CH. 10
Waking up was pleasant, blissful, it was just plain heavenly. I knew that those sensations could only be the workings of one person, Draco Malfoy. I turned around and there he was in my bed, sleeping as peaceful as anyone could. I knew that it was wrong to stare, but I just couldn't help myself. Turning slowly in his arms so he wouldn't wake; I gazed at him, I suddenly had to hold my breath because he was truly breath taking. I couldn't resist the temptation and slowly brought my hand up to his face and traced his jaw; it was so sharp, and it had the slight feelings of morning stubble on it.
I didn't stop at his face I touched his smooth elegant neck, I wanted to touch more so I kept on going and I found that he was not wearing a shirt. His chest looked as if Merlin had carved it himself, he just looked like perfection. Hastily I touched his smooth pecks, and then lightly moved over his nipple. Apparently it wasn't light enough because Malfoy shifted; putting his body directly up against mine. When he settled down more I noticed that there was now a weight on my thigh, I had an idea what it was, but in my mind he could never possibly see me that way. I figured I would get my answer when he woke up, but until then I kept on exploring the parts of his body that I could reach. I moved down to his abs and they were rock hard, he was very defined. My hands move to his sides drawing circles as light as I could with the tips of my nails.
"That tickles", hearing him say that made my eyes quickly snap up to his eyes, and my hands to stop all movement.
I could see that he still had his eyes closed so I wondered if he was just dreaming. Seconds later he pulled me closer saying, "I said it tickled not that I wanted you to stop."
I just stared at his closed eyes with shock for two reasons. One because I had been caught groping him. Two because I had gotten the answer to my first question I knew exactly what it was that was on my thigh.
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
I felt Hermione touching my body, I knew that I should have said something the first moment I had awakened to the feeling of her hands on my face, but I wanted to see where she would go with it so I said nothing and kept my eyes closed. The touch of her hands felt so great against my skin I never wanted them to leave. When she got to my side that's the first time I felt the need to speak up because that was my tickle spot. I waited for awhile for her to continue what she was doing at first but I think the fact that I said something and that she has been caught, stopped her from moving forward. I moved so we could be both directly on our sides, facing each other; I pulled her in closer and told her what I wanted her to do. I was silent for a few more minutes when I knew she wasn't going to do anymore I opened my eyes so I could see her and discover why she stopped.
Looking at her, I knew she was my angel. I had never been this close to her face before, and I was going to enjoy every moment of it. She was simply gorgeous. Her deep chocolate eyes made me want to stare at them forever. I moved down to her nose and saw that she had a sprinkling of freckles running across her nose; I found that feature to be adorable. I looked at her lips and they were pouty and they were the right size not to big not to small. I wanted to lean in so badly and touch my lips to hers, but I knew I had to hold myself back.
I looked back up to her eyes and asked, "why did you stop".
She wouldn't say anything all she did was stare at me, maybe if I tried different wording, "honestly, I mean it felt good, you can keep going if you want." All she did was shake her head "no" and she moved her eyes, it looked as if she was looking at my chest. I cupped her chin and lifted it up so that I could look at her eyes again. "You can tell me, I feel that you want to say something so just say it Hermione."
She looked down briefly again then looked back up to my eyes and said, "you have a problem"
"What do you mean I have a problem?" She looked down between us again, so I looked along with her. I had been so caught up in wanting her to continue her tour of my body, looking at her, and trying to get her to talk that I hadn't noticed my morning wood. And because of the position I had us in she could feel everything. What made the situation worse was the fact that I was only in boxers. No wonder she was so freaked out she probably thinks I'm trying to have sex or something with her.
I quickly separated myself from her sitting up in her bed and pulling the covers tight against my chest. I looked at her with wide eyes, "its not what it looks like, this happens every morning to every guy, I cant help it. I promise I wasn't trying to do anything to you, I just got caught up in the whole fact that you were touching me and the morning wood slipped my mind"
"Ok"
"You believe me", when I saw her nodding her head I let go of a breath that I didn't know I was holding in.
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
Malfoy was staring at me and no force within me would let me look away. I just fell into his mystical eyes as his eyes wondered over my face. I could feel the deep concentration that he was putting into the act of looking at me.
