Through all of my devastatingly stupid mistakes, I can't help but to feel like this is one of them even if it is supposed to bring me closer to Cory. Yeah, Sam is dead sexy and a hellion in the bedroom, but my god what the hell have I gotten into now? Anyone who's ever met Sam would have noticed the exact same thing I did, he was being . . . more human?

Every action I've ever seen him make was cold and calculated to the last detail, but tonight he definitely gave off a kind of different feeling. With him it's always been raw pure lust shared between us, the rip my clothes off with your teeth kind and afterwards he either left me alone or pushed to the other side of the bed freezing in a literal sense, but tonight was different.

Not only did he say he wanted me, something unheard of from such a detached man, but when he touched me it was like a blind man seeing colors, completely different and it scared me beyond belief. If I was the average dysfunctional person who actually listened their psychiatrist, I would be told that his previous behavior was unhealthy mental abuse and I would need to cut it off with him. Unfortunately I never gave two shits either way.

But now, I'm really debating on what to do in such an odd yet frightening situation. Every situation I can think of is highly bad and will somehow screw me over even more than I already am. This puts me back at blaming myself for my stupidity in even accepting such a situation and letting him in my pants. I feel like such a stupid, stupid whore.

Right now it's a little hard to think considering he's got an iron grip around my waist and has securely pressed my face into his chest, almost suffocating the life out of me. So now I have three options currently available to me.

1.) Concentrate hard enough and put him into a coma, rummage through his belongings and files for information, then steal his car.

2.) Wait until he wakes up to speak to him and probably die of suffocation or fall into some sick trap he's laid.

3.) Wake him up now, have sex again, regroup.

This is definitely turning out to be a harder spot than I thought . . .

Well, actually, maybe I can put him into a deep enough sleep to tie him down to the bed and torture him for any answers... That's not a good idea though, I'm feeling a little queasy right now from sleeping with a possible enemy even though the regrouping idea sounds really nice.

His chest rumbled and vibrated as he spoke, "You're not asleep."

"And apparently you aren't either sunshine. I don't sleep," pausing I turned my head up to look him in the face, "I'd expect you to at least know that if you had any idea about Cory."

This whole time his eyes had been closed, when he opened them he looked down at me with a slight sadness "Can we talk about this in a little while? I'm naked and hungry with you in my bed and even though I know it's highly important to you, this is just not the right time. At least let me have some pants on."

Sighing he pulled the covers up over my shoulders and tangled his legs with mine, causing me to furrow my eyebrows. Questions locked away inside my head were now stabbing at my nerves and begging to be released.

"Why . . . ," my voice stopped slightly and I dryly swallowed despite my cottonmouth, "Why are you acting like this Sam? Don't deny it or try to avoid it. You've always been distant and completely cut off."

For a while I thought he might have seriously fallen asleep in attempts to avoid it, but then I felt him kiss my forehead letting his lips linger there for a while. The silence was getting to me until he replied, "You must understand that you are far more precious and rare to them then you think. Everyone wants to get their grimy hands on you for one reason or another. That's where I come in."

My raw fingers dug into his back and gripped him slightly harder then intended, but he continued with only a glance downward "Originally I was supposed to be watching you and keeping anything really bad from getting a hold of you. As far as we've been concerned there has always been the Gray against whoever thinks they're higher than the other scum out there, but there is someone else who's been doing our work for us lately."

"Listen Charlie, I never chose to be so cruel to you it was strictly orders from above, but after today you need to leave and get the hell out of dodge. I'll arrange to find someone who will take you in away from here. Berlin sounds good? Don't worry. We'll find Cory."

Slowly I unlocked him from around me and sat up turning to face the other wall, "You out of all people should know that I never take orders and I don't let others do my dirty work."