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It's been just over a week since the Pierce family took me in and I have to admit, things have been going well. Mrs P wanted me to go and talk to someone but I refused. I promised that I would talk to Brittany and Quinn about what I'm feeling, or when I start to feel sad, they're really helping me. I went back to school yesterday. It seems that that freak Jacob Ben Isreal has outed me on his blog. Apparently the scene at my parent's house caught people's attention. The best part about it is I couldn't care less anymore. Sure sometimes I feel self-conscious and hate myself but once you lose your family, nothing really seems to compare. So I'm getting on with it. Sue pulled me into her office as soon as she learned that I was back in school. I expected a brutal lecture filled with insults, but instead, she made my life easier. I still remember it so clearly in my head.
2 days ago
"Santana" Becky Jackson approached me at my locker and gave me a smile "Coach Sue wants to talk to you in her office. She said come now"
"Wanky" I smirked and rolled my eyes as I began to follow Becky towards Coach Sylvester's office. When I entered, Sue was sat behind her desk looking slightly sheepish.
"That's all Becky, thank you" and with that Becky left the room, closing the door behind her. "Hi, sandb…Santana"
I looked up at Sue, surprised that she was calling me by my name; her eyes met mine.
"Santana, I know everything that's happened, and even though I think you were stupid about trying to take your own life, I understand why you did. I just want you to know that I'm sorry. I've been your cheer coach for so long, I should have known there was something up in your life. Especially when you quit the team. I apologize. Sue looked at me, with sincere eyes and I genuinely believed every word she said to me.
"Look coach, I really appreciate the apology, but there's nothing you could have done. I was messed up back then. I still am, but I'm managing. Well, managing better than I was anyway; and no offence. But why am I here? I'm not your responsibility anymore" I looked down, surprised at myself for admitting that I was a mess to non other that Sue Sylvester.
"Well that's what I wanted to talk to you about. I wanted to offer you a place back on the Cheerio's. You and airhead…I mean, Brittany. If you want to, that is"
I felt my heart leap in my chest at those words, but why? I hated being a Cheerio, didn't I? No. That's a lie. I LOVED being a Cheerio. I was good at it and people treated you like royalty. My heart then sank; people treated you like royalty because you were flawless. Now thanks to Jacob, the whole school knows I'm a lesbian. No one will care if I'm a Cheerio they'll still hate me! And what about the other girls on the team? They will never accept me back. Not when they have to worry about me looking at them in the dressing rooms... My thoughts are interrupted by Sue's voice
"Santana, did you hear me? I asked how you felt about becoming a Cheerio again. What do you say?" I could feel my eyes beginning to water, it's only now I realise how much I actually love to cheer. Yes I always slag it off and say I hate it, but that was only because I couldn't hide my cuts; but thanks to Britt, I don't need to hide them anymore, they've healed and although they've scarred, no new ones were made. And I'm going to keep it that way.
"Look coach, I miss being a Cheerio, I really do, believe it or not, I actually love to cheer; but there is no way on earth the others are going to welcome me back. Not now, especially since Jacob…
"Look Santana, I know all about that pathetic worm Jacob and what he's written about you. And I also know that what he's written is true so let me ask you something. Why do you think no one has approached you asking if it's true? I'll tell you. One, because you still put the fear of god into everyone in this school. Teachers included. And Two. You and Brittany were never subtle. Everyone already knew, or at least had their suspicions. Nobody is shocked by this, it's old news. Also, If one girl on my team says one thing to you about your sexuality they will be off the Cheerio's before I even let them try to explain" I looked at coach slightly shocked, and even though I want to, I'm still self conscious; not just about my sexuality but about my scars. I know I said they've healed, and you can't really notice them unless you're looking for them, but what if people noticed? What if we were at a competition and the judges saw them? Then what?
"Coach. What about…" I pull my sleeve further down and look at my arm, hoping that she won't make me say it aloud.
"Look sandbags" she smiles at me, using my old nickname in light humour. "I already told you I know everything, and from what Quinn and Brittany have told me, you can't even notice them. So please, just accept my offer" Britt and Quinn? I should have known. I smile to myself thinking about how much they're trying to help me.
"Well, if Britt's and Quinn can both come back. I will too"
"Well then! It's just as well that both of them have signed my contracts! Brittany signed hers in crayon but it still counts! So…" sue then produced a contract from beside her and pushed it in front of me. "Sign away sandbags! You and airhead will be co-captains to stretch marks!" I can't help but smile; the unholy trinity will be back walking the halls off McKinley high and I truly believe that I will be able to be happy. Eventually anyway. I still cry most nights, but if my school life can improve, I'm sure the rest will follow in time.
"Thank you, coach Sylvester. Really, for everything" I shoot her a smile and get up from my seat and head towards the door.
"And Santana? I know that you've been talking to Brittany and Quinn, and that's it's really helping you, but just know that I'm here too. I respect you; Santana and I care about you. I'm so sorry about what your family did, but it will get better I promise you. Just make sure you work towards the best possible life for yourself, and if they eventually come crawling back, you make sure you let them know how well you did without them. I'm not saying to not forgive them if they come back to you, but I just hope you can let them know how much they hurt you, and I hope they live with the guilt of it forever" She walks from behind her desk, puts a hand on my shoulder and smiles. "Now get out of my office sandbags" and I do, I walk straight towards the choir room and sit down, smiling to myself. I've already missed most of first period so I just wait in here thinking, until I hear the bell.
Present day
"BRITT! Come on we're going to be late for practice and Q's gunna be pissed if we keep her waiting any longer!" Just as I say it I feel my phone buzz with an angry message from Quinn.
Santana, It would be MUCH appreciated if your horny self would stop having sex with B when we're meant to be on our way to practice! I swear to god if I come up and you're still in bed I won't give you guys a ride any more! SO HURRY UP!
"Brittttttttt, Q's pissed, she's severely lacking coffee and she thinks we're having sex instead of getting ready" arms then wrapped around my waist from behind and I could feel her breath on the back of my neck.
"Well last time she thought that she was right. She even came to watch, I say we skip practice today and have our own little work out right here…"
I could feel her hands wandering over my chest, my breath picked up and I turned around, planting a kiss onto her lips. It doesn't take much for her to turn me on. I press her against the foot of the bed, deepening the kiss; I can feel her hands creeping under my Cheerio's skirt.
"ARE YOU REALLY, DOING THIS NOW?" we broke apart so fast, thinking it was Mrs Pierce who was witnessing our make out session, but it was worse. Quinn stood in the doorway looking angry. Busted.
"Why are you looking so flustered Q? See something you like?" I teased. Whenever I say things like this she always gets super awkward. The look on her face now is priceless. I think I actually heard a growl come from Quinn as I let out a giggle.
"Whatever lets go guys, coach sue will make us do laps if we're late!" she storms out of the room and down the stairs. I feel Brittany take my hand.
"You know san, I think Q has potential. I think she'd be up for some sweet lady kisses with us!" I looked at Britt's and realised she was deadly serious.
"You know what Britt Britt? I bed we could get her to join us one day"
"How about tonight? Pleasseeee sanny! It would be sooo hot! My parents are going away for the weekend so it would be totally perfect!
"You know what Britt? It would be hot, lets invite her. I wonder how long it'll take her to give into both of us" I smirked thinking of how flustered it would make Quinn. Tonight was going to be interesting. I kissed Brittany on the cheek and pulled her towards the door.
"Come on Britt, we'd better not keep Quinny waiting"