It's everything you wanted, it's everything you don't
It's one door swinging open and one door swinging closed
Some prayers find the answer, some prayers never know
We're holding on, and letting go.

As soon as everyone got to the airport you could feel how anxious everyone was. Wind whipped through everyone's hair but gave a calming effect. Cassidy repeatedly told herself to calm down and that it was time to move on. She knew she couldn't live her life thinking that James was going to change. Sure, he could get better but no one was perfect. Especially James.

Carlos noticed Cassidy's tense expression and gave her a hand a squeeze.

Smiling in response, she mouthed a simple "i love you."

Logan and Kendall looked at eachother not knowing what to expect. The entire situation had affected Kendall the most but once he gave it enough thought, he was alright with his life. He was happy with being who he was. That's what he realized all along. He always knew he had fans with him even if it seem he didn't and that's what made him believe in himself more than anything.

Logan couldn't find anything to say. Everything happened so fast. He was just regular kid with a dream one day and the next he was on hundreds of t-shirts and he heard everyone shouting his name. They were on the peak of their high of being Big time Rush and one announcement changed it. He never hated James for being honest but it changed him in a more positive way. It gave him a motivation to be there for his friends like he had never been before.

"It's hot," Carlos mumbled a complaint.

Everyone looked at him then back at the door waiting for James' arrival.

The door suddenly opened and everyone held their breath.

James walked into the room, everyone expecting him to be alone, but behind everyone noticed a tiny petite brunette behind him.

Cassidy gasped at the sight of the two of them. Carlos and Kendall exchanged confused glances.

"He didn't tell us he was bring a guest." Logan said, the creases in his forehead shown.

Cassidy POV

Whoa.

He brought a girl with him.

Gulping i looked at both of them and James was smiling as he looked at everyone. His face fell once he reached mine. "Cassidy," he breathed, pain. I bet he forgot i even existed.

Dropping my hand from Carlos' i didn't say anything.

"Who is this lovely young lady?" Logan asked, unaware of the tension in the room.

"Everyone," James cleared his throat. He tried to his best to look away from me but you could tell by the look in his eyes he couldn't. "This is Addie . . . my . . ." he hesitated before finishing. "girlfriend."

As soon as he finished, all eyes were on me.

"When did you guys start dating?" Kendall asked, gulping.

"Three months ago."

Anger shot through my system and i scoffed. "Are you kidding me?" I said, shocked at the sound of my own voice.

"Cassidy..." Carlos started.

"No." I shook my head and walked over to the brunette who looked scared. "Do you know who I am?" I asked, my voice calmer.

"Yes," She said, her eyes glued to the ground. She knew; She knew i was the girl he abused.

"Oh My God . . ." I said, unable to process what was happening. I turned to James who couldn't look me in the eye. "Do you even know what you put my through?" I asked him, my voice was shaky.

"Cassidy, stop." He warned, gritting his teeth.

"No, don't tell me to stop." I looked at him with such anger.

I was so hurt. So betrayed. I know it shouldn't matter because I was with Carlos but it still hurt.

"You told me that you didn't want me, do you not remember that? You told me on the phone that you wanted nothing to do with me. Do you know that i've spent countless hours crying over you?"

James looked down.

"You made me wanna die. I mean God, i stayed faithful to you James. Were you that ashamed of yourself to just move on to the next girl?"

"You're a hypocrite, Cassidy. How can you be mad at me when you're with Carlos?"' He spat, i almost forgot the sound of his voice.

"Because," I ran my fingers through my hair. "I stayed faithful to you. I never once kissed him ever while you were gone. But you? You walk in here holding some girls hand? Why? Are you trying to rub it in my face that you have a new girlfriend or something?"

"Of course not." He cut me off. "It was easier to be with her than you."

I felt my throat close up the second he spoke those words. His words cut my like a knife.

"You..." I started and wiped away my tears. "Are such a horrible person."

"Cassidy..." Carlos said again and i looked at him. Ignoring him, i stopped crying and got angry. More angry as time passed.

"I'm leaving," I announced and turned on my heel. "And don't follow me." I said before walking towards the exit.

James POV

I looked around me to see Kendall and Logan staring at me. Carlos of course ran after Cassidy and i looked at Addie, who barely looked up every now and then.

"You guys," I started and Kendall shot me a dirty look.

"James, did you really have to bring your new girlfriend with?"

"I wanted her to meet you guys..." My cheeks reddened.

"Yeah, James bright idea. Bring your new girlfriend to meet your old girlfriend who you abused." Logan sarcastically rolled his eyes.

"I'm sorry," I said, my voice cracking.

"It doesn't matter anymore James. What's done is done. You really hurt Cassidy and i don't even think you care to realize how much you did."

"Of course i do!" I yelled at Kendall. "You don't know how badly i missed her."

"Sure you did. While she was crying over you you were getting laid by some chick." Logan interupted and turned on his heel following Carlos' lead of walking away.

NO POV

"Cassidy, Cassidy," Carlos repeated her name; Stopping her by grabbed her wrist twisting her body around. "What's wrong? I mean, why are you so upset?"

"Because," she dusted herself off. "I spent three months in a living hell and he spent the entire time with some girl."

