Hey! This is a longer chapter than the rest have been, so I hope you enjoy!

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Oh, and expect some lemonade.

Chapter ten: Goodbye is a scary thing.

Her eyelids slowly opened, everything was a blur. The last thing she remembered was driving along the never ending driveway, about to pull out, the look on Claire's face said it all. The car had hit them. It was an accident, wasn't it?
People were moving around her. Removing something from her mouth, touching her face, speaking loudly in her ear. She wished they would stop, she felt fine. She tried to sit up. No. Definitely not fine. A sharp pain had spread through her head. She set herself back down, whilst someone adjusted her blankets on the bed. Who were these people? Where was she? Why were they touching her?
It suddenly dawned on her where she was. Hospital. She couldn't have been that badly hurt. Or could she?
She tried to study the people in the room. There were a number of nurses, all wearing the same blue scrubs and their hair tied back in the same boring ponytail at the nape of their neck. She looked some more until she spotted a familiar face, Carlisle's.

He was the same as he had always been, pale skin, blonde hair gelled back, flawless features, white coat, the only difference was that he had bags under his eyes, obviously tired.

"Nessie? Can you hear me?" He said loud and clear.

"Yeah," Renesmee squeaked out.

He smiled. "Good. We've all been so worried." He looked at her heart rate monitor and smiled once more. "Everything seems to be in order, you'll live." He gave a little chuckle.

"Grandpa?" she was gaining confidence in her voice.

"Yes."

"Who's here?"

Carlisle sighed. "Everyone went home to get some sleep, they all said goodbye to you when you were unconscious and your mother wanted to stay but Edward persuaded her to go home. Jacob stayed. He's waiting outside for you, do you want him to come in? He's pretty anxious."

Renesmee smiled. "Sure, let him in."

Carlisle left the room, and a second later, returned with Jacob. Jacob smiled sheepishly at her, and her smile lit up the room.

"Hey," she said.

"Hey," he replied.

"I'll leave you two alone. If you need anything Nessie, just press the green botton beside your bed." He smiled at them before leaving.

Jacob smiled once more then took a seat beside Renesmee's bed. "How are you feeling?" He asked.

Renesmee sighed. "I'm fine, a little sore, especially in my head, but, I'm fine."

"I'm glad, you really scared me. Please don't do that again," he begged.

"I promise I won't, I had no idea. It seemed like the car came out of nowhere! Claire and I hadn't seen or heard it. It sounds stupid, but I feel like it was meant to hit our car."

Jacob laughed. "Ness, who would want to hit you with their car?"

"I'm serious Jake, I feel like it was on purpose, that someone was out to get me, or made a mistake."

"Ness, you're disorientated, tired, you have no clue what you're on about. No one wants to hurt you, or anyone else. This is a small town, not much happens here. Saying that, you are actually the talk of the town, and your family. I'm sure Carlisle is telling them about your miraculous recovery! I bet you any money your mom is on her way here, right now."

"I don't think I can bet with you because I am completely on your side. I know she's coming, it's in her nature."

Jacob chuckled. "Of course it is, just like you, you care for others."

"Don't complement me Jake, I don't deserve it. Not after what I've done to you. I'm so sorry."

"Don't apologize. And by the way, Claire told everyone what happened. Do you need me to refresh your memory?"

"No, I remember. The last thing I saw was her face. I she okay?"

"Yes, she's fine. It was you that got all the beatings."

Renesmee sighed, tears streaming down her face. "I feel awful, she must be so worried."

Jacob wiped her tears away. "Shh ... shh ... don't cry, everything is going to be okay."

"But-"

"Look, I'll call her and tell her your awake, okay."

"Kay."

And with that Jacob left to call Claire. He wondered down the halls until he found a pay phone, since he left his cell at the party.

Meanwhile in Renesmee's room she was resting her eyes, until she felt a cold hand grab her wrist, and another cover her mouth.

"Don't scream," he said, "I'm here, and I've been so worried."

She looked to the door, it was closed and locked. Nahuel stared deep into her eyes.

"Now I'm gonna make this nice and clear. I hope you are still coming to New York, as I've got an apartment ready for us. So are you coming?"

He took his hand off Renesmee's mouth and sat on the chair next to her bed.

