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Callie was exhausted when she got home that night.
She let herself sank down in the couch and tried to put everything together. The emotion of revealing how she ended up her mariage to Mark had been the culmination of that evening.
It was the first time she ever confessed it to anyone, and it was relieving and traumatic at the same time.
She was asking herself thousand of question and her head was spinning. She was realising things she had tried to avoid to think about for years and it was really hard to accept.
Mark had find the words to make her questionning the real value of the life she was building.
Most of all, she was shocked of Penny's presumed action. How could she had done that to her ? But maybe it wasn't right. Maybe the kids had heard them talk at home... Maybe Mark was fooling her and he had looked in her files because he was suspecting something was going on ?
No, of course he wouldn't. So she had to face it... Penny had really let the cat out.
Even if she had already drink a little too much at Joe's, she grabbed a glass and filled herself a dhot of tequilla. She was drinking it when she heard the front doo opening.
« Hey ! » Penny greeted her with a bright smile as she removed her jacket and her shoes before joining her in the leaving room. « How was your night ? You had fun I hope. My shift was terr... »
Raising her eyes to the woman she was living with, Penny's eyes bulged when she saw the alcoohol Callie was apparently drinking.
She rushed to her and took the glass, yelling « What is that!Are you crazy ! »
She went to the kitchen and emptied it in the sink and get back to Callie who was looking a ther girlfriend with a dark gaze.
« What's wrong with you ? It's not... » Penny tried to say but noticedthe anger in Callie's eyes. « What happened Darling ? Did you get a test ? It didn't work out ? »
« It didn't. » Callie stated coldly.
Penny's features softened and she reached Callie thinking the brunette needed comfort.
« Stop ! » Callie coldly said, the alcohol getting to her head.
« Callie... » Penny insited. « I … I'm as sad as you are... You're not al... »
« Why did you tell it ? » Callie cut her of. « Why in the hell did you tell it around ! »
« What ? » Penny lied. « I didn't... It's... I get it you're mad but I... »
« I know what you did Penny ! Travis knows it. He even thinks I'm already pregnant ! » Callie yelled. « He heard you at the day care with some nurses... Apparently you were letting everybody know how happy we were bla bla bla ! » Callie bitterly said. « You promised me we would wait until the second trimester!Telling a friend we were trying, that, I can understand ! But making sure my kids hear it and gushing about it... »
Penny was so unready to see her girlfriend so angry, she was totaly lost. She tried to answer but was unable to gave her any reason knowing she was the only one a fault.
« I didn't mean to. Believe me Darling... It... just happened... » Penny lied again. « I... who told you ? »
« It doesn't matter ! » Callie snapped. « What were you trying to do ? Marking your territory ? Making sure everybody around would know I was carrying your child ? You did the same thing for the wedding ! We were just talking about it as a possibility in the future and you spread the news throught the hospital without informing me ! »
« I get that you're mad but can we take a minute to talk about ... » Penny hesitated. « About the fact that it failed ? »
Penny's eyes were beginning to fill with tears but for the first time since she met the woman, Callie felt like it was fake, as Mark told her.
« It didn't work because I didn't went to the appointment ! » Callie confessed loudly. « You weren't there and, as horrible as it can be for you to hear it, I was relieved when I received the text telling me you were stuck in surgery. »
« What are you saying? » Penny mumbled. « How dare you do that ! You are kidding right ? It's not possible.. »
« I cancel the appointment. I realised I wasn't ready to have a kid weeks before. » Callie confessed. « I wasn't ready because I didn't want it. »
« Callie, you must be under a lot of pressure. Between work, the kids, all our projects... I'm sorry I know I've been a little off lately but... »
« It had nothing to do with you Penny ! It is about me ! I don't want another child. » Callie confessed bursting into tears.
It was the ambivalence of her confession which was making her emotionnal. She was angry, relieved, disapointed and totaly lost at the same time. She felt the past year she dated the younger redhead was so complicated and so tense. Suddenly she knew Mark was right but it was really difficult to admit to herself.
It wa like her life was sliping away from her one more time.
« I should have had the guts to tell you the truth, but you were so eager, and happy and you were always pushing me. » Callie explained. « You didn't give me any choice. »
« Are you out of your mind ! You're saying I force you to do it ? You are a grown up ! You can make you own choices Callie ! What is this about ? » Penny yelled louder. « I won't let you say that. »
Callie grabbed the tequilla bottle who was on the coffee table next to her and in a sudden move threw it at the other side of the room. She didn't know what to think or to say anymore and it was the only gesture she was able to do to show the other woman the level of her frustruation.
« I can't believe I had to hear that from Arizona ! Travis was so upset he told her the news... » Callie explained.
