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Chapter 10

Adam is holding Tommy in his arms. In his head is only one thought spinning around: "Tommy is NOT straight?" And he is not able to say anything. He is just holding Tommy and trying to calm down. And this is really not easy. Because, Tommy is not straight!

And he can feel Tommy is trembling. And he strokes over Tommys head. And Tommy is trying to find a way to get out of Adams embrace. But a part of him wants to stay there forever. And he knows he should stop it now because it will hurt as hell to let go. And it will hurt more if he keeps holding on. So, eventually he pulls away and tries to avoid Adams eyes. But Adam is right there. And he forces Tommy to look up in his eyes. "Hey, do you want me to bring you home?" And Tommy doesn't have the strength to say anything, he just nods. Because he wants to be at home right now.

They leave the restroom and Adam goes back to Isaac and tells him that they leave now because Tommy doesn't feel right. And Isaac keeps his eyes on them when they get out of the door. And he smiles.

Tommy feels awkward while he is in Adams car. He knows that Adam has questions for him. And he knows that Adam is just holding back, but he won't let go. And Tommy doesn't have a clue what to tell. He doesn't want to give his secret away. But he is also tired keeping it to himself. It's really hard work. And maybe it will help him to talk about it. He just have to make sure that Adam doesn't get the hint that he is talking about him. He just has to be careful.

And then they are in front of Tommys house and Adam gets out and waits for Tommy to open the door. Tommy gets something to drink for them and they just sit down on the couch. And Tommy doesn't want to talk. But Adam is looking now at him and it won't last long and he will say something. Tommy knows that and still a prat of him is hoping that Adam will just go away. But Adam doesn't. "Tommy? You want to talk about it?" And Tommy sighs.

No, I don't want to talk about it. But I know YOU want to talk about it.

"I don't know what I could tell you. It's just hopeless." Tommys voice is just a whisper. But Adam can still hear the hurt there. And he feels sorry for Tommy. And he can't help himself but pulls Tommy in his arms. And Tommy grows stiff in his arms for a moment. But before Adam can even think about the reason beyond that, Tommy relaxes again. He feels good in Adams arms. "You can tell me anything you want. I have to admit, I am really surprised that you fell for a guy, you know. Somehow it knocks me out." And Tommy must smile about it. "Yeah, I know. I was as well surprised, I can tell you. It's like the first time I fell for a guy. It's strange. I mean, it was strange first, because it took me some time to realize that I fell for him." Adam stays still while he is listening to Tommy. "Maybe I fell for guys in the past too and just didn't realize it. Or didn't want to realize. This time there was no possibility to deny. He is different than the other guys."

Be careful Tommy! Adam is smart, don't say something stupid.

And Adam is thinking. Tommy can hear that he is thinking hard. "What does this mean, he is different? How different?" And Tommy almost loses his mind. "I don't know. Just different. He makes me feel different than the other guys ever did. I can't explain. But I like the way he makes me feel, somehow. The most time I like it." Adam can feel that Tommy is smiling. "I mean, he is... just... my soulmate. I know it's cheesy, but I can't say anything else. Like I have waited all my life to meet him." Tommy sounds sad and happy at the same time. "He must be really a very special person. It's sad that you two can't be together. But, maybe..." Tommy pulls away. "No, Adam, we can't be together. It's not possible. He is with someone else and I don't want to drag him out there. I am not like that. And I won't say anything to him, because he is a really good guy. And he doesn't deserve to get confused. He desreves to be happy. And I think he is. And he is a good friend, so I am happy about the fact that he is happy."

Adam is touched by this confession. Tommy disclaims his own happyness because he wants his friend to be happy. This is just... this is Tommy. And Adam can't stop himself of thinking aboput how happy he would be to be that guy. It must be amazing to be loved by Tommy. But before he can think too much about this, he feels guilty.

I have to stop thinking about Tommy like that. I have Sauli and he is in love with someone else.

Tommy breaks the silence. "Adam, don't get me wrong, but I think I want to be alone now. Thank you for being a friend, but it's kind of hard for me to talk about it right now." Adam nods. He is relieved, that Tommy wants him to go now. He doesn't even know why. He has the feeling, he wants to be alone as well. They say goodbye and Adam leaves.

He drives to his place. And for the first time since weeks he doesn't answer his phone when Sauli calls him. But after a while he feels awful and texts Sauli. "Sorry, babe. I can't talk to you now. Here is too loud. I call you tomorrow. Have a nice day!" And as soon as he presses "send" he feels like a piece of shit.

And he is laying on his bed, looking up to the ceiling. Thinking. And he can't get his head wrapped around the fact that Tommy is in love with a guy. And he feels jealous. Because he thinks he should be this guy. And what the fuck does it mean: "he is different"? Because if anybody is different then of course Adam!

It should be me! Why did he fall for someone else?

Adam knows he shouldn't think like that. Because Tommy is his friend. Because he is with Sauli. Because it's stupid to think about it. Tommy is in love with some other guy and Adam wants Tommy to be happy. But Tommy is not. Maybe Adam should try to find out who that guy is and talk with him. Maybe Tommy is wrong. Maybe they have a chance to be together. Tommy seems to be in love with him and he is so sad. Adam wants to help Tommy.

But how to find out? Who could know that guy?

Of course! If Tommy told anybody anything it was for sure Isaac.

Adam looks at his phone. It's not that late at all. He calls Isaac. They are in another bar, not far away. So Adam picks up his keys and heads to meet Isaac and the other guys. He has to find out who this mysterious guy is who has stolen Tommys heart.

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