Before we start, I don't know why these random parts in the chapter are in bold, but fanfiction won't let me fix it... however if it's fixed by the time you read this A/N, then ignore this message. Just know that any bold parts are not special or emphasized, they're just technical difficulties.

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I am amazing.

It's official, I am the most amazing person ever. My drawing of Cat looks... perfect. Who would've thought that I'd ever actually be passing this class? I sure didn't.

You know, I think Cat's more amazing than I am. She's definitely more amazing than anyone I've ever met. After all, she's the only reason I'm passing this class anyway. I barely talked to her about my problem and within a day she found a solution. For three years no adviser or teacher had a clue of how to help me, but then this random figure model fixes it with just a few hours of staring at the ceiling. I know we didn't give her much credit for being smart in high school, but she really is brilliant. I don't know what I'd do without her.

Anyway, I'm actually in figure arts right now. I'm making up for missing class on Monday. I know it's only been two days since I was sick, but that NyQuil soup really hits the spot. You'd never guess I was even sick.

"You about done?" I hear Mrs. Grow ask.

"Yupp. Just got finished." I say.

"It's turning out really great Tori. I had no idea that you were so talented" She says admiring my work. "All you need now are her face and... you probably don't want me to say it do you?"

"No"

"You're gonna have to look at them sometime. It's what distinguishes us from men. Breasts and a vag-"

"NO MORE." I yell covering my ears.

"Ok, ok. But just be aware that this is due on Saturday. My advice is to just relax and breathe." She says chuckling.

"I know, it will be, and ok." I say. She pats my shoulder and returns to her desk.

I know ok... I still haven't drawn Cat's boobies or her v-... her... you know. Because that means that I have to touch them. Believe me, I've always known that I'd eventually have to, I've just ignored it. Those are some... really intimate places we're talking here. I mean I can't just motorboat her then finger bang her and act like It was just another day.

Sweet Lord... that would be so hot.

Who am I kidding, Cat's body would be like a fucking playground for me. And if you knew me as a child, you'd know that I explored every inch of that thing until there was nothing untouched. And... and... Victoria did you really just turn yourself on in the middle of your classroom with your adviser at her desk?

Awkward...

"Are you ok?" Mrs. Grow asks from her desk.

"Uh... yeah... bye" I say before scrambling out of the room.

Tori... that is messed up.

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Not everything is as it's perceived.

I don't usually think about serious things like this, but for some reason, I can't get it off my mind. If you're wondering what exactly I'm talking about, let me fill you in.

Trina.

She would probably love the fact that I'm thinking about her and ask me to indulge in it more. Trina may be more selfless, but she still has a little of her selfish side left in her. Anyway, the reason why I'm thinking of Trina on a day that I'm supposed to be recuperating, is because... well... I think... I think I miss her. I know, pigs must be flying or hell is frozen over but I really do. As much of bitch as she can be or as annoying as she was at times, there were a lot of things that people didn't see growing up. As much as I "hated" her, I also loved her. Sure, at first I blamed it all on the fact that I had to love her because she was my sister, but at one point in high school, it finally hit me that I really did. I couldn't imagine life without her.

Trina wasn't the best sister to me, but all that she put me through when I was younger made me into who I am today. I think I turned out pretty ok.

Anyway, back to what I was saying, not everything is as it's perceived. There were these moments... these few and rare moments when it was like time stopped just to let us confide in each other. We were each others backup. We knew that if it came to it, we would always be there for each other. I know this sounds like a fictional story out of a mental health institution, but I'm telling the truth.

I think that something inside Trina did know how much people hated her. That's probably the only reason I put up with her in high school. I felt bad for her. Sometimes she would come home and I would see the look on her face and I would just know that she needed me.

My parents never even saw that side of us. We would usually go up to her or my room if they were home and Trina would vent. Not like when she was upset about an audition, I mean when she was upset with life. She would always put her head in my lap and cry for hours. Then I would rub her back and tell her it would all be ok in the end. And it didn't just go one way, if I was ever legitimately upset about something, I would be the one crying she'd be the one comforting me.

