Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note or any of the characters. Enjoy =P
* things may get a bit confusing in the three way conversation near the start so here's the key... the same will be used if any more of these conversations take place:
Light = "Blah"
Kira= "Blah"
L= "Blah"
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Light sat staring at the old man, a lone tear falling down his face and guilt taking a hold on his heart. He was about to say something, but Watari cut him off.

"Mikami was the only one to call L by chan. When you say it to him, it reminds him of Mikami and how close he was to the man... then he thinks of you, Light-kun."

Light watched as the old man walked out of the room, pulling his legs up to his chest and resting his head on them, letting the emotion wash over him. He wrapped his arms around his legs and hugged them tightly as tears began to fall steadily for the pain his one love went through. When his tears had subsided, Light's head shot up at the soft click of the door closing. His watery eyes fell onto the figure of L, his presence dark as his face hid behind his bangs and his black eyes met with Light's honey ones.

"Ryuzaki I~"

"Watari told you about me. About him. Why did you want to know?"

"Because I wanted to know why you reject me!"

L left his place against the door and ran across the room to Light, putting his hands on either side of the teen and shoving his face into the other's, spitting the words at him. "I never rejected you until you call me chan. I told you not to but you persisted Light. I don't want you to ask any more about me! Watari told you because he trusts you... If I find out you've been asking about anything about me, I will make your life a living hell! Understand?!"

"Ryuzaki I~"

"I don't want to hear it Light... I just want you to tell me you understand."

"I understand... Ryuzaki."

L pushed himself away from the couch and made to walk out the door when he felt fingers that weren't his own grab onto his sleeve. He looked over his shoulder to see Light, looking up to him and pleading him to stay. L sighed before taking a step back towards the couch, and sitting on the opposite end to Light. Light put his head on his knees once again, content in knowing L was beside him.

L watched the teen for a moment longer before reaching out to him and pulling him into his arms, Light settling himself wrapped in the detectives arms and his legs on either side of him, almost like a shield while L rested his head on the younger male.

"Ryuzaki~"

"Don't say anything Light... don't say anything at all..."

L pulled the teen in closer, wrapping his arms around him tighter as he buried his head in the teen's hair, tears slowly rolling down his own cheeks. He lifted his head when the teen suddenly jerked and L realised the teen had fallen asleep in his arms. L couldn't help but smile, but it was short lived as Light jerked again, more violently this time. Soon, Light was thrashing around in the others grasp, watching helplessly as he was terrorised in his sleep. L bent his head to the other's ear, barely avoiding getting head-butt in the face.

"Sssshhh Light... I'm here. Hush now... I'm here. I'll protect you." L was stroking the teen's hair now as he talked soothingly to him. Light's reply was muffled at first but after a few tries it was as if Light was conscious and talking, and sometimes it seemed... darker.

"You can't protect me."

"Of course I can Light-kun...."

"Shut up!!! You don't own or control me!!"

"I never said I did..."

"Trust me..."

"Trust you with what?"

"Everything!"

Light sat on his knees and turned to face the detective, his eyes snapping open, looking black almost. They sat in silence for a few moments before Light leant forward, resting his hands on the older man's knees and pressing their lips together. As soon as L had responded, Light deepened the kiss and his tongue slipped into the others mouth, exploring the hot cavern. A moan passed through his throat as he opened the detective's legs to get closer to the man.

Light pulled the detective's body until he was lying on the couch, Light straddling his hips. He put his hands beside the detectives head, bringing their lips together for another embrace. He ran his tongue along the detective's lips as he pleaded for entrance once again. Not getting it, Light moved his hands to L's body, no longer using them for support. He placed them first at the man's hips before running softly up his sides and sliding back down again, continuing down to rub his thighs.

"Light!!" L tried to talk more but the words wouldn't form in his throat or his brain. All he could think of was the tongue now in his mouth and the hands running over his body. "Light..."

The door slammed open and the entire work force entered, Watari following soon after.

"I know we're interrupting, but we have an important lead on the Kira case!!" Matsuda was the one who spoke, even though his face was flushed and the words came out quickly.

"What's the lead?!"

"Well Light... you need to come out so we can show you. Both of you."

L nodded before dismissing the group, lacing his fingers with the teen on top of him. "Let's go Light-kun!"

"Why should w~"

"Aggghhh!!! Uh, Sorry Ryuzaki.... Let's go!"

