Title: Life as We Know It

Saturday February Second 10 am

Song: Missing You/ I Will Be There

Artist: Fallout Boy/ Britney Spears

P O V Peyton

"I will sing to you everyday

If it will take away your pain"

I like to think of my life as a soundtrack everyday is a new song that I get to write. Holding Brooke's hand as Dr. Scott talked to us. I sung softly in her ear her head turned towards me, eyes filled with confusion fear. I had to keep swallowing against my own fear seeing her unable to talk hooked to a tube going down her throat filled me with sickness. I couldn't let her see it though I had to be strong for her.

"We need to do some more tests Brooke you're CBC came back abnormal You're white cell count was well over 11,000, normal white cells fall between 4,500 -10,000, You're hemoglobin is low only 9"

Nathan was able to speak what neither Brooke and I each for our own reasons were able to say. "What kind of tests mom?" Dr. Scott remained professional even when looking at Nathan and Brooke both who I knew she loved so much. I knew this had to be hard on her. I couldn't even image as my fingers traced Brooke's jawline her check my eyes locked with Ellie. She smiled sadly as she watched from the corner.

"We're going to start with a bone marrow aspiration, a Spinal tap, a pet scan"

"May we go with her mom?"

"You may be there during the aspiration and the spinal tap not the x-rays"

"I'm going to check on what's taking transportation so long. I know this is all scary guys but Brooke is my daughter in every way I will make sure she has the best care"

"Oh and I've heard you got it so bad

Cause I am the best you never had"

I stroked her hair as she laid on her right side they had given her general Anesthesia. The room is small crowded with Dr. Scott two nurses one places a paper drape over her side as she swaps chorhexidine over the iliac creast. I take her hand which she has reached out for me to take. Nathan is crunched into a corner so he is facing her eyes. He looks very uncomfortable but I guess it can't be worse than what Brooke is going through. She speaks softly her beautiful voice shaking. "Please keep singing Pey you have a beautiful voice" I can never say no to Brooke she knows that esp when she gets those gorgeous hazel eyes going giving me that cute sad cat look

"Sometimes before it gets better

The darkness gets bigger"

"Ow…. She gasps out as Dr. Scott plunges the needle into her body even though it shouldn't hurt she feels something. I want to scream and rip the needle out of her hand I see Nathan about to pounce. Before he can though Dr. Scott softly firmly asks Brooke "Sweetie is it pain or pressure?" "Pressure I guess it hurts all the same" I can hear the tears clogging her throat. Gently I lean down and kiss her face. "I'm sorry you're hurting Brooke I will do my best to get this over quickly but you will feel pressure if it's pain let me know will give you more Anestassia" She is so stiff Dr. Scott warned her about moving she could cause the needle to slip which could do permanent damage. Tears over flow from my eyes I hate seeing her like this, I feel her squeeze my hand as they push in further. I gently squeeze back as I keep singing.

"The person you take the bullet for is behind the trigger

Oh were fading fast

I miss missing you every now and then"

I sing in her ear so I don't make the nurses angry or distract them it helps her to relax just a little to breathe a little easier as Nathan rubs her face her arms with one hand his other is gripping the metal so hard. I am shocked he hasn't twisted it yet. I know how powerful he can be when he is angry or upset. Sometimes I am so sore after our little friends with benefits sessions I can't move for days.

Dr. Scott shatters the peace when she twists the needle into Brooke's bone I can hear it crack the bone I feel her squeeze become more powerful as she starts to wheeze. Her face is red from holding back her screams, from unshed tears. I hear her stomach turning I know the look in her eyes she's afraid she's going to be sick I need to distract her. I start to sing Britney god I hate Britney she loves her though my voice.

"When you need someone

You just turn around

And I, will be there

When you're feeling low

Baby let me know

And I, Will be there"