Drew went looking for his brother but was stopped by Eli. He looked angry and confused. I grabbed his arm as he walked past me.
"Is everything Ok?" I questioned Adams friend.
"Yeah just great, looking for Adam actually." He was turning sporadically looking for my brother.
"He was going to the library." Eli patted my shoulder before he took off. I turned and looked at him confused. I turned around and jumped when I saw KC but I relaxed.
"Look man, I am sorry for all that shit I said." I nodded and clapped him on the shoulder leading him off to class, once a bro always a bro. It was how it is.
I was approached by a crazed looking Eli. He slapped his hands down on the desk in front of me and stared me down in the eye.
"Give me the clip and the lighter." He said in an angry whisper. I shook my head at him trying to ignore the stare of the librarian.
"I don't have them Eli." I looked around making sure that no one else was around. Eli dragged me from my seat and lead me out. He shoved me roughly.
"What the hell man? Chill out." I stepped away from him knowing he could get crazy, we were bros and I didn't want something to come in between that.
"Chill out? Your burning your self Adam." I was angry at Bianca I knew she would tell someone.
"Yeah well at least I deal with my issues instead of bottling them up. For your information it was a one time deal." He grabbed my wrist and pulled my sleeve up showing the three new burns from this morning.
"You know what Drew would do if he found out? You have got to stop Adam." I snatched my arm back and looked at him.
"It was once, I am fine. Until you chill out leave me alone." I walked off and grabbed my backpack before I went out to the football field. I ripped the stitching on my back pack and pulled out the old clip. I took the lighter from my pocket and heated it up. I lifted up my shirt and pressed it to my side as if to burn all the curves I have away. I grimaced when I saw a small beads of blood form. I took a few calming breaths before I put the clip away and made my way back into the school. I didn't have an issue, I was in control.
I looked to KC who was staring at Jenna. I waved my hand in front of his face before he snapped out of his trance I grinned at him. He smiled sheepishly at me and I just rolled my eyes.
"So the dot tonight, coffee? Maybe you can talk to Bianca alone without Jenna and get to know her." He sighed and nodded.
"You owe me though." I grinned.
"What could you want?" I questioned, he just smirked and I got a bit nervous.
"I will ask of it once the time comes." I sighed and turned back to my math problem that I left half finished. If the lock down helped with anything it was that I actually started understanding my work since I started doing it. The bell rang and I walked off to find David, he was one of the soccer guys I started hanging out with after everyone left me.
"Hey man, up for some one on one in the gym?" He smirked and turned to me.
"Only if your talking soccer." I grinned I could play his game. We walked to gym.
I went looking for Fiona and found her. I sauntered up to her and snaked my arms around her.
"Hey." She jumped and turned around but she frowned when she saw me.
"What is going on with you Adam?" I eyed her and looked at her confused.
"What are you talking about?" I moved from her and looked away. She grabbed my face gently and turned it so I was looking at her.
"This. You are hot one minute and cold the next, lately I don't if I am going to get moody Adam or the Adam I am falling for." I sighed and took her hand.
"Are you falling for Adam or Gracie?" She held her hand to my cheek.
"I am falling in love with Adam the man who makes me feel safe and is confident, outgoing and has a way to win people over." I smiled and leaned in to kiss her, the soft feel of her lips on mine.
"I'm sorry. I just..." I sighed and stared into her deep blue gray eyes.
"Adam if you can't talk to me how is this going to work?" I snapped my direction to Holly J who was still standing there staring at us. She immediately looked away.
"I care about you and I want to be with you Fi."
"Then don't lie to me, what were you doing the other morning?" I took a step back.
"I told you I had things to do. I thought you trust me?" My voice was rising slightly and I ran a hand through my hair.
"How am I if you wont talk to me?" I turned.
"So you say your falling in love with me and then I am a liar. What ever Fiona." I said expressing with my hands as I walked away. I heard her call for me but I just kept walking. I ran into Eli.
"Game night Friday?" I asked hopeful he turned and smirked at me.
"I thought you had a date with Fiona?" He was slightly icy in saying this.
"Not going to work out." I shrugged, but he eyed me.
"Not going to work or are you not telling her something?" I sighed knowing he could read me.
"I can't tell her, she is the one thing that doesn't try to suffocate me."
"Oh and how is that going to work if you keep her at arms length Adam?" I sighed and saw Clare coming.
"I..I don't know, all I do know is I can't take risks I only get burned." I said sarcastically.
"I think you are the one doing the burning. Adam she cares, I know I don't like her to much but I see the way she looks at you its same with Clare." I turned to Clare who had by now heard the last part of our conversation.
"Tell her Adam, she will understand." I looked to sweet Clare and wondered if it was better to be naive.
"Maybe she wont. She is biggest risk."
"We all take them Adam, running from them wont help you." Eli was looking at me in concern.
"I don't know. I guess I will see you guys later." I began to walk outside to see if my brother was at his truck and ready to go home.
"I worry about him."
"I know Eli but there's nothing we can do." I turned the corner and knew who they were talking about.
"What has Adam done now?" I asked concerned.
"Maybe you should watch out for him." Eli said. Why would I need to do that? I turned and sprinted off in search of Adam.
"Drew just leave me alone I am fine!" I had found Adam and began questioning him.
"No you aren't, you are acting odd lately and I had Fiona asking me if you were Ok? Why would she ask me that Adam!" I was shouting at him in the empty parking lot.
"We fought, no big deal."
"What did you fight about?" I questioned him but he was standing strong, I didn't know this Adam.
"Its between me and her stay out of it Andrew." He spoke to me in an icy tone.
"Like hell I will Adam. What is going on one day you can't get enough of her and the next you don't want to be near her?"
"I don't want to be suffocated by her too! You are always all over me and I am sick of it I can make my own choices like you do!"
"But you can't Adam! Every time I let you go I wonder if you are going to come home in one piece."
"Well watch and see." I walked away from him and off towards the ravine. I walked up to a guy named Ray.
"I need painkillers..."