She took a while in answering him. If she didn't go, he would for certain kill Jacob, well not him, but his "mates". If she did go, she would let her family down, again, and break her promise to Jacob, the one she just made, never to hurt him again. But why should she care? She did feel something for him, she was just being ignorant.

"Yes, I'll go with you."

Nahuel's smile gleamed. "I've been keeping this in my pocket for a while but I thought this would be the right moment to say," he said this while getting down on one knee, "Will you, Renesmee Cullen, my rose, do me the honor of becoming my bride?" He presented her with a diamond ring, with a gold band.

Renesmee gasped. She couldn't believe it, this was totally unexpected. Marriage. To Nahuel. She would be miserable forever. But if she didn't he'd still kill Jacob. "Yes," she answered. "Yes, I'll marry you."

"Great, I love you Ren!" He stood up slipped the ring on her finger and kissed her deeply.

"Oww," Renesmee said, because he had hurt her.

"I'm so sorry," he said, rubbing her cheek.

"No, it's fine, I'm still a little sore."

"Well I'll give you some time to yourself, see you later my fiancee."

And with that he slipped out the room.

"I'm engaged."

Three days had passed since Renesmee had been let out of hospital. She had been spending it at Claire's apartment, and partly at her mom and dad's. She had been spending as much time as she could with friends and family before she left for New York. Alice had got stuck into wedding planning already, and was searching the magazines and ordering certain things. She had told the family and friends with Nahuel once she got home. Everyone was shocked at this sudden proposal, and even though they disagreed they still congratulated the "happy" couple. Everyone apart from Jacob, after he found out he silently left the house and made his way back home.

Playing this over in her head made Renesmee sick. And the diamond on her finger didn't help. It made her feel sick to her stomach just looking at it. It was a sign of Nahuel's "devotion" to her. Ha, yeah right!

"You excited?"

Nahuel was leaning against the doorway to her room. Supervising her packing.

"Yeah," Renesmee exhaled as she spoke. "Why wouldn't I be?"

Nahuel chuckled. "Normally you are observant, I meant about leaving all your family and friends."

"I have friends in New York!" Renesmee said defensively.

Nahuel held his hands up infront of him in defense. "I know you do, I just meant that-"

"I know what you meant!" Renesmee snapped.

Nahuel moved towards her, wrapped his arms around her waist, and settled his head where her shoulder met her neck. "I'm sorry, I understand how you must be feeling." He kissed her neck.

Renesmee tried not to cringe at his actions. Instead she exhaled and continued to do what she was doing before. Packing.

After a long silence Nahuel started. "Well, I'm gonna leave for New York now, I was gonna see if we could ... you know ... but, I suppose I'll wait till I see you in tomorrow, okay."

"Okay, bye."

He twisted her around and crushed his lips to hers forcefully. After a minute of him kissing her, and she just standing there, he left.

Renesmee waited for the sound of the car leaving before she finished packing. Then in a rush, grabbed the keys to her car and made her way to the Reservation.
She had to talk to Jacob before she left. It was only fair that he got a proper goodbye, with all that they've been through.

Once she got to Jacob's "mansion" on the border of the Reservation, she jumped out of her car and ran to his door. She knocked thrice and waited. And waited. And waited. She knocked again. Then the door opened. And out he stepped.

He had a black shirt on and dark blue jeans, with boots, quite casual. Renesmee thought he looked so sexy. She hadn't realised what she had been missing out on all these years.

"Hey," he said.

"Hi."

"You wanna come in?"

Renesmee smiled. "Yea, thanks."

He stepped back and opened the door wide to let her in. He led her into the spacious living room. She sat herself down on the long, luxurious couch.

"So," Jacob started, "What are you doing here?"

"I came to say goodbye." She gazed at him with remorse filled eyes.

"Then say it!" he snapped. "Say goodbye, then go leave for New York!"

Renesmee looked taken aback. Tears started forming in her eyes and making their way down her cheeks. "Jake-" she sputtered, "I'm so sorry. You don't know what I'm going through. I need to do this."

"What do you mean. You need to do this?"

She was just about to tell him, until he stopped her.

"Never mind. Look, I'm sorry for snapping, it's just ... i'll miss you."

"I'm gonna miss you too." She said.

They stared at each other for a while before Jacob started a new conversation.

"So marriage," he started, "You know it's a huge commitment, and you're very young."

"I'm not that young Jake."

"Still, you're young."

