Disclaimer: I do not own Victorious, just this story plot.
A.N. Hey everyone. :) Well, here's the next chapter. Most of you guys already guessed who our little visitor is, so let's just get into it shall we. :)
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"Hi." said Mikayla, hoping that the tan skinned girl in front of her didn't slam the door in her face.
"What are you doing here?" asked Tori, when she got over her brief wave of shock.
"I really need to talk to you." "Mikayla…" "Just…I really need to talk to you face to face and after we'll probably never see each other again...Besides I'm sure Jade already told you most of this anyway…" said the blonde, but was soon cut off by Tori.
"Wait, Jade would have told me what? What happen? And hold the hell up, how did you get my address; you never came over my house before?" asked the seriously confused half-Latina.
"May I come in please?" asked Mikayla.
Tori sighed, stepping out of the doorway and nodding her head, signaling the other girl to come in. After letting the blonde in, Tori motioned toward the couch closest to the door and Mikayla took a seat; while Tori remained standing.
"You wanna water or soda or something?" asked Tori awkwardly.
"Uh…"
"Don't worry. I won't put anything too bad in it, a little ex-lax never killed anybody." said Tori with a smirk.
Mikayla took it in stride and answered with a smile, "One ex-lax water would be delightful."
Tori nodded and soon came back with two bottled waters; after giving Mikayla (who thanked her) one of the bottles, she took a seat on the other couch and then gave the blonde haired girl and expecting look.
"Oh yeah, well to answer your last question…I uh kind of knew where you lived from dropping you off a few times while we were working on the project for Phelps's class, but I kind of got confirmation from this weird guy who over heard me asking around at your school. I think he was trying to sniff me…" said Mikayla, remembering the slightly disturbing memory.
"Sinjin." said Tori simply. "Tall, lanky, blonde curly hair, glasses…"
"Creepy?"
"Yep." confirmed the tan skinned girl, before shaking her head; looks like she was going to have to have a discussion with a certain creepy nerd about giving random strangers her personal information.
"Right…Anyway I had ran into Jade earlier…By the way she isn't here is she?" asked the blonde haired girl, looking around in a scared fashion.
Smirks, "No, you're safe; she's at home." answered Tori.
Mikayla let out a relieved breath before she continued, "I had ran into her earlier and kind of had a meltdown…"
Mikayla informed Tori about her and Jade's restroom exchange earlier that day, explaining to the tan girl why she done what she did to her. Mikayla knew forgiveness was not a given, but regardless she just wanted to personally let Tori know how very sorry she was for her actions. After she had finished, there was a loaded pause. Tori was hunched over with her chin rested on her joined hands, as her elbows rested on her knees; she looked to be in deep thought.
"Tori…" "I understand…" She nods before turning to face the other girl. "…I understand why you did what you did, I do…I mean, I get tired of dealing with my own baggage and I lived with it for the past nearly seventeen years; I imagine having to deal with it all at once would be…overwhelming. I just wished you would have been straight we me Mikayla. I mean yeah it would have hurt, but it would have been a hell of a lot better than compiling that hurt with seeing you and Jake tongue wrestling two seconds later!…"
"I know…and I'm so sorry Tori. I wish those words were enough…" interrupted Mikayla. "…but if it means anything, nothing happened between me and Jake. We only 'dated', if that even qualifies, for like two days before he started to literally make me physically ill. I didn't even like him, not just because he was a guy but if I had to hear about one more of his perfect passes or just one more thing about football in general; I would have jumped out a window." finished Mikayla, getting a slight chuckle from Tori.
The two teens continued to talk and catch up. Mikayla informed Tori that she had planned on coming out to her parents soon. Tori told her about how she wanted to finally tell her friends eventually about her 'friend', her insecurities on whether or not to deal with the rest of the world if she considers a career in the entertainment industry. They listened to each other and offered advice when they could, it was nice. The two girls might not have been meant to be a couple, but they had some short of a bond and wished each other the best. All in all; at least when the girls parted ways this time it was definitely better than the last.
"Bye and thanks for hearing me out." said Mikayla, before she and Tori shared a hug.
"No problem. See ya." said Tori, as they parted; giving the other girl a small smile and a wave before shutting the door and leaning against it, her expression changing to a sad/knowing look.
