Chapter 10: Secrets

Rated T. I don't own Castle.

After spending the rest of the night watching movies everybody in the house went to bed. "Thank you so much for helping Alexis like that."

"There's no need to thank me, she's my daughter too." Kate told him.

"I know and she is so lucky to have you."

"I'm the lucky one babe. " She let out a large yawn and Rick pulled her into his embrace, the two very feel asleep very quickly.

It was early in the morning when Rick felt his wife twitch in his arms, it was small but being a light sleeper it didn't go unnoticed. He was so tired at first he ignored it but then he felt her twitch again, he listened and noticed she was breathing fast. "Kate?" he whispered into the dark.

"Sorry, didn't mean to wake you."

"No that's okay, is everything okay?"

"Just fine."

It was quiet after that for a while. Rick noticed that her breathe was caught in her throat, even in the dark he could tell she was fighting back tears. He reached over and turned on the bedside lamp.

"Honey, you don't have to hold it in." Rick told her as he rubbed her back.

Kate turned around and faced him, he noticed her eyes were red from the crying. She leaned up and gave him a soft kiss, "Rick? I need something." She spoke so softly it was hard to hear her.

"Of course, anything you need. "

"Can you hold me?"

"Oh Kate, come here." He sat up and she sat in the on his lap, he felt her let out a deep breathe.

"Thank you."

"Is something wrong?"

"I had a nightmare. It's been so long since I've had one."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

She started playing with her hand then, she only did that when she was very nervous. "It's um about something you don't know about."

"We said no more secrets."

"It's from something that happened when I was a teenager, the only person that knows is my Mom."

"Do you want to tell me?"

"Are you mad at me?"

"Of course not, I'm sure you had a good reason for not telling me."

"I don't want you to think less of me."

"There is nothing you could tell me about yourself that could change the way I see you. I would really like to know, please tell me?"

Kate took a deep breath and started her story, "It happened when I was 17. I used to walk home from school every day, it was a twenty minute walk. One day I had to stay after school to work on a project by the time I got to walking home it was dark. I had a boyfriend at the time and I had just found out he was cheating on me, I was heartbroken."

Rick interrupted her, "Any boy that would cheat on you is crazy."

Kate laughed, "Well lucky for me it all worked out."

"Damn straight it did. But sorry finish the story."

"I was so upset and I didn't feel like going home, so I decided to take the long way home. But I got lost and ended up in an ally. There was a guy there around the age of thirty, when I walked past him he um grabbed my wrist." She stopped then and snuggled deeper into Rick's embrace.

He kissed the top of her head, "It is okay Kate, you can tell me anything."

"You'll love me no matter what?"

"Of course I will, never doubt that."

"Okay. I tried yelling for help but nobody heard me, I tried fighting him but he was just too big and I wasn't as strong at the time. It all happened so quickly Rick; he hit me a few times, giving me a bloody noise and then he um you know."

"Please tell me it not what I think."

She nodded and let the tears finally far from her face. "I'm sorry, so sorry that I never told you Rick."

"I understand why you wouldn't want to tell anybody that."

"So you're not mad at me?"

"Of course not. I'm mad at the person who hurt you but never at you."

"I'm not sure why it gave me a nightmare tonight, I almost never think about it."

"Maybe it has something to do with Alexis? I mean I know she wasn't raped but maybe it triggered something?"

"I think you're right. I used to have a lot of sex to try and numb the pain, I had lots in bathrooms."

"I can't tell you how sorry I am that you had to go through that."

"Yeah me too."

"Were you able to work through it though?"

"As I told you I had lots of sex but none of them worked."

"I would expect that."

"That is except you."

"Oh?"

"Rick you were the first guy who made me feel loved, made me feel like it wasn't just about sex."

"It's not for me, not with you. I mean I love having sex with you but I always want to make love not just use you for your body."

"And you do all the time. Whenever we are together I feel so cherished so thank you for loving me."

"Thank you for letting me."

"Do you think you can get some more sleep?"

"Can you rub my back? That always helps."

"Of course" Rick rubbed her back until she fell asleep and then he too fell asleep.

The next morning

"Good morning Kate."

"Morning, thank you so much for last night."

"That's what husbands are for."

"Well then you're the best husband."

"And you're the best wife."

"So I was thinking last night and I have something I want to run by you."

"Okay."

"I think you should spend a day with each girl, the whole day and night. Spend it at a hotel, just the two of you."

"Why don't we split it, you could do it with one of them too."

"No, just you and one of them."

"Can I ask why?"

"You don't like the idea? Sorry it was stupid."

"It's not stupid at all. I just want to know what gave you the idea."

"When I was seven I had friends that were twins, a boy and girl. There were always telling me that they got special days with their parents; the girl with her mom and the boy with her dad. I was always so jealous because I didn't have a dad to have special days with. Then I had Alexis and she didn't have mom to have special days with, I felt terrible and sad for her. But now we have three girls that can I have their special mommy days and pretty soon I will have boys to have special daddy days with."

"I love this idea, how about I take Hope first?"

"Whatever you want to do, thank you."

"For what?"

"Making my dreams come true."

"You want to come take a shower and make my dream come true?"

"Well I'm not one to deny my wife her dreams!"

Kate laughed and pulled him into the bathroom.

After breakfast

"Alright my little munchkins, Daddy is writing and we need to have a talk." Kate told her daughters. Emma and Tegan walked over and joined their Mom but Hope stood in the middle of the floor and started crying.

Kate walked over to her and got to her level, "Baby what's wrong?"

"Me in trouble."

"Did you do something wrong?"

"I dunno."

"It's okay if you did."

Hope nodded "I sorry Mama."

"Can you tell me what happened?"

"I break somfthing."

"And what did you break?"

"Where Mama put the pretty flowers."

"That's okay baby it was just an accident. "

"You mad?"

"No I'm not mad. How about we go join your sisters so we can all talk."

"Okay."

Kate took her seat with her daughters next to her and began the talk, "Daddy and I were talking last night and we thought it would be super fun if I had a mommy, daughter day with each of you!"

"What that?" Tegan asked.

"I'm going to spend a whole day with one of you and we are going to spend the night at a hotel too." Kate answered

"Who first?" Emma asked

"This weekend I'm going to take Hope, but don't worry you each will get your turn."

"I first! Thank you Mama!"

"Of course baby."

AS the girls started talking about their special days, Kate couldn't help but smile.

I'm not sure if I like the part with Kate in the beginning...I might delete it later. The next chapter will be Hope and Kate's special day.