The mattress screeched at the weight of Natsu's body as he inched back. In the glimmering light of the night sky, he could see the reflection of light against Lucy's nude body. With every second she crawled closer and closer to him, allowing him a better view of her naked curves. He could make out the shape of her body and his member begged for attention. The peaks of her breast hardened from either the cold air or their desire to be touched. She didn't speak and only began to move her body towards him with a grin on her face.
Natsu was almost afraid to move in fear that she would disappear. However the anxiousness finally broke through and caused for his leg to jerk, which then resulted in Lucy falling at the surprised movement. Her face fell flat on his stomach, and he could very well feel her breast push up against his lower member.
His heart began to panic, reason number one was because he had ruined the atmosphere, and reason number two was because he didn't know if he could continue on with the sweet but cruel tourture. While he was lost in blissful panic, Lucy began to break into laughter, which didn't make things easier for him, the vibration of her body could be felt even in his most private regions. In attempts to lessen his sexual pain, he grabbed Lucy and sat her on his lap. The idea wasn't much better since his exposed sex was right up against hers, that was being covered in the thinnest layer of cloth.
Lucy hadn't stopped laughing, which he was glad of because honestly he could listen to that sound endlessly. He heard Lucy in between laughter say, "I fail even in seducing you." That sentence only caused him to smile in tenderness.
He pressed her against his body and whispered into her ear, "you're so fucking hot." He felt as her hands made their way to his shoulders, and she draped them over his torso. Her face was against his chest and he couldn't ask for more, but he was selfish enough to want a glimpse of her rosy cheeks and plump lips. His hand made its way to her chin and maneuvered her face to face him.
Still smiling he inched her face upwards to meet his gaze, but with one look of her face his smile fell and his hand dropped almost as if he had lost all sense and control of it. Her face instead of the playful look that the laughter suggested, was filled with a regretful sorrow. Her eyes were fighting to keep in tears, and when she opened her mouth all he heard was a low and accusing voice saying, "you left." No long after, he felt a sharp pain on the side of stomach.
"Wake the fuck up flame brain!"
Natsu's body jerked up to the sudden pain and he found himself no longer in the dark room with Lucy, but rather the lights were in and Grey was standing at the bedside of the bunk bed. Once having registered his surroundings he turned to grey in an angry voice, "what the fuck asswhole?!"
"What do you mean what the fuck, you have literally been grunting Lucy's name for the last half hour. Like I get it man you get wet dreams and shit, but if you're that sexually frustrated go talk to her instead of grunting and moaning oh and let's not forget occasionally screaming her name every time you sleep."
Natsu couldn't even argue with grey, because he knew very well that all of those things have happened more than once, and he wouldn't have believed it until he spent a night over at Jellal's place. Jellal had actually reacted more civil than punching him on the stomach like Grey always did.
Natsu got off the bed, he quickly got dressed and left the dorm room. He couldn't blame Grey for acting the way he did, heck if it was Grey grunting and moaning Juvia's name the whole night, he would have done more than punch him. Not that grey would do that because he was sure Grey was getting laid at least once a week, if not everyday. Him and Juvia had actually become a thing. Two months after he moved out of Lucy's apartment, Grey had the guts to ask out Juvia, now three months later he knew for a fact that they were having sex. He felt kind of jealous, because Grey got to be with the girl of his dreams. While Natsu could only see his love interest in dreams, which often ended up tragic.
The dreams happened almost every night, which was the reason for his loss of sleep. They always started like a wet dream, sometimes he made love to Lucy, and sometimes he would get close to having sex, other times they fucked like crazy, but more than often Lucy ended up in tears for his betrayal. The worst were when he would dream of making love to Lucy, only to see her sobbing in the worker, naked an vournable on the floor. These were the worst dreams, because even though he tried to comfort her, he couldn't touch her, and she could never hear him. Those drama would go on for what seemed like eternity, until his alarm finally woke him up.
He figure this was some sort of sick karma from the heavens for his idiotic cowardnes. He figured he deserved it, all of it, the dreams, sleepless nights, and the longing he always had for Lucy. He never acted upon these urges, he always ended up walking the night always the same route. He would pass the bookstore/coffee shop, and it always ended up in him in front of Lucy's building, he never went in. He liked to think that Lucy was sleeping peacefully unlike him. He liked to think that she made herself a mug of coffee every night before going to sleep, like she had done back in high school. However the thing he selfishly wished was that he was somehow still on her thoughts, that somehow she craved his touch just as much as he craved hers. Every Time he thought this, he knew he wasn't in love, he had a sick sense of what love was, but that wasn't it. He knew that he was close to loving her, but his desire to keep her haunted with the memory of him only showed him that his love wasn't as true as he wanted it to be.
On cold nights he would lean against a tree and stare straight ahead at her window, it was never less than ten minutes. He wished and hoped she would open her curtains, or that she somehow knew that he was out there, that he hadn't actually left her. That he was always looking out for her. He would go three times in a week, but he stopped once he realized how creepy it was of him. In the loneliest nights when he could almost feel her pain through those ridiculous dreams, he would allow himself to aimlessly drift into her neighborhood and he would talk himself into breaking his silence, always saying that he would go up there and apologize and they would cry together and everything would go back to the way it was. Yet he would always stay a safe distance away, not even crossing the street to the side of the apartment complex.
This night in particular he told himself it would be the last night. He would not bother her, for he was sure she wasn't interested in him not even in the slightest. He would let her live her life without the constant fear or expectation of him making a reappearance in her life. This time he really would be strong enough for both of them.
Muahahaha! I now consider myself a true evil villain. Did you all think this was gonnaa be a lemony/ happy chapter. Well plot twist, it just got worst. So just if you were wondering, it's been so roughly five months that Natsu has left, and YA know stuff is complicated. Anywho, so I'm real sorry for the super duper late update, and I completly appriciate all the possitive reviews, and I'm so glad that all the people who review are always respectful and possitive I couldn't ask for better readers, and you guys are just amazing really. IM a total looser because I take forever to update and this chaoter isn't suoer long either, but honestly I got stuck in the whole lemony snippet, I haven't written lemon stuff and I wanted to give you guys some of that cause I know yall are nastyyyy lol jk. But I overthought things and it set me back, but I'm "studying " it I guess, like I don't want to make a Nalu scene that is just sex , I want like emotions and the quality lemon. Anyway, I will date sometime this week, I have a rough idea of what I want to do, so yeah look out for that, it will be lemon. So can you guys guess wha will happen next? Gimme some lomoney ideas also if you have any. Thanks guys much love and take care!