What Do You Feel Sam
The date was December 1st and for Sam it had been a painful week. He would wake up, get washed, dressed and head downstairs to get breakfast.
His mother would be in the kitchen making it for him with a fixed smile on her face and colourless dead eyes.
"Thanks mum…" Sam would say. Only to get an emotionless nod from her whilst she turned around to start cleaning the kitchen, as was programed into her mind for eternity.
Needless to say, Sam wasn't in the best of moods but he still had a team to lead and so he refused to let his emotions interfere with his "job". Unfortunately that didn't mean he didn't let it show in his normal life.
At that moment in time, Sam was in college trying to figure out how to use a new modelling program called Maya. Much to his chagrin the program wasn't as easy as he thought it would be and was testing his patience. To add more crap to his already crappy day, Sam had noticed someone that morning that he would rather have avoided. Though that person hadn't noticed him, Renamon had picked up on the increase to Sam's already unhappy emotions and had asked him who the Human was only to get no response.
"Sam come on now. Please stop ignoring me, I completely understand why you're so upset but we're friends aren't we?"
Sam sighed out loud and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.
"Yes we are Rena. Look I get that you're worried but I'm honestly ok. Just let me get on with my work please."
"Sam we are bonded, you can't hide anything from me. So why don't you stop lying and just tell me who that female was you deliberately avoided this morning."
"She's no one important Rena… Ok how about this. I get on with my work and when I'm on my lunch break I promise that I'll answer your questions then. You know that I hate people that make promises they don't keep, so you can trust me to keep mine…ok?"
He could hear Renamon growling in his head but then sighing and mumbling something he had a feeling would be best left incoherent.
"Fine but you best fess up Sam or I'll get it out of you when you sleep tonight."
Sam laughed loudly earning a few stares in his direction.
"Is that a threat or…something else Rena?"
Being bonded, Sam could feel Renamon's blush and slight embarrassment. She then coughed awkwardly and went silent. Now feeling a bit happier than he had been the past week, Sam focused back on his work and continued trying to figure out the program.
About twenty minutes later Derek signalled for everyone to finish and pack up so Sam grabbed his bag, made his way out of the room and down the stairs to the cafeteria. He then looked around, trying to find a quiet place to sit down so he could talk to Renamon without any distractions only to feel a tap on his shoulder. He turned and saw who had tapped him only to bite his tongue so as to stop himself swearing out loud.
She had medium long black hair, green eyes and a curvaceous hourglass figure. She was also wearing baggy black jeans, dark boots, a black tank top with the words "Metalhead" written in a red bloody font and a studded biker jacket. She was looking at Sam with a nervous expression on her face.
"Hey Sam… um how are you doing?" she asked.
"I…I'm fine Sophie, how about you?" Sam wasn't looking at her face, choosing to look to the side instead.
"I'm good thanks. So um what have you been up to since we… well you know?"
Sam finally looked at her and raised his eyebrow. "Split up."
"Yeah… so what have you been up to? I mean apart from getting all buff."
"Oh you know just saving the world and all that jazz." Sam replied. A small grin sneaked its way onto his face at his little joke. He then shook his head and stared warily down at Sophie.
"Not to be rude but is there a reason you want to talk to me because to be honest I don't really want anything to do with you."
Sophie looked at him with a half-smile and motioned for him to sit down on one of the chairs next to them, he did so with her taking the one opposite to him. She then looked up at him and starting talking.
"I could just say that I want to catch up and all of that usual shit but then we'd both know I was lying. The truth is that I miss you Sammy, I want you back with me and I want times to be like they used to be. I really am sorry for what I did, it was a mistake and I honestly didn't mean for it to happen."
Sam closed his eyes, sighing deeply. He could feel mixed up emotions welling up within him but he was unsure if they were his own or Renamon's.
"She called you Sammy."
"Rena?"
"You and that girl Sophie, you were… together?"
"Yeah… we split up about six months ago. She's tried talking to me but apparently gave up about two months back after I just kept ignoring her. Though I guess she never quite gave up did she."
"Umm so what do you… I mean, do you still like her now?"
"I…"
"Sam, are you in there?" asked Sophie. She had a concerned frown on her face and had her hand on his arm.
Sam blinked and shook his head, he then noticed that Sophie was touching him and yanked his arm back, disgust filling his senses briefly before disappearing.
Sophie then sighed sadly and tried to look at his eyes which refused to look at hers.
"Sammy can you not give me another chance, I swear on my life that I will never do anything like before ever again…you have to believe me."
Sam then looked at her pleading eyes and to his and Sophie's surprise, he laughed.
"Sorry I must be hearing you wrong. You want me to give you another chance? Another chance to what? Cheat on me again. Do you take me for a fool or something? Cut me some slack Sophie because I'm not that much of an idiot." Sam stood up shaking his head and with an angry look at Sophie, he walked out of the college quickly.