Even though the air was cleared between her and Mikayla now, Tori could not help it as the fear of history repeating itself began to spread within her as she thought a certain raven haired girl.
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It was the next day, a beautiful Saturday morning, and Jade West was currently seated on her bed (with her knees under her chin) staring stoically out of her bedroom window and looking out at the sereneness of the scenery outside; the sereneness outside mocking the crappiness she felt under her frozen exterior. After many tears were shed, yesterday afternoon, Jade finally had to admit to herself that there was part of her that was scared of what people would say and do when they found out about Tori's body; and she hated herself for how insecure she felt right now.
'"I love you", you said. I do love her…I love her so much. Yeah too bad it's not when it matters.' thought the goth.
Jade held in a sob and lay back on her bed huffing into her hands and wiping her once again watering eyes.
*Door Bell*
"Shit." said the dark haired girl, knowing exactly who it was and not wanting them to see her like this.
She got up from her bed and cleaned herself up in her bathroom mirror before she made her way downstairs, pausing at the door before she opened it; and for a second all of her worries went away, as she met with caring brown eyes.
"Hey." "Hey." said both girls before Tori took hold of Jade and pulled her in for a kiss.
When they pulled apart, that's when Tori noticed how Jade's eyes looked puffy and irritated.
"Have you been crying?" asked the concerned teen, as Jade shut the front door.
"What? Hey did Cat send you that video of the rapping squirrel?" said Jade, brushing off the question as moved passed the other girl and walked to the kitchen.
"Jade…" said Tori, as she followed the raven haired girl.
Jade grabbed a drink out of the fridge, "Have you tried one of these?" She said handing it Tori.
"Ok, what is up with you?" said the tan skinned girl taking the bottle from the other girl and sitting it on the kitchen island before closing the refrigerator and turning Jade to face her.
"Nothing." said Jade unconvincingly.
"Jade, I know you. You were acting weird after school yesterday…and I think I know why…" trailed off Tori as she looked down at the kitchen floor. "Mikayla came over to my house yesterday."
"What?" exclaimed Jade, a familiar fire flashed in her eyes if only for a second.
"We just talked. She wanted to apologize in person; she thought you told me about what she told you at school. I wondered why you hadn't and then it clicked: why you were acting so off…what Mikayla said got to you...if…" sniffs, "…if you don't…" *clears her throat*
"Tori…" Jade tries to interrupt, taking hold of the tan girl's open plaid shirt; shaking her head, feeling her eyes starting to water once more.
Tori blinks back her own tears and forces herself to continue, "…if you don't want to be with me…"
"No Tori, I love you." said Jade, pulling Tori in for a kiss; that both girl's desperately tried to make feel normal.
Tori broke the kiss, "but…" She said breathy.
"There is no but!" said Jade in a frustrated manner.
"Yes, there is! I can see it in your face, I hear it in your voice, I feel it in your touch…What Mikayla told you freaked you out because it finally got you to think about what it would really be like to be with me, beyond our little bubble of our friends and family. Hell I think I'm a freak why would I ask you to look at me any differently? !" said Tori sarcastically, letting out a humorless laugh and running her hand through her hair.
"I do not think you're freak!" said Jade with conviction.
"Yeah, just whole the world." said Tori, turning a cold gaze on the other girl; the look in her usually warm brown eyes scared her dark haired companion. "I'm gonna go." She said softly.
"Tori, what are you thinking? You're not the only one who sees things. Just stop and we'll talk about this…" said Jade, trying to get the sweet/loving girlfriend she knew to come back; fearing her weakness may have caused irreversible damage.
"No." said Tori determinedly before giving Jade a quick kiss on the cheek and then turning to walk away.
"Tori, wait!" said Jade, gripping the half-Latina's shirt once more.
Tori just removed her hands and quickly walked out of the house, with Jade on her heals; she got in her car and drove off.
"Tori!"
The teen didn't even know how she got home as quickly she did; her chest was heaving up and down from the onslaught of emotions warring within her. No sooner had her fist connected with steering wheel out of anger; tears followed soon after but were quickly wiped away before she made her way into her house.