Light stood up and pulled the detective with him, avoiding his eyes. He lost control of his body and his speech but L didn't notice. Things were looking bad! Once the detective was standing, they headed towards the main room, their fingers still entwined as they walked in step.

"This better be one good lead Matsuda, otherw-" L walked through the door and gazed upon the occupants of the room. Matsuda, Aizawa and Mogi were all at their desks once again set to work while three kids, two about seventeen and one looking about ten, and another man watched them.

L froze upon looking past the trio and towards the man standing near them.

"Why are you all here?!" L looked at the trio, his face emotionless as his heart was tearing apart inside him.

Light examined the boys carefully, noting two were definitely gay and the other was too young to even know his sexuality. One of the boys, his features highly feminine, sat on one of the desks a bar of chocolate in his hand and leather clothing hugging his every curve. The boy standing in between his legs, his back resting against his chest had goggles covering his eyes and a Game Boy in his hand while his clothing was simply a striped black and white top and tight black jeans. The last boy sat on the floor, a toy robot and what seemed to be finger puppets littering the floor around him, the paleness of his skin and body contrasting with the darkness of the room. The main thing that concerned Light, was the pile of bags dumped near them.

"We missed you L!! And besides, we found this loser. You may think you're the only one doing this Kira case, but us three have been too... Matt was getting information from your computer." Mello pointed his finger towards the other occupant of the room now. "He was in possession of a Death Note so we brought him, and it, to you! So what do we do now?" Mello spoke as he wrapped his arms around Matt, almost showing his boredom.

"You kill him! You have the Death Note as evidence of him being a murderer so kill him! Now!"

"Ryuzaki calm down..." Light whispered into the other's ear, squeezing his hand for reassurance.

"Ryuzaki? Long time no see! Did you miss me?" All pairs of eyes in the room turned to look at the man who seemed to know L. Light was about to say something, when he realised who the man was.

"Mikami...." Light's voice was barely a whisper, but still the man heard it and still the detective flinched.

"You know of me?" Mikami grinned at Light, his voice mocking.

"I know enough. I know enough to say if you have a Death Note, then you should be tried. You deserve to die."

"You're saying that to me?! What about you Light? Or, have you forgotten?" Mikami's eyes flashed dangerously, threateningly.

"I don't know what you're talking about! If you haven't noticed, I am here to catch Kira!" Light spoke almost immediately. Almost. But the slight falter and the flash of fear and worry in his face was enough to convince Mikami.

"You're rather good at lying Light, I'm impressed. I almost missed the fear in your eyes. But tell me something, if you weren't Kira and you never had a Death Note, why is it I know your name? Why is it I know of Misa Amane being the second Kira? And how Light, would I know about Ryuk? I'll tell you how, Higuchi. He told me everything. About Rem being with Misa, how you outsmarted L by acting innocent that time he installed cameras in your bedroom and house. Everything."

Everyone in the room stared at Mikami, turning their heads slowly to stare at Light when he finished speaking.

"You're lying..." Light's voice was powerful and convicting, but it wasn't enough.

"I'm not lying, Light. I'm seeking vengeance!"

"Vengeance? For..."

"Yes, for Higuchi! Because you killed him! Because you broke my heart by taking away the only person I ever really loved!" Mikami took a step forward, only to be stopped by Matt stepping in front of him and Mello pulling out a gun from where he was sitting.

"What about Ryuzaki?! You loved him! You asked him to~" Light stopped shouting when he realised what he was about to say and stopped, not wanting to tell Ryuzaki's life for him.

"Matt, put Mikami into a cell for now. Mello, put that thing away! How the hell did you even get that in here?! Light come with me and everyone else get back to work!" L spoke in his usual monotonous tone as he quickly gave his orders before turning and pulling Light out of the room, still holding his hands as they walked towards the bedroom.

He walked up the stairs briskly, tugging Light behind him and not caring as the teen called his name and stumbled up the stairs. As soon as he opened the bedroom door, he pulled Light in, slammed the door behind them and shoved Light against the wall, his hands resting on the wall behind the teen.

"Are you Kira?!"

"No! Ryuzaki I swear! I would never hurt you!" Light looked at the older man whose eyes looked dark, swimming with hurt, confusion and betrayal.

"I didn't ask would you hurt me Light, I asked are you Kira."

"No I'm not Kira!"

"Were you before?"

"No." Light swallowed when he answered it, resisting the urge to look away from the detective and cry in his arms.

"You're lying!"

