AN: Guys... I know it's been awhile... Sorry 'bout that... But I hope you enjoy this! I know it's rather short and choppy, but I feel like that's how she'd be feeling, so... On with the show!
Book 1 Chapter 10
I don't understand.
Why won't I let myself be with him?
Why won't he give himself to me, and only me?
He says he loves me, has always loved me, but if that's true why does he sleep with so many women?
Why does it hurt so badly?
Why can't he forget about me?
Why can't I forget about him?
I got up this morning feeling like absolute shit.
I guess that's what happens when you lose the one you love.
Scratch that- push away the one you love.
I try to tell myself that I'll get over it, but… Maybe he's right. Maybe I do need him.
It's been so long… 3 weeks, 4 days, and 2.9 hours to be exact.
Not that I'm counting or anything.
How have I gotten through the day, you ask? I don't. I push through, only speaking to him as needed. I try to keep a cool, aloof front, but every time I see those deep brown eyes boring into mine… I melt. I can't handle it. He looks so hurt, so distraught. I know he loves me… but I can't let myself be with him. I don't know why; I guess there's just too many feelings that I don't want to have to deal with... so much pain and sorrow.
How ironic. Pain and sorrow with him, and without him.
So… what do I do now?
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