Are you liking the story so far? :)

I also wanted to tell you that I'll be posting my Mordaret fanfic after I finish the Thomjay one. c:

I couldn't sleep well last night, again... I tried to deny that feeling of having a crush on Thomas. I wasn't in love with him – at least that's what I was thinking.

After the day we held hands, I've been acting really weird when I was around Thomas. I felt like I was.. "pulling a Mordecai".

It was like when Mordecai used to get nervous around Margaret ( as what Eileen told me ). I'm Mordecai, in this case...

No, it can't be possible... I can't be in love with Thomas. I just can't. I thought, still denying that feeling.

I was still in bed. I was staring at the ceiling.

I guess... I can't just.. deny what I'm feeling. I thought.

I stood up. I had to admit it... I couldn't deny it anymore.

"It's official..." I said, loud. "I have a crush on Thomas."

I didn't know what to do. If Thomas found out about my crush on him... He would probably stop talking to me. I didn't think he would have... feelings for me. I mean, I'm not the perfect girl for him. And I guess he only considered me as a.. friend.

I could hear someone yelling "FRIEND ZOOONE!" in my head.

Darn it. I thought, nervously, but also angrily. I don't know what should I do.

I really needed advices. Well, I guess I needed to talk to Eileen. She was the only person that actually gave good advices. Even though she wasn't dating Rigby yet ( I think... She told me they were getting closer ), I think she would give me a good advice.

I wore my normal clothes, and I went to the Coffee Shop. I didn't want to work there. I needed help.

At the Coffee Shop, nobody was in there - probably because it was still 8:30 a.m...

"Hey CJ." Eileen said, when she saw me.

"Eileen, I need advices. And also some coffee."

I sat on a chair. I was feeling desesperated...

"Wow, what happened?" She asked, while giving me a cup of coffee.

"Eileen... I guess you can make fun of me now."

"What? What are you talking about?"

"Your expectatives were totally right... It's official, Eileen. I have a crush on Thomas."

Eileen looked at me, surprised. Actually, I thought she wouldn't be THAT surprised, since she already made fun of me hanging out too much with Thomas...

"You heard it." I said. "I'm in love with him... I don't know what to do. He would reject me if he found out that I like him. I mean, I don't think he actually.. loves me back." I sighed, sadly.

"Wow, I... I kind of knew that you liked him, but... I wasn't totally sure about that."

I sighed again, while drinking my coffee.

"I don't know what to do... It feels like we're in the Friend Zone." I said. "I'm feeling like Mordecai right now, when he used to get weird everytime he was around Margaret."

"Yeah, I understand how do you feel. I'm also in the Friend Zone too... Well, kind of, since Rigby and I started getting really closer. Anyway, I think you should tell him how do you feel." Eileen said.

"I'm afraid of him rejecting me..." I looked away, sadly.

"Believe me, you need to tell him how do you feel. Mordecai told me that it doesn't matter if Thomas rejects you or not. You can't just hide your feelings for him forever, right? You could suffer even more if Thomas only treated you as a friend."

Eileen was giving a good advice, but I was still not sure about telling my feelings for him...

"He has to know how do you feel, CJ." Eileen said, seriously. "Also, what if he actually likes you back? I mean, Mordecai was afraid of telling his feelings for Margaret because he was also wondering if she would reject him. But then, he finally kissed her, showing how much he loved her. And guess what? Margaret also liked him. They got together, and they got out of the Friend Zone. Who knows maybe the same thing happens to you and Thomas?"

I thought for a while. Eileen was totally right.

"I guess you're right..." I admitted.

"You should talk to him, CJ."

"I... I will try."

I paid the coffee, and I stood up. Before leaving, I said:

"Thanks, Eileen. You're a good friend."

"You're welcome."

When I opened the door, I said:

"You should talk to Rigby about your feelings, too." I winked at her, and Eileen looked away, embarassed. I kind of giggled.

I closed the door. I went home, because I forgot my phone there. I looked at my phone for a while, when I took it.

Should I call him? I thought Or maybe text him, since he might be still sleeping...

Then, I had that stupid "pulling a Mordecai" thing again... Ugh.

No.. I shouldn't call him.

I noticed that I still had time to go to work, since I've been for a short time at the Coffee Shop. I got into my car, and I went to work.

After work, I've been home almost the whole day. Thomas texted me a few times, but I just wasn't ready to tell my feelings for him.

I watched some TV, while eating the rest of the chocolate donuts and also some M&M's. I couldn't really concentrate at that Spongebob episode because I couldn't stop thinking about Thomas.

I think I've never felt so nervous before.. I really didn't know what to do. Eileen gave me a great advice, but I just couldn't tell Thomas that I had a crush on him. How would he react?

Crap... I don't know what should I do. I thought.

I turned off the TV, and I laid on bed, but I didn't want to sleep, since it was still 6:50 p.m. All I did was to stare at the ceiling and look at my phone, wondering if I should call him or anything.

At about 9:30 p.m, when I was almost sleeping, my phone rang. It was Thomas.. I didn't want to talk to him. I hated to just.. ignore him, but I was really nervous about talking with him about my feelings. I turned off my phone, and I tried to sleep.