She Could Be
Chapter X – I
Don't Care
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Troy's POV (I decided to do some POV. It's sort of my first "story" or like chapters in first person, so tell me how this goes!)
He closed his eyes, "It's you."
She asked as her eyes shot open. She released herself from my arms and sat up. Well this is awkward. I just told her it was her and she has nothing to say? This makes me feel kinda stupid.
I sit up, matching her position. I wonder what she's thinking about. She looks deep in thought. She licked her lips and pressed them together sadly. Is something wrong? She likes Nick doesn't she! I knew it! Maybe she doesn't! Let me make her tell me… This silence is killing me. It's quite uncomfortable if you ask me.
"Uh, aren't you gonna say anything?" Great, still no answer. "Gab-" Wow, the first time she speaks, she has to interrupt me. She's been doing that a lot. Interrupting me…
"Are you telling the truth?" She asked me. Well, of course it's the truth. Why would I risk something so big and only tell her a lie?
"Yeah, I am." I take a deep breath. I guess she doesn't feel the same way. I take the blanket off of me and step off the bed. "Where are you going?" She asks.
"You obviously don't feel the same way. I'm just gonna save the awkwardness and leave." I'm heading for the door when she jumps off the bed and stops me. She pulls me back to the bed and pats it. I'm guessing she's still cold.
"Troy, I actually do feel the same way." She blushed, I can tell. She probably thinks I can't.
Oh no, here comes my grin. It's a wide grin too. I must look pretty goofy…
"Uh, I'm not really romantic and you know I've never really asked anyone this before so sorry if it's not what you want. Maybe you can just forget I mentioned it, just-"
Great, she cuts me off again. "Your point is?" Oh… I guess I'm rambling. Sorry about that Gabriella.
"Well, uh." I rub the back of my neck. Why do I do that? Anyways, "Can we... be together?" Wait, that's not the question. I shake my head. "Can you," I clear my throat, "Will you… be my girlfriend then?" Oh whoopee. This was the least romantic way to ask. She likes romantic, I remember. This sucks… She's not responding! She doesn't want to!
"Before you say no… Think about it." Shoot, that wasn't good enough, think Troy think. "If you think it'll be awkward, it won't. We've been friends since we were in our mom's stomachs. If you're nervous about doing the right things, like kissing or whatever, don't be. I'm here for you. I'm not going to pressure you."
I'm thinking I read her mind because she smiled. But she frowned… what's wrong now? Why won't she talk to me though? Does she like me doing all the talking? "We can take it slow if you want." My voice softened. This is depressing, she should just reject me. Why waste my time?
I get up again and I find that she's not stopping me. I sigh, oh well. Maybe it wasn'tmeant to last. (A/N: Tee hee! Check that story out onmarebear11's)
Maybe if I go slow, she'll come to her senses. I reach for the door knob but no one stops me. I sigh again and shake my head sadly. I take one step out of the room and I feel this weight on me.
"Troy," She whispered, "Don't go. I need to tell you something first."
I nod and she sits at the edge of her bed. I'll do the same. "What did you want to tell me?" With any luck she'll tell me she's fallen in love with me and wants to get married as soon as we can. We're legal, we can do it.
"I want to be with you." She said. I smile brightly at her and wrap my arms around her. She doesn't push me so I take it she wants me to do this.
"But," Her voice shook. I winced. Why is there a 'but' in this? "I don't think you really want to be with me."
I let go of her. Is she crazy? I just told her! "No, no, I want to! Gabriella, why don't you believe me?"
"You never treated me like this until I dressed more like a girl." What? I did too!
"Well, you did." Ha! Told you. "But, maybe you like me because I'm different."
I shook my head, "No I love you. I know I do. And I love you for you."
"You might, but I think we should wait a while, okay?" Why wait? I just told you I loved you! You said you felt the same way as me!
I frown and she puts her hand on my shoulder sympathetically. "Troy…" She said. She doesn't look like she's in pain at all.
All I can do is look away. Why am I even here still? She rejected me! She lied to me! She said she loved me… wait. She never said she loved me. Ahh… What's this pain I'm feeling? It's… it's my heart… Well this is great, my eyes are hurting too.
She takes her hand off of my shoulder and I move my hands to my eyes. They're wet… I guess this is how it feels. The infamous 'heart break'. I'll just go.
Obviously she won't follow me back. Who cares? I don't. I don't care if she doesn't love me. I don't care if she doesn't want to be with me. I don't even care that she's not even calling for me. I don't care about her… I don't care… I don't care at all.
I feel like a loser, tears are threatening to fall. Hopefully Anna's sleeping so she won't stop me. I don't really feel like talking. Maybe I'm taking this too hard but still, wouldn't you?
This is it. I'm going home, I push the door open and step outside. "Troy?"
I turn around and my hopeful expression changes to disappointment. It's just Anna.