"Cassidy," he repeated grabbing both of her shoulders. His voice was different, it wasn't angry or upset, it was comforting. "Why does that matter?"

"What?" She asked breathless.

"Why does that matter?" He smiled and Cassidy found herself doing the same once he grabbed her left hand intwining their fingertips. "You aren't with him. You're with me. James, it doesn't matter what he does okay?"

"Okay," she looked down and back up, feeling foolish. "I just got upset."

Carlos laughed. "I know, i was there."

Logan and Kendall ran up behind Cassidy and they had odd expression on their faces. "You okay?" They asked in unision.

"Yeah," She lied half heartedly. "I'm fine."

From a distance, James leaned back against a wall watching the scene from a distance. He rubbed his hand through his newly shaven short hair and put his hands in his pocket.

Walking towards the guys Logan looked at Cassidy and whispered "Here he comes," and cleared his throat.

James walked towards the group and felt their eyes peer in on him. "Cassidy," he started. "Can i talk to you?"

"No," she shook her head, disgusted in him. "You can't."

"Why not?" He asked, feeling a tickle in his throat.

"Because," she felt a tickle in her own throat. "I hate you,"

Walking into James vacant apartment, the same spot where James told Kendall, Logan and Carlos his news, James felt a rush of cold air. Cassidy being last in line, the three guys and an awkward Addie walked into the kitchen; Carlos automatically grabbed an apple out of the fridge.

James circled around his entire house noticing everything was how he left it.

"Cassidy," He calmly said, taking self control. "Can I talk to you?"

Sitting on the couch watching an old episode of 'Friends' she shook her head. "No."

Everything was starting to boil inside of James. He had learned so many things at counseling but it felt like all that education slipped out his mind. "No!" He screamed on the top of his lungs, flipping a small table over with his bare hands.

A loud gasp erupted from Cassidy as she lifted her knees to her chest.

"I did this for you!" He yelled in her face. She didn't look him in the face but that didn't stop him. "I went to counseling for you!" He babbled. "And now you don't wanna talk to me? How dare you -"

James was stopped mid-sentence by Logan and Kendall running at James full speed pinning him by his waist against a wall. A loud thud bouncing off the walls. Kendall and Logan stared at eachother bewildered at the sight.

"Carlos," Logan said to him. "Get Cassidy out of here." He instructed.

James relaxed underneath Kendall and Logan's touch and that was where he knew he crossed the line.

Cassidy, shaken by the entire thing, sat in the same position she did a few seconds. Carlos walked over to her, pulling her in his arms.

"Cassidy..." James breathed, pained, while Carlos walked Cassidy away from him. "I'm sorry," he aplogized but both of them were already out the door.

"Cassidy," Carlos rubbed Cassidy's cheek while her eyes were in a different direction. Carlos already put her in the passenger seat of his car. He grabbed the seatbelt and pulled it out her waist, buckling it shut. "Cassidy," he repeated and she finally snapped out of her thoughts and looked at him. "Are you okay?" He touched her shoulders and neck. "Did he touch you?"

"No," She lowered his hands from her body. "He didn't touch me. And i'm fine."

Carlos gave her a concerned look.

"I'm fine. Really."

Carlos nodded and stood up on his feet softly closing the car door. Walking around the car, he sat in the driver's seat and put his seat belt on. Turning to her as fast as he could, he grabbed her chin and pushed strands of her hair out of her face with his thumb. "I'm so sorry that happened."

"It's alright," She shrugged his fingers off of her. "I'm fine."

"No, you aren't find Cassidy. He flipped a table over and was screaming in your face."

"Yeah but," she thought for a second, batting her eyelashes. "I'm not bleeding." She pointed out. "None of my bones are broken. Sure, i'm shaken up but i'm fine. I promise."

"Okay," he believed her. "Okay," He looked out of both his review mirrors and put his key in the ignition.

"Where are we going?"

"Someplace only we know." Cassidy opened her mouth to object but Carlos grabbed her by the cheeks pulling her into a chaste kiss.

Logan and Kendall let go of James and Kendall felt sweat fall down his forehead. "James," he spoke, out of breath. "What the hell was that?"

"I don't know." He replied, saying the truth. "I must've lost control."

"Well, you can't do that here James." Logan reminded him. "We're people with beating hearts..."

"You don't think I know that?" He cut him off, his voice scaring all of them. "Like i said, i lost control." He looked at Kendall. "It won't happen again."

Kendall looked at his feet, not saying a word.

"I think we should go back to the center." Addie said, speaking up. "You need to be there right now. Not here."

Kendall and Logan eyed eachother, speaking without words, they both nodded in agreement.

"She's right." Logan said and James walked over to the table he flipped, picked it up, and put it back to its natural setting. Sitting on the couch, he felt the warmth from underneath it. Cassidy, he thought. "But," his voice was pained. "I'm trying."

"We know James, we know." Logan and Kendall sat on both sides of him. "But you need to try harder. You can't just flip tables and intimidate someone because they don't wanna talk to you."

James sighed, trying not to cry. "But i'm trying," he repeated. "Isn't that good enough?" He looked at both of his friends.

"I'm afraid not." Addie said and James knew she was right.