"Go away I have nothing to say to you," I said as rolled over and pushed my face into the pillow.

"Kiddo, I know you're mad, but what James was doing was wrong," she said as I stayed face down in the pillow. "Part of you knows that he having sex with you was wrong," she said. I knew I needed to respond, but I didn't know how. I didn't know if I could trust her like I use to. I went with my first instinct and that was to lie.

"I never had sex with him," I said. "I have had sex with Edward, I won't deny that, but I never did with James." I turned my head to look at her and I could tell she was mad.

"Bella, I walked into the room that I shared with James and saw him on top of you. You remember that don't you?" she asked, I didn't say anything. "I know you remember," she said coaxing me to say something.

"No I don't," I said as she stood up.

"Bella, people are going to find out very soon. This case has made national news! Of course yours and Edward's identities have not been released. I will do anything to protect the both of you." I couldn't help but to laugh at her.

"You are so fucking stupid! You were never home! You know nothing! I love Edward and James with all of my heart." I needed to breathe. "Vicki, what is this proof that everyone is talking about?"

"I need you to remember that everything I did was to protect you..."

"What did you do?" I asked getting off the bed.

"Ohmygod Sweetie! I had sssooo...what the fuck?" Edward asked walking into our room. He looked all sweaty and sexy, but I was too pissed to appreciate it.

"Answer my question," I said taking a deep breath.

"I planted bugs, in the house," she said. "The last month...they know everything from the spanking to the sex between all of you. Nothing can be done about Edward now, because even though he is a minor he is old enough to give consent to have sex..."

"So it's all on me," I said as I slapped Edward's hand away.

"Vicki, I think you need to leave. You are nothing but a fucking white trash whore who likes to cause drama. I fucking loath you," Edward sneered. I couldn't take anymore so I took off running. I headed out the bedroom door, down the stairs, rounded the corner to the basement. I needed something to keep my mind busy, I needed something in my control and Alice's closet was calling my name.

"Hey Bella," Alice said when I busted through her door.

"I need to clean. I don't want to talk, I just need to clean," I said as I went to her closet.

"Everything is going to be okay," she said to me, which was when the tears came.

"No it's not, my life is falling apart and I have no control, I never have control," I whispered as I started to sort through her shoes, she had a lot of them. Alice stayed quiet, but I could feel her staring at me. After a while my tears subsided and I was so thirsty. I was starting to think that Alice was a mind reader.

"I'm going to grab a drink, do you want one?"

"Yes please," I said. When I was done with her shoes I pulled everything out from the bottom of the closet. She had a great closet. It had several shelves and the bottom was lined with a shoe rack.

"Here ya go," Alice said handing me a bottle of water. "Dinner's done."

"I'm not hungry," I said to her. "Is all of this stuff dirty?"

"No, nothing is dirty," she said as I nodded my head and started folding and laying out clothes to see what I was working with. "Do you want to talk?"

"There really isn't anything to talk about. The only man I ever thought of as my father is probably going to jail because of me. You don't know how that feels. I love James and he never abused me. So, yeah, this all sucks pretty bad," I said as I took hangers out of the closet.

"I can't imagine what you are going through. Just so you know, if you ever need to talk I would never tell anyone anything you say," she said with a small smile.

"That's really nice of you, but how do I know I can trust you?"

"Sometimes you just have to give people a chance," she said. I knew she was right.

"Maybe tomorrow we can talk, ya know, when Edward's not here," I said as her eyes lit up.

"That would be awesome. I swear to you I will never say anything," she said. "I'm going to eat, you sure you don't want to come?"

"No, I'm too upset, but I do feel better. Maybe I will be up in a little while," I said as she nodded her head in understanding and left me with a wonderful mess and quiet. Maybe I would talk to Alice, everyone needed someone right?

EPOV

I was livid and my whole body was shaking. The thing was...was that I didn't know what I was madder about. Was I more mad because Vicki is a nosy bitch and she is going to be putting Bella through hell, or was it that people knew that I have had sex with a man. I was sick to my stomach. The world was going to know that I allowed James to fuck my ass, mouth, and I french kissed him on a daily bases. I just had to hope that word didn't get around school. Poor Bella, this was going to be so hard for her, but part of me was happy that we were away from James.