"Um, yes?" Um yes? What kind of answer is that? I'm turning into a girl because of her.
She furrowed her eye brows. "What are you doing? I thought you said you were sleeping over."
I shook my head. "No, I'm not. I'm not really," I cleared my throat, "Feeling well. My chest hurts, my eyes are burning, I have a headache…" She can stop me any time now. I guess she did. She just nodded.
"Why don't you just come back in? I'll fix you something. It's not safe to leave anyways."
I shook my head. I can't really stay. And I doubt she can fix whatever I'm feeling right now.
She broke my thoughts, "I'm sure Gabi would want you to feel better." She smiled encouragingly.
"Why would she want me to feel better when she's the one who made me feel like this?" My eyes went wide. Wow… smooth Troy. You're supposed to think that not say it.
She motioned me to come in and I followed her. She must be cold anyways. Why make her sick too?
"Troy, what did you mean?" She asked me and motioned me to sit at the table. She went to get something to make for me and I answered her.
"It's nothing. It's just sick talk, you know." I chuckled but she didn't buy it. She poured something and heated it.
She smiled, "Troy, if there is anything you want to tell me, you can. I know I'm not your mother, but you'll always be a son to me."
I sighed. That's some guilt she put over me. "Okay…"
She grabbed herself a mug and handed me one too. I nodded a 'thanks' to her and she sat down. I continued, "You see…" This is gonna be another awkward moment. "I told Gabriella that I liked her- I-I loved her."
She smiled at me and placed her mug down. "Do you really feel that way, did you mean it?"
"Y-yeah. Of course I meant it," I look down but look back up when she talks.
She rubbed the sides of the mug and spoke, "Well then what's wrong?"
"She doesn't believe me. She thinks I'm lying and that I'm only feeling these because she looks different now. But it's not true."
I take this as my time to take a sip. She was right. This was making me feel better. I don't know if it's the drink or me letting it out, but its working. "But, the thing is… she said she felt the same way. So then I asked her to you know… be my girlfriend." I blushed. I feel like a total girl tonight.
"I don't think she's being completely honest with you." Anna started. "If she said she felt the same way… there must be something she's not saying. Just wait for her, don't leave just yet."
She looks up and smiles, "I'll leave you two alone."
What? Us two? I turn around and saw Gabriella come down with part of her hair frizzy. She took the mug I was drinking and took a sip from it. Okay? You won't share your feelings but you'll share my drink?
"Look," I say but she goes ahead and interrupts me… Like always.
She sighed, "Troy, I heard you talking with my mom." I take the mug back and sip again. She smiles and continues.
"She's right." She looked down in embarrassment, "I was scared, Troy. I still am. I don't want my first heart break to come right after my first boyfriend. If I don't keep up with this new look, you might fall for someone else and-"
This time I interrupt her. "Brie, that's not true. I'll still love you. And if anyone's going to do the heart breaking, you've already done it." I tried to crack a smile but it's sort of not working.
She frowns though. "I'm still scared, afraid."
"Of what? Me?" She shook her head, "No."
"Of losing you, of falling in love. Troy, this is all new to me." I nod. I understand.
I gave her the mug, knowing that she liked what was in it. "I got you, we got each other." I told her in an almost whisper. I looked into her eyes letting her know it was the truth.
She bit her lip. It's quiet so I guess there's nothing she wants to say anymore. "Bye…" I tell her and she just sits there with the mug.
Right when I turn the door knob I hear her call my name. "Troy?"
I turn around and wait for her to continue. "I love you, too." She smiled at me nervously and I smiled back. Instead of going out the door like I was planning to, I continue walking to her. She gets up and smiles at me.
"I was always hoping you would say that." I whispered to her. She nodded, "Me too."
We are so close right now. So I take it as the right time to hug her. She accepts it and I engulf her into a bear hug. I know she likes it because she's smiling, I am too.
When I let go, she puts her arms around my neck. I think I know where this is going so I put mine around her waist. I pull her a little closer and she looks up into my eyes. I lean in just a little to see if she wants to also. She seems to want to because she's leaning in to.
I meet her halfway and before our lips touch, we feel each other's breaths. And then finally, our lips met. She must like this because I can feel her smile into it. I wanted to deepen the kiss more with my tongue but I don't want to pressure her. Instead, I feel myself smile, too.
I want her to know that I'm not going to force her to do anything she doesn't want to so I pull back reluctantly. I smile at her and rest my forehead on hers and I hear her giggle. I tap my finger on her nose and she giggles more. "I love you."
"I," She smiles, "Love you too."
We are smiling way too much right now but I don't even care. I love every second of it.
"So… is your offer still open?" She asks. I stare at her in confusion but I remember it now. She means about being my girlfriend. I grin at her, of course it is.