"I'm not lying to you!"

"Yes you are! I can see it in your eyes, in your hesitations. I should have known I was right! I should have just gotten you the death sentence as soon as my suspicions were high enough. I should have known you would betray me." L spat out the words, all the words, except the last. His last words were spoken in pain, knowing the only two men he ever loved betrayed him.

Light was about to fight, but he couldn't. He couldn't do it anymore. "I'm sorry."

"What?" L looked back up at the teen, surprise evident in his face.

"I'm sorry. You're right. You were always right. I am Kira, I always have been. Except for when I gave up ownership of the Death Note, then I didn't know. When I did get my memories back, I couldn't kill you. I had fallen in love with you. I still do love you Ryuzaki, just know that. Before I die, know that I love you." Light looked away from the detective, smiling sadly as a tear fell from his eyes. He looked back up at the man however, when a hand rested on his cheek, wiping away the fallen tear.

"I can't do it. You didn't lie. You confessed, and I can't do it! I can't serve justice..." L's voice was barely a whisper as he stroked the teen's cheeks, looking sadly into those honey orbs.

"You can't do what?" Light looked into the older man's eyes, searching his face for what was going on.

L dropped his head, putting his forehead towards Light's as a tear of his own fell. "Kill you."

With the words spoken, L let his head drop forward even more, his lips meeting the teen's. It was supposed to be a quick, chaste kiss but the emotions running through both males wouldn't allow it. L moved his hands from the teen's face to the back of his head, sinking his fingers into the silky locks as he felt Light's hands move to rest on his hips. Their movements were slow, but they held more feeling than ever before. With each move they made, their emotion passed through them and into the other, saying things words couldn't.

Light's fingers dug into the older man's skin as a low moan escaped his lips, his back beginning to arch, pressing his body against the older mans.

L was the first to break the kiss, his cheeks tinted red as he took a step back, bringing his thumb to his mouth. He turned to the door and left quickly, not saying a word to the now bewildered teen. He ran down the stairs, and into the main work room but seeing the team talking and Matt and Mello making out while Near sat on the floor, he left muttering about how they should be working. He walked into the kitchen, and left before heading into the living room. Upon finding it empty, he walked to the last room on the floor. He knocked on the door quickly, but didn't enter. The door opened soon after he knocked, and L almost sighed with relief.

"We need to talk."

"Is there something wrong Ryuzaki?"

"Yes."

"Why didn't you just walk in here if it was important?" The old man at the door stepped back, allowing the detective entrance.

"You know I never barge into your room. I might everywhere else, but never your room. You do enough for me without me invading your private space... I never just walk here. Never."

"L... You're rambling and repeating yourself, what is it?"

"Watari... I... Light is Kira..."

"You mean he really is, or you have your suspicions?" The old man looked at the young male, worry and concern lining his face as he sat down on the couch beside his 'son'.

"I know he is. He told me." L looked away from the man to stare at the carpet which had suddenly become very interesting.

Watari didn't answer, he simply pulled the man into his arms and smiled sadly when he heard a sob rip itself from the detective's throat as he shook, burying his face into the older man and clinging onto him for dear life.

The tears finally slowed, and then stopped but still L refused to leave his place hanging on to the man. When he finally did let go, he sat back against the couch, wiping his eyes with his sleeve as he drew his legs to his chest and took a few slow, deep breaths before talking. "I don't know what to do... I'm falling apart. How could I let him do this to me?"

Watari pulled the man into his arms once more, but briefly this time. When he let go of the detective, he let their eyes meet and stood up once that contact was broken. Once standing, he held out his hand for the other man's.

"You know what you have to do."

Light watched the detective leave the room, confusion filling his body.

"What the hell just happened?" Light spoke even though there was no one in the room, but an answer came he wasn't looking for.

You know what happened.

What are you saying?! Get out of here!

You're in danger now that you've told him. Get your ass out of here!

No! I don't answer to you or do what you tell me to! You're just a voice in my head that's ruining my life!

Did you forget!? I gave you a life! You were nothing before me and you will be nothing without me!

I don't need you! I'm giving up ownership of the Death Note and then I'm going to be killed. There's nothing that can stop that!

You can't give up ownership Light, you don't own one. You shouldn't even have your memories. And did you not feel that kiss? He's not going to kill us.

There is no us!

There's always been an us! There always will be!

Not anymore! I'm going to take Mikami's Death Note and I'm getting rid of you! I do not want you anymore!

