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'No Ordinary Cinderella' – A Twilight Fanfic
By No Ordinary Cinderella
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Authoress' Note:
I did not write them songs, I wish I did but I didn't.
The first song was suggested by Blood Filled Tears who rocks by the way.
It's called Outside Looking In by Jordan Pruitt
The second song was one I picked out, it's by Yellow Card and I think it is called view from heaven
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Saffron's POV
Chapter Nine
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The tears wouldn't stop overflowing as the song came to a close. This was the last time I would speak, I would never speak again and neither did I want to. Memories of Cathy plagued my mind and whenever I brushed one salt crystal off my cheek, its friend would appear, and so on and so on. The classroom was clapping and saying things, and over the commotion, all I could do was run and no one stopped me as I passed the stage, passed the desks, passed the teacher, passed the door, my legs carried me as I felt the need to sob, and I nearly made it all the way out before something cold landed on my shoulder and stopped me from running.
Without my legs running, my tears ran instead for them. My knees collapsed from under me, and my hands encased my face as my sobs echoed off the silent corridor. A cold hand pried my hand off gently, afraid possibly. My hands moved away from my eyes, but I did not look into the eyes of the person, my hands wove themselves around my arms tight as my petite frame began rocking back and forth. My vision was just a kaleidoscope of blurs as the tears covered my eyelids and I found myself chocking on my sobs. The same person who had removed my hands, now unwound my arms from around myself and placed them around him. I was sure it was a boy because he pressed me tightly to his chest and I could feel the muscular structure of his chest. It felt like marble, cold and hard. He held me, and cradled me whilst my sobs quietened and became silent.
The curtain of my speech was finally closed. Never would I speak again, I would never show my father the hurt of him not loving me, of never being loved or accepted or feeling the warmth of an embrace. It seemed to cliché that I was getting my first hug of a stranger. My sister always sat me on her lap and played with my hair to calm me down, she never hugged me, she didn't want to hurt me.
This all reminded me of the pain that I was ignoring that rippled across my back in waves, and I screamed as this man held me gently against him. I tried to pull away so that his arms would not hurt my back, but he held a firm grip, the more I squirmed the more the pain tore in fresh whips on my back. "You're hurting me." I whispered, the tears running now because of the torturous strain and pain across my back. The boy let go of me immediately, and I saw the golden orbs of Ryan Cullen. I could see it in his eyes…he knew my hidden meaning in the song, he knew what my father did to me, who else was at my house to beat me? He knew about the bruises, the hell, the scars, the marks, he knew. He knew. But how did I guess? How did he come to this conclusion?
I had to run, before he told, before he got the evidence of me spilling my secrets, before he got me massacred by my own father. I turned, and my legs started to pound painfully across the corridor, but before I turned the corner, a quick tug of my hand and I fell backwards into his awaiting arms.
"Why do you let him beat you?" His silky voice spoke.
I was surprised when I answered back. "Because I'm a worthless hideous bitch who intruded on an already perfect family and tore them apart, I'm worse than the piece of gum you find on your shoe, and I'm worse than shit. I'm nothing, I'm a nobody, I don't even deserve to live when others who are more beautiful and perfect in so many ways have died because of me. That's what I am, worthless, I deserve his beatings, I deserve every bruise, every mark, every scar that he places on my, that's why."
His eyes smouldered. "Don't say that, you're so much more-"
"Don't say things you don't mean, I don't need your pity, nor do I need a friend, all I need is to die, to be with Cathy."
"I know Saffron."
"Don't say things you think you know and don't know. You don't know about me, you don't know about my life, neither have you experienced it, you don't know what it's like when everyone hates you, when no one cares about you and the only person that does, dies because of you, you don't know what it's like to go through everyday just wishing to die, just wishing that someone out there will love you, who will care for you, to hold you, you don't know what it's like at all, you're just Mr. Perfect, with a perfect family and a perfect home and a perfect life. Whilst I? I, have no one, because I am a no one. So don't say you know about my life when you don't okay?!"
By the last part I was screaming and my tears were starting to flood my eyes all over again. My body crumpled as sobs wracked my small body.
Ryan pulled me close to him, and softly ran his fingers down my hair.
"Shhh…it's going to be okay, you're going to be okay. You have me, you'll always have me."
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Authoress' Note:
A lonely girl sits in a lonely place,
Till one boy gives her an embrace,
Secrets from the heart,
Is the things to trigger the start,
Of something new,
Of something bright,
But she will never forget that one fateful night,
When one was lost,
The other was found,
But can she turn her life around?
Is it too late?
Or was it just fate?
No one will ever find out,
Unless you review without a doubt
EEEK! Such an exciting chapter don't you think! Oh, you are so going to love me, but what is going to happen…hmmm…wouldn't you like to know? Sorry that the chapter is a little short but there you go!