I nod, not wanting to ruin our "moment". Let me make it official, I heard girls like that. I hold her chin gently and ask her softly, "Will you do the honor of being my girlfriend?"
She pretended to think. I pretended to be hurt and she giggled with a nod.
I gave her a sweet peck on her lips and she grabs my hand. She smiles before speaking loudly toward the door. "It's okay to come in now, Mom."
I smile and Anna comes in laughing. "How'd you know?"
"I just do," She shrugged and we told her everything was okay now. Anna was so excited that we were finally together, she called all the moms. She called mine, Zeke's, and Chad's. They'd probably tell their kids and everyone will know. But I don't care, I want everyone to know we're together.
Two days passed and we're now back at school. Everyone seemed to find out that me and Gabriella are together. Its okay, it doesn't bother me. I just hope it doesn't bother her. Lots of people had been looking at us weirdly, but I asked her if she was okay and she said she was.
People were constantly asking us 'is it true?' or by saying they didn't believe it.
At lunch we finally found out the reason of their smirks and comments.
"Why is everyone looking at me weirdly now?" She asks me. I can only shrug. I try to reassure her nothing's wrong by putting my arm around her shoulders. I laugh when I hear Taylor, Chad, and Zeke 'aw'. Something they've been doing a lot lately.
We step in the cafeteria and it got oddly quiet. All five of us give each other confused looks. We shrug and sit down when someone comes up to Gabriella.
"Hey, is it true that you beat up Nick?" He asked.
Before Gabriella could answer, a girl came. "They said you showed him your penis and he passed out!"
"My what?" Gabriella asked.
The girl laughed with the other group of people that seemed to come. "Your penis."
Gabriella looked at me and the others and we didn't know what to say. Well, I didn't. I don't know about the others.
"I," She forced a laugh, "I don't have a penis."
The other people laughed. "Right… Tell that to Nick. He said that you did and that was the last thing he saw."
"Well, that's obviously a lie." Zeke told them, defending my girlfriend.
They just laughed more. "Actually it's not obvious."
"What?" Taylor asked, apparently not amused with their joke. "If you don't know that Gabriella is a girl by now, then I think that you should take your as-"
Chad wrapped his arm around Taylor to calm her down, already knowing what she was about to say. She sheepishly smiled at him.
"Why don't you get Nick to come over here?" I asked them and they nodded.
Before they left, I sent them a look letting them know that I mean what I said, "And so that you know, she doesn't have one."
They nodded and walked away. Seconds later Nick appeared. "What do you want, Montez? I told you I'm not into dudes." He said and smirked.
"Nick, why would you spread that?" Chad asked quickly getting to the point.
I held Gabriella's hand and rubbed it. The tears that formed when they people came to us had stayed in her eyes and were threatening to fall.
"Spread what?" He asked.
I glared, "Don't act dumb."
"I'm not acting!" He said showing signs that he knew what we were talking about.
Taylor glared with me and the others. "Of course you aren't. You were born that way," She spat but Gabriella let go of my hand. She wiped her eyes and spoke to Nick.
"Please, just end it. I've never really done anything to you." She pleaded.
Nick laughed, "That's not going to work. I was nice to you, I did everything but it just seems like you take that for granted."
Gabriella was about to tell him something but I stopped her. "People know it's a lie now, so just admit it Nick."
He shook his head. "Why are you defending this," He raised his voice so people would hear. "Girl with a penis?!" A few laughs were heard but other than that it was quiet.
"She's not even gonna give you some so why be with her?" He asked me but Chad patted my back telling me to calm down. I nodded. From the corner of my eye, I could see that Gabriella let a tear slide down.
"Other chicks are much better. I saw the other girls you were with, you can do much better." Zeke sent me a warning look and Gabriella rubbed my hand letting me know she was okay.
Nick laughed, "Besides, she's a dude!"
"You know she's not." This time it was Taylor's turn to calm me down. She gave me the same look Zeke sent me but I couldn't keep my mouth shut. I clenched my fists and bellowed dangerously, "Take that back."
"Why? It's the truth. She's a dude with a penis. She's ugly, she won't do-" Bam!
I punched him. Gabriella let her tears fall a little before wiping them more. I punched him again but Zeke and Chad pulled me back by my arms. Taylor went to Gabriella and hugged her.
"Wow," Nick laughed and touched his cheek bone that was bleeding. "Looks like yourboyfriend beat me up more."
I growled or something that sounded like it. I hurled at him and punched him more. I nodded once I knew he got it and I gently took Gabriella. She freely walked out of the cafeteria with me.
"Thanks for defending me."
I smiled and pressed my lips against her forehead. "Anything for my girlfriend."
After that, everyone in the school seemed to forget about the incident and treat us normally. The week was over before we knew it and it's now Friday. We all decided that since we were all in couples now, that we would have a triple date.
A/N: Hope this chapter was enjoyable!
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