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3 Days Later…
It was Tuesday night and Tori was deep into research, with a couple of pamphlets next to her, while she sat cross-legged on her bed, typing away on the laptop in her lap. She was so into what she was doing that she had not seen her parents appear in her doorway.
"Knock, knock." said David Vega as he knocked on his daughter's doorframe. "Hey squirt, we're about to head out."
"K." said the teen, not even looking up from her computer screen.
"Well somebody is in the zone." said Holly Vega in a teasing manner.
"Looks like it. Ok, I guess me and your mom are off to the strip club now." said David, trying to get a rise out of the teen; only to be ignored.
The two adults just shook their heads and just as they were about to leave, David stepped on a pamphlet Tori had accidently dropped near her door. He picked it up and once he read the title 'Genital Reconstructive Surgery' he sighed and passed it to his wife. Once Holly read it, her eyes immediately became concerned as she turned toward her daughter.
"Tori, baby…" said Holly, moving to sit on Tori's bed in front of her; David joining her, sitting on the other side. "Tori…"
"You guys have fun." said the teen, not looking up.
"Tori talk us baby…Tori." said Holly, pushing down on the laptop screen.
"Mom stop, I have to do this!" said Tori, pushing it up again.
"Alright enough." said David, taking the young teen's laptop and putting it on a nearby table.
"Dad!" said an exasperated Tori.
"Baby, talk to us." said David softly.
Tori removed her glasses and wiped her eyes, and brought her knees to her chest.
"I can't lose her." said Tori softly, staring down at her bed comforter.
"Lose who sweetie?" asked Holly, placing a hand on Tori left forearm and rubbing it with her thumb.
Tori looked at her mom, with eyes that broke the older woman's heart.
"Jade." answered the teen.
Tori went through everything that had happened recently and how she was scared of her past with Mikayla repeating itself.
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Moments later…
After hearing (and Holly knowing some of) all that has gone on recently with their daughter it just drove home what they already knew, but as parents tend to forget, that their little girl was not so little anymore. They loved both their daughters more anything, but they knew Tori would have it harder and that one day she would have a decision to make when she got older; teenage years were hard enough without having to deal with major body issues. They were going to support her no matter what her decision was, but they did not want her making such a big decision on an impulse.
"Tori baby…We are so sorry for what happened between you and Mikayla, but it seems like you guys were able to work it out in the end." said Holly, who had now moved to sit next to Tori and had wrapped a comforting arm around her.
"Yeah, after she basically told me the reason she freaked out so much was because I had a dick…"
"Tori…"
"No, it's true! It's just too much. And Jade…Jade is different. I can't have her seeing me as freak too…I love her so much…If getting rid of this fucking thing is the only thing standing between us being together then so be it." said Tori determinedly.
"Whoa, whoa slowed down mija. If Jade is as different as you say, then you shouldn't have to change for her." said David.
"I don't want her to have to take shit for being with me…I don't want her to leave me." trailed off Tori becoming emotional once more.
"Tori, look at me." said Holly seriously, waiting until her daughter turned to face her before continuing. "You are so beautiful, inside and out…You hear me?" She asked, receiving weak nod in return.
"That was weak." teased David, lightly swatting his daughter's leg and smiling at the glare he got from the teen.
"I said did you hear me?" Holly asked again more forcefully.
"Yes." answered Tori.
"Good, 'cause we can't have our almost seventeen year old going all cray cray. Is that how you guys say it?" asked Holly.
"Oh God. If I say I feel better, will you never say that again?" asked Tori, beginning to smile.
"Please say you feel better." said David jokingly, now receiving a playful glare from his wife.
Lightly laughs, "I do…I just need some time alone to think." said Tori.
"Ok…Just remember whatever you decide, me and your dad will be right here with you." said Holly.
"Right here." added David, placing a loving hand on Tori's shin.
"And talk to Jade…If she's as wonderful and different as you've been telling me then I know you two can work it out." said Holly.
"Ok." said Tori, still unsure; but just wanting to drop the subject for now.
"Ok. Goodnight baby, love you so much." said Holly, giving her daughter a warm hug and kiss on her temple before getting up from the bed.
"Love ya kiddo." said David, also placing a kiss on the top of his daughter's head before standing up as well.
"We'll be right downstairs, if you need us." said Holly comfortingly.
