Third oldest thirteen year old Terezi Pyrope, the oldest twelve year old Karkat Vantas, oldest eleven year old, turns twelve in a couple of days, Rose Lalonde, and then the youngest of the group ten year old Nepeta Leijon wouldn't have turned eleven for another year. We were celebrating Rose's birthday early since she was going out of town.
Young Karkat was trying to beat up young John for joking about the stair incident a few days back. Everyone was sitting around laughing at the failing Karkat and he eventually gives up.
"One day Egderp. Be prepared for that day I'll be able to beat you up," Young Karkat says laughing and smiling.
"You wish Kitkat," Young John replies while trying to calm himself from laughing so hard. We laughed for a little while about it. I look around the room from where I was sitting on the floor we had a few battery powered lamps around the room. I was some type of old living room, but the electricity no longer worked. Equius, who was at the moment protectively watching Nepeta, says he would one day make the electricity work. Young Karkat thought that would be cool they could hook up some games and spend more time down here than they already did. Everyone agreed with that idea, but well little did they know stuff would go down that day after the day of laughing and joking around.
They all sat around telling scary stories since it was plenty dark down there with the lamps off. They had to stop after a while because Nepeta was getting to scared.
"I do believe we are scaring poor Nepeta a little to much. If I may ask, could we stop?" Equius asks holding onto the jumpy Nepeta,
"Oh, no! I'm purrfectly capable of these silly kitty stories. I think," She answers, but her voice alone contradicts what she said. We laugh. At that moment Young Terezi reaches over and pushes Nepeta's leg. Terezi starts to cackle whenever Nepeta jumps literally ten feet out of Equius' arms and across the room. Hahahaha, Young Karkat looked at Terezi who was looking extremely beautiful that day, but she does everyday. Today she is wearing her adorable red dragon jacket and she had on a teal shirt that had an adorable anime red dragon on it. It went with her beautiful teal colored eyes. She was wearing her favorite jeans that had holes in it from the many activities they do together. He admits it he had a crush on her.
After laughing long enough about Nepeta's reaction and her yelling it not being funny while she was laughing also, we turned on the lights. We then just laid around and talked.
It was around 4:00 in the afternoon and everyone started to go home. First being Rose saying she had to pack still. We sang her Happy Birthday and then, she left after giving us all hugs. Karkat smiled as all his friend were surrounding him and laughing together.
Nepeta ended up doing a dance thing. It was cute and she was o happy. She ended up falling on top of me after a few to many turns. She giggled and apologized. She sat by me and leaned against my shoulder.
"Cousin! I'm getting so tired I need a kitty nap," Nepeta in formed me. At this point the only people left was Nepeta, John, Terezi, and me. Equius had just left being a little hesitant to leave Nepeta. He cared about her a lot.
"Haha, ok Nepeta. I'm sorry let's get you home. You guys want to come over?" Karkat asks the remaining friends in the room.
"Sure thing Karkles! I'd love to come over," Terezi answered me quickly and Karkat laughed at the nickname she gave him a while back. He looked at John and smiled.
"Huh? What about it? Coming over?" Karkat asked shaking his head yes before he even answered. John sighed and agreed. They cheered and got up to leave. They turned off all the lights and looked at sleepy Nepeta, it was around 7:30 or so. Karkat walked over and picked her up piggy back style and headed towards the stairs. They all got outside after making sure no one was around and started heading towards Karkat's apartment.
"One more picture before the day is over," They've been taking pictures all day that day.
"Sure," Terezi and Karkat answer at the same time. I stand in between them and position sleeping Nepeta so we could get her in the picture also. She loved taking pictures we were at the moment using her camera. They always gave the camera to John, so he could get the pictures developed.
The flash goes off and they got a picture of them laughing together, because right then Nepeta snored heavily. They walked back to Karkat's Uncle's apartment and head up the stairs. They were still laughing as they walked into the room. Karkat heads into the living room and sits Nepeta on the couch. She didn't like Karkat being in her room, so he respected that. He lays on the couch with John's help. They ended almost dropping her and they laughed about it.
"Haha, thanks John. We almost dropped her," Karkat laughs as they walked in to the kitchen.
"Hey, it wasn't my," John says and fades off looking at something in the kitchen. I laugh and look at him.
"What?" Karkat asks the frightened John and walks towards him as he was still in the living room. Karkat makes it to the kitchen and sees his Uncle standing by the counter holding a beer. "Uh, guys I think you should go. I'm sorry maybe some other time," Karkat tells Terezi and John quickly as he pushes them out of the kitchen.
"Where are you going, punk? They can stay I haven' t said they had to leave," the drunk man says angrily. As he stumbles away from the bar, Karkat pushed the two further away.
"No I think I will be best if they left. Now, I'll show them to the door. Nepeta is on the couch if you want to take her to her bed," Karkat tells his Uncle trying to distract him.