You don't want me, but you need me!

Light moved away from the wall, the conversation in his head ringing in his ears. He dropped to his knees in the middle of the floor, his hands beginning to tear at his hair as a scream echoed throughout the building. Everyone ran up the stairs and burst into the room, pausing when they saw Light. Everyone, it seemed, but L.

Watari was the first to move. He walked over to the teen, and placed his hand on his shoulder, not taking it off even as the teen jumped.

"What?!"

"You screamed Light... people come running when you scream."

"Why would you all coming to me if you think I'm Kira?! Or did you think I was dying and you came to watch the show?!" Light stood abruptly, pulling away from Watari as a tear began to fall down his cheek.

"It's a bit hard not to want you dead! If I thought Mikami was a bad guy, you're worse Yagami!!" Mello spat the words out at Light, hatred evident in his voice.

Light stopped the tears at once, his whole being turning icy and tense. He turned to Mello sharply, walking over and grabbing the teen's throat before anyone could react. "I am not worse than him! I am not worse than that bastard you call a man! If you even think that again, I will kill you before you realise you thought it! Understand?!"

Mello said nothing, he simply put his hand behind his back, trying to ignore the gasps for breath and sharp pains in his chest from not breathing. Light, seeing what Mello was doing, slammed him into the wall, knocking the gun out of his hand, ignoring the hands and cries pulling him away from Mello. He bent down and picked up the gun before anyone else could, and aimed it at Mello who was now in Matt's arms.

"Put the gun down."

"I should kill him." Light's voice was simple as he replied to the figure in the doorway, his cold eyes never leaving the blonde teen.

"So what Light-kun... you couldn't kill him. You can't, not anymore. You don't have it in you."

"I... I'm not worse than him!" Light shut his eyes, his hands beginning to shake as tears yet again fell from his eyes.

"Stop crying Light, you have no reason to!! You can't cry! You weren't betrayed! You weren't hurt! You were caught! You don't get to cry, not this time!" L stepped into the room and took the gun from Light before handing it to Watari, who left the room as soon as he took the weapon.

"L, why haven't you arrested him yet?" Matt's voice inquisitive, not surprised. He was too smart to be surprised. When L looked at him, he was shocked to see a smile spread across the red head's face.

"Because Matt, he's not Kira."

"What are you talking about?! You heard Mikami!" Mello pulled out of Matt's arms, yelling at the detective.

"Mello, since when do you believe criminals?! We will give Mikami a private trial and look up on Misa Amane. Light-kun, is not Kira."

Near looked at L, his eyes wide. They narrowed then, glaring at the detective. "How sure are you?"

"Ninety-nine percent."

The three young teens looked at him; four eyes glaring while the other two, understanding. L told the trio and the silent work force to leave the room. As soon as the soft click of the lock sounded, Light spoke.

"Why did you do that?"

"Because I'm not about to send you to your death."

"I deserve it."

"I don't care!" L took a step towards the teen, cupping his hands on the others face. "I love you. I'm taking the biggest risk of my life Light, and you are that risk. You have betrayed me once, and I believe you won't do it again. Don't let me be wrong Light, don't hurt me." L's eyes stared into Light's, his eyes fearful, loving and pleading.

"I won't. I promise Ryuzaki, I will not hurt you. I didn't realise you had this much emotion in you... I didn't think I could fall for you or you for me." Light brought his hands up to the detectives, nuzzling into the warmth.

"No one does. Only Watari. Everyone else thinks I'm a cold hearted man who knows no emotions and lives to win. I did not go by justice, I made it. I redefined it. Yet here I am, standing with the world's greatest criminal in my hands and I refuse to punish him. I am not justice anymore!"

"Stop it! You're over-reacting! No one knows I was Kira, and it will stay that way. We silence Mikami, I take his Death Note and then I give up ownership and we forget I was Kira. We put it behind us and move onto another case, right?"

L took a deep, shaky breath before continuing. "Right." He felt Light press their lips together, more rough, more needy than the last.

I will always protect you Light. Always.

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AN: So, what do you think? Bet you didn't see THAT coming xD You want to know why, because I didn't either xD
So I'm sure the next chapter's going to be about Mikami's trial and such..that's what I'm thinking but I'm not sure yet xD
Just wondering... when this is finished(Which won't be too much longer) Does anyone want me to make a sequel?? O.o I'll probably do it anyways, but I just want to know what you all think xD

Well, til next time! ^^