I was so embarrassed at the fact that he a part of his anatomy was touching me and he didn't even feel it or he didn't want to feel it. When he asked me what was wrong I couldn't look him in the eyes, I knew if I did he would see the truth in my eyes. When he lifted my chin so that my eyes would be looking at his the words that came out his beautiful sculpted mouth left me breathless; I didn't know that such kindness could come out him, it was so relaxing.
When I did tell him he was so surprised that I knew that he had no clue. He scooted so far from me on the bed at an instant I wanted him to come back to me and to hold me like he was doing before. But it seems that our moment was up with us being disconnected, and I needed time to process everything.
"I think that you should leave"
"Are you mad at me, you said you believed me. I really have no control over it", he rambled.
"I do believe I just need to get ready for classes and I cant do that with you in here with me", I said softly looking at my bedding.
"Oh, well I guess I will be going", he said rising out of my bed and heading for the door that lead to the bathroom from my room.
When I heard the door close behind him, I ran my hands through my hair rough; the whole situation with him was so confusing, frustrating, enjoyable, and right. All the feelings I got when I was with him, they all completed me; I have never felt like this before, but I know that this is how I am suppose to feel. I just don't know if I can allow my self to give into it, it is Malfoy I'm talking about.
More and more thoughts were running through my head, they all stopped when I heard the shower running. A part of me wanted to be with him, but I just don't know if I can trust him or even myself.
I quickly got out of bed and found clothes that I deemed suitable to wear for classes today. Today was going to be a busy day; I had to go up to all her teachers and apologize for her absence and get all the work that I would need to keep herself ahead. Hearing his door open then closed brought me into action straight toward the bathroom so I could prepare for the long day ahead.
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
I went back into my room; all I could think about was the moments spent in bed with Hermione. It ended abruptly because I forgot my dick likes to say hello every morning, but that didn't stop me from seeing how special my time with Hermione was. I went into my closet and found clothes to wear for today. I then headed for the shower so I could take care of my problem.
As soon as I finished in the shower I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around my waist. I walked to the sink and wiped the mist off of the mirror and looked at my reflection. Looking I can see that my reflection has changed it use to be sad and dark and a snarl would be found on his face every time he looked. Now I see a man who is happy and one who is full of light. Its no surprise where it comes from, it's the love I feel for Hermione. Finished looking at myself I go back to my room to get dressed.
As I am dressing I can clearly hear Hermione in the shower, my thoughts float to wanting to be in there with her. But I know that we are far from the point to where we can do that together, but it doesn't stop my mind from wanting to be in that position with her.
I'm drawn from my thoughts when I hear her door close. I gather my things together so that I can get some breakfast. When everything is packed and ready I head down the stairs; when I was just about to head toward the portrait to leave I hear her door open. I turn to look her and just looking at her now it makes me want to hold her kiss her, I just love being in her presence.
"Hi", I said to her.
"Hi'
Um, I just wanted to say thank you for….last night"
"Oh well, yea its no problem"
"Yea well I still appreciate it"
"Yea, ok I have to go I don't want to miss breakfast"
"Yea ok, I'll walk you down there"
"No, thanks. I really don't want any drama and a person seeing you walk me to breakfast is going to be drama and trouble for me."
"I will just walk you until we get down the stairs then I will let you walk ahead of me so that you show up earlier than me."
"Malfoy really you don't need to do that."
"I want to, so lets go", he said walking toward the portrait.
As I'm walking side by side with Hermione I cant help but think about doing this with her in the future. But in the future I see her not being scared to walk with me, we would be hand in hand; in love. As promised when we got off the stairs I stopped so that she could go ahead of me.
I waited five minutes after she went in before I entered the Great Hall. As I walked in I tried not to look over to where she was sitting but I just wasn't strong enough and I gave in and I looked over to her. Luckily for me she also looked up at that time our eyes connected. It felt like I stayed in that one spot looking at but it was only a minute, she looked away from me, and just like that I was out of the trance that she could so easily put me in. When I got to my seat at the Slytherin table, Blaise just looked at me shaking his head.
