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Wow, I updated chapter 9 exactly a week ago today!, I did want to get two chapters up in one week but this one took a bit longer to write. Anyway because this is chapter 10 (!) I felt like celebrating, double digits woohoo!
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Anyway, since this is a celebration and all..I thought we could do it in style in the form of one Katie Fucking Fitch!
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I don't own skins but it can be my fran, my fran yah?
Chapter 10
Katies POV
"Yeah Campbell's got the right idea, I'm going to dance losers"
I picked up my D&G leopard print that was an early Christmas present from Marco, bloody tosser thought he was getting in, I bet he feels well stupid now. As fun as it's been up here I didn't come to a club to just play word games, I needed to dance.
"Oi wait up babe! Cookie will come dance with ya" oh my god take a hint
"Hurry up then babes!" I yelled back rolling my eyes
We walked down the staircase that led us to this huge dance floor and I was feeling well pissed so I decided to skip ordering a drink, I waved Cook off and started pushing my way through people until I reached the front of the stage where the DJ booth was. I'm not sure how long it took but soon enough I was being swarmed by fit Spanish blokes, doesn't matter what country you're in, they all have the same tactic.
You know, the whole dance around you and make eye contact thing. Usually I like the attention, it's not like I don't know I'm hot or anything, I just like other people knowing it aswell so when guys are hanging off you like you're Britney Spears (before she shaved her head) it's a nice feeling. Anyway, usually I would tease them a bit to get them thinking they're getting in my knickers, free drinks yeah?, but I'm not a slut I wouldn't like just fuck them that easy, I only sleep with people I date. Tonight is different though because she is here, I can feel her eyes watching as I sway my body to the beat.
"Fuck off" I casually said to some tosser who was whispering fuck knows what in my ear, I hate that she has this power over me, like I can't even enjoy a fit Spanish guy rubbing up against me because then I'll end up feeling bad. I turned around to yell at this insistent wanker when I saw her, she was sitting up on the stage just watching me.
"Why aren't you dancing?" I yelled over the music, Effy just shrugged in reply, typical, she never gives me answers.
I decided to sit up on the stage beside her, it's not like I'm going to keep dancing with guys why she watches me, I'm not that much of a bitch. We sat there for a while, probably only like 5 minutes but that's a really long time when you're sitting down watching people dance and you want to be one of those people.
"Why aren't you dancing?" Effy asked
"Don't do that Eff" I sighed looking down at my heels that hung off the stage, she knew why I wasn't dancing so I don't need to voice it for her.
"Hey" Effy nudged me softly "let's just have fun yeah? want a pill?"
….
G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S we flyin' first class up in the sky … "Arghhh who the fuck calls at this time!" by the glamorous, ooh, the flossy, floss- "hello?" I said squinting at the light showing through the curtains "Katie! Hey how are you?" who the fuck is this?
"Who's this?" I snapped getting out of the bed "it's Lisa, how are you?" fuck! "why are you calling me?" "Umm..well I was just, err is Emily around?" Where is Emily?
I frowned looking around "No she's probably out with her new girlfriend" Okay so I know I was over exaggerating but this bitch deserved it.
"…and you called her a slut you cow! So it's not like id put you on to her anyway, now if you don't mind I've got things to do, so you can just pretty much fuck off now yeah?."
I hung up before she could get a word in, stupid slag who does she think she is calling me! Fucking Ems needs to get her shit together; I'm willing to be like supportive and shit but when her ex's start calling me, there's a problem.
I walked over to the bathroom door needing water because my head's fucking killing me "JESUS!" what the fuck did I do last night!. My reflection this morning wasn't pretty, the pink extension I had in is somehow attached to the straps of my dress, my hair is …I can't even, and my face! Did I cry last night? What the fuck!
I hopped into a warm shower trying to remember what actually happened to make me wake up looking like Jordan on crack but realised it was useless by the time id finished washing my hair, got dressed and still didn't know. I can remember going there but that's about it.
…
"Hey Panda" I smiled
"Hey Katie! Jeez I thought you'd be sleepin till the moon comes up, you were totally bonkers on that pole last night!" she rambled as I followed her into the hotel room.
"What pole are you on about?" I frowned
I looked up to see Effy spread over a chair in the corner of the room
"The one you were dancing on you numpty!"
"Hey" I sat on the bed smiling at Effy
"Hey" she monotoned staring at her smoke
"So...how're you?"
"Great"
What's her problem? I rolled my eyes as a knock came from the door. Panda jumped up to answer it and before I could ask Effy what her problem was Cook, Thomas, JJ and Freddie came in making themselves comfortable.
