A/n: I am so sorry for the long wait, you guys. I just got into my new junior college and I'm just starting to get used to college life and stuff. It's such a huge leap from secondary school and I am so exhausted. Soooo sorry!

Once again, thanks to my amazing reviewers, xDanniBTR, BigTimeFan13, Btrlover98, surfergal23, dreamalittlebigger (love your DP, btw!), Zyrillose, MudMaster94, racingrebel17, Luvlee45215 and brgtzn1029! Hope you guys will be sticking by me and the future chapters despite my inability to update regularly.

P.S. This chapter contains a few swearing words so beware, i guess.

P.P.S Anyone seen the lated 'Oh Yeah' music video? I almost fainted. BTR = Utter Gorgeousness!

There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness.
~ Josh Billings

Kendall watched his sister laugh with his friends and couldn't help but frown when he realized that she was forcing her smiles. Ever since Kyle had left earlier that day, Katie had either been too quiet or too inattentive. She was feeling guilty for whatever she had said to her father, and Kendall hated that Kyle could still make a member of his family feel that way. Kyle had no right making Katie feel that way. He obviously didn't care, so why did Katie?

"Kendall?"

The blonde singer looked at his sister. "Yeah?"

"You guys are going to have to leave soon. It's almost nine."

Damn those hospital rules and visiting hours. How exactly was he supposed to watch over his sister and make sure that she was okay if they didn't allow him to be with her?

As if he was reading Kendall's mind, Logan said, "Dude, we'll be back tomorrow to finally get Katie home. Let's not give the nurses any more headaches, okay?"

Kendra snorted at this and the boys smirked while Katie rolled her eyes. Ever since Katie had been admitted, the boys and Kendra had really caused havoc among the nurses. Kendra had almost strangled one when Katie had gone missing on the first day she had been admitted, another had been so annoyed by the boys' requests of getting Katie things that she had asked for the rest of the week off and Katie's personal nurse had been hit on the head by a bottle cap when Katie and her brothers had decided to play hockey in her room. Katie had thought it was hilarious, even if the nurses that came into her room either glared at her or her brothers.

Big Time Rush - Thirteen

Katie felt her hands shaking as she got her diary from under her pillow. She smiled as she remembered the way she had caught her brothers reading her diary. Whoever had taken it had left the diary facing up - a way Katie had never left it.

Dear Ariel,

I still don't know why I'm writing to you when I know my brothers are going to read you sooner or later, be it whether I'm still alive or already dead. Strangely, though, I don't really care. Dad was right. I really do need a place to let out all things I just can't let go.

Dad left again today for Cheryl. I told him to leave and not come back and I'm feeling really guilty now. I mean, what if he really doesn't come back? What if Kendall was right? Do I really mean that little to him? I know the answer to that. No, I don't. I mean the world to my father. Yeah, it hasn't been evident these past few years but my dad still does loves the three of us as much, or probably even more, as he did before he left Mom, before Cheryl.

I don't have anything against Cheryl. Really, I don't. I mean, she didn't even know about Dad until her mother died. I had eight amazing years with a happy family while she spent her twelve years dodging an abusive and evil mother who didn't really give a damn about her. I remember pitying her before Kendall had told me that she was the reason that Dad had left us. Honestly though, she is probably the most spoiled person I have ever met. I've had a few... interesting conversations with her over the phone every time I wanted to talk to Dad. She's insecure, I guess.

Kendall's still angry at Dad after all these years. And I guess if I were in his shoes, I would be too. He was forced to grow up at age fourteen. He'd assigned himself as the man of the house, promised that he'd protect me and mom no matter what and got a job (even if Mom had told him it wouldn't be necessary). He'd been teased at when we were still in Minnesota (kids could be really mean) and he was the one who had stayed up, trying to be strong as Mom cried every night. He never cried in front of me or Mom, but I know (an am quietly relieved) that he loses control in front of Carlos, Logan and James. I've seen him breaking down before, even if he doesn't know that I know.