"Shut up! I told you they don't have to leave you little punk! What did I say about listening to me?" Karkat listens to his voice and how much he was stuttering, he was really drunk. Karkat didn't realized he had gotten closer. It was to late to move he shoves the other two out of the way as a knife swings downward and ends up hitting him instead of John. Karkat looks at his chest and the newly made cut across it. He falls to his knees and looks up at his Uncle. Ugh. It hurt so bad. I heard some yelling and a scream. I get up and look behind me, Nepeta was screaming at her dad.
"No, don't it is ok," Karkat tries to tell them all, but he ends up coughing up blood. He looks at John. "Take Nepeta. Please." John only shakes his head and grabs Nepeta.
"No! No! Karkitty! Stop daddy," Nepeta screams and fights against John. Karkat faces his Uncle who was looking at Nepeta furious. He looked at him with a look, one where Karkat knew this will be the last day he would be alive. His Uncle goes to stab his nephew. Karkat prepares for the pain and closes his eyes. It never comes. He hears multiple screams and one was above the others. One that was so high pitched, so young. Karkat opens his eyes at a view he would never live down.
"NEPETA! NO," he screams and collapses to the body laying on the floor. "Oh no. No. No! It's ok Nepeta. It's ok," Karkat picks her up and carries her to the door. He looks at his uncle and glares.
"This is your fault! If you ever bring your so called friends over here again I'll kill them!" His Uncle yells as Karkat, John, and Terezi rush out of the apartment.
"John! Drive!" Karkat tells the thirteen year old as he gets in the back with Terezi's help. He doesn't care if John is to young he needs to get to the hospital. John starts the car and speeds down the rode. He has a little trouble, but he doesn't care. Karkat pets Nepeta's hair and she smiles at him.
"I love you Karkitty," Nepeta says finally stopped shaking. I nod my head with tears falling down my face.
"Yes, I love you too Nepeta. It's ok you'll make it through this," Karkat told her has she weakly laughed and then cough up blood. "Please. You have to be alright."
John horribly pulls into the emergency drive almost hitting a doctor. The doctor looked mad, John quickly gets out and the doctor yells, "You're to young to be driving! What the hell do you think you're doing this is emergency only!"
"SHUT UP! WE NEED HELP," Karkat yells as John opens the door. Karkat climbs out holding Nepeta. "Please help us." Doctors run over quickly with a gurney and takes Nepeta from me. They start to rush inside. Karkat was jogging right beside the gurney holding Nepeta's hand. She looked bad. A doctor's arms get around me before they enter the doors. "NO! LET GO! NEPETA! NO!" Karkat struggles against the doctor and ends up elbowing him hard in the side to get away. Karkat ran through the doors and found the gurney being pushed into a room. He stands by the window looking in. They wouldn't let him in. "I'm so sorry Nepeta," He feels a doctor grab him again, but just as he faints from blood loss.
"We have another one, here," The doctor said before Karkat completely blacked out.
Karkat screams at his Uncle and looks at the now dead Nepeta. He hits his Uncle and runs out. Never again did he go a day without hating his uncle. Karkat jumps awake with a scream and flails around. A few doctors come in and hold him down.
"Don't move Mr. Vantas or you might open your stitches," one of the doctors calmly says. They hold me down until I stop moving. I look between them.
"Where is Nepeta? I need to see Nepeta," Karkat says and wits for a answer as the doctors look at each other. "Let me see her!" They help Karkat into a wheelchair and roll him down the hall to another room. As soon as they get inside the room and Karkat looks at the bed he takes control of the wheelchair and wheels fast over to her bed side. No. Nepeta. She was pale and sickly looking. She was asleep. Karkat started to cry again. The doctors came over and started to tell me what was wrong. She was in a coma from blood loss and she might wake up,but she might not. I scream and tell them to leave alone. They all left and I was left alone with Nepeta. I laid my head against her hand and cry.
Two hours later, John and Terezi walk into the room. "Go away I don't need food or medicine," Karkat told who he thought was doctors. Terezi walked over and touched his shoulder.
"Karkat, It's us," Terezi says softly. Karkat keeps his head against Nepeta's hand and holds his tears.
"Who is all here?"
"Um, in the room Terezi and me. In the lobby. Everyone. Equius, Tavros, Rose, a few friends of theirs and family," John answers walking closer to me. I was relieved it was just them in here. I start to cry again and hug John and laying my head against him, crying. Terezi hugs me and they both kneel down to my height and cry with me.
An hour later, we were sitting around Nepeta sharing memories we had with her. I was still crying thinking back on how happy she was. She didn't deserve this, I did. She was the sweetest person ever. She never cried or acted sad and when people needed her she was there to cheer them up. Her and her cat puns.
After a little bit the two help me to walk and get my pants on. I needed a new shirt. All together they left the room with one look behind us at the poor little Nepeta. They helped Karkat to the lobby where everyone was waiting. Karkat look up at them and most of them were glaring at him.
"Nepeta is in a coma," Karkat tells the group choking up a bit. He starts to cry again. They all hate him. This was all his fault.
"We know this, idiot," Tavros says from a chair he was sitting in behind Equius. Everyone nodded.