"Katie babe! how ya feelin today?" Cook grinned plumping down and putting his arm around me
"Eww fuck off, god how much deodorant do you need!" I whined shrugging him off
"Aww come on babe don't be like that, you were lovin the Cookie monsters hugs last night" Cook winked in a sleazy way
"Either tell me what you're on about right now, or piss off over there yeah?" I frowned pointing at the end of the bed; my patience was wearing thin because everyone seemed to know what had happened last night but me.
"You and Cook were sucking face all night" Effy said nonchalantly lighting another smoke
"What?" I frowned, I don't remember doing that..I don't remember anything!
"Want some chips?" Freddie asked nervously bringing plates into the room
"Oh my god, we didn't…" I said in alarm spinning my head to Cook
"Nuh we didn't shag babe, but maybe later we will" Cook winked
"You're repulsive and if I had of been sober there is no way in hell" I flicked my eyes to Effy for a brief second "that I would have gone anywhere near your dick or mouth" I said putting him back in his place.
"Interesting" Effy hummed from her seat before getting up and taking the plate Freddie was holding out.
"Yeah..so what else happened last night?" I asked eyeing her off
"You were pole dancing for ages, it was flippin crazy, I thought you'd end up breaking a hip or something!" Panda said with a mouth full of food
"Okayyy…and why was I pole dancing?"
"The pill babe, you were going nuts!" Cook grinned "y'know, the Stonem blend!" he said taking a handful of chips
"Don't worry Katie, we've all done embarrassing thing's on one of Tony's pills" Freddie smiled
It wasn't the pole dancing I was worried about though. "Eff can I talk to you for a minute in the kitchen?"
"Sure"
…
"So..um.." I leaned against the bench thinking of what the fuck to say, this was a really awkward situation, I like Effy, like really like her, I just don't know how to deal with it. When I first saw her there wasn't any like..fireworks, you know that love at first sight bullshit?. She was just a girl, then we became friends and I got to know more things about her, she puts on this whole act so that people can't see who she really is but I don't get it, I can see straight through her and she's actually a really good person, she really listens to you, even when you aren't talking to her. No ones ever really taken the time to get to know me before but Effy did it so effortlessly.
Then we went clubbing in Paris and I kissed her, I can't even say it was the drugs because I didn't have any. We were dancing and Freddie kept trying it on with her, I couldn't stand it and I don't know why, I just hated watching him put his hands on her hips when it was meant to be just us two dancing. So I grabbed her hand and dragged her outside, she didn't ask me why or anything she just followed. Anyway we got outside and I was so angry and frustrated and..I don't even know, but I kissed her, in an alleyway outside the club. We haven't spoken about it since but it's been really weird, it's like I can't be interested in anyone but Effy anymore and that's my problem.
I've never just liked anyone before, yeah I've dated heaps of guys but it's not as easy as it looks, they're all as dumb as fuck, it's like talking to a fucking wall sometimes!. So why do I date them then?, because it's easy. I know I sound like a bitch but some of the guys I do generally grow to like and others are a really great shag, it never last's though because I don't just like them automatically, but with Effy, I really just like her. I don't even know why..I mean, I know she's a great person and if I'm being honest she's well fit but I don't really have a reason. We just get each other, are people supposed to have reasons for liking someone?, I don't know.
I can admit to myself that I like Effy, but if I say it out loud it makes it more real, I can't really explain it in any way that will make sense but she knows I like her, I bloody kissed her, what more does she need?. I can't just come out and admit it to the world, what would mum think? Yeah I shouldn't care and all that shit but I do, I'm not Emily, I can't just come out and say I like a girl after being with guys for so long. The way mum looks at me when I come home with a guy makes me feel good, like she's really proud. I've never had anything else to make them proud with, I don't have any special talents, I'm not smart or anything, it's why I do so much to please mum.
"I don't know who I am anymore" I said looking up at her "I don't..,you can't just expect me to-"
"Katie, I'm not expecting anything, you can do whatever you want" Effy said leaving the room.
I sighed swallowing the lump in my throat back down before entering the room again, thankfully Thomas was talking about some festival that's on today so all conversation of last night was forgotten. After a while we all decided we were going to it and agreed to meet in the foyer at six.
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"Why are you smiling like a creep for?" I asked Emily who had been pretty much skipping around the room since she got back.
"What?" she said looking up from the pile of clothes on the bed
"I said, why are you smiling like a creep for? You and Campbell shag then?"
"What! No! Jesus Katie, unlike you, I can keep it in the pants"
"Whatever" liar "Your psycho ex called me this morning, bitch woke me up"
"Christ" Emily sighed throwing a jacket on the bed "she won't drop it, she's pretty much begging for me back"
"Yeah well, just leave me out of it yeah? tell her not to fucking call me"
…
We all met at six and decided to follow a bunch of people who were passing our hotel, thankfully they knew where to go because none of us did. After about ten minutes of walking Cook stopped us all and started handing out white pills.