Mom's no longer angry but she's still hurt. She'd loved Dad and finding out that he had cheated on her without ever meaning to admit it had broke her. I remember her being depressed for a long while. I think that if she hadn't had me and Kendall (and the other guys), she would have slipped further into depression. But my mother is not a selfish woman. Ever since Kendall was born, he had been the top priority in her life. And after she had me, I guess I shared the same spot as Kendall. So she picked herself up. Not for herself, but for us. Because if she fell apart, we would have nobody else to depend on. And it is for that that my mother would always be my number one hero.

My mother and brothers often wonder how I could still be willing to keep in contact with Dad. I guess I just have a hard time letting go. Trust me, I have tried being angry. And there have been times when I actually thought that I hated my father (like the time Kendall had explained to me the reason my father had left us.). But then I'd think back to the time he had taught me how to ride a bike. He'd taught me my first prank, brought me to my first movie and had calmed my mother down when I got into my first fight when I was seven (in my defense, Dana Hamilton had called me a devil). So maybe he'd always be the man who left my mother, brother and me but he'll also always be the man my brother had looked up to, the man I had looked up to and will always love as my father.

So, you know what? Screw the 10 things list. The only thing I want is for my family to spend one meal together without bickering, without Kendall glaring at my father or clenching his fist, and without any feelings of hatred and animosity that have build up over the years. I want my family to forgive each other, know that they love each other and stick by each other even after I'm gone. It won't be easy, but it's not going to be impossible. I am, after all, Katie Knight.

Getting her family together,
Katie Knight

P.S. I am going need help though.

Big Time Rush - Thirteen

Katie was practically bouncing as her mother and brother settled some administration stuff at the counter, a large smile plastered on her face that wouldn't leave no matter how hard she tried to put it down. She was just so happy to finally be released from the hospital. No more tubes, no more grumpy nurses and no more troubling the people she loved to visit her.

The downside to going home would be not being able to see Blake and Sel as often as she'd liked but she had promised them that she would visit whenever she could, which would be often. Katie had hugged Sel and had slipped a list of pranks the little girl would be able to play into her hands. Blake had jokingly said that he would have to be aware of his little sister now. Katie and Sel had just smirked, knowing that they were the only ones who knew the truth behind his statement.

"Alright, darling. You ready to head home?"

Kendall laughed affectionately when his sister gave their mother a pointed look.

"Katie!"

Katie turned around, her heart racing as Blake raced towards her, ignoring the dirty looks the nurses and patients were giving him. He stopped in front of her and held out a small, palm-sized kitten key chain.

"From me and Sel," he panted and Katie could only accept it quietly, touched by the gesture. She smiled softly at him and he grinned back. "So, umm, I'll see you around then. You'll visit, right?"

"Everyday," she promised.

"Great," he quickly kissed her cheek and waved goodbye before rushing off as fast as he could.

Katie just stood there, her hand on the cheek he had kissed, too shocked to do anything else while Kendall started muttering under his breath about hormonal teenage boys as her mother just aww-ed.

"Who is that boy?"

Kendra and Kendall spun around. The mother of two plus three's eyes widened, shock now clouding her own face as anger almost immediately clouded Kendall's.

"Kyle?"

Big Time Rush - Thirteen

Cheryl was furious. She'd awoke to an empty hotel room with only a note from her father saying that he had gone to fetch Katie from the hospital. Frustration pulsed through her skinny body and her hands shook as she crumpled the note in her hands. Unwanted tears gathered in her eyes and the next thing she knew, her clenched fists were bleeding as she punched them into the wall for the second time. He'd left her again. For that bitch who was faking her cancer.

Katie would pay for doing this to her. She'd had Kyle for eight years. She'd been loved and cared for since she was born while Cheryl had to clean up after her drunk, abusive mother. Katie had never gone to bed hungry. Cheryl had gone to without an empty stomach only when she was lucky. She'd suffered more that Katie. She deserved more than Katie. So why was it that she was being treated like crap again?

"You ungrateful, ugly, little bitch. It's no wonder your bastard father left me. He knew what a fucking burden you'd be to me."

Her mother's words still played, loud and clear, in her head even after all these years. Starla Ebony had died from drug overdose five years ago, but her filthy mouth somehow still lived on.

Big Time Rush - Thirteen

"Why are you doing this?"