"I thought you guys were heading out?" asked Tori.
Both of her parents shook their heads, "Nah, I'm thinkin' it's more of a movie night. What about you babe?"
"Sounds good to me, PJ's here I come. Would you like to join us old folks in a film?" Holly asked Tori, hoping to get the teen out of her room.
"Nah, I'll pass." said Tori, using a little effort to smile.
"Ok, sweetie. Goodnight."
"Nite."
Once her parents left, she did feel a little better after their impromptu parenting therapy session; still unsure about what she was going to do, but it did ease her tunnel vision somewhat. She picked up one of the pamphlets around her; she huffed and threw it back on her bed before picking up her pearphone and swiping the screen. She had forgotten that she had been going through some pictures and when she swiped the lock screen, a picture of her and Jade greeted her. It was a picture Andre had taken while the two were not looking; they had been cuddled up on a prop couch during a rehearsal break. Jade had been sitting in Tori's lap and had been facing her as they smiled at each other.
"I just wanna be with you."
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West Residence…
Jade West went from typing up a new script on her laptop, to staring at a picture that she had saved as the desktop background on it; it was the same rehearsal picture a certain tan skinned girl in another part of town had been looking at. The dark haired girl just smiled and traced the outline of her girlfriend's face; the doorbell breaking her out of her happy thoughts. The teen sighed and then went downstairs to answer it, only to be greeted by a fluffy haired Canadian.
"Hey." said Beck, with a small wave.
"Heeey." said Jade, with a questioning inflection in her voice.
"May I come in?" asked Beck, with his hands in his pockets.
"Yeah, sure." replied Jade, stepping aside to let the tan boy in. "What's up?" She asked, once he was inside.
He shrugged, "Does there have to be a reason I stopped by?" asked Beck 'innocently', as he followed Jade into the kitchen.
The dark haired girl gave him a look as she pulled out some flavored waters from the fridge.
"Beck, we're not exactly the kind of people to do things without reason and you haven't really been around this past week." said Jade handing him one of the waters. "So let's try this again, what's going on?" She asked, before taking a drink of her own water and leaning back on the counter opposite her ex-boyfriend/best friend?.
The tan skinned boy smirked; he had missed the raven haired girl's bluntness.
Sighs and puts his water on the kitchen island behind him, "I'm sorry…I know I've been distant; it's just…I really do think you and Tori look great together…" said Beck.
"But?" interrupted Jade, with her arms crossed.
"…I see the way you are with her and I wished we could have been that way."
"Beck mph…"
Jade was cut off from uninvited lips being pressed up against her own. Now the goth would admit that Beck was actually a pretty good kisser. Ever since they broke up the way they did there was always this little voice in the back of her head that said she would never move on from him, and she did feel her body responding to the stimulus only it was the thought of another's hands cradling her face and another's lips pressed against hers. When the kiss was broken, the deep feeling of disappointment that filled her heart because it was Beck's brown eyes that greeted hers instead of a certain tan skinned girl's made her want to cry and burst of laughing from pure joy all at the same time. At one point, the teen would say she felt something for the Canadian; but the longer they were together her feelings never reached passed an extreme fondness for the tan skinned boy. That's why she freaked out when Tori showed up and began breaking down her Beck comfort zone, and now for the first time ever she truly and fully felt disappointed at the brown eyes that stared back at her because the ones her eyes desired to see were not there. All of this new found clarity made her feel so good, but her mind soon came down from the clouds long enough to give a certain tan skinned boy a well-deserved punch to the face.
"Ah!...Ow ow. Ok…bad decision, I know…Sorry…Please don't stab me with a butcher knife." said Beck, holding his now bleeding nose.
Jade couldn't hold it in anymore, as suddenly burst into much needed laughter; scaring the tan skinned boy in front of her even more.
"Ohhh, that felt so good!" exclaimed Jade excitedly. "Oh not the kiss, not bad, but still not that; oh and maybe the punch a little bit."
"A little bit." mumbled Beck, while he tilted his head back.
"Yeah. Thanks buddy." said Jade, patting him hard on the shoulder; unintentionally making his left hand disturb his nose.
"Ow."
"Oh God, here before you bleed all over my kitchen." said Jade handing him a wad of paper towels.