"I'm never taking one of those again" I defiantly crossed my arms "why not? thought you loved pills" Effy said before placing one in her mouth. I sighed facing away from her, is she ever going to talk to me proper again? I didn't kiss Cook to get at her, I don't even remember doing it! she's making me feel well shit.
"Come on Katiekins, it'll be fun" Naomi nudged my side, obviously trying to ease the tension.
"I said no okay!" I snapped, it's not like I meant to be a bitch to her, I'm just sick of Effy ignoring me or making comments about last night, yeah I like her, so why do I have to say it? she knows I do!
"Jesus Katie, calm down" Emily frowned grabbing Naomi's hand and walking off.
"You must try to relax" Thomas smiled as we continued to walk "we are having fun yes?"
"Yeah" I sighed more interested in Effy and Freddie flirting like there's no tomorrow ahead of us
…
As soon as we hit the first street the festival was on I noticed two wooden giants dancing around a crowd, really creepy, seriously, I know they're people underneath the costumes but id hate to have one of those chasing me down a dark road. A little further down the street there were these freaky looking guys dressed as like..a cross between huge fly and dragon and when we passed them they started letting off firecrackers from the back of their costumes which scared the shit out of me. I started to wonder if I was the only person who wasn't enjoying this, I just don't get it, I mean when Thomas said festival I pictured more of a huge party with pretty fireworks and lots of alcohol, but instead all we've passed is the freaks from the fucking circus.
"Oh my gosh!" Naomi laughed pointing at the giants who had changed direction and were now coming back our way "Em! Go stand next to one I want a photo" she giggled jumping up and down.
"Thanks" I tightly smiled at a guy who was passing out pamphlets of the festival,
I quickly flicked through it finding a time sheet at the back "Yes!" JJ high fived Cook "fireworks at 7"
…
After a while of strolling around we all decided on doing different things, as much as I didn't want to be away from Effy, I didn't wanna stand out in the cold until the fireworks were on so I joined Panda, Thomas and Cook in a pub off the main street.
"So when's the wedding then you two lovebirds?" Cook asked placing our drinks down on the table, I snorted at his bluntness as Panda turned bright red.
"You are very upfront" Thomas chuckled picking up his pint
"Course man, aint no other way to be, I don't pussy foot around, can feel ya love from miles away!" Cook grinned. He was right, Panda and Thomas have become so close in such a small amount of time, it's like they're just meant to be or some shit.
"What about you's two? No?" Thomas asked generally interested which really surprised me, Cooks a nice guy but he has no chance with me, that's pretty obvious.
"We're taking it slow" Cook winked at me
"In your dreams wanker" I smirked not being able to hold a straight face
"Nuh Katies right, aint no connection here" he said motioning his hand between us "we're mates though right?"
"Yeah" I smiled at his concern "as long as you keep it in your pants"
….
"This is more like it!" I smiled looking around, it was now almost 7 and we were waiting on the corner of a park that the fireworks were being set off in, the rest of the group weren't here yet but Panda had called Effy and said they were on their way.
The sky was dark now and all sorts of fairy lights and lanterns had been hung around the streets, the entertainment was now more typical of a festival, like marching bands and people dancing and shit and I was feeling well tipsy.
"Watch it slag!" I snapped at some skanks who were drunkenly passing us, one almost spilling her drink on me. It's not like she has a designer dress to worry about I thought watching her walk off oblivious to anything around her.
"Want a boost babe? y'know for when the fireworks are on" Cook cheekily said placing an arm around my shoulders
"You can keep trying all you want tosser but you aren't getting in" I said lightly slapping his arm off. Most of the afternoon had resorted to Cook and I joking around, yeah his an insistent wanker but he's good to be around when you want to get your mind off things, things that are currently walking towards us.
"Alright mate?" Freddie greeted Cook, tosser, why does he always have to be so nice!
"FREDDIEEEE!" Cook howled leaping onto him as Emily and Naomi came over, Naomi looked well gone swaying about everywhere.
"Shit" she giggled "guys!" what the fuck is wrong with her? "guys! I think I'm seeing double!" she smirked looking between Emily and I.
"Jesus Campbell how much have you had?"
"Not enough Katiekins, you ready to party with me?" she asked leaning towards me for support
"Get your lezzer hands off me" I laughed.
We made our way through the crowd, being lead by an extremely loud Cook with Naomi on his back yelling things like "Out of our way!" and "I'm having a baby MOVE!"
"She's well gone Ems" I giggled watching them "what did you's do?"
"Pissed about, we were mostly on main street" Emily smiled still staring at Naomi
"You love her" I stated, it wasn't a question I just wanted Emily to know I knew, and that I was like..okay with it and shit
"What? No" Emily snapped her head towards me with a shocked expression "I haven't even known her that long" she continued
I knew she was lying, more to herself than me, but who am I to talk about love and all that shit? I thought glancing at Effy who was casually walking ahead of us not talking to anyone.
"What's been up with you today anyway?" Emily asked changing the subject
"Nothing"
"Come on Kay, I'm not daft, you're usually a moody cow but quite not to this extent"
"I'm not a moody cow!" I exclaimed as the fireworks started to go off causing cheers from the crowd around us
"WOOOHOOOOOOO!" Cook bellowed raising his arms, which was a really bad move with Naomi, in her state, on his back tumbling to the ground
"You're lucky I'm fearless!...no wait I mean painless! You're lucky" she slurred pointing at Cook from the ground with a squinted eye
"Sorry blondie" Cook sheepishly smiled lifting her up
"s'alrighttt" she attempted an eye roll as Emily came to brush the dirt off her
After Naomi was sorted we all stood there in silence just watching the fireworks, the only sounds around were the pop's of the fireworks and "oohh's" and "ahhhhs" from the crowd. I know fireworks aren't like an exclusive thing but each time I see them I feel like it's the first time I'm seeing fireworks, they're pretty common but it doesn't take away the special feeling you get when watching them, unless they're the dodgy ones that crack too quickly.
I glanced at Emily and Naomi who were standing in front of me, Emily was taking photo's whilst Naomi lazily leaned on her, beside me Cook was watching the fireworks with a grin on his face taking random sips from the vodka bottle he brought with him, Thomas was laughing at an over excited Panda who was pointing up at each firework with JJ and Freddie was conveniently standing next to Effy who was staring straight at me. Her face was expressionless but I could tell by a glint in her eye that she was upset, shit she's not gonna like cry over me is she? I can't deal with that. I weakly smiled at her because really, what else could I do? She smiled back causing my stomach to erupt with butterflies but before I knew it Effy had grabbed Freddie's shirt and pulled him towards her, what the fuck! she was kissing him and I literally felt every butterfly that had been fluttering around in my stomach instantly died. Why is she doing this?. The lump was building in my throat watching them kiss. It must have only lasted seconds with Effy pulling away and briefly looking at me before turning around and running through the crowd. I wasn't aware of it, or anything else for that matter, but tears had begun streaming down my face because Emily had turned around and started asking what was wrong. How could she kiss Freddie in front of me like that?
"Katie! What's wrong!" Emily asked shaking my shoulders, I was aware that everyone was now staring at me like I'm some sort of emotional freak but I couldn't answer.
It's not like I kissed Cook to get at her so why would she do that?, maybe she's liked Freddie all along and I was just a distraction or something, fuck her! I cared about that bitch and she just used me!
I didn't care if I was being irrational and not thinking it through, but within seconds Id made up my mind and was running after her, all I knew was that I wanted to go after Effy and beat the shit out of her for breaking me like that, I'm a person! She can't just pretend to like me..and get me to like her and then kiss Freddie in front of me, yeah I kissed Cook, so fucking what! I was off my face and I don't even remember it, it's not like I was doing it to get at her!.
I was aware that Emily was following because she was shouting at me to stop but I couldn't, I needed to find Effy and either get an answer from her willingly or beat it out of her. All this time I've known Freddie likes her, she told me, but she never said she liked him back.
God! why is there so many fucking people here! I kept running, pushing people aside, I could barely make out the thin figure running ahead but I knew it was her, people were waving sparklers around and I had to dodge a few to avoid getting burnt, it was only adding to my frustration and anger. I knew I looked well shit by the way people were looking at me but I didn't care, I've had enough of these games Effy is playing with me.
A few minutes later I was out of the park and following Effy up an empty street, it was way easier to see her now because everyone was at the fireworks display, I'm pretty sure I lost Emily in the crowd which was a small relief, seriously, why the fuck was she following me? If a person is running away it's a pretty big hint that they want to be left alone, daft cow.
Finally Effy turned into an alleyway and I slowed my pace down to a fast walk regaining my breath. I turned into the alleyway and saw her standing there leaning on her knee's crying. I stormed over grabbing her by the shoulders and smashing our lips together, this wasn't my original plan, I guess it was like reaction or some shit, I wanted her to know how much she hurt me and this was the only way I could think how to, it took Effy a while to respond but when she did it was with just as much aggression as I was giving, she placed her hands on my hips gripping tight as I bit her lip hard breathing into her mouth. I don't know if it's a guy thing but I definitely like kissing Effy more than anyone I've ever kissed before, even when she's kissing me forcefully its still less sloppy.
"I like you" I panted leaning our foreheads together "now I've said it yeah"
"Katie…"
Fuck! I slowly turned around to see Emily standing there staring at me in shock.
Dum dum duuuuum, scareh! How's Katie gonna get out of this now?
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