Kendall crossed his arms across his chest as Kyle loaded Katie's things into the car boot.

"Excuse me? Doing what exactly?"

Kendall glared at the man he had once looked up to. "Why are you raising Katie's hopes up when you're just going to bring her down in the end?"

"Kendall, I'm not -"

"If Katie wasn't sick, you wouldn't even be here right now," the younger Knight stated, and smugly raised his eyebrows at Kyle when the older man seemed to realise the truth to his statement. "When she gets better, you're just going to leave and the only proof we'll have of you being alive is through the monthly, or maybe even yearly, phone calls that you and Katie would have. So stop it. Stop coming by, stop acting like you care. Stop trying to be the father you failed to be."

Kendall made to get into the car but Kyle stopped him by grabbing him roughly by the shoulders.

"I'm not trying to bring Katie down. I can promise you that," Kyle gritted. Kendall shrugged him off and raised his chin in defiance.

"And I'm not eight anymore, Kyle. Your promises mean shit to me."

Big Time Rush - Thirteen

Katie had never been more relieved when she reached Palm Woods. The car ride from the hospital had been too tensed. Her mother had been quiet while she and her father spoke to each other about nothing and everything. Kendall had joined in, only when he saw an opportunity to take not-so-subtle jabs at Kyle. Kendra would then reprimand him, Katie would glare, Kendall would just shrugged and then Kyle would continue talking to her as though their conversation had not been interrupted.

The moment she had entered the Palm Woods lobby, however, she had not expected to be picked up and hugged by the giant hotel manager. Bitters had muttered something about Palm Woods losers keeping him busy while Katie had been concerned about breathing. She had never been more thankful when Jo had squealed her name and Bitters had had no choice but to let go.

"She must be Jo," Kyle said and Kendra turned to him, surprised and waiting for an explanation. He rolled his eyes. "Katie told me about her in her first Palm Woods e-mail."

He remembered. Kendra couldn't help but feel touched that he remembered. Slowly, some of her previous tension melted away and she gave him a small, almost invisible ghost of a smile. It did not matter though. Kyle saw it and his own spirits rose a little.

"Where are the guys?" Kendall asked Jo, completely ignoring his father.

"In your apartment," she glanced curiously at Kyle and grinned apologetically when Kendall grabbed her and Katie and headed towards the elevator.

"Mom, you coming?"

"Give me a minute. I need to talk to your father."

Katie's heart soared. Were things finally going to be okay?

"Sad excuse of a father," Kendall muttered as the lift doors closed, less than thrilled.

"Kendall!"

Big Time Rush - Thirteen

"So why weren't the guys at the hospital again?"

"Gustavo needed them."

"Kendall, you can't possibly be mad even after what he's done?"

Kendall threw the keys onto the coffee table and glared at his sister. He didn't need to ask to know who she was referring to. Jo kissed her boyfriend on the cheek and told them she'd be back in a while, wanting to give them some privacy.

"You're expecting me to put behind every thing he's done just because he decided to fetch us?"

"Well, at least someone's putting in effort to be forgiven," Katie snarled.

"Well, if he wants forgiveness, he's going to have do more than that!"

"You're being childish!" Katie yelled. "Why can't you just let go of the damn past? Dad's trying his best to be here for me! Stop pushing him away!"

"If he's really genuine about being here for you, he won't leave! And I'm sorry if I can't let go of the past, okay? He wasn't there for you when kids teased you about having a cheating, abandoning father. He answered your calls one out of every four times you called him. He chose his bastard daughter over the three of us! So don't you dare tell me to FORGIVE HIM BECAUSE EVEN IF I COULD, I WON'T! I REFUSE TO."

"Dude, if you don't stop yelling at your sister, you will have no one to play hockey with for the next three weeks."

Katie smiled at Logan through her tears as he, James and Carlos walked through the door. Kendall huffed and stormed past them straight out of the apartment. Tears moistened Katie's eyes and she leaned into Carlos' embrace when he put his arms around her.

"What's wrong with him?"

Big Time Rush - Thirteen

"Thank you."

That was the last thing Kyle had expected to hear from her mouth.

"Excuse me?"

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