"I kiss you without your permission, you break my nose, and then you thank me?...I guess that's better than getting shanked with scissors."
"I'd take it if I were you, or would you like a busted lip with your crooked nose?" asked the dark haired girl 'sweetly'.
"No, I'm good." answered Beck quickly. "Ah, I think it's gushing." He said, checking the paper towel.
Jade rolls her eyes, "Come on, you baby." She says, pushing Beck out of the kitchen.
After a trip to the hospital, the two teens, and Beck's newly realigned nose, ended up in Jade's backyard; lying back on patio furniture and talking about what the hell just happened. Beck apologized for his actions for the ten thousandth time. After all was said and done, come to find out, Beck was just as scared of losing his relationship crutch as much as Jade had been. They had been partners for so long that seeing Jade finally move on from him, left him feeling alone. He knew that what they shared would always be held dearly in their hearts, but they both knew that they were not meant for forever.
"You're one of the best friends I've ever had Beck." said the dark haired girl, taking a break from stargazing to turn and face the boy next to her.
"You too Jade." said Beck, also turning on his lounge chair to face the pale skinned girl. "And not that I don't appreciate the sentiment, after the ass I made of myself earlier, but how come you haven't mentioned Tori tonight or more importantly; what's been up with you two these past couple days?" He got no response, "You're right, like I have the right to ask. I love Tori too…and I kissed her girlfriend behind her back…Oh God, she's gonna kick me somewhere important." He sat up with a grimace as he put a hand over his package.
Jade couldn't help but laugh at the usually cool/calm teenager, "No, no. I think she'll spare you…for reasons." When Beck raised his eyebrows, in question of those reasons, Jade simply didn't acknowledge his curiosity and continued. "Besides she'd probably be more pissed at me."
Jade knew what and who she wanted, but she couldn't help but feel a little fearful once more; not at what would happen if she chose Tori, but would Tori be willing to be with her.
The dark haired girl sat up and turned her body so that her feet touched the ground, "I wish I could talk to you Beck or anyone for that matter about what is going on in my head." She said softly.
"Why can't you?" asked Beck, copying her movements and turning toward the other teen.
"It's complicated." said Jade, staring at the ground.
Beck looked thoughtful for a second, before he nodded and said, "Would the complicated issue have to do with something being a little…different about Tori?"
From how quickly Jade's neck snapped up and the shocked look she was giving him, he could tell his suspicions were right.
"Beck…"
"I don't know anything concrete, just random observations…All I'm going to say is that…if you are willing, I would love to be Uncle Beck to the beautiful…psychotic babies you guys make one day." He finished with a smirk.
Jade really did love the boy sitting in front of her, his kind words triggering a flood of tears once more. The pale skinned girl quickly moved from her own lounge chair, coming to sit next to Beck, to be able to give him a crushing hug.
"You bastard…I was finally not crying and you had to ruin it." said Jade good-naturedly, as she embraced him; Beck just smirked before they parted and sat facing each other.
"Yeah well, you're lucky you found Tori. I can see how happy she makes you. Your eyes light up when you talk about her, in a way I've never seen before…" Jade felt her heart pain at the sadden expression Beck had for a second before he continued, "Which is exactly the reason why you should be talking to her instead of me, and with that I say goodnight to you my fair lady. I believe I'm going to retire…and ice my face." He said, as he got up from the lounge chair; offering her a hand.
His words made Jade laugh, but also feel sad for her once bf. She knew that feeling of utter loneliness all too well, but ever since she opened her heart to Tori; that feeling has been nothing but a memory, and she wanted it to stay that way. Jade took Beck's offered hand and walked him too his car.
"It will happen you know." said Jade, after Beck got in his mustang.
"What?" He asked confusedly.
"You will find the one who takes your loneliness away." She said softly.
Beck simply grinned and said; "Well if Jade West says it than it shall be." he started up his car.
"You know it." added Jade with a smile.
"Later." said Beck with a casual salute.
"Later." replied Jade, watching him pull off; before she ran back inside, to think of a way to get back the girl her heart belonged to.
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A.N. Well...that was a lot of emotions. Time for a quick breather before I hit you guys with the next wave. Let's just all take a calming breath. See ya next chap. :D Thanks for reading and reviewing! :D