"A Life I Thought Would Never Return: Dean's Past"

Chapter 9

A/N: This is the first time I'm writing in Dean's POV (therefore Alec's too) so I apologize in advance if he isn't himself for some parts (I tried adding in those famous lines though). This will be DARK ANGEL focused for the majority of it but it's in these categories so it's in the same one as STORY A.

REMEMBER, I WROTE THIS AS IF I WAS DEAN LOOKING BACK ON THE MEMORY (Dialogues are in italics and are from memory)

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, Dark Angel or Twilight. They belong to their respective owners (I thank them for creating them in the first place).

Episode thoughts (are my thoughts) follow the original plot line of the episode (only alterations were made in come dialogue to merge the universes).

STORY A's Summary: SPN/DA/Twi Crossover. Bella finds herself being Victoria's target as well as having conflicted emotions when her past comes back unexpectedly. ~~~~Dean(Alec)/Max~~~~Bella/Sam/Edward/Jacob~~~~SPN (Season4), DA (Post-Series), Twilight (Eclipse)

STORY B's Summary: Dean lays awake in his motel room (moment in Chapter 8 of Story A) and reminiscences about his life with Manticore and his battle with the supernatural. (Goes through Dean's thoughts on events from his childhood to events in season 2 of Dark Angel and leading up to where Story A takes off)

Moment Summaries in Chapter (separated by the dividers):

Part 1 - "Fuhgeddaboudit" thoughts (Episode 2.15 of Dark Angel) -- I made the cage fight go longer (hope you enjoy =D)

Part 2 - "Exposure" thoughts (Episode 2.16 of Dark Angel)

BOTH PARTS TAKE PLACE IN MARCH

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Dean's POV

To have your mind messed with is not cool, whatsoever. Whether done from some supernatural creature that tricks your mind or by some Manticore soldier from the Psy-Ops division, god I hated my time in there. I was already protected from most of the supernatural mind mess since I'm an X5 but I wasn't immune to the psychic abilities of another transgenic which sucked even more because I didn't know that it hit me until afterwards. It wasn't like the amulet Sammy gave me when I was twelve was going to help me, it had no effect against Manticore's creations but I've never taken the amulet off since I got out of Manticore (I always hid it from the guards).

I didn't know that the new girl, Mia, played me until Max tells me just after another one of my cage fights in the tournament. Come to think of it, I wouldn't be stupid enough to do another cage fight since last time it ended up with me getting a bomb attached to my brainstem but it was too late, I was so far in the tournament that one more fight would ensure my win and I needed the money. When Max asked me to turn down the fight, I had to refuse since I needed it and I also wasn't going to throw away my chance to see my family again just so that Logan got his mobster bad guys. No way.

As I was talking about my winnings with Normal and right before I was declared winner, Max walks into the ring and demands she fight me. This wasn't going to be fun, that was for sure, I was in a lose-lose situation. Our friendship was actually doing well and I knew this fight would just mess it up. I could see the anger that she had in her eyes as she was getting ready to fight while the announcer explained the rules of the fight to us both.

"What the hell are you doing?"

"I told you to take a dive, now I'm gonna have to beat your ass myself." Max clearly pointed out as she started to remove her biker gloves.

"And I thought we were becoming such good friends Maxie." I hid my emotion with sarcasm.

"That's out the window at this moment." Max continued to take off her bike gloves as I rolled my eyes.

"What do you have against me making money? You know I need it."

"What's your name cupcake?" The announcer asked Max.

"She doesn't have a name, you know what, she's not here, she's not fighting." I basically demanded. I really didn't want to fight Max. It wasn't because I was tired, which I wasn't, I just didn't want to have to hurt her or actually use moves that only a soldier would know, in order to win.

"Oh yes I am." Max replied so confidently with her attitude. One thing was for sure, if Max had her mind set to something, it was really hard to change it.

"Ladies and gentlemen, in this corner, hailing from parts unknown, let's hear it for the Curvaceous Killer." I just smirked at the name. Monty Cora vs. the Curvaceous Killer, now this is definitely going to be interesting.