"What. Why are you looking at me? Do you see something that you like?"
"Actually no, and what did I tell you about staring at her, one day someone is going to see you doing it and then they will see that you like her."
"How many times do I have to tell you don't care that they know that I like her."
"And how many times do I have to tell YOU that she will care that people know that you like her. You need to try harder on that whole don't look at her; I mean your face is a dead give away."
"Shut the hell up, because you have no idea what I am dealing with, when I try not to look at her its like I am causing physical harm to myself. I am trying as hard as I am able to, because if I wasn't trying I would be staring at her right now still in that same spot", he said in a harsh whisper.
"Alright man calm down, I'll back off. Look why don't after dinner you come down to the Slytherin common rooms, you need to get your head out of this whole mate business and have some fun with me and the boys. We can crack open the new bottles of fire whiskey that I just bought. What do you say?"
"Fine, yea I'll come"
"Good"
I let Blaise have the final word while I just grabbed different foods from each of the platters that were in a close arm distance to him and piled them on his plate. Then I tucked into my food without saying another word. I still stole glances at Hermione every now and then, but I always kept his head down so know one else would know I was stealing glances of her.
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
I couldn't believe that Draco wanted to bring up the fact that I let him sleep in my bed so willingly. Luckily all he did was say thanks, because I really did not want to talk about it because even I had no idea what made me to let him in my bed. But I knew I was lying to myself I knew exactly why I had let him in my bed, I needed that comfort that I knew could only come from him. Him sleeping in my bed was as much for him as it was to me.
When he asked me could he walk with me to the Great Hall, I wanted so badly to say yes that it scared me, but I couldn't because all I could think about is what others would say if they saw us walking side by side. When he came up with the suggestion that would get me what I so badly wanted and would not let people see us together.
As I walked with him I wanted to reach the short distance for his hand, but I didn't. When we got to the end of the stairs I thought that he would forget the promise he made to me, but sadly he didn't and as soon as I lost that contact with him I felt empty, I wanted to turn around and tell him to keep walking with me, but I didn't I kept walking like I didn't even know that he stopped walking with me and into the Great Hall. I immediately sat next to Ginny and struck up a conversation with her.
"Hey Gin"
"Hey Hermione, it looks like you are feeling better"
"Yea, I am I got a good night of sleep last night"
"Oh, that's wonderful"
As I was reaching for some food I looked up and over to the door and I saw him just staring at me. I was surprised that he actually stopped and stared, part of me wanted to look at him for ever and him to do the same to me, but I didn't want anyone to see this between us; so as much as it pained me I looked away and concentrated on getting my plate filled.
Ginny and I continued to talk and eat when the boys came walking in. It felt like I haven't talked or seen them in awhile with the fight we had, the whole finding the mate thing, and the time that I have been putting into my studies I felt like I haven't made any time with them; I think I need to quickly change that.
"Hey guys how have you guys been"
"Its been going ok, but potions is seriously kicking my ass", Harry said.
"Yea, it's the same with me, but its like all my classes are kicking my ass", Ron said.
"Well I am ahead in all my class, maybe you guys would like to come over to my room and I can help you guys, I felt like I haven't seen much of you guys .Of course you are invited too Ginny."
"Really Hermione that would be such a big help, thank you so much you don't know how much this will help", Harry said while Ron nodding his head agreeing.
"Ok well that settles it you guys will come to my room after dinner and I will help you guys."
Harry and Ron just smiled me and at that moment I felt like I was making a right move in my confused life right now. Getting things settled with my boys would make my world just a little happier.
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
I went through all of my classes they weren't particularly hard but I couldn't concentrate as much as I wanted to. It wasn't all my classes that I had trouble concentrating in; it was only the classes that I shared with Hermione. For some insane reason on my part I decided to sit behind her in every class. It was dangerous territory for me to be in those seats; from those seats I could smell her shampoo, I could smell the light perfume that she had put on. Sitting behind her made me what to touch her hair; I loved how she would push it back over her shoulders every time the got ready to write something down. I loved how she would shift in her seat every time she got ready to raise her hand to answer a question.