Sophie's eyes started to tear up as she got up and ran after Sam. She exited the building and saw him heading towards a large bush.
"Sam wait!" she shouted, running to Sam and stopping next to him.
He stopped walking and growled in annoyance, turning around to find her barley a few inches from him.
"Sammy please, can't we just talk this through?"
"There is nothing to talk about Sophie. You cheated once, there is no reason why you wouldn't do so again."
"I never meant for it to happen Sammy, it was an accident. Please you have got to believe me."
Sam clicked his tongue in annoyance. "An accident? What happened, did you slip and fall on his dick? That is not an accident. It was a decision you made and carried out with a clear mind. I really don't understand why you think I would ever take you back after that let alone want to be anywhere near you, so why don't you do me a favour and just stay the hell out of my life."
Sam felt a very clear emotion of approval along with slight jealousy coming from Renamon which confused him. He then began to turn around only for Sophie to lean forward quickly and put her lips on his, making Sam blink rapidly in surprise having never suspected she would try something like that.
The next thing Sam knew was that his control had slipped and Renamon had taken over but for the first time nothing changed physically. She wrenched her mouth from Sophie's and pushed her away with a low and dangerous growl which to her annoyance, Sophie took the wrong way.
"Wow Sammy, I never realised how erotic you could be. Maybe you could show me how much you can growl later, perhaps in bed."
"Ha! Not on your life slut." Renamon gave her a nasty glare and bared her teeth whilst her eyes started to itch slightly from her repressing the change.
Sophie walked closer to Renamon which in turn caused Renamon to give another threatening growl, stopping her in her tracks.
"Try kissing me again sweetheart and I promise you that I won't be so lenient."
"Oh come on. The Sammy I know would never hurt anyone let alone me."
"The Sammy you know isn't the same as the one right in front of you and he certainly doesn't need a cheating, pathetic and lying girl like you when he already has a woman in his life that will always care for him in a way that you never could."
"Rena…"
At the mention of another woman, Sophie's eyes flashed angrily and she walked right up to Renamon's face.
"Oh really. So who is this woman huh? I can't wait to meet her." At this Renamon grinned somewhat cruelly at her.
"Ohh she is closer than you might think and I really wouldn't push her buttons if I was you because you never know… she might be slightly territorial when you try to steal what is not yours."
At this Sophie backed off a bit whilst giving Renamon an amused look.
"Sounds a bit possessive," said Sophie.
Renamon shook her head with a smirk gracing her lips.
"Perhaps but I think when it all comes down to it, it's better to be possessive rather than just standing back and letting someone be taken from you." At those words Sophie got a smirk of her own and nodded her head.
"Exactly my point Sammy. I know that what I did was wrong but it happened ages ago and I'm a changed woman now. The only thing that hasn't changed is how much I still love you."
Feeling that she could repress the change no longer, Renamon closed her eyes and let go of her control before anything became noticeable. Sam reopened his eyes to see Sophie staring at him amorously and then remembered what she had just said to Renamon.
"Sorry to disappoint Sophie but I don't love you and perhaps you should just accept that and try and find someone else who is just as gullible as I used to be."
"But Sammy I-"
"STOP CALLING ME THAT! I'm not your Sammy anymore and you'd do best to remember that." Sam gritted his teeth in anger and mentally slapped himself for almost blowing his secret.
He then turned away from her, walked as quickly as he currently could around the college building and closed his eyes in concentration. By the time that Sophie got there he was nowhere to be found.
One Hour Later (Main Resistance Headquarters)
The main chamber of the resistance was quite quiet for a change. Most of the recruits where either sleeping or playing cards with each other.
Bowers was sitting in a corner of the room watching them with a small smile, quite happy at how friendly they were being with each other. He then looked over at a table where Jake, Cassie and Alex were sitting and in deep conversation with one another.
Feeling curious, he went over and sat down on a chair in a shadowy corner with the hope that he would be able to hear what they were saying without being noticed.
"Guys I'm worried about Sam. I mean it's only been a little bit since he greyed his mom so I don't expect him to be all sunshine and rainbows but he has been seriously down as of late and I'm worried for him," said Jake.
Cassie nodded and Alex hummed his agreement.
"So what do ya'l reckon we do about it. I'm totally sympathetic Jake and kudos to Sam for not letting it interfere with our work but what if it gets too much and he starts acting out. I don't think any of us are a match for him in combat and to be fair, I don't really want to fight him when he's angry."
Jake looked at Cassie with an appalled expression.
"Fight him? I'm not fighting my best friend Cassie. I'll go and try to calm him down first and if that doesn't work then we will all just have to rely on his better half do it for us."
"Better half? You mean Renamon?"