"Max, you don't wanna fight me." We both were ignoring the announcer list the rules as I tried to talk Max out of the fight.

"I don't but the Curvaceous Killer does." Max just gave an amused grin at me. I couldn't help the amused grin on my own face.

"So that's it, fighting Monty Cora and not Alec or Dean."

"Yup, I've been waiting for this chance for months, Monty Cora." Max was in a fighting stance.

"Well, you see, you're just a girl, so-" Next thing I know, Max punches me in the jaw causing me to step back from the reaction. I stared stunned at Max as Normal tells the announcer to ring the bell to start the fight. I had a hand at my jaw and rubbed it.

"Should've known you'd cheat." Max gave me a kick just behind my right knee as we dancing around the ring.

"That's for the virus!"

"You know I had no choice!" Max gives me a right hook to my jaw and I fell against the cage wall.

"That's for trying to kill Joshua."

"I was just trying to protect my own." I got up from the cage wall to move but Max hit me again with a left punch to the face before giving me a right hook to my stomach. I now held my stomach in pain. Max's punches were definitely harder than my other opponents, but that's what I get for fighting with another X5.

"That's for getting paint all over my research papers." Max was still pissed and ready to throw another punched as I walked around the ring.

"Yeah, okay, that was my bad." Max gave me another right hook to the jaw as I grabbed the cage wall for support.

"That's for loosing the cure."

"Maxie, cut it out!" Max kicked behind my right knee and gave me another right hook to the jaw.

"That's for loosing my baseball." I got up off my knee and turned to face Max only to see anger still in her eyes. "And this…" Max kicked me in the chest like she did when we first met back at Manticore. "…is for whatever stupid thing you do next." Max flipped her hair out of her face and gave a mischievous smirk at me.

"Just like old times then?" I gave her a sly smile knowing what to do next.

"Bring it on, Pretty Boy." Max taunted.

"Kick her ass!" I heard Normal shout and now it was game on.

"Okay, that's it." I push myself off the cage wall and headed towards Max when I got her rounded kick to my stomach but I grabbed her leg and gave a right hook to her jaw, before knocking her on her back.

"I didn't want to do this Maxie but I need that money." I quickly said as she somersaulted backwards to face me. I kicked her in the stomach while she was about to rise causing her to slam into the cage wall in front of Normal.

"They're other ways, I could've helped." Max stated as she was getting off the wall and heading towards me. Max attempted to give a round house kick to my head but I blocked it by grabbed her leg and causing her to twist in the air before she hit the ground. I circled around her as I watched her movements as she was slow and calculating.

"You don't get it, by helping Logan, you can't help me." Max tried to trip me but I jumped out of her reach before she jumped to her feet in a fighting stance once again.

"Explain it then." We continued to circle around each other as we tried to reason and calculate the next move.

"Why? You wouldn't understand, they're still so much you don't know about me Maxie." I blocked the right hook and counter acted it with a jab to her stomach. Max gave me an irritated look and all I could do was give that sly smirk back to her. "You asked for this Maxie, now it's my turn."

"Whatever." Max was gripping her side when she drifted her attention to the bell where the ring girl was as I was bouncing in my fighting stance. Max tried to play the part but I could see if in her eyes. "Oh, look at that. Ring girl just lost her top." I couldn't help but smile at her attempt.

"Nice try Maxie, my eyes are only on you." I couldn't help but give a cocky grin as I saw the emotion in Max's eyes falter before the anger was back.

"Don't call me Maxie!" Max ran for me as if she was taking me on directly but I moved away and had her in a grip from behind so that her back was against my chest as she started to squirm and get free. I almost had her in the sleeper hold.

"Would you rather prefer 'Sweetheart' then? Either's fine with me." I whispered into Max's ear as her squirming died down. I couldn't help but laugh.

"Makes me…..kind of wonder……" I loosened my grip around her throat to allow her to speak.

"Wonder what?" I asked curiously.