Going to lunch wasn't any better because I kept my head down looking at my plate with hard eyes but when I felt the urge I would look at her through my lashes. It was like with every passing moment she grew more and more beautiful. I wanted to sit with her so badly and wrap my arms around her. I could feel my Veela side wanting to come out more and more, to take over and allow me to care for and protect her how I wanted to. And I was tempted to let it; it was getting harder to stay away from her while everyone else got to be close to her.
I was sort of looking forward to hanging out in the Slytherin common room. I could get a few drinks into me and relax, the only bad part about it was I wouldn't be with Hermione and it would be that much longer until I could just be close to her in our space. I knew I needed this time away from her to just get my head clear and I knew that alcohol and
Slytherins would do the job well.
When I got to dinner I saw Blaise and he had a smile on his face. "What's with the smile?"
"I was just thinking about a plan to get Ginny and it is so brilliant that I cant help put to smile."
"Really is that all you think about when you are alone"
"Yes because I plan to do this well, so do you want to hear my plan or not."
"I guess, lets hear it."
"Ok well I think it will work in your favor as well, you know how you are always complaining that Ginny is always over and she always stays extra late." I nodded my head and he continued. "Ok well one day when she is over there I will be there also and I will lay down some of my amazing Italian charm"
"And how does that work in my favor"
"I was getting to that before you rudely interrupted me. As I was saying while I am keeping Ginny company you can keep Hermione company; meaning that you can get closer to her. If my plan works right it will turn into a little sleepover between all of us."
I started to laugh and laugh hard. His plan was the dumbest thing I had ever heard and I made sure I told him that. "You know what your dumb plan may just work though. How are you going to know that Ginny is going to be over my place?"
"Well that's where you come in; you will need to owl me the next time she comes over"
"And what makes you think that I am going to help"
Smirking, "because you want to be able to hang out with Hermione like every guy gets to hang out with his girlfriend, except she isn't your girlfriend."
I had nothing else to say because I knew he was right and he knew that I knew it. So we just stayed silent and ate our dinner. When Blaise and I had our fill of dinner we got up and headed down to the dungeons. As I was leaving the Great Hall I only looked at Hermione once and it made my heart soar to see that she looked happy. We go to the dungeons quickly and when we got through the entrance Blaise told me sit while he went and got the fire whiskey. I took my regular seat that I always sat in when I use to live down here. To my surprise Blaise came out of his room with a crate full of fire whiskey.
We each took a bottle and began to drink. As we began to drink more Slytherins came in and they greeted me like I never left and they too sat down and began to drink. Someone turned some music on while others began to play games. I just sat there taking it all in. I was working on my second bottle when Pansy sat on my lap. I could feel her nasty breath on my face. Even though I was drunk I would never be drunk enough to ever want to do anything with her ever again II had my Hermione and if I wanted to keep her I knew that I need to get her off me.
"Hey Draco, baby I haven't seen you in here in awhile do you want to go upstairs for awhile, and have a little fun. I know you have been stuck in that dorm with that mud blood, let me help distress you."
When she sat on me I was angry, but when she called Hermione a mud blood I saw red. I pushed her off me quickly and she fell onto the floor. I stood over her and unleashed everything I felt onto her.
"Listen, because I am only going to tell you this once, and not again. Don't you ever come near me again; if you do trust me you will be sorry. I leaned in extremely close so that I could get my last few words out. "If you ever call Hermione a mud blood again I will rip you fucking throat out do you understand me" When I looked back into her eyes they were wide but she didn't answer me and that filled me with even more rage. "I said do you understand me!" I grabbed her up into my arms and head her above my head, shaking her. She still didn't say anything. Next thing I know Blaise is grabbing me from behind ripping her out of my arms and telling me that we are leaving. All I focused on was Pansy running away from me and up to the girl's dormitories.
As Blaise was dragging me out I could hear him saying something but I couldn't make out the words. Suddenly we stopped and he pushed me up against the wall and started shaking me so hard that my head was bumping up against the hard stone wall. Finally I snapped out of it.
"Stop shaking me you asshole"
"Well finally you snapped out of it, what the hell happened back there, you had pansy scared out of her mind I thought she was going to cry. Then you looked like you were going to throw her across the room when you held her up, I mean man you got to tell me something you went crazy back there."
