What's up? I'm back from my two week break even though I was typing on the break because of boredom, any way sorry about Mikey's occ kinda.
see you Friday
Warnings: Self-Harm
Mikey's POV
I sighed and got up to do the next best thing, aside from cutting, he took his baggy black hoodie from the dresser, Donnie sighed, when Mikey was uncomfortable, upset he would put on his hoodie, and because cutting right now with Donnie watchful eyes would be a bad choice.
As soon as the soft fabric hit his pale skin, he felt a wave of comfort but it wasn't enough this time, I sighed emptily.
I had felt like a semi-broken toy, so close to breaking and with the voices in his head increasing didn't help.
'No one loves you'.
'Everyone just pities you by sticking around your annoying ass'.
'Just leave the face of the Earth, they'd be better without you' .
"You okay Mikey?" Donnie asked, putting down his phone, that he was reading Fanfiction about his favorite Play (Can you guess?) Hamilton, An American Musical.
"Yeah, just the voices in my head" I said bluntly, Donnie raised an eyebrow then nodded.
"What are they saying?" Donnie asked, seriously "And never believe what it said".
"Oh, just the normal stuff?" I questioned, and Donnie sighed.
"Is that a question or an answer?" Donnie sighed in exasperation, I looked down "Nevermind, Go to sleep, its Midnight!" Donnie yawned.
Although I didn't sleep, after about an hour and a half, of tossing and turning in the Erie silence, left alone in my thoughts thinking about the temptation about the razor in the other room, but instead of giving into the temptation I went to my favorite author 'Lexy Venzon's story called Brothers and Fosters, Forever?' and figured, I'd fall asleep, but no the world had other thoughts when I heard a yawn from the other side of the room.
"Mornin' Mikey" Donnie said, as I quickly jumped.
"Hey Donnie" I said, not sounding tired at all, as if I didn't just pull an All-Nighter.
"Did ya sleep good?" Donnie asked, I got up and nodded, cracking his bones from the way he sat for about eight hours, his back made a nice crack, it was painful a little but I kinda.
"Do you think Raph and Leo are awake?" I asked.
"Well it is, Nine-forty-seven" Donnie said, as I texted the group.
Mikeyinthehouse (9:47am) added GenuisDoatello, SharpLeo, Raphie to the chat.
Mikeyinthehouse(9:50AM): ya'll awake?
SharpLeo(9:51am): always. jk
Raphie(9:53am): yep
Mikeyinthehouse(9:55am): Wanna hang out? or you don't have to if you don't want to? you don't have to
Raphie(9:57am) sure. where? when?
SharpLeo(10:01am): Love to!
GenuisDonatello(10:05am): K'
Mikeyinthehouse(10:07): How about at the park on oak st. at 11am
Raphie, GeniusDonatello and SharpLeo: lets do it!
As soon as I got off the phone I went to the shower and when I it was about Ten-forty-six AM,he found his Razor in his dresser, hidden and put it in his jean pocket.
At the park: 3RD POV
Once we got to the park, I had a plan hang out for about ten minutes, go to the boys' bathroom and cut, hoping no one comes with me.
Ten minutes pass an the plan is laid out "Hey, I'll be back, gotta go to the bathroom!" I said before any of them could say anything back.
I got to the bathroom took out my razor and rolled up my sleeve.
UGLY!
Cut
Annoying!
Cut
Childish!
Cut
Waste of space!
Cut
Stupid!
Cut
Asshole!
Cut
I felt the relief wash over me and I stared at the cuts. I Made. until Raph walked in.
"Hey Mike- WHAT THE HECK DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?!" Raph shouted, I really thanked everything that Donnie didn't come in "WELL?!" I shrugged and washed my arm in the sink.
"Please don't tell Donnie!" I pleaded, he looked confused and he still shook his head,
"WHY?!" Raph asked still shouting.
"Because, he thinks I'm doin' better, he needs to learn to relax without knowing a little pest isn't always following him" I said, softly in a short to above whisper, I flinched when Raph hugged me.
"Your not a pest" Raph stated, as I leaned in and hugged him back "And I'm definitely telling Donnie" Mikey groaned.
"Fine, Don't tell Leo" I said negating, Raph thought for a while minute and nodded.
"But I swear, if you repeat what I just said I will hurt you!" I half-joked-half serious, Raph frowned, The Joking Smile, the smile that makes you forget the situation.
"Okay let's go" Raph said, pulling the struggling Micheal by the collar playfully.
"Donnie can we talk to you?" Donnie nodded, Leo stayed behind on the swing.
"Yeah?" Donnie said, looking at me, who was looking down in shame "What do you need?"
"Well, when I went to go see if Mikey was okay, I found him... cutting" Raph explained with ease, Donnie turned to me, who was still looking down, and hugged him, I was shocked and I flinched.
"Why?" Donnie asked.
"Because it offers relief and a punishment" Mikey murmured softly, Donnie sighed.
"Mikey, what did you do that you need to cut yourself?" Donnie asked, Raph nodded in agreement, I sighed, I had this conversation before, five times.
"Thanks Raph" Mikey said in an annoyed tone "parce que je suis un fardeau, et un horrible petit frère, juste un gaspillage d'espace, d'accord" (because im a burden, and a horrible little brother, just a waste of space, okay) Donnie sighed again.
"English please" Donnie hugged him once again, Donnie figured he only spoke French when he was ether upset or annoyed, Mikey smiled sheepishly and Rash snapped his head at him.
"I'll tell you" Raph said, Mikey eyed him suspiciously.
"Wait, do you speak French?!" Mikey asked, Raph shrugged.
"Not fluently, but I started learning about two weeks ago and- No! stop changing the subject!" Raph realized, Raph leaned into Donnie' ear and whispered, Donnie sighed, hugging me tighter, Mikey glared at Raph.
"Now if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna hang out with Leo!" Mikey squeezed out of the embrace, and walked out before anyone could reply, Donnie sighed and sat down on the nearest bench, Raph followed along.
Donnie was crying silently.
"Hey, you okay?" Raph asked stupidly 'for real Raph, of course he's not okay'.
"Oh, I'm doing great, my brother started a fatal addiction again and he's gonna avoid me for a few days" Donnie said, bitterly and coldly.
I'm Backkkkkkk, my mind has some new ideas for the story that I MIGHT add to the story like, Mikey meets some new friends (Not good friends)
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