Emma woke up early first, and as she slowly went down her stairs, she eyed the volt that was now open.

...did this mean, it was over?

Were they going to leave soon? Spike and Jesse would be back soon.

Emma was lost in thought as she entered the kitchen for coffee, as if tradition, Lucas had already made it and gave it to her slowly, seeing her lost in thought.

She blinked and looked at it, "Oh." She looked at Lucas, "Thanks.."

He nodded and eyed her, "Whats on your mind?" he asked as she sat on the stool across from him.

Emma took a deep breath, she needed to ask one of them at least.

"Volts open... does this mean you guys just vanish?" she sadly and softly questioned.

Silence.

Lucas finally huffed and leaned forward, "What are you doing for college Emma? Or is it university?"

"Wanted New York.. Brown.." Emma drifts in a whisper. It was her dream, she had to go.

Lucas nodded and said slowly, "Hmm, well, we might be a little busy doing what we do best across Canada."

"I get it, ok Lucas?"

Lucas explained, "Just trying to prepare you sweetheart. You asked." He watched her sadly just stare at her cup and added lightly, "Sean won't give this stuff up, his Dad taught him this... and just like you and your necklace from your dad? Sean will stick to it like glue." He tried to make her understand.

Emma nodded once, understanding that. But didn't Sean love her just as much to stay?

Or... go to New York?

Oh god.

She couldn't ask him to go. That'd be selfish. All she knew, Sean had a house with these guys somewhere here or had a life of his own.

Jay finally came down the stairs and Lucas just gave Emma a look of sympathy and then left as Jay took his spot and eyed Emma.

"What's wrong?" he asked, but Emma kept staring down.

She finally whispered, "I can't stay with him can I?" she looked up with blurry teared eyed.

"Depends how far your willing to go for him." Jay said, looking away from her. He couldn't tell her this.

"What about him for me?" Emma asked, her voice cracking as much as her heart.

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow

"I don't know Emma." Jay breathed, finally looking into Emma's eyes with regret.

"Don't think I don't know you thought about it, this morning with Manny?"

"Emma, it's selfish to bring her with me. You guys have college." Jay said and shut his eyes painfully.

Emma gritted her teeth, mad at him, "You should of never came into my house." She bittered

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

"I'm sorry... you have no idea." Jay whispered, opening his eyes but stared down sadly.

Emma let tears pour down her face, "What do we do?" she begged.

Jay finally stared her in the eyed, "We stay strong. We live out our own lives doing what we do best. You and Manny go off to college, do things we couldn't ever do." He demanded.

"How do I live with that?" Emma tilted her head sadly, please, someone had to tell her how to live with this.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

Jay leaned closer to her, "If you let something go, and its meant to be... it'll come back." He promised

"It won't come back." Emma cried, whipping as much tears as she could.

Jay whispered harshly, "Then we have to live with that and have to cherish the memories of this one, amazing, hectic week Emma Nelson." He smiled sadly and Emma nodded. She had to let Sean go on with what his life needed, even if it was 'wrong', its what he knew, how he survived.

Sean and Manny started to come down the stairs.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,

"Their coming." Emma whispered.

"And your going." Jay said to her.

... and that, was a year ago. A memory Emma would NEVER forget.

I just want you to know who I am.