« Oh, so it's her who told you that ? » Penny sarcastically laughed. « I ddn't see that coming, but of course, allmighty Arizona Robbins must have been thrilled to drag me in the mud right ? »
« This has nothing to do with Arizona ! It's about you telling my kids something they weren't ready to hear. And without consulting me ! » Callie snapped.
« Of course it had to do with her ! You think I'm stupid ? She can't stand to see us happy ! » Penny snorted.
« Are we really Happy Penny ? » Callie asked.
« See her little shenanigans worked. Look at you ! You're taking the side of that cunt again ! » Penny bitterly retorted.
« I'm not taking side ! And don't insult her please ! She's the mother of my child for god sake ! »
« Don't worry ! I know that. You are always remembering me of that details. » Penny smuged. « but don't try to make me the bad guy here Callie ! You lied to me ! We were going to have a family and you lied to my face, for days ! »
« I'm not proud of that. But you did it too. » Callie replied as she turned to get upstairs, ending the endless argument. She went to their bedroom and grabbed a suitcase, and putt some clothes in it.
« Callie please ! What are you doing ? » Penny asked as she entered the room.
« I need time to think, and space. » The brunette coldly replied. « I'm going away for a while. »
« No... » Penny grabbed her angry girlfriend wrist and twisted it very hard behind her back making Callie dropping the clothes whe was holding and crying in pain. « You're not going anywhere ! You understand me ? »
Surprised by the seriouness and the anger of Penny's tone, Callie was just able to remain on her feet as she felt the redhead pushing her violently against the wall.
She smashed Callie's face against it, making sure the other woman would understand.
« You're not leaving me Callie, it's not going to happen. »
Penny twisted Callie's wrist harder and slammed her body one more time against the wall.
The ortho surgeon was totaly stunned and it took her a moment to realise how far the things had gone. She felt Penny's hold softening and she slowly came back to the reality.
Penny made her turn to face her, and softly stroked her cheek, but Callie flinched at the contact.
« I know you're mad, but we're going to talk about it quietly tomorrow when you'll get back to your mind darling. » Penny said, in a weird tone which made Callie's body tense. « We're going to bed now, and we will have a real, serene conversation about your behaviour in the morning. »
She patted the older woman cheek as if she was lecturing a 10 years old kid and stepped back, never leaving her eyes from her fiancé.
Callie swallowed hard, she was like frozen in place but she knew she had to do domething fast or she might regret it.
« Who are you ? » She asked Penny. « What am I doing here ? »
Without thinking twice, she grabbed the suitcase she tried to fill a few minutes earlier, and imediately Penny was by her side, trying to make her drop it by grabbing the luggage and pushing Callie.
« You are crossing a line here Callie » the redhead grumbled, trying to obtrude.
And it was at that moment Callie realised she had to get out of that house qickly. She snatched her suitcase from Penny's grip violently, making her falling on the bed.
« Don't you ever talk to me that way Penny ! » Callie screamed angrily. « I don't want to see you again ! You show me the real you tonight and I don't want to see you around me, or around my kids ! »
Knowing she had to leave as fast as possible the house, Calie walked out of the room and took her car key in the lobby before trying to open the front door.
« Callie ! » Penny yelled. « Please ! Wait ! You can't do this ! You can't leave me ! »
Callie felt the pain and the vulnerability in her girlfriend voice, but she wouldn't gave in, not this time.
« I have to go. » She simply stated. « I need space, and time away from you. »
« No ! Please ! » Penny whined. « I'm sorry ! I can't live without you ! »
She suddenly wrapped her arms around Callie's waist from behind, and started kissing her neck. Callie closed her eyes. She was grateful to be back to her and to not have to see the devastation on her face.
« I need you Callie. »
Callie managed to escape the dangerous embrace and opened the door, her eyes filled with tears.
« Good bye Penny... »
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For a few years, she was having trouble to fall asleep.
It began the month after the plane crash and then it was back time to time. She was used to it but she hated it.
So when she woke up with a start at 4 in the morning, it took Arizona some times to regain consciousness. It was not a nightmare, it was not a phamtom pain episode... It was just someone banging at her door.
Her first reaction was to go straight to the front door, trying to avoid the noise to wake her children up.
But who could that be ? If it wasn't a stranger trying to fool her, it could just be a drunk Mark.
She sighed, putting her prostetic on and walking to open to him.
What had he done again ? Fight with a stranger in a bar ? Be caught by Lexie while cheating on her ? Loose a patient ?
She got up from the bed, noticing it was raining outside. A generous and endless rain like only you can only see in Seattle.
She grabbed her old grey hoodie on the kitchen counter and put it on, feeling the cold of the house.
She checked her phone and there was nothing from her friend. Was it really him ?
Hesitating a second she put the security chain, just in case...
« Stop banging ! » Arizona warned. « The kids are sleep... »
She half opened the door and gasped at the vison in front of her.
« Calliope ? »
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