A/N: Hello beautiful readers! I'm sorry I haven't posted in a couple weeks but who would've though high school would be so hectic? Well I'm back and I'll try to post sometime in this week coming up! Just a recap from last chapter: Katniss and Peeta got super close during Finnick and Annie's wedding but Peeta stopped it before things got too serious. Katniss has just restarted therapy since her breakdown of finding out Aaron was not her district partner in either Games. In her latest session, she goes "mutt" and tries to attack Peeta. Read and review! Love you!

I wake up in a hospital bed. The last thing I remember was trying to hurt Peeta. Oh God, how could I hurt him? He's always so nice. I just want to stop having flashbacks. Why can't I just be normal? My flashbacks revolving around everyone else besides Peeta have completely stopped. I haven't had one in weeks. I try to sit up but something is keeping me from doing it. I look down to see my waist, ankles, and arms strapped down. Great, now they don't even trust me to sit up by myself. I'm about to yell for someone to unstrap me when I hear Dr. Aurelius and Peeta's voices outside my door.

"What triggered her attack? We had just spent a whole night together?"

"We believe someone had put alcohol in the punch at the wedding."

"Well I though everyone knew that."

"We found out after half of the attendees were completely drunk."

"What does this have to do with Katniss."

"Alcohol subdues the tracker jacked venom so that it doesn't affect her when intoxicated."

"So she didn't try to kill me because she was drunk?" I can hear the hurt in Peeta's voice not only because yet again, our only interaction was fake, but because he knows if they can't figure out how to get rid of the hijacking, I will most likely become a drunk, like Haymitch.

"Peeta, we'll figure out how to bring her back to you or die trying."

"Thanks, Doc." I hear his extremely loud footsteps go down the hall. He would be horrible to take hunting, he would scare away every animal within a five mile radius.

Dr. Aurelius enters my room and asks me how I'm doing.

"Well, seeing as how I'm completely strapped down, I'm guessing not well."

"We only did this to ensure you not harm anyone else, Ms. Everdeen. It's for everyone's safety. How are you feeling now.""Confused.""Please explain."

"I could hear you and Peeta talking. I wish he would just not care about me. It would make me feel a lot less worse about continually trying to kill him."

Dr. Aurelius chuckles, "Yes, that might have been better for all of us but Peeta never gives up on something he's passionate for."

"You sound fairly normal, Katniss. I think today is the day."

"The day for what?"

"The day you watch the 74th Hunger Games."

"Please Doctor. I don't want to relive those horrible weeks."

"Don't worry, we're going to take it slow. Today you will only be watching the opening ceremonies and the interviews, if you are up to it. Is there anyone you want in here? Maybe Johanna or Finnick? "I know the only person I could watch this with is the person who I wouldn't have survived it without, Haymitch. No matter how much we fight, he's like a father to me and I need him. "Haymitch, only Haymitch."

"Alright, I'll go find him."

A few minutes later, Haymitch comes in. "Hey Sweetheart, you ready for this."

"I don't think I'll ever be. What about you?"

"Same, but I'm here for you."

We sit down in chairs facing the television. I take Haymitch's hand knowing we'll suffer through this together. I haven't felt safe with anyone since my father and who I though was Aaron. It's nice for a change.

It all starts out with the reapings. I remember all of the tributes like it was yesterday and learn some of their names. I close my eyes when it gets to Rue. I can't bear to see the faces of her younger siblings seeing their sister walking to her death. When it gets to twelve the memories hit me like a train. Prim is called, I volunteer, and Gale carries her away while she's screaming. Then, as Effie Trinket walks to the bowl full of boys' names I remember! At the exact same time as Effie, I scream, "PEETA MELLARK!"

"What did you say? Do you remember?" I hear the slight tone of excitement in Haymitch's voice, but all I can say is, "Peeta Mellark."

Next, I say his name with more anger than excitement. "Peeta Mellark."

"Whoa that took a nasty turn. Katniss are you okay?"

"He tried to kill me! Don't you remember? He teamed up with the Careers! Don't you remember?"

"Katniss, just watch, remember how that was just to save you?"

"No he got me to trust him, and then tried to kill me!""Then why did you bring him back from the dead?"

"For the Games! Everything was for the Games. I did care about him though. That's what he wanted me to do! He wanted to kill me. Little does he know, the Games are never over, not really. I could still 'win'."

And with that I take the rope I tie knots with and run to the place I know Peeta will be, the scenic room. It's a fairly large room above ground where all the walls are windows and people get to go one day a week and watch the birds and just look outside for once. But, if you're a victor you get to go up there as much as you want unless you are needed, but today I remember hearing Peeta saying he needed to think, and he always goes there to think, or paint.
I run as fast as I can to the room and scream, "YOU LIAR!"

"Katni-" I put the rope around his neck and start choking him. I seem to be stronger than usual. Also, everything seems shiny, like the Capitol.

He's on the verge of passing out when all of my strength seems to have completely disappeared. I collapse to the ground, head in my hands. Everything stops being shiny and I'm scared. I just almost killed someone. Now he's going to hurt me and I will die, just like I should've in the Games. He sits for a minute or so, gasping for breath.

Eventually, he approaches me and I flinch for the strike that is sure to come, but instead he moves hair from my face. "Please don't touch me, or hurt me."

"I would never hurt you Katniss, I'm not my mother." I must of really cut off his air pipe because he can barely talk. He starts to bring me in his arms when I all of my energy from before come back.

"I said don't touch me!" I punch him square in the nose and blood is every where.

"I'm sorry, Katniss. Just remember who you are. You're 17 years old. You love your sister more than anyone else. You have an amazing voice; even the birds stop to listen. You love lamb stew from the Capitol. You hate-" He's cut off by soldiers and a few doctors that come rushing in. They take in the scene. Bood everywhere, especially on Peeta. They come to give me a shot. I hate shots, that's how the Capitol tortured me. Peeta must see the fear in my eyes because he screams, " Please no, she hates shots! Don't put her through that!" He'sjust trying to get you to trust him so he can kill you. They ignore him any way and give me the shot. The only thing I hear is Peeta whisper to me, "I'm sorry."

A/N: Thanks for reading. I know it's pretty short, sorry but it's late. I'll update soon! Maybe Monday? Don't forget to review and follow me on instagram: peeta_withdrawls if you like to co own the account with me, PM me or Kik me at peetawithdrawls Let me know! Love you!