Chapter 10: Honesty

Olivia continued to lay there as her breathing returned back to normal. She stared at the ceiling trying to get an understanding of what just happened. What the hell was that? It couldn't be what I think it was. I'm imagining things. This must be a dream, Olivia thought to herself. But the sound of Fitz's voice reminded her that everything she experienced was real.

"Livvy you still taste amazing. I can't believe that I had to wait this long to taste you again," Fitz said before kissing her inner thighs.

"Thanks," Olivia said still staring at the ceiling.

Fitz took Olivia's legs off of his shoulders and pushed his chair back a little from the desk. He lifted one of her legs and started to lightly kiss the side of her foot. Then he began kissing her from her ankle up to her knee.

Olivia felt Fitz's lips go from one leg to the other and she found herself getting a little aroused. She inhaled deeply then exhaled slowly in attempt to control arousal.

Noticing she wasn't responding to what he was doing, Fitz stopped. He leaned back in the chair and stroked the side of Olivia's leg. "Did you enjoy yourself?"

"Yes."

"Are you sure? You don't sound like you did."

"Yes Fitz. I really did enjoy myself. More than you know." Shit. I wasn't supposed to let him know that, she thought.

Fitz smiled to himself at her response. He didn't plan for this to happen when he first called Olivia. He just wanted to see and talk to her again. Fitz was expecting Olivia to hang up the phone when she realized that it was him calling her that morning. Then, to his surprise, she agreed to come and he was determined to remain professional the entire time she was there. But seeing her assist him in writing his speech, her honesty with him, and how she interacted with Teddy reminded him why he was deeply in love with her. Those feelings got the best of him and it led to him pleasuring her with just the movement of his tongue.

"Does that mean you would like for me to repeat what I just did?" Fitz asked.

"Yes," Olivia said. But as soon as she said yes she changed her mind. "No. I meant no, she said as she finally sat up.

"What?" Fitz asked with surprise his voice.

"My answer is no. I can't let you do that again," she said looking down at him.

"You can't let me? That sounds like you want me to but for some crazy reason you changed your mind. Are you afraid of what other things that may come from this? If you are afraid I understand because there is a lot more that I want to do to you," Fitz said before pausing. "I want to make love to you on every inch of this office Olivia."

Olivia looked at Fitz and briefly considered giving in but she knew it wouldn't be a smart thing to do. "Sex doesn't fix everything Fitz. It just makes things more difficult to deal with. It creates a fantasy that helps you get through the moment without solving anything. So please move. I need to get down."

Fitz looked at her without moving. He wasn't completely sure what she meant by that but he knew questioning her would just upset her. Their evening together was going to end somewhat decently and he wanted to keep it that way. Without saying a word, he finally stood up and moved to the side to give Olivia room to get off the desk. He didn't want her to leave but he knew there wasn't anything he could do to keep here there.

Olivia quickly put her clothes back on and slipped on her shoes. She subconsciously fixed her hair with her hands. She didn't know how she looked but she wanted to make sure she didn't look like she did some unspeakable things with the leader of the free world.

'Don't worry. You look fine," Fitz said.

"Thanks," Olivia said more to herself than to Fitz as she went to put her coat back on. After grabbing her purse from the sofa she walked out of the Oval Office and the White House as fast as she could.

Olivia slowed her pace when she felt that there was enough distance between herself and Fitz's office. She tuned out the world as she focused on reaching her car. She was half way to the gate when she saw Cyrus walking towards her.

"Olivia?" Cyrus asked.

"Cy," Olivia said as she walked past him.

Cyrus stopped walking when he realized what happen and walked fast towards Olivia to catch up to her. "Olivia?"

Olivia didn't say anything.

"Olivia, did you hear me? I'm talking to you."

"I heard you the first time, Cyrus. I acknowledged you when I passed by and now I'm trying my best to ignore you, Olivia said.

"What are you doing here?"

"I don't know. I've been asking myself that same question since I got here today."

'Are you and Fitz back together now?"

"Cyrus you don't care so I don't know why you are asking. Whatever questions you have about Fitz's personal life you can ask him about it," Olivia said before she stopped walking.

"I'm asking you because he doesn't really tell me anything anymore. And believe it or not I worry about you sometimes."

"He doesn't tell you anything because to you he is President and the hell with any other person he wants to be. I've know you long enough to know what is really important to you Cyrus. You don't give a damn about anything outside this administration. So I don't believe it when you say that you worry about me. The only thing you worry about is yourself and your job.