Renesmee inhaled. "Jake, I want you to come. Please?"

He breathed in deep. "I can't, and you know I can't."

"Yes you can, you're just being selfish."

"No you're being selfish for asking me."

Another awkward silence.

"I'm sorry, again," Jacob said.

"Me too."

Renesmee took his hand and led him to the couch she was sitting on. She angled herself to face him. "Jake, I love you. Not just as friends, but something more. I always have, always will. But I can't be with you." She rubbed his hand soothingly. "Apart from tonight."

Jacob raised an eyebrow, intrigued.

"I know you don't want to be the other man, but you could be the better one. Nahuel is away to New York early finishing some business, and I thought this would be a good opportunity for us to be together. One Night Only. And I know that you and I want more than that, but that's all that can happen for now, okay."

Jacob nodded, starstruck. Was she saying what he thought she was saying? Was he gonna get a bit lucky tonight with the woman of his dreams?

"So, what do you say?"

"Yes."

"Great."

Renesmee smiled and leaned in. She stopped just before she reached his mouth, wanting him to come the rest of the way. And he did. He crushed his lips to hers, definitely forcefully, like Nahuel's, but more tender, romantic, gentle. They continued kissing passionately for a while each having to stop to catch their breath. It was long before Jacob lost control, and his hands started roaming her body. Pressing on her breasts, squeezing her thigh. In return, Renesmee moaned his name, and silly, little nothings in his ear. This made his now fast growing erection throb. He wanted her so badly, as she wanted him. He gripped her thighs and lifted her up, as she continued to kiss his neck and suck on it. He brought her to his bedroom, and dimmed the lights.
It was fast approaching nine o'clock at night, and Jacob was determined to make this last, till the very last minute. He laid her on the bed and slowly peeled her clothing off of her. He kept peeling until he was left with an angel in black, lacy underwear. He was about to proceed until Renesmee got up on her knees, pulled the waist band of his jeans towards her, then slowly undid his belt, trying to get a reaction out of him. It work as he yanked off his jeans and t shirt leaving him in his boxers.

Renesmee giggled.

"What?" Jacob said, confused.

"You forgot the shoes."

Jacob looked to his feet and hers and realised she was right. He chuckled then slid both of their shoes off. He leant back in to her and they continued what they were doing before. He tugged on her panties and ripped them off, Renesmee gasped at the feeling. He roped his arms around her back and unhooked her bra. As he took it off he studied her body.
Everything was perfect. Just the way god intended it to be. Her breasts were plump and her nipples were hard. He had forgotten the effect he had on her. He rubbed her breasts and circled his thumbs around her nipples. He leant down again and kissed her passionately. He reached for his boxers to take them off, but found nothing but his skin. While he had been studying her, she had been sneaky enough to pull down the waist band of his undergarments and slide them down to his knees.

"How did you?" He started.

Renesmee smiled. "Talent."

Jacob chuckled and kicked off his boxers that were dangling on his knees. He crept up in between her legs and without permission shoved his throbbing member inside her. She screamed at the contact. It had been a while since she had last had sex. He started pounding himself in and out of her, slamming as hard as he could. He didn't waste time. It had been so long since he had had Nessie like this, and he wasn't going to regret it. With every thrust she either moaned or gasped. So it didn't take long for her to reach her orgasm. And when she hit it, Jacob wasn't far behind. She screamed his name as she hit it and then went limp in his arms. He kept thrusting until he flooded inside of her. He moaned her name, and slid out of her, laying down beside her.

"Oh my god!" He breathed.

"Mmm."

"I think that is the best sex I have ever had," he stated.

"No," she said while propping her elbows on top of his chest gently. "Remember that one time, the week before my birthday, and Billy was away with Grandpa Charlie fishing for the weekend, and you thought since you had the house to yourself that you would give me an early birthday present."

Jacob frowned, pretending to think about what she was talking about.

"Ugh, you know," she said, " you placed all those candles around your room, made a special meal, and a bath. It was the best sex, and bath that I had ever had."

"Ahh yes, it was."