I racked my hands through my head then said, "mane did you not see when she climbed into my lap; its like I was over come with anger; then she called Hermione a mud blood and I lost it the Veela side came out in me; and trust me I was pretty tame because I wanted to kill her."
"Ok man I get it, come on lets get you back into your room"
Blaise and I said nothing while he helped me to get to my room. I was happy about that I just needed a moment to be alone with my thoughts and actions I did tonight.
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
Today in class I felt like I really learned a lot. I had done a lot of early reading so all the professors' were just adding on to things I knew about. What shocked me while I was learning was that Draco sat behind me in ever class that we had together. I could feel his eyes on me the whole time. It sort of made me feel jealous because he got to look at me, but what I wanted most was to turn around and stare at him as I knew he was staring at me. But I didn't I just kept my head forward and answered questions like I normally do in class.
Instead of going to lunch I sat in the library and got some reading and studying done. I didn't have anymore classes after lunch so I just stayed in the library reading and studying. A normal day in my case. At dinner me and my friends talked with excitement. I forgot how it felt to talk to them none stop; it showed me how much I really missed them. When we go up to my room I will make sure I make a great effort to talk to them and of course help them because I know they will need it. When we all finished eating we got up and headed to my dorm. When I said the password I let the boys walk in before me since they had never been in my dorm before.
"Wow Hermione this looks great. The only thing that would make it better would be for Malfoy's crap not be in here, huh Mione", Ron said.
I wanted to hit Ron right in his face when he said that, but I held myself back, "let's not talk about him."
"Has he done something to you Mione, just tell me and I will beat that bloody git", Ron said hitting his fist for effect.
"Ron I said I don't want to talk about him, he has done nothing to me, so drop it"
"Alright fine", Ron said walking to the couch and pulling out his things.
Then Ginny walked over to me, "are you ok, you look you were going to pounce on Ron"
"I'm fine, they just can't talk about Draco, it makes me mad and I don't know what happens when I get mad. I don't want to hurt anyone."
"Alright, I'll make sure we say off the topic of him"
"Hey you know this could be your chance to get a little closer to Harry, because I know Ron will need my help more than Harry."
"Yea, I thought about that; just keep Ron busy", Ginny said laughing.
"Ok, done"
I went over to the boys on the couch and began helping them both with the potion essays. As suspected Ron needed way more help than Harry. All I had to do for Harry was give him an outline of what his essay would need to make a passing grade. Of course I would have to read over it make any corrections that I thought would make it better. But Ron I couldn't do that with him it was like he didn't retain any information that the professors gave us. He knew nothing about the subject at all. I couldn't just give him the book and tell him to read it because somehow I think he would confuse himself even more. So I basically had to baby Ron and show him how to do the essay step by step; word for word.
As I was helping Ron I could little bits of Ginny and Harry having fun and talking about things other than work; it was nice to see them happy they both deserved it. Helping Ron had its own perks its self I got to talk to him again I, I mean really talk to him he is funnier than I remember he use to be in the other grades. It was nice just having fun with him again.
When we were almost done, Draco and Blaise came stumbling in. Blaise was trying to push him up to his room, but he just stopped and looked at me with sad eyes, then they turned angry looking. Then Blaise decided say hi to me and all my friends; that was just weird I have never known a Slytherin to say hi to a couple of Gryffindors. Rona and Harry did not like the fact that he was talking to me and Ginny and they made the fact none.
"Hey you don't talk to them", Ron said standing.
"Chill Weasel, all I did was say hi to them. Don't think to hard on it you may loose more of the few brain cells you have left."
"Shut the hell up, why don't you get your drunk girlfriend up into his room, and stay away from Hermione and Ginny", Ron said. He was now standing right in front of Blaise.
Blaise just laughed then said something to Draco in a hushed tone and pushed him the rest of the way up into his room. It looked like Draco went with little resistance. A few minutes later Blaise came back down; he said bye to me and then said bye to Ginny, it looked like he winked at her, but I can't be sure.