"How we would be, if we were a couple." That comment caught me off guard and before I knew it my grip had loosened enough for Max's arm to get free and she inflicted so much force to the last punch that I seriously thought I would pass out from the pain coming from between my legs. I was doubled over, as I was too late to protect myself with a hurting shocked expression on my face. Max turns around and pushes me down to the floor with her fingers and I fell hard on the mat in pain. The women in the crowd were now cheering for Max as I looked up at her and see that she's crouching down on her knees and only a few inches away from my face.

"Oops, sorry Dean, but Monty Cora asked for it." I looked up to see a small smile on Max's face and I couldn't help but give a hurtful smile back.

As I laid on the mat as the announcer gave Max the winning title, I couldn't help but think that maybe she knew about my feelings for her. Was I that obvious? Why would she use those specific words if she didn't know? Why was she so pissed in beating me up? All I knew for certain was that our friendship just became a little bit weirder.

I already had slight bruising when I came out with Normal holding me up to join Max, Logan and Mia. As Mia did her mind thing on Logan, I noticed that Max had some light bruising too that seemed to be healing fast; at least I didn't hurt her too much. I would have won that fight if we weren't being watched and if I could use all my Manticore and hunter training. If only. Mia snapped me out of my thoughts when she handed me a wad of cash and all I could do was nod a 'thank you' towards her before Normal directed me out. I gave one last glance towards Max before we left and I saw something unpleasant in her eyes, guilt maybe but she shouldn't feel that. So just before passing Max, I whispered at a transgenic level "I'm alright" to her and I saw a small smile on her face before I left. I didn't want Max blaming herself for my physical pain which she did cause, but I deserved it after all the stupid stuff I did that she was listing off when she was punching me. I was the one that was guilty, for even agreeing to fight with Max in the first place when I knew that it would cause problems later on in our friendship. As I rested in my apartment and relived the nights' fights, I couldn't help but smile since I still got some money and I was that much closer in going back to the war to avenge my mother's death.

I was definitely pissed off. Max had been avoiding me since the cage fight and I was worried at first until I found out that she was going out of town with Logan for one of his Eye's Only missions. I swear one of these days, he's going to give her a mission that will kill her and I'm just afraid I won't be there to stop it before she's gone for good. I don't get Logan, he claims he loves Max but he sends her on all these missions telling her that they're all 'a one man job' but that's never the case.

I'm glad that Max actually uses her soldier brain to override Logan's decision to ask me to help out. Even if she didn't ask, I would still tag along just so that I would have her back but with this mission, I was told after she left that she was gone with Logan. How could Logan put Max in danger like that? If I was with Max, I would do everything I could so that she was safe and if she insisted on going, then I would inform her of everything and add more backup for her. Thing was, I wasn't with Max; she was with Logan, a guy she couldn't even shake hands with without killing him. You could definitely say that I was feeling jealous of their little trip away and all the attention Logan was getting from Max which was odd since I knew nothing could happen between them. I still just had the pang in my chest that irritated me so much that I could swear it was worst than jealousy.

So I was stuck at Jam Pony, covering for Max, trying to find a lead on the cure in my spare time as well as dealing with Sketchy's need to find 'a monster in the sewers' for his new job as a tabloid reporter. I do have to hand it to Sketchy, he's one smart dude when he sets his mind to it but OC was a big help when it came to convincing Sketchy that it was all a hoax.

With Max gone, I couldn't help but have my mind drift to memories of us together.......my birthday surprise, telling her about 'Dean Winchester and his family' as well as when I held her in my arms and knew that I was in love with her. I shook my thoughts away and got back to finding a lead on the cure. I know having the cure would bring Max and Logan together but I would rather Max pick (if she actually saw the two choices in front of her) with nothing standing in her way. I want to be with Max but I want to be her one and only choice with no regrets or thoughts of 'what ifs' and if getting her the cure means that I screwed up my chances then at least I helped to make her happy, because that's all that matters. Max's happiness…………geez, I'm so whipped like Sammy is with little Bella.

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A/N: I loved the cage fighting episode, I felt that Max and Alec during the series had so much tension between them, so why not having them fight it all out, so that's what I made Max and Dean (Alec) do a little longer.

Hope you like the added bit =D

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