Jake nodded.
Suddenly a flash of blue light appeared in the center of the chamber, revealing a morose looking Sam. He then walked straight past the others and stopped in front of the supposedly inconspicuous Bowers.
"I'm going to stay here for the night, if you or anyone else needs me for whatever reason then make sure it's an emergency because I need to get some sleep. Ok?"
Bowers looked up at Sam with a sombre expression and nodded, gesturing for him to carry on. He and the others then watched as Sam left quickly with nothing but a gust of wind behind him. Bowers then sighed and looked at the others with a tired expression on his face, making him look somewhat older.
"I think it would be best if everyone just left him be for now ok."
"But Bowers, don't you think that perhaps he should… oh I don't know, step down for a little bit. He isn't exactly himself right now and what if that affects how he fights. He could get himself killed."
"That's enough Cassie!" Jake snapped. "Sam will be fine you'll see, he just needs a little time."
"And what if we don't have time? I'm just saying that maybe one of us should take over as the leader temporarily that's all."
"I don't think so," said Alex, surprising everyone. "Sam is upset and perhaps even depressed but ya'l need to think of what he did first before ya start jumping the hoop sis."
"What do ya mean Alex?" she asked.
"Ok let's start from the beginning. He is a far better leader then all of us and we all know that. He is also a far better fighter then us and we all know that too. But if you're questioning his ability to lead us sis then I think you should think that through first. Because to me, using the grey crystal on his own mother to protect not only her but anyone and everyone she had ever come into contact with is a pretty tough decision to make. He could of just tried to convince her but from what he told us I don't think she would have been the type to keep that kind of secret quiet."
Alex then looked right at his sister.
"But if you think that making that type of decision and then getting extremely upset about it makes him a bad leader then perhaps you should be the one making those type of decisions yourself"
Cassie looked at Alex with a shocked expression for a few seconds and then shook her head slowly. "No you're right Alex, I'm sorry. I was just worried for us, all of us and that includes Sam too. He's like the big brother we've never had and I know we all look up to him as such."
Alex and Jake both nodded with a smile and put one of their hands on her shoulders.
"Then I think he needs to know that…now more than ever." Said Jake.
Sam's Quarters
Sam was tossing and turning in his bed, trying to let sleep claim him but to no avail.
"I can't believe I almost gave us away again Rena. What is it with me that just makes me so USELESS!"
"Shh Just calm down Sam. No more negative emotions. That bitch is none the wiser so just try to get to sleep…for me"
Sam huffed loudly but none the less complied and took deep breaths so as to calm himself down.
Seven minutes later and sleep finally took him.
Sam opened his eyes and sat up abruptly looking around. He was back in the cabin and was currently sitting upright on the edge of a bed.
Suddenly he heard a door close behind him and turned around to see Renamon looking at him with an unfamiliar emotion that Sam had never seen on her before.
"Are you alright Rena?" he asked.
Renamon simply nodded and started to walk slowly around the cabin, getting closer to Sam with every step.
"It's been a long day Sam. Are you feeling well?"
Sam was unsure where she was going with this but decided to go along with it.
"Umm yeah I'm feeling fine, why do you ask?"
Renamon then looked at him with a slight smile and moved closer.
"You cannot lie to me Sam. You might as well try and lie to yourself because you'll get the same result."
She was very close to Sam now.
"Tell me Sam…what do you feel when you look at me?"
Sam's eyes widened slightly. "What do I feel…?"
"Mhmm."
"I…I'm not sure where you're going with this Rena."
She was so close to Sam that he could feel the heat flowing from her body into his own.
"No? Then perhaps I should give you…a hint."
She put both of her paws on Sam's bare chest and started to slowly…sensually move them ever so slowly upwards and then locked them gently around his neck. Her mouth moved so close to his own that he could practically taste the sweet smell of cinnamon on her breath, before stopping mere centimetres away from his.
Sam was completely lost on what to do. Part of him wanted to ask her what the hell she was doing. The other and much larger part of him wanted nothing more than for her to continue.
Renamon looked right into his eyes…his soul.
"Am I still being too subtle Sam?"
"I…I don't…"
"Shh now… just let go of your doubts…your pain… and for this one moment…"
She moved her mouth even closer to his own.
"Be mine."
She then closed what little distance there was…and began to kiss Sam passionately.
Will there be a lemon?
I actually have no idea yet XD
In all seriousness though, if I do put a lemon into the next chapter I will try to make it as sensual and loving as I can.
Pushing up the bar now. Will upload ASAP if you can all be extra kind and give me Hmmm around eight more reviews :D (Psst, the author is basically saying that he eats up reviews but also has college shiz to do. So in other words it's kind of a stalling thing but he will upload ASAP if he gets eight reviews because he is a man of his word) :D
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