It's no question that Trina was depressed. Not just the usual teenage depression, I mean clinically depressed. We never went to a doctor and she never even told my parents that she was feeling that way. Thinking back to it, I should've said something. She never did anything drastic and it wasn't a severe case, at least I think it wasn't, but she was definitely depressed. I know you'd never really guess in a million years that Trina, of all people, was depressed. But I mean, if you really thought about it, how obsessed she was with herself and her facade that she was perfect... it was all because she was so broken in reality.

Man... I hate being deep when I don't need to be. I guess I just miss the closeness of those times. I never really found out if she got out of that.

Maybe I should call her. Yeah... I mean it couldn't hurt right?

"Hello, "Perfect in Every Way "speaking"

Remember, more selfless but still selfish.

"Hey Trina..."

"Oh hey younger and less hot version of me!" She says excitedly. Oh jeeze.

"Yeah... uh... how are you?" I ask awkwardly.

"I'm perfect duh, how are you?"

"I'm... fine. I just wanted to call because I was thinking about you and-"

"OMG YOU WERE THINKING OF ME?" Trina screams in my ear as I rip my phone away. I swear being pregnant just made her louder.

"Tori that is so sweet! That's the best way to use your brain I swear. And you even called me because of it!" Says at a mile a minute. Nice going you idiot. You just had to tell her that you were thinking about her.

"Yeah, I guess I did." I say with fake enthusiasm.

"Well good. Now what's the real reason you called?" Her voice suddenly getting serious.

"What makes you think there's an ulterior motive?"

"Well one; You're using words I don't understand, and two; I know you Tori. I can hear it in your voice. Something's wrong."

Remember, more selfless but still selfish.

"Nothing's wrong, I just wanted to make sure you were ok being all pregnant and stuff" I say. And I am. There's nothing wrong, I just wanna make sure that she's ok.

"Please Tori, it may be hard to believe, but we come from the same genetics. You have a self centered part of you too. You may think that you called to talk to me but you really just want to vent, so spill"

Oh my gosh. She's ridicules! I honestly called to talk about her and her feelings and here she is accusing me of being self centered?

"I feel like what I'm doing is pointless. Like I'm in the same damn rut I was in after I graduated high school. I used to be someone there you know? And now I feel like I've completely lost that person. I know what I wanna do with my life but I feel like what I'm going through to get there isn't worth it. I just feel..."

"Alone" Trina finishes for me.

"Yeah." Tori you dirty liar. So much for your good heart and selflessness.

"Tori it's ok, you're absolutely not who you were in high school" She says sweetly.

"Well gee thanks Trina. That's exactly what I wanted to hear." I say sarcastically.

"Well when I finish it will be. Tori , you haven't lost who you are at all, you just grew. You've grown into a mature young women who I am proud to call my sister. You realized that you can't fix everything by singing a song or pleasing people. This is the real world and you're embracing it exactly how you're supposed to. If you wanna find yourself, just look in the mirror. And if you still can't see then call me and I'll remind you. Look at how far you've come. I get to tell people that my baby sister is an artist.

Tori you should see how insane people go when I show them some on your work. You're gonna be big one day and then you'll see that it was totally worth it. You love it Tori and if not for you, then keep at it for me. I mean, I get to tell people that I'm related to this incredibly talented artist Tori Vega. It's a privilege and I'm so, so proud of you. You got this Tori, just relax and breathe."

I don't answer her. How can I? See what I mean? This is what I was talking about when I meant that we had our moments. I live for these.

"You're crying aren't you?"

"Shut up" I whimper.

"Oh yeah, big sister's still got it"

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"I can't do this."

"Yes you can. It's no different than the last time."

"No different? You do realize these are your tits right?"

"Yes, believe me I'm quite aware."

If you haven't already figured out, tonight's our last study session, and also the glorious session were I get to feel Cat... completely. Sure, I may have been perving all over this earlier, but let me share something with you that popped up after my freshmen year.

Stage fright.

Yes, I Victoria Vega get stage fright. It wasn't until figure arts happened that I had it. Seeing someone naked along with the pressure to detail everything was just too much for me. Still is...

"I... I can't. You know it bothers me." I whine.