"I don't like the way they were looking at you Hermione"
"Ron you are just overreacting they weren't looking at me any kind of way, they were drinking that's all."
"I still don't like it; maybe you should stay with us in the Gryffindor dorms tonight"
"Ron I said I'm fine, you guys can go now. I promise I will be safe."
"If you say so." He turned around and started looking at Harry and Ginny, "come on lets go". He turned back to me and said, "thanks for all your help on the essays Mione; we'll see you at breakfast."
"Yea, see you then." One by one they all came up to me and hugged me telling me bye. Ginny hugged me last whispering in my ear, "are are you ok"
"Yea I just want to go check on Draco"
"Ok we'll get out your hair, we'll talk later. Bye.
Then I was all alone. I slowly walked up the stairs, but instead of going into my room I went to Draco's door. I opened the door a little just to see if he was ok, he was laying on the bed face down; I thought he was sleep so I quietly and slowly closed his door. I went back to my room and stripped down until I was in my underwear. I then grabbed my towel and headed to the shower. The shower was very peaceful, it released all the stress I didn't know I had. I then got out the shower, then into my room to put on some pj's. When I got into bed, I couldn't help but wonder was Draco going to come into my room like he does every night. I waited in my bed awake for what felt like an hour, I finally decided that I couldn't deal with I anymore I got up and went through the bathroom and into his room. He was still on his stomach laying face down.
I think I stood there for a lifetime I was just about to turn around and go back to my room when I saw his hand reach out for me. He was inviting me in and I couldn't be happier.
0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0-0
As Blaise was pushing me to the destination that was my room, all I could think about was that I couldn't wait to see Hermione. I just wanted to get into the bed and just relax with her in my arms like we did every night. Suddenly I can feel my head being hit. I feel like killing Blaise right now because if he lays one more hand on me, I'm going to let the Veela out and this time I want let it stop; and I let him know that's exactly how I was feeling.
"Well if you would listen to me without me having to say it more than once then I wouldn't have to hit you to get your attention", Blaise said.
"Fine, what the hell could you possibly want?"
"I want you to say your damn password so I can drop your ass off so I can go back and drink"
"Whatever", I quickly said the password and Blaise resumed pushing me. We came to a halt when we got further in the room, the whole stop was completely on me and I knew what I was doing. I was looking straight at Hermione, but she wasn't alone her friends were in our room. It made me sad that I couldn't be that close to her like Weasel was. But then I got angry because Weasel was close to her and in my opinion he was to close. Blaise kept trying to push me, but I wasn't going anywhere I just couldn't, wouldn't take my eyes off her. That's when Blaise started talking to the girls saying "hi" to them. I then heard him having a little fight with the Weasel; I just wish they would all leave so me and Hermione could be alone.
I then heard him whispering in my ear, "don't do it mate, don't but her in that position. Come on you just need to sleep it off." After that I let him push me into my room without further resistance. When he closed the door of my room he asked if I would be ok I told him I would and that I would see him tomorrow. He soon left my room and I was then left alone again. I just laid face down in my bed thinking about how I wanted to be able to spend time with Hermione like a couple did and not just in the bed just sleeping with her. I wanted more from our relationship than that. I would have to get it quickly I couldn't keep going on wondering what we were.
It was getting later and later, I always went into her room to sleep, but as badly as I wanted to get up and go to her; sleep with her. I needed to figure things out to myself I was so confused. I then heard my door opening, I didn't even move to see who it was, I already knew I could smell her. She just stood by my bed; she did nothing so I did nothing. I couldn't take it anymore to have her close to me and not be able to touch her, so I stuck my hand out; like an invitation. She grabbed my hand; I turned my head so that I was facing her I pulled her up onto the bed with me. I was still on my stomach and she cuddled up next to me. I put my head deep into her neck smelling her sweet, pure smell. She tangled her legs with mine with one of her hands wrapped around me rubbing my back in soothing slow circles and the other I held in my hand in between our bodies. We just stayed cuddled we didn't say anything; she fell asleep before me I knew it because she had stopped rubbing my back; I wished she hadn't. I could've stayed like this with her forever but I wanted more and I was going to do anything to see that she gave us a chance so that we could have more.