The next morning Renesmee Cullen woke up to warm arms wrapped around her waist, and a chin resting where her neck meets her shoulder. Wrapped up in his warm embrace she felt at home, comfortable, protected. She couldn't help feeling that this was where she belonged. It was going to be hell to leave him, and say goodbye, but she had to. It frustrated her. Why couldn't she be happy? Why couldn't Nahuel go piss off and ruin some other girl's life? Except, Renesmee didn't want anyone else to feel like this. She wouldn't want even her worst enemy to feel this way. The guilt, hurt, betrayal. It was torture, and Nahuel was the source.
She had to admit it to herself, he controlled her now. He could do anything he wanted to do. And that scared the shit out of her.

She was woken out of her day dream by Jacob saying her name.

"Nessie..." he squeezed her tighter, " Nessie don't leave me..."

She turned to face him, he was asleep. She put her hand on his cheek and whispered. "I'm here Jake, I'm here."

"Nessie! Ness!"

'Jacob, I'm here."

He woke with a start and stared into her eyes. He let out a long, deep breath. "I thought ... I mean I dreamt ... but, you were gone. Weren't you?"

"Jake it was just a dream."

"More like a nightmare," he grumbled.

She rubbed his cheek soothingly. "Well, that nightmare is about to become a reality."

"No Ness! Last night changed things, okay?" He shook his head in disbelief.

"I'm sorry Jake, but I told you, it was just for one night only. And you don't want to be the other man, do you?"

He let out an evil laugh. "I'm not the other man, he is." He exaggerated the "he", while glaring at the wall.

"Jake, please don't do this, let's depart on a good note. Besides, I have to be at the airport in ..." she looked at the clock on the dresser, " ... three hours."

He exhaled deeply. "Fine."

"Good."

She kissed his cheek and then slipped out of bed taking one of his t shirts and a pair of boxers, tightening them at the waist so they would fit. Jacob got up and took a look at her, a confused expression on his face.

"What are you wearing?" He asked.

"Your clothes."

"Why?"

"Because you ripped my panties Jake, I can't go comando."

Jacob raised his hands in the air in defence. "No one said you didn't," he smirked and sauntered into the bathroom, butt naked.

Renesmee giggled. Some of the traits that she loved about him was his funniness and the fact that he was laid back.
She scurried into the kitchen and started making breakfast, guessing where everything was stored. As she was flipping the sixth pancake, Seth walked in and whistled. The pancake she flipped hit the ceiling and she dropped the pan.

"SHIT!"

Seth ran to her. "Are you okay Nessie? I'm so sorry I didn't mean to scare you."

His face looked really apologetic.

"It fine Seth," she said while picking up the pan and washing the floor with a damp cloth, "you just scared me, that's all."

"Once again, sorry." He said, taking a seat on the island table. "Why you here this early- Oh My God! You and Jake did the dirty!"

"Oh shut up Seth!"

"What? It's not my problem. And you're engaged. Ooooo, Nahuel won't like that!"

Renesmee shot him a death glare, while continuing with making more pancakes. "He isn't going to find out."

"Fine. I get it. I won't tell anyone. But just to warn you, you reek of sex!"

"Shut up Seth!" It was Jacob this time. "What the fuck happened to my ceiling?'

"Nessie did it," Seth said and pointed at her in a childish way.

"No actually, Seth happened to scare the shit out of me while I was flipping a pancake, so if you're looking for the source of the problem, he's your guy."

Jacob looked at him. "Clean this up. Now."

Seth got to work while Jake came over and wrapped his arms around Renesmee and whispered.

"I know you're leaving, but, I love you."

"Hey mom, dad."

"Hey honey."

Renesmee had had the busiest morning. She had made breakfast for Jacob and Seth, had another sexual interaction with Jacob, drove home and washed, got Jacob to pick her up and leave her to the airport, and now she was saying goodbye to her family, and the guy who she truly loved.

Bella was hugging her repeatedly. Every embrace became tighter and tighter.

"Mom, you need to stop squeezing me. It's not for forever, I'll be back for Christmas."

"I know," Bella said. "I'm just gonna really miss you."

"I know."

Renesmee embracd and said goodbye to the rest of her family members, and was ready to leave before she remembered.

"Jake? Where is Jake?"

Bella and Edward looked to one another.

"He left when you were saying goodbye to Rose and Emmett," Edward said.

"Oh, okay," Renesmee said, hurt in her voice. "Kay, well, I love you guys, and, bye."

And with that she entered the gate to where her plane would soon be boarding. Ready to go back to the life she had been living for the past four years.

"Goodbye Forks."

A/N: Hope you enjoyed that!

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