Suffering

It's dark. It's real dark.

I'm sitting down on the green grass, leaning against the tree.

Its quiet. Real quiet.

Quiet is nice. Quiet let's me think.

I can always hear Morro in my head. It's getting annoying.

Look at you.

I took a shaky breath as I start hearing a voice again. I put my head back and I accidently hit an oak tree, but I don't feel the pain.

No wonder. It was your own fault. No wonder they hate you.

I sigh and take out my green iPhone. I unlock it and go on the camera app, getting the front camera. I make a small flame with my hands so that I could see what I look like.

I'm such a mistake.

That was me talking to myself now. My eyes were bloodshot from the crying I did since I landed here. Well... Not so much as landing as to falling. My face was covered in dirt and scratches, and my hair was in a tangled mess. My face was pale, and I noticed I was a lot skinnier than I was.

I throw the phone onto ground in anger and sadness as my eyes started to tear up. I hear a crack and realize that it's broken.

Good. All communication possibilities are gone. Unless somehow they find me.

I shiver at the thought of finding me. Probably dead.

You're ugly. You're fat. You're weak. No one can love a person like you.

That was Morro now. I hug my knees tightly and rock back and forth, trying not to cry.

You're such a dissapointment.

My eyes stopped stinging from the tears and I stopped rocking. I was still hugging my knees, but I'm looking into the dead space.

I couldn't move.

There was literally no possible way I was just hearing things.

It sounds too real.

I blink and snap back into reality.

I take out my pocket knife that I kept in my pocket and sniff.

I'm doing it again. Why am I doing it again?!

I put the cool, smooth blade onto my right arm, holding the handle tightly with my left.

I need to stop. What am I doing?!

I close my eyes and a tear rolls down my cheek.

Kai doesn't love you. No one does. Stop pretending that people care about you, because they don't.

That was Morro speaking.

I start crying and look at my left arm, looking at all the previous and recent cuts that I have made.

He was right.

he was always right.

I was so dumb to think that people cared.

I knew too damn well that no one did.

I was so stupid to think that people loved me. No one ever does.

I wipe my eyes with my left arm and look at my right. Without thinking, I start cutting. I wince in pain but I don't stop.

After a few minutes of staring into space while cutting, I stop. I look around and see that I'm still in the forest, and I feel a sharp pain in my right arm.

I squinted my eyes and winced, turning my head slowly to look at it. I didn't realize that I was cutting to spell out Kai's name.

Well, look what you did.

(A/N KRR should know where this part came from XD me and her were roleplaying and Kai was cutting P.S Kai stop being a dick. Kai was cutting and one of his arms had Lloyd's name on it :3 OH AND ALSO IF YOU WANT TO, YOU CAN DONATE TO #StopColeAbuse! In our rp Cole is being picked on I think, and we would like you to donate! Even if all you can donate is a penny, it is greatly appreciated! Anyway back to the story XD)

Blood seeped out from the cuts, and I watch as the red liquid fell onto the green grass. (*cough* SEE WHAT I DID THERE?! *cough*)

This is it for the lemme see... 10/11 chapter? I don't know, I'm too lazy to check lol. SORRY FOR THE LONG FUCKING WAIT T-T