Cyrus saw that Olivia was upset but didn't know why she was taking her frustration out on him. "What did I do to for you to be so angry at me?"

Olivia tried to walk off so she wouldn't have to answer Cyrus but he stopped her before she could.

"Liv tell me."

Olivia glanced at the White House in silence before answering him. "I'm angry at you because I had everything figured out until you introduced me to Fitz."

After placing her keys and purse on her dresser, Olivia found some clothes to change into. She took a shower, got dressed, and walked into her kitchen. She was happy that she still had left had food left from the night before because she had little energy to cook dinner. Actually she had little energy to do anything. Fitz had used his flawless charm and she fell for it like a naïve little girl once again. Their sexual encounter and the enjoyment she felt was a reminder that her attraction and love for Fitz was not going away. No matter how hard she try to ignore those feelings they would always be there.

She got comfortable on her sofa and watched the news as she ate. As soon as she finished eating and drank the last bit of her wine her cell phone started to ring. She was hesitant to answer because she thought it was Fitz but she saw she that it was Jake instead. But rather than answering the phone she watched as her phone showed that she had one missed called and then it showed she had a voice mail She didn't answer because she knew he would ask her about her day and how it went and she didn't want to lie to him. That's when Olivia realized that her attraction to Jake was stronger than she initially thought and it scared the hell out of her. He was part of the reason why she turned down Fitz's offer earlier. She never thought she would feel this way about another guy because of Fitz. Maybe later on in life if she tried hard enough but not now.

Olivia was a 34 year old woman but felt like a teenage girl who was stuck between two guys. She was confused and needed to talk to one of only two people who always gave her the best relationship advice. Her best friend and sister Alicia.

"Liv! How is my favorite sister in the world doing?"

"I'm doing okay but I thought that I was always your favorite sister. I am your only sister last time I checked," Olivia said with a smile.

"Thanks for ruining the moment Liv, Alicia said playfully. It was perfect until you decided to become Ms. Debby Downer tonight. I still love you though."

"You know I love to give you a hard time."

"Yeah I know. But you would think it would be the other way around since you are the oldest."

"You always give me a hard time Ali. So when I have a chance to do the same I have to take it."

"I guess that's only fair then, Alicia said with a smile. I miss you sis."

"I miss you more sis. How was your day? I'm sure you did some last minute shopping for the baby."

"Yeah, I did. Daniel and I bought a car seat and a few more things for the nursery. We are going to work on getting the nursery together more tomorrow. Probably go shopping again too," Alicia said

"That sounds like fun. So that means I can go with you two when I get there tomorrow?"

"Of course you can. Wait, you're coming here tomorrow?"

"Yes I am," Olivia said.

"Thank God you are coming because I've been stressing out a little lately. Some sister time would be helpful right now."

"Well that makes the two of us."

"That doesn't sound good. What happened?"

"I unexpectedly found myself at the White House today. I spent most of the afternoon there and some things happened."

"Olivia, did you let him get the cookies again? I've done told you about that. Alicia said with a laugh.

"No I didn't give him the cookies. Unless letting him taste the cookies classifies as giving it to him, then yes I did."

"No you didn't! I need details."

"Alicia I'm not giving you details. You little freak," Olivia said before she started to laugh.

"I'm not a freak. From the things you told me that you two have done I would say you are the freak. Sometimes I think you may be a part time porn star or something, Alicia said laughing. Besides I just wanted the details on what led up to it."

"Uh huh, whatever you say Ali. And don't call me a porn star because you're not innocent yourself. I'll fill you in on the details tomorrow when I get there. Then we can talk about why you are stressing out."

"Okay but I want to hear about it now Liv. This is just too juicy to wait until tomorrow," Alicia whined playfully.

"You can whine all you want. I'm not telling you anything."

"You are so cruel Olivia."

"But you still love me Alicia. Remember, I'm your favorite sister."

"You're torturing me right now so I'm rethinking that."

"Get some rest Ali. See you tomorrow."

"See you tomorrow Liv. Love you sis."

"I love you too sis."

Olivia hung up the phone and turned her tv off. After washing the dishes she used for dinner, she turned off the lights and got ready for bed. Once she was in bed she decided to call to Jake. As she listened to the ringing through the phone she got a little nervous. Jake didn't answer and she felt a little relieved. She left a short message once his voice mail came on and fell asleep shortly afterwards.

A/N: I wanted to have this chapter done two days ago but it was giving me some trouble. Sorry that it's slightly shorter than the last two chapters. And to IslandGurl90: thank you.