"Well it didn't bother you a few days ago." And at that I can almost here the smirk she has on her face.

"That was different"

"One and the same. Unless you're trying to tell me that you really do have a kinky side. After all, I was asleep."

Damn you Cat Valentine.

"No... it was just... more comfortable I guess"

"Alright... well what would make you more comfortable?" She asks.

Tearing off my clothes while you rub yourself in hot oil.

Holy fuck I did not just think that...

"I don't know.." I trail off, trying to ignore my previous thought.

"Hmm..." She thinks. "Well... what made you want to touch James... in those places." She asks carefully.

Well that's easy. "I was horny". FUCKING DAMNIT YOU SAID THAT OUT LOUD!

"Ok then" Cat says. "Let's get you horny"

"Wait.. what does that-" Well, I almost got that out. Yes, in the time it took for me to start that sentence, Cat pressed her lips onto mine. I love it when she does that...

At first it starts slow. Just lips pressed together. I'm still nervous as hell but I can feel it starting to melt away with the way her hand is brushing over my stomach... oh... her hand's inside my shirt.

"Relax" She whispers against my lips.

It may seem stupid to let out a sigh when someone's lips are pressed against yours but I'm actually quite glad I did, because her tongue is amazing. Our tongues battle each other for a little while longer when I hear probably the most beautiful thing I've ever heard in my entire life.

She moaned.

It was beautiful. So soft yet it's ringing in my ears.

And dear god her ass is amazing. Its... I can't tell you when my hands got there but... everything's all... tingly... and hot.

And then, yet another amazing sound, the sound of my zipper going down. I should really be paying more attention because I don't even remember her undoing the button, but I am not at all complaining. She's making me feel things that I haven't felt in a long time and I don't want it to stop.

She slides my jeans down as much as possible without taking her lips of mine. With a few creative little dance moves and shuffles they end up at my ankles. Cat then pushes me back a little, telling me to walk backward, till I feel the couch on the back of my knees. From there we slowly descend onto it, careful not to break the kiss, till I'm sitting and she's straddling me.

This is... I can't even... we were talking five minutes ago and now we're making out on my couch. Cat's naked and my pants are at my ankles. How is this not the best day of my life?

Cat unexpectedly pulls back and I hear her take a huge breathe. Well yeah, I'm out of breathe too but not that bad.

"Do you uh..." She clears her throat. "Do you wanna t-touch me now?" She stutters. Maybe I'm not the only one this is effecting. And I do... I wanna touch her so bad it hurts.

"Uh huh" I breathe.

At hearing that she then takes my hands, off her ass might I add, and places them onto her shoulders.

"Touch me" She whispers.

And I do. My hands waste no time in cascading down her shoulders to what matters most. I'm a little hesitant at first... but after a moment my hands slide down over her breasts and stop.

Wow.

Yeah... that's really all I can say. She's amazing. I mean... they're perfect. They fit just right in my hands and... her nipples are a lot harderthan I expected. I know I shouldn't play... but this is for school... right?

I slowly start to knead my fingers into her and that's when I hear it. Remember when I said that her moan was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard? Well this single handedly just blew that out of the water.

Her breath hitched. It was small but it was noticeable.

"Do you... are you getting what you need?" Cat says trying to sound normal.

"Yeah" I rasp. That and much more.

That's when I decide to take things to the next level. Mind you, my eyes are still closed like they have been through this entire thing, but again, she was right when she said that touch was just as good, if not better. Anyway, I slowly remove the palms of my hands from her but I let my fingers dance around for a little longer before I take a huge risk.

What's this risk? Well, this could cause her to slap me across the face or cause her to enjoy is just as much as I am.

I slowly trail my index fingers and thumbs to her erect nipples. From there I get a hold of both and put a light pressure on them. I hear her whimper and that urges me to go on. I pinch and roll them between my fingers as she lets out a few more whimpers.

"I... I-think... you got it" Cat barely gets out. And just like that, I let go. Cat lets out a few shaky breaths, trying to calm herself down.

So I guess we move on right? I mean, that's what she's implying.

I start at her stomach. My hands slowly run down till I'm met with what I'm sure is the start of the whole different area.

Can I be honest? I have no idea what I'm doing. I've never done anything like this with a girl before. I'm still nervous from earlier but I... this just feels so good. I know I 'm letting my hormones control me right now, but I don't want to stop them. I know this is the wrong way to do it... I know that I'm taking advantage of the situation... but I don't think I can stop myself.

I... I want her so bad.

And that's when my hand skips the teasing and goes right for her... more so cupping her but at the same time flat. She lets out a sob that I know she was desperately trying to suppress.

"T-Tori... this is getting... y-you shouldn't-" But she's cut off when I start stroking over her. It's a small bundle of nerves but it has a huge impact on the body. And she shivers every time my fingers run over it.

And my god she is so wet. My hand is slick with her by now. Yeah, she's definitely feeling the way I am.

"O-ok Tori... that's enough" She whimpers.

But it's like I don't even hear her. The wetness pooling between my own legs is overriding anything she says.

My eyes open. They're trained onto her face though and her eyes are right on mine. Her face is flushed and she's broken out in a sweat. I did that.

And I want to take her so bad.

This is so wrong... this shouldn't happen like this. She asked me to stop but... I can't. My lust is out of control and all I can think about is how I want my mouth all over her. This is so unlike me, but I've never felt this strongly to do something as absurd as this in my entire life.

So with my hand twitching under her and my conscience fading, I do it.

I slip a finger so easily into her.

And let me tell you... the look on her face when I did it made me feel bad and want it even more at the same time. She was completely surprised at my intrusion but she didn't move. She allowed me to stay inside her while she tried to sort her thoughts out. But I don't want that. I want to see her writhe.

God... what is happening to me? It's like this beast was unleashed inside of me and now I can't control it.

And then I push into her a little more. She gasps and her hands fly to my shoulders to keep herself steady. Here eyes are downcast, trying to process what I just did. But believe me Cat, feeling is a lot better than thinking.

I pull my finger out and see her abdominal muscles twitch, then I slide it back in. And I continue this. In and out as she repeatedly gasps, like I'm squeezing the air out of her. Her face contorts in a look of pleasure and slight confusion as I continue to watch her. She looks up for a brief moment, like she's going to say something but I don't let her. I slide a second digit into her to silence her and it does. Her mouth is open, but more in a silent cry of pleasure.

Then she moans. It's exasperated but it's a moan. And then her mouth closes. Right there, she submitted to it. To me.

"Faster" She whispers. And I do. I pull my fingers back out and push them in faster.

I watch her the entire time. Drinking this all in. Her face... her emotions... how her wetness is running down my hand... how good she feels.

"Oh god Tori..." She trails off. Hearing her say my name just makes me go faster. To the point of where her breasts are starting to bounce with the rhythm of my hand. I can't see them, but I can tell my the way the skin of her upper chest stretches.

I can't even... I can't... what am I even doing right now?

In the mixture of all my thoughts I just... snap. My head dips and my mouth latches onto to left nipple as my left hand finds her hip to steady her more. I suck, I bite, I nip... hell I don't even know half the stuff I did to it. Cat finally cries out as my tongue starts swirling around it.

"T-Tori! I'm gonna-" That's all she yells out before I pull back and watch as her jaw falls slack and she tightens around my fingers. Her head falls back as she screams out in pleasure and her hips buck against my slowing hand.

She collapses onto me breathing heavily and completely spent.

Oh my god... what the fuck did I just do to her...

We sit like that for a few minutes till she's able to move off me and I'm able to pull my fingers out.

I can't... I can't believe I just did that.

We sit in silence for little while before I turn to her to... apologize I guess. I have no idea why I let myself lose control like that. I want to tell her that I feel terrible for just, taking advantage of her like that, but I never get the chance.

Cat's mouth crashes onto mine and she starts tearing off my panties. My eyes close because even though I should see her, we both know I can't.

When she successfully gets them off, along with my jeans, she pulls back.

"Bedroom" is all that she says before we both leap off my couch (her leading me) and scramble into my bedroom. My pitch black bedroom that I can open my eyes in.

The minute the door shuts Cat and I make quick work of my shirt and bra. She shoves me onto my bed and instantly covers my naked body with hers. And it... feels... amazing.

Her lips are instantly back on mine and our hands are all over each other. I mean, running through each others hair, nails dragging down our sides, hands one the backs of our necks. Everywhere. And god does it feel so good.

Cat's hand keeps running down my chest, then to my stomach, and stopping just before... what, just because I'm having sex does not excuse the fact that I still can't say those words. I growl in frustration the millionth time she does it and she giggles.

"Stop teasing and-" I try say through the kiss but she cuts me off by biting down on my lip. Which, needless to say, stops my sentence where it is.

From there Cat does exactly as I wanted. She stops teasing and drags her hand right to the source of my frustration. She simply starts a slow circular motion and my hips buck every time she runs that sensitive bundle of nerves.

"God Tori, you're so wet for me" She moans letting go of my lip.

Holy fuck she dirty talks? My life is perfect. Why on earth was I so upset earlier? Cat talks dirty when she has sex, so my life is perfect.

"I wanna hear you say my name" Cat demands.

"H-huh?" I stutter.

"Say my name." She repeats. Tori you say her name and you say it hard.

"Cat" I groan as her fingers run over me again.

"Again" She says running her fingers over my opening.

"Cat" I whimper. How I went from a groan to a whimper beats me.

"Again"She says a little louder.

"Ca-AT" It started as a whimper, but ended as a loud moan as half way through her name, she slipped a finger inside me.

Oh my god... how is this even... Ok, James and I fooled around a lot, but this in a league of it's own.

She starts up a slow rhythm in and out while my moans fill the room. She whispers the most obscene things into my ear the entire time and occasionally giggles at the things she's does to me. I can only imagine how I made her feel if this is what she does to me.

My breathing grows more ragged and tired and I guess she didn't like the sound of that because then she growled and added a second finger.

"God Cat..." I moan as my back arches, pushing our breasts together.

Cat moans at that and then straddles my leg before grinding against it roughly. Feeling that sends my body into an overload. I writhe as she curls her fingers, not being able to stay still, and let out a strangled moan. I'm not gonna last much longer.

"You like that?" She purrs into my ear.

"God yes..." I moan as she does it again.

Between her grinding on my thigh (completely slick with her) and her heavy breathing in my ear, I'm not sure which one brings me to what I know is going to be the best orgasm in my life. I can feel myself start to clench around her fingers, which only makes her go faster, and my hands attach themselves roughly to her breasts... you know... just in case I missed a spot earlier.

"O-oh my god" Cat whimpers as she starts bucking her hips in an involuntary rhythm.

"Oh god... Cat... CAT!" I scream as I smash into my climax.

My eyes shut tight and explosions of colors soar behind my eyelids. My hands bear down on Cat's breasts as we both spasm into ecstasy. Our moans mix and intertwine and my back arches into it.

After what seems like forever, my entire body relaxes and my back hits the mattress, followed by Cat collapsing onto me after I move my hands. My arms wraps around her as we both ride out the aftershocks of one hell of an orgasm.

About ten minutes after the both of us come down from our high, breathing heavy and covered in sweat, Cat manages to roll off of me. Good... I was getting hot. I forgot how much of a workout that that is.

Oh god... what did we just do...

You know what, no. Don't think Tori. Don't let yourself think about what just happened. Just relax, and breathe. We'll cross that bridge in the morning and you can have it out then. Your thoughts can wait.

Just relax, and breathe.

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So, I'm just gonna go ahead and assume that after this chapter, you guys forgive me for my lack of creativity and late update last chapter.

Anyway, hello my Lotus Blossoms.

So... quite the chapter huh? I've never liked writing sex scenes and personally I feel this one was a tad choppy, but I was actually ok with it. It turned out how I wanted it to. Sort of... eh. Anyway, if it's not quite up to par, just let me state that it's been 8 months since I've written a decent sex scene, so be nice.

I know you guys weren't really expecting that, but it was planned for some time. And also a lot of you suck because you guessed that it would happen in this chapter.

Speaking of you lovely reviewers:

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Alrighty then loves, that's all for this chapter. Always remember, Reviews = Love. So spread it around. Thick.

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