"Oh. Ok," John helped Karkat sit down and he winced at the pain he felt. Not only from the new stitches, but from inside his heart.
"This is predicament has came into to view, because of you, Karkat. You should have protected our dear Nepeta," Equius says from his spot in the room. I mumble something, holding back more tears. "What? Speak in a level that doesn't show your cowardly personality."
"I said, 'You don;t understand how much I loved her! She was the sweetest girl alive! I protected her to the best of my limits! I failed! Don't you see! I already know I am a cowardly idiot, but I would have died to protect her! That was supposed to be in that bed! Not poor sweet Nepeta...," Karkat yelled until a doctor came. He collapse to the floor have been standing up. He got up and ran at the doctor he was yelling and screaming things he, who was saying it, couldn't understand. John ended up holding me back. Karkat was crying and screaming. He was yelling as loud as he could. The doctors ended up giving him a shot of something to calm me down. Karkat after a few minutes fell to the floor with John. 1:30 a.m December 5thNepeta passed away.
This can't be happening. She wasn't supposed to die. She was going to wake up on day and smile at us saying she had a dream while she was asleep. She would heal and play. Speak with her purrfect cat puns. Now, none of it will ever happen because I was to weak. Karkat sat there crying into John's shoulder.
"I will never forgive you," Karkat screams. "I will never forgive you or myself from this day on!" Karkat pushes John away and gets up.
"Karkat? What are you doing?" John asks me and I turn around and face away from everyone.
"I'll fix this one day. I will get the revenge that Nepeta deserves. I don't care how long it will take I will get her and my revenge," With that said Karkat walked out of the room and back to the room Nepeta is in. He kisses her hand and tells her, "I am so sorry. I will get your revenge for you. He will go to jail."
Karkat walks out of the hospital followed by John and Terezi, the only two that he still had and he had to leave them. "Stop. Just stop. I don't want you around anymore. Go away and never come back. I never want you to come around my apartment again or even around me," I tell them and keep walking.
"Karkat?" They both say not following me any longer. "Please go to the police."
"I'm going to the police all right," Karkat said taking off running. He runs all the way to police station, to see that his Uncle was already there. He yells and attacks his Uncle. "She's dead! She's dead, because of you and your stupid drinking problem!"
"Get off me," he says knocking Karkat off into the arms off the Sheriff. Some cops take him away and the sheriff sits me in a chair.
"He Karkat. How are you?" The sheriff asks acting as if he cares. Karkat watched as they took his Uncle into custody. He looks at the sheriff.
"Really? 'How are you?' Ok then, I'm have the worst day of my life and fuck me, if goes to jail for the rest of his life then I will be much better!" I yell at the officer. This was the day when my cursing, cutting, and problems came into my life. "My cousin is dead. I'm all alone."
"I'm sorry, Karkat. I really am. It isn't just my job to care for you, I really do care," the sheriff tells him. He shakes his head and looks down.
"No. Nobody cares about me. I learned this the hard way," I look at his tag. "Sheriff Psy Cafor." He chuckles. What is so funny?
"Karkat. I'm sure your friends care about you. I care about you. I'm so sorry about Nepeta," Psy says before walking off. Psy was a colleague of my uncle's, I think. Karkat's uncle was a cop. Now, Karkat doesn't know what he is going to do. He wishes his uncle would go die.
A few months later after we've had her funeral, after we had his court case, after Karkat made it clear to the court that he despised them, after his case was dropped, Karkat then vowed he would do everything in his power to grow up strong enough to fight his uncle. His uncle blames Karkat for what happened. He abuses Karkat a lot now. Karkat avoids home more. He doesn't have people anymore.
Karkat was walking towards the hideout and when he almost there. He notices Equius leaving it with a box of stuff and Rose, and Tavros. Karkat runs over as fast as he could, "What the fuck do you think your taking?"
"Items that had belonged to me," Equius had said to Karkat glaring needles towards him. "It is no longer your buisness to talk to me. You low class peasant."
"Shut the fuck up, Equius! You are no longer aloud here! I hate you all," Karkat yells at the three of them.
"We possibly couldn't care less. For we are all moving," Rose tells him. Karkat looks at them.
"Ok. Good! I don't care! Leave and don't come back," Karkat yells and holds back his tears. He glares at them. Equius gives the box to Tavros and walks over and decks Karkat in the face. Karkat falls to the ground holding his bleeding nose.
"That was for Nepeta," Equius said and walked off taking the box back. Tavros and Rose follow right behind him. He stands up and look at the abandoned building, then turned and walked away. He didn't deserve to go back to the place Nepeta loved.
Three years later, here I am sitting on the floor of the room I haven't been in for years, with John and Terezi talking, crying, missing old times. I spent a little while looking at our wall of pictures. All of us were happy and peaceful. Nepeta was smiling and I was to.I rarely smile, now. I don't think I have smiled for real ever since that day. Nepeta meant everything to me.
"I missed you guys," I tell the two standing by me looking at the pictures. I say it quietly though. I'm not used to missing people.