I really started questioning the lifestyle that I was brought up with, about a year ago. I hated watching Bella kiss, suck, or fuck James. She was mine, and I was so in love with her. I hated when Bella and I would be together and James would come in and watch. I started to hate when James would tell me that I would be sleeping in his bed at night. I hated that I would get off when he would have sex with me or vice a versa.

I was lost and I didn't know what to do. I knew I needed to give Bella space. I knew I needed a shower, and I knew that Vicki needed to be out of this house before Bella reappeared. I wiped the tears that I didn't know had fallen and headed out of the bedroom. When I reached the kitchen I saw Esme and Vicki drinking tea.

"Esme, I know this is your house, but I really think that Vicki needs to leave before Bella sees her again. She trusted you Vick, you betrayed her trust." I watched as Vicki stood and walked over to me.

"Edward, I know you know it was wrong. A few weeks ago, when I was home, I saw your face when James kissed Bells, you looked pissed, sick, and disgusted. You hated it because you knew it was wrong," she said as I looked anywhere but at her. "I'm not sorry," she said as she turned to Esme and said her good byes.

"Are you okay?" Esme asked. I couldn't swallow the lump in my throat any longer and the tears spilled over.

"I'm a horrible person," I said as I choked out a sob. "I have doubted my upbringing for about a year, and I kept my mouth shut. Am I gay?" I asked Esme. "Don't answer that, I shouldn't be talking to you. Please don't tell Emmett any of this. I really like football, and I don't want anyone knowing anything," I begged.

"No one needs to know anything," I heard Emmett say.

"Fuck my life," I said as I headed for the stairs.

"Dude, I'm not stupid, I know you have been hurt," Emmett said grabbing my arm. "No one will know. I give you my word," he said as I stared at him. "I'm here if you need to talk." I didn't say anything. I went up to my room and jumped into the shower. I got the water as hot as I could and scrubbed my body. I found myself doing this more often than none. I knew I needed to talk to Bella about my feelings, I just didn't know how.

"Edward?" I heard Emmett say as I pulled on my shorts.

"You can come in," I said.

"Mom sent me up here to tell you dinner was done," he said.

"Kay, I'll be right down. Has Bella come out of Alice's room yet?"

"How'd you know where she was?"

"She was extremely upset, she needed to clean something," I said as we both chuckled.

"Nah, she's still in there. Alice said she wasn't hungry," he told me.

"I'll go get her. Tell your parents that we will be right there," I said as he headed down the stairs. "Alice, is it okay if I go in your room to talk to Bella?" I asked her when we arrived in the kitchen.

"Of course. Just so you know, she hasn't eaten anything since lunch," she told me.

"Thanks," I said taking a deep breath and headed to Alice's room. The door was already opened, so I stood in the doorway and watched my girl work her magic.

"I'm not hungry, please don't make me eat," she said without looking up.

"You need to eat, Baby," I said as I walked over to her, and sat on the floor with her.

"If I eat I'm going to be sick," she said still not looking at me. I gently took a hold of her chin and turned her face to look at me.

"You can work on this more tomorrow. Have you done your homework?"

"No. I'll go do that now," she said as she tried to get up. I held her waist and pulled her into a hug. I felt some of the tension leave her body.

"You need to eat," I said again and she sighed.

"I hate Vicki."

"I know."

"Why aren't you upset?"

"I am, but we can talk later okay? Let's go eat."

"How was practice?"

"Amazing. I love it Baby, I can't wait for the first game that I can play in," I told her as she finally smiled at me.

"I can't wait to watch." She leaned in a kissed my lips, I loved her kisses. "Promise we can talk before bed?"

"Promise. I love you for everyday of forever."

"And I will love you for one more day after that," she said as I chuckled at her. I knew I needed to talk to her, and I loved her enough to tell her what I was feeling. She was the only person that I was